speak it again and i swear you'll die.
Well I told you today would be bad! I did! It went all sour and yucky and gross..

It started out fine. We left early for some reason.. and got there and Danny was still out in the lot. Talked with him a bit then walked in with him and Allison. A belated gift from Jenn. It was really nice. Sweet of her. Hugs to belated birthday kids. A hello from some unexpected people.

Allison and Kristen are now in my math class, that's cool.

The bad started here with grades though. I swear if I hear one more comment about how my grades are doing and the like..

English was a disappointment. I did deserve better on that first essay. I'm the only one in the freaking class who understood what Mairs was really saying!!! Hmph.

Don't talk to me about history. If he fucking gives me two C's because he's mad I went to Japan the screw him!! I need to try harder anyway. Wait.. harder? You mean I try at all?? Since when?! Don't talk to me about this exam.

Natalia and Ruth join us along with Tom and a bunch of other people. Now we have a big class. He hates big classes. Lunch was fun. Thanks to Kyu for the pictures! I look horrible in them but what can I do? Eh.....

The way back from lunch just made the whole day collapse. He's the one who didn't try in trig. I get hit with the punishment. He didn't seem to care about the transfer. I must really freak out his girlfriend.. sorry about that! But.. now two of them are gone. Who else do I go there for now?!?! Screw it all.

Band was.. empty I guess. Lerner talked for over an hour about rules and stupid stuff. Then we got the rest off for fun. I love that time. But me and Leah worked on our duet. I really drag her down but eh. Got 2 or 3 pages pretty much learned.

Yes, Gilbert is coming back. Hopefully it's a good thing. Yes, we will be good and I'll have less responsibility. Stressful though. Beyond what you can imagine. Don't talk to me about this please..

A real hug is too much to ask? An actually caring and just-for-me hug is too much to ask. Later then.

Haven't had a will to do much once I got home. Had to blare the music to feel a bit better. Read pretty much the whole first section of the Zen book. I find it pretty interesting.. except for the parts at the end I skipped. Heh.

If you don't back the hell off me then you won't ever know ANYTHING about my work EVER again. Don't ask for my grades. Don't tell me not to let them slip. Get over that grade for one test and look at the cummulative grades. Yes, those would be A's. Forget the D's. SHUT UP! -.-

Late at night and there's little will for anything. Sleeping till I don't- no, not here.

Told Krystle I'd be in bed by 12.. but Katie hasn't even gotten ready for bed! Ah well, maybe another go at Deadly Dice for the av at 3 am. HEHEHE


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A huge thank you to king for getting me that!

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An even bigger thank you to enchantress for this one!! I even got a trophy for it!!


SmarterChild: Here's the Scorpio horoscope for Saturday, January 3rd, provided by Astrology.com:

You're a consummate expert in some fields and a hopeless disaster in others. It's only natural to judge people, but it's wise to keep those judgments to yourself. Many things are acceptable in the name of fun.


I've been thinking recently about what I'll do when I grow up. (Yes, I still use that phrase even when I ask other people.) I always had a knack for talking with someone, and being able to guess what they would most likely become when they were older. I'll be looking you guys up when the time comes to see if I'm right. ^.^

So.. I've realized it's changed slightly from what it used to be. I'm still very much interested in animals. I love them. But.. I've also realized that with my thing with being able to somewhat feel pain that's not my own I wouldn't be able to really help them...
I never really wanted to be a vet.. I think I drifted more toward the zoo keeper/something to do with raising orphaned baby animals and such. I'd really love that. But.. I don't think I see that happening. *sigh*

I know I want to be a wife. And a mother. Maybe two kids or so. Three seems a bit much and one doesn't work for me I guess.

Someone asked today if I was an investigator or a lawyer.. since I had tracked them down with only a few clues to ask them to play Math's Nightmare for me. *points above* I'd never be a lawyer.. But an investigator.. I'm observant and all.. and the actual point that I was the only one that put it all together to find her makes me wonder..

Another person asked me yesterday what I wanted to do. He said I'd make a good soldier. I told him I hated the military. Especially the army with a fear of the navy. (I completely support our troops in all that they do and give them everything in gratitude for their sacrifices and bravery.) But I had to think.. I would make a good soldier... Not for the listening to orders and other crap. Since we all know how well I take certain kinds of authority.. But the whole reflexes and skills and observation and adaption stuff..

That leads to what I've seen for myself in the future. I don't like to share what I see people being.. but eh. I'm seeing investigation/undercover type work. In the political circuit if ya know what I mean. Not sure though.

-.-

Yeah.

