So maybe this time, I'll speak the words of life, with your fire in my eyes, but that old familiar fear is tearing at my words. What am I afraid of?

 

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eddy

:: 2006 26 March :: 1.25am
:: Music: Silence, but the ringing of bowling sounds still in my head

Update
Wow. Tonight was another interesting night at work. Saw my first fight. Well, almost. There were 3 girls and 2 guys leaving through the door right next to where I was working, so I heard it all. Apparently the one guy looked at the other guy wrong. He was trying to go after him and his girlfriend was holding him off. The other girls and guy were egging him on. And the one guy, finally says to his girlfriend, "Do you love me?! Do you love me?!" And, quote of the night I swear, she proceeds to say, "Not right now, you're being gay!" And I didnt really see the end of it, but it was pretty funny. It was all I could do not to laugh over the burger I was frying.

Ugh, Im so hungry, but Im sick of cooking. You don't know how much will power it takes for me to get myself to make me some food, even without spending a day cooking for thousands of others. My feet and butt hurt T_T

Anyway, so I helped clear tables for the bar people and waitresses too, cuz they needed it. Saw Sandie tonight, haven't seen her in ages =) Funny that the first person that would see me at work is one I haven't seen in forever.

Danielle, a girl who works with me, reminds me of someone, almost like I've met her before, but I can't think of who it is. At first I thought my sister Danielle, but then the more I thought about it the more I thought that it wasn't her, but someone like her...or close to her...or something. But it bugs me, and I can't figure it out.

Had Stephen Lynch stuck in my head all day. Its odd to be cooking burgers with lyrics like "Oh to have two testies would be so nice!" going through my head =S

Got my first paycheck! $25 bucks! woo! lol. Thats cuz the first day I worked was last monday, and monday is like their last day of the week as far as paychecks, and so its like i got a check for one day. lol. This weeks will be tons better. It feels good to have some money just sitting around waiting for you to use it. My wallet actually has some weight to it, and it loves it XD

Tips today were really awesome. Had a party from Verizon wireless come in, they were a-holes.

Saw Kelso, gave him a hundred bucks to strip for me, but he just gave me a bunch of 5's back instead.

Umm....I have a feeling there was more I wanted to say, but I can't think of it right now =S Well, thats why I love the edit option, If I think of it later, I add it on. All in all, things are getting easier, I like that. =)

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stinko

:: 2006 25 March :: 6.55pm

the sky is absolutely gorgeous right now.
it starts with a light blue, which is swirled with pink and purple. a rich dark blue is melting into the top.

i want summer now.
i need to waste away days outdoors.
i need to take walks and forget about school for a while.
i need to ride a bike.
i need to figure out what is going on with all of the people i love.

i have lost touch with a lot of things/people i care about.

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Tails

:: 2006 24 March :: 7.04pm

Fucking GOD!!!

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tonyp.

:: 2006 24 March :: 5.29pm

if anyone has any questions about tattooing or piercings i have a new email for that, its

Freedom_Ink@hotmail.com


and if theres any one whos intrested in coming to a tattoo party let me know on woohu!!!

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swimfan14

:: 2006 24 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: calm


Dear Ashley,

I love you. You're perfect just the way you are, don't ever change for anyone. Not that you would anyway, haha ^_^ You're the best, don't ever forget it. So no matter what, (and you know what I mean) chin up, because someday, you're going to be somebody. Those who couldn't make the time for you now (and you know what I mean) will be kicking themselves when they see who you've become.

You're a star, babe. Let it shine.

<3 M

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stinko

:: 2006 24 March :: 12.26pm

i have just spent three hours by myself.
i did some homework.
i didn't speak to anyone.
i feel like a machine right now.
i need some human contact.
i am surrounded by people right now but i feel completely alone.

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Tails

:: 2006 24 March :: 3.52am
:: Music: Wilco - The Late Greats

In Deed The Snow Comes
So i was thinking about how things seem to add up in time.

But i dont want to wait anymore><

I'm impatience when it comes to making things work lol.

I want my money and i want my TOTAL freedom.

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eddy

:: 2006 23 March :: 10.01pm

Woo. Work tonight was....interesting heh.

First, I get there and the teachers bowl is going on. Crazy lights, loud music. Tons of fun. Then I look right in front of me...and there are teachers wearing skimpy loungerie(sp?), I mean...wayyyy gross. I feel sorry for the kids who have to be taught by these women. But anway, then I noticed some teachers from Cedar. Seeing teachers outside of school is just wierd. I saw maybe 5 or 6 of them. I only remember one name, which was Mr. Martens. Most of them were middle school teachers. Then Mr. Taylor came in later. So that gets over with and the leagers come in to do their stuff. One customer comes up to me and says "Hey beautiful, I need a pepsi!" Flattering, and yet oh so creepy. Thats the first time thats ever been said to me. So the rest of the night passes on rather smoothly. Oh, and this job rocks, because its one of the few I know where we get to pick on and make fun of the customers to their faces, as well as pick on and make fun of each other. Everyone there is awesome. Theres a guy Matt who works at the main counter, hes pretty awesome, and can't forget Kelso! Ugh! So hott. lol I've only got to work with him once so far though. Ummm....yeah anyway. So its about half an hour before I get out of there, and a guy who was bowling in the lane right in front of the counter comes back from bowling a frame, just super pissed. And he proceeds to knock over chairs and then kicks his bowling ball across the floor, which shoots back towards us and hits the counter. Aparently its not that uncommon for that to happen. People really get worked up over their bowling I guess. Then Connie and Danielle were telling me stories about all the fights they usually have on the weekends. I can't wait! lol. Drunk people are funny. The smoke really gets to me sometimes though, I get really nauseas. =S

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swimfan14

:: 2006 23 March :: 5.35pm


Cant you see?
There's a feeling that's come over me.
Close my eyes.
You're the only one who leaves me completely breathless.
No need to wonder why.
Sometimes a gift like this you can't deny.
I wanted to fly so you gave me your wings and time held it's breath so I could see, yeah you set me free.

When I was alone, you came around.
When I was down, you pulled me through.
There's nothing that I wouldn't do for you.


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eddy

:: 2006 22 March :: 5.23pm


Wow, its been a while. =) For those of you who don't yet know. I finally got a fricken job! I'm excited, and yet horribly depressed about it at the same time. lol. Worked two days so far. 5 to close. That takes a lot out of ya. Ill get used to it though. Its a lot of standing around, and everyone does everything, theres no assigned things. Work thursday and this saturday and sunday. Sat I probably won't get out until like 1:30 in the morning =S But a paycheck is a paycheck right?!?! Oh, heh. Forgot to mention where I worked. I work at Westgate bowling alley. $6 and hour plus tips, not to bad for starting out.

In other news, I "skipped" school today. Had Lynne call in. I needed a day to get myself caught up with my life. I needed to do laundry and I needed a nice long shower and a few extra hours of sleep. And I got it, and it feels great. Going work clothes shopping tonight with my mom. Need some pants. We can't wear blue denim and thats pretty much all I have. Ummm.....backstage pictures!!

......will be posted later because I just ran out to my car to get my camera and realised I left it at home =S

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tonyp.

:: 2006 21 March :: 6.24pm

is anyone intrested in getting small tattoos for free
not gaurenteeing them to be perfect. but come one its a FREE TATTOO
mabye thats not a good thing tho.
but i need people to help me out big time so it would be really nice for anyone to help.

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holiday

:: 2006 21 March :: 2.17pm

Holy crap. I had 4 tables at the Heritage today! It was crazy. I'm lucky to have everyone that helps me out. It gets really hectic.
Charlie and I are looking for houses now. I need to get a credit card soon. I'm angry I won't be able to get an ultrasound until 18 to 20 weeks. What is it with that? They don't do them unless something is wrong, but I'd still like to see. Grrrrrrrrr. I'm just happy nothing is wrong. I haven't even gotten sick. Just tired. Charlie's mom is so nice, she said now, everytime she gets paid, she will buy a pack of diapers. :-) Awesome. Can never have too many of those. haha.

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holiday

:: 2006 20 March :: 10.11pm

Oh yeah, and we were going to wait until next year, but we decided to get married in June! Yay :-) We want this, that's why we're doing it. I think my work, Applause Catering, is going to cater it. And the wedding will be at his Great Grandma's farm, it's really pretty there. More details later...

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holiday

:: 2006 20 March :: 10.06pm

The Stills- Love and Death
Oh WOW! It's been an interesting weekend. And a great one.
Saturday Char, Lissa, Katriana and I went to finish registering at Babies R Us. Then Char and I went to a beautiful park and he proposed on a bridge. It was wonderful! Sunday we talked to my parents and they aren't mad or upset. So that is nice. We also went to his Great Grandma's house for dinner. So overall everything in life right now is... right. And great.
Wednesday I have a class at the doctors so I suppose that will be pretty interesting. Tonight at Ice Carving I carved a bowling ball and a pin and everyone went bowling. I carved it only with a chisel too! It was way cool.

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tonyp.

:: 2006 20 March :: 11.16am

ok my house phone is now turned off so if you want to get ahold of me call my cell

my cell is 520-1993

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swimfan14

:: 2006 19 March :: 10.18pm

Well this weekend was pretty good. Friday I hung out with Aaron. Saturday I went to Olive Garden and then Elyse, Stacy, and Aaron came over and we went to the musical only to see Dani. Then Aaron came over afterwards and today I hung out with Dani and Stacy.