Catch that Pant Devil!! He's stealing dreams!!
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As of 3.. yesterday morning. W00T!!! I'll get hounded over that one. Like this post:

something_strange
02:40PM
01/01/2004 " Re: oh ok... "
uffy has all the good pets! the lupe, the mootix pet...

Another rush of new friends.... or they want something from me. HMMMM What could they want?

It seems I decide who gets the werelupe out of 3. And believe me.. when the owner and the 'next in line' first caught me with the pet they were beyond shocked! It was sorta funny..

Two new friends got temporarily frozen. Paint and Josie. Paint is the owner of the mootix pet.. who got his back before the freezing... (yes people won't be happy that I was the last to get it).. and who gave me the werelupe.. he's pretty cool. And Josie was to get the werelupe next.

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Yet again..

And lastly it seems king has agreed to get me the MAGAX avatar. The 4th of 5 to mail him within 3 minutes of the new year. Geez. So that should be good. Paint convinced me I could trust him.

No, no one has to understand my dribble from Neopets.


Saw my first episode of Cowboy Bebop... it was... strange. Kai's apparently obsessed with it. (Which reminds me.. talked to Cass yesterday morning too.. It's a big deal. She said thanks for the email I sent her. I was afraid I had overstepped something when I wrote her. I usually feel that way with what I write her.) And I saw the last 10 minutes of my first Inuyasha episode! Also strange.. but they're both highly acclaimed animes.

What else... Randomly not feeling well. Food doesn't seem to appeal to me.. sick at the thought. I'm spending my days on Neo, that's why it's all I have to talk about.

Tomorrow I'm going to the soup kitchen for my first time. Yep.

Umm.. Happy First of the Year!

*confetti and balloons* Let's celebrate!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!


At exactly 9:04 pm.. yesterday, I did my first prank phone call!! MUAHAHAHAHA

It wasn't much.. It for my sister. They were messing with a friend and wanted me to call and ask for someone who didn't live there for the 2nd time (someone else called first). But since it was the 2nd time it went much more into it.. 'He's not here..' 'Will he be back anytime soon?' 'I mean wrong number.' 'Oh! Sorry.. Heh. Thanks! Bye!' *click* SO FUNNY!! ^^;;


So, there'll probably be a Neopian War 5 or so over this mootix I've got.. Somehow buca found out I had it! No idea how.. and that was the first neomail I got.. first of many. About 5 people from the guild mailed me for it, even though they knew it wasn't mine. This one was particularly interesting.. enjoy!


Whenever your on neomail me...*drools at st0opidness*

^^;;; Hi count..

betting your not abandoning st0opindness right?because you already abandoned?(i think you did anyway...lol)

Nope! I haven't abandoned yet, paint wants the pet back tonight. What, was it announced that I had gotten it?

no i looked it up...lol...i am gonna go ask paint if you can transfer it directly to me...

LOL Then everyone looked it up I guess? You're free to do so.. I doubt he'll like that idea.. but eh. As far as I know he has 2 more people set for it next..

i dont think he is on anymore

I believe he signed off, yeah.

psss...could you know...transfer it to me in secret...lol

HAHAHA Believe me, I know how much you must want this avatar.. but I can't risk the evil darkness of paint! I'm afraid to even think of what evilness he'd do... *runs to hide again*

I could abandon it,you could adopt it and lie and said you disabandoned a...different pet?

oO;; Deary me, sorry I really can't. I'm sure you'll get a turn for it shortly. Hang around the guild board at midnight NST for a few days.. and you have AIM so that's a plus, that already puts you ahead of others who really want it.

I AM NEVER GONNA GET THE DARN THING!*gets his pistol out...*

EEP!!! *runs to hide elsewhere* Yes you will! I told myself I had absolutely no chance and I got it! Just keep stalking the board at midnight each night!

*bangs head against wall 5 million times*

AWW *tacklehug* oo;; You'll get it!! Just don't tick paint off and hold out for that right moment!

*pulls trigger while it faces his chest(with his crappy bulletproof armoour on*

AWWW So silly! You should not have firearms! *grabs gun*

lol Uffy...*grabs the gun back and aims it at uffy*put...the...pet...in...the...pound...lol

*takes out his magnetic to count's hands Uzi*Now please put the lenny in and no one gets hurt

Now where do you get these things?! *puts the lenny in front of herself* Let's not be hasty now... I'm sure if there's a dead pet the petpetpet will leave!

good point...and i just imed paint and he said noones using it for a few days*takes it off his hand with his magical gloves*sorry if i was...errr...overacting a bit

*patpat and tosses the lenny back with her other pets* Umm... No problem.. lol! All in... safe.. fun.. oO;

safe fun? you could have been killed!