Stacy is at my house right now. She's sleeping in our guest bedroom lol.

Ohh and I can't forget my story. On Saturday I was at the gas station with Elyse and we were meeting my dad there because he had to give me something and anyways I threw my gum wrapper out my car window and a cop pulled up behind me and walked to my window and was like "what did you throw out the window?" and I was like "umm a gum wrapper" and he goes "do you know that's illegal, a $500 fine, and you could go to jail" and I was like "no, I didn't know that" and then he made me get out and pick it up and then my dad pulls up and at this time Elyse is laughing hysterically and so am I. I couldn't help it. I thought it was amusing. So then my dad was like "what's going on?" and I'm like "well I threw a wrapper out the window *sarcastically*" and my dad was like "God dammit Ashley I always fucking tell you not to throw shit out the window!" and I'm like "umm no you don't dad, you never tell me that" and the cop was debating on whether or not to give me a ticket and my dad was like "give her a ticket, actually give her two of them" and I didn't care if I got one or not because I wouldn't end up paying for it anyways and I have no idea how this works but the cop said since I'm a minor my dad would have to pay for it which doesn't even make any sense to me and then the cop was like "do you pay for your car" and i'm like "no" and he goes "how about your insurance?" and I was like "no" and then he said "how about gas?" and I was like "no" and then he goes "Do you pay for anything? and I was like "nope" and then I started laughing and he goes "it's not funny!" and then Elyse was like "don't you have better things to do besides harassing us, like...solving crimes?" and the cop just looked at her. I'm suprised he didn't arrest her for saying that or something but I couldn't help but laugh. The cop said since he let someone else off the hook today he guesses he'll let me off too so I didn't get a ticket luckily..oh and then the cop pulls up to get gas afterwards and my dad walks to his truck and he gets out all of the trash he has and he walks to the trash can right by the cop and throws all his stuff away. I was like what the hell...way to suck up to the cop. I don't know why my dad told the cop that he always tells me not to throw stuff out the window because he never tells me that and I barely ever do that to begin with. It all makes me laugh. We went through all that because I threw a gum wrapper out my window. Good god..

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swimfan14

:: 2006 19 March :: 5.44pm

If I knew that you were leaving, I wouldn't have waited so long. I would have left so long ago and if there really still was something left to say to you, you'd realize just what is true. How i've been blamed for everything you do, cause it can't be all my fault, it still takes two to break apart the truth. I learn, I still learn. Every single day.


Tails

:: 2006 18 March :: 10.50pm

What about the past?

If we forget what we were will that really help us become what we want to be?

I gave up on the children who i grew up with because i didnt want old memorys. i only have room in my head for new bright ones.

We will all end up somewhere else.

I can't wait.

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holiday

:: 2006 18 March :: 7.44pm

So I'm wearing something sparkly and shiny on my left hand these days...

Eh hem. Eh hem.

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swimfan14

:: 2006 17 March :: 5.00pm

Today is St. Patricks Day. Do I even know what it is? Not really? I feel like a complete moron right now but I'm not Irish so I don't celebrate it and I know some people do even though they aren't Irish but I don't know what the whole meaning behind it is. I didn't even know it was St. Patricks Day today in the first place and when I got to school and seen everyone wearing green, well let's just say it sorta clicked. Everyone kept pinching me and I was just like fuck off.

I had a pretty embarrassing moment today. Elyse and I were in Seminar and we walked out and we went upstairs so I could turn in something to Mrs. Laidlaw for english and I was carrying my folder with the paper on top which I wrote in pencil and obviously my folder was up against my chest sorta since that's just how us girls carry our stuff and anyways I went to hand her my paper and she was like "what does all this say?" and I'm like "what are you talking about?" and she pointed and then I realized that half of the paper was smeared and I look down and like my whole shirt was covered with...well I don't even know what you call it..pencil smearings haha...it was embarrassing but good thing I had another shirt on under it.

Speaking of english...well I really hate that class. We are reading the dumbest book possiable and our class is almost finished and Kelli and I are still on chapter 3. I can't pay attention and I have no idea what is going on and we have this big test on it and we have to write an essay. School seriously sucks. I'm just going to go to sparknotes and read what happens so I somewhat pass the test.

I guess I'll take this just because everyone else has and it will entertain me for about three minutes.

I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [X] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [X] who i had just met
25. [X ] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [ ] at a show.
32. [ ] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert.
34. [ ] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [] in the rain. (I want to though..we'd be like Allie and Noah)
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [ ] under water
45. [] while driving
46. [X] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [x] goodbye forever (I didn't really think it was goodbye forever but I obviously it was)
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [] in an elevator
54. [x] an ex
55. [X] last night.
56. [X] Just today.

Well I guess I should go get ready to go to Aarons tonight. Have a good weekend everyone!

<3 Ashley Megan!!

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You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.

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