Aww... You wouldn't have pulled the trigger on me now would ya?

well i havent taken my medicine today...lol

Oh dear! Wait.. have I taken mine..? Hmm.. *dances* See what you did! Now I'm hyper! Near death experiences over a lenny always make me hyper!

*eats a snorkle snout*
Something has Happened!
Since you ate a snorkle snout,you don't get the avatar since you are a human!All you get is Lung Cancer!DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRNNNNNNNNNN IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HMMMM I gave my pet one of those! It gave me a totally different random event... something about being able to use something.. somewhere..
Lung cancer! That'll be horrible! I get your stuff when the cancer takes over! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

your soooooooo evil!

I sure am! I love all my avatars.. so sparkly and shiny... my preccccccioussssesss.. MUAHAHA


Scary huh? Hope you all enjoyed!


You are now eligible to use 'Suteks Tomb' as an avatar on the NeoBoards!
Permission to use it.. again. GO ME!


Someone's post:
when its 10 o clock here ill be talking to u guys from another year!

How freaky is that? I can't think about that.. Time is irrelevant anyway.

'I'm breaking the habit.. tonight.' (Linkin Park)
Good early morning to you all! To me it's still tuesday night. Wow.. wednesday.. Stupid break needs to slow down.

So I went out to the movies with Meredith and Krystle. That was fun. Meredith looks so grown up with the hair cut! lol It's cute. You all who haven't seen it yet will be surprised.

I liked the movie. There was definitely some mushy love stuff that could've been cut out but still, it was a pretty good movie.

The highlight of my day was after the movie though. Near midnight talks. I needed to talk. And I'm glad it was with you. Perhaps we can do it again sometime? I'd be happy. And I stand by everything I said. Pretty much.

Dad wasn't thrilled by my calling an hour later than I said and seemed suspicious but didn't push it. I guess things going on can be a good thing! Heh. No one was on the road so it was a cruise home.. about 5 minutes? MUAHAHAHA


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Bow at my greatness! HAHAHAHA I am SO THRILLED with this one!!! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

stealing dreams and wishes... find the Color Kids
Fun to alter the time so it's still the day you think it is.

Go to DragonSpeaker's journal to see a good summary of the day's activities.

The rest of my family headed off to buy my sister a nice Clavanova. Also known as a really high end keyboard. That's her Christmas gift. She's happy.

I had some fun today. Some comments made me just stop.. and some hurt.. But I get over it right? The movie varied between really cute to 'what the freak do they [Disney] think they're doing?!' to boring and stretched to a variety of others. We were loud and had fun. Sorry if I was annoying.

Things are coming back. I fight it, I really do.. but I see it coming and I know there's no way to stop it. It's numbing.. and cloudy.. Um yeah.

What else to say? Should I say this here? Why not.. Not like I'm in a very self-aware mood..

I feel like it again. Nothing new, really, but this time.. there's no one around..
You know why people call me a friend? Because I make them feel important. I pay attention when they try and say something. I laugh even slightly at a joke. I nod when they make a comment. When no one else acknowledges them. Thus they feel important and keep me around because they enjoy that feeling. Easily replaced. No? Only because you don't feel like going out and finding another person like me. Became something I swore I'd never do. Everyone must swear they'll never be a Yes-Person. Those people who agree to everything. Yeah, them. I'm sure special. Loved. Belong. Why the hell am I here?
[No offense to anyone.]

She's stopped talking again. Don't I expect it? Is that why I keep away for as long as possible? Two days and counting. Kai's either intimidated, really away, or.. yeah.

Where's my lazer bazooka so I can burn these demons?


Oh, and I believe this stuff'll be moving since this lovely mask is supposed to be happy.

Why do we do the things we do?
A Merry Christmas to everyone! Hope it finds everyone well and happy!

Yes yes, so the most popular question: What did you get for Christmas?

Well, personally I got 6 of the new My Little Ponys, 2 of the For Dummies books (photography and digital photography), those go with the new digital camera, some candy, a voice-activated Kacheek, some stamps, and a few other goodies.

You know, I had forgotten that Christmas only lasts for 20 minutes or so after all presents have been open and then it becomes the bonus clean-up-the-house-and-put-away-all-your-crap day. I did get to send out a nice holiday card to everyone though. If you didn't get it then I either have the wrong email address or no email address at all. I can still send you a late one if you let me know.

My family used to have traditions.. I love traditions.. I still have the traditions.. they're just in my world now. Maybe I should write them down in case I forget.. Though writing down pretty much ensures my forgetting.

Oh, if anyone is curious to see what it's like to be in a house without Christmas spirit on Christmas Eve or the entire day of Christmas you're welcome to stop by here. It'll at least be one of those days each year.. unless you're unlucky and catch a good moment.