Uh....

:: 2006 30 January :: 6.04pm

You make me sick. I can never trust you again. Everything I thought was real, turned out to be all a lie.

It doesn't matter what you do, it's what you did thats hurting you. All I needed was the truth, now i'm gone.

Seriously, for all of us, grow up.

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:: 2006 30 January :: 4.08pm
:: Music: Aiden- See You In Hell...

Got up at 6. Went to class. Went to Meijer to get some food. Slept. Grandma called from the Greenville Hospital. Grandpa's in there. Someone hit them. BAD. Grandpa's hurt. All because of some stupid person who probably shouldn't have been driving in the first place. He's got 4 broken ribs and they're keeping him overnight. Grandma's shaken up and bruised. The Tahoe is TOTALED. I'm glad it wasn't worse though. But I'm really upset. Grandma was so happy to pay off the truck, too. Now they have nothing and they're hurt. I love my grandparents so much that makes me so upset. :-(

I'm making Char birthday dinner tonight. Stuffed shells and black forest cake. Happy Birthday.

:: 2006 29 January :: 10.25pm

Yesterday was a blast!
Char and I went to Townsend Park and it was really pretty out. WE went to eat at The Melting Pot. FONDUE! hahaha. Then we went to look at houses in East GR. Then we went back home and hung out. I got tickets to Arenacross for Char's b-day :-) It was soooooo fun and our seats were really really good. About 3 rows up from the tarp. haha. So we could see everything. The best part was when the 7/8 year-olds raced. It was so adorable. Char and I are convinced we need dirt bikes now! oh yeah!

:: 2006 29 January :: 10.20pm

You can only say yes or no.

You are not allowed to explain anything.

1. Taken a picture naked? yes

2. Painted your room? yes

3. Kissed a member of the same sex? yes

4. Drove a car? Yes

5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes

6. Have a crush? Yes

7. Been dumped? Yes

8. Stole money from a friend? no

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no

10. Been in a fist fight? no

11. Snuck out of the house? No

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes

13. Been arrested? No

14. Made out with a stranger? No

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes

16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes

17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no

18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes

19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes

20. Seen someone die? yes

21. Been on a plane? Yes

22. Kissed a picture? yes

23. Slept in until 3? yes

24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes

25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes

26. Made a snow angel? yes

27. Played dress up? Yes

28. Cheated while playing a game? yes

29. Been lonely? Yes

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes

31. Been to a club? no

32. Felt an earthquake? no

33. Touched a snake? Yes

34. Ran a red light? Yes

35. Been suspended from school? no

36. Had detention? yes

37. Been in a car accident? Yes

38. Hated the way you look? Yes

39. Witnessed a crime? yes

40. Pole danced? No

41. Been lost? Yes

42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes

43. Felt like dying? yes

44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes

46. Sang karaoke? no

47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes

49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes

50. Kissed in the rain? yes

51. Sang in the shower? Yes

52. Made love in a park? no

53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes

54. Glued your hand to something? no

55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No

56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No

57. Been a cheerleader? yes

58. Sat on a roof top? no

59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no

60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes

61. Played chicken? No

62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes

63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes

64. Broken a bone? No

65. Been easily amused? Yes

66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes

67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes

68. Cheated on a test? yes

69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes

70. Been to a bar? Yes

71. Anyone offer you a drink? no

73. Blacked out from drinking? no

74. Played a prank on someone? Yes

75. Been to a late night movie? yes

76. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes

77. Failed a class? yes

78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no

79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no

81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES ;-)

82. Thrown strange objects? no

83. Felt like killing someone? no

84. Felt like running away? Yes

85. Ran away? no

86. Did drugs? yes

87. Had detention and not attend it? yes

89. Made a parent cry? no

90. Cried over someone? Yes

91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no

92. Dated someone more than once? yes

93. Had/Have a dog? Yes

95. Own(ed) an instrument? yes

96. Been in a band? No

97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No

98. Broken a CD? yes

99. Shot a gun? yes

100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? no

:: 2006 29 January :: 9.50pm

I don't know why I always do these when I get bored.

Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: It doesn't matter if I like them anymore.

2. Buy something: Nope.

3. Get sick: I�ve been sick.

4. Sing: Yeah.

5. Make out: Yeah, because I have mono!?!?

8. Talk to an ex: Yeah basically.

9. Miss someone: Yep.
___________________________________________________

Last person who....

10. Slept in your bed: Danielle Hansing always sleeps in my bed but this weekend I made Kelli and Elyse both sleep on the floor.

11. Saw you cry: My mom seen me crying today. Well she didn�t really see me cry but when I got home I could tell she noticed I was crying.

12. Made you cry: I'm pretty sure he knows who he is.

13. Went to the movies with?: I don�t remember.

14. You went to the mall with: Elyse
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16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: No.

17. Been to California: Yes!

18. Been to Mexico: Cancun!

19. Been to Canada: Yeah.

20. Been to Europe: Nope.
___________________________________________________

Random.....

21. Do you have a crush on someone: No.

22. What book are you reading now: A Gossip Girl Book.

23. Best feeling in the world: Being happy.

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No.

26. What's under your bed: Purses.

27. Favorite sports to watch: Basketball.

28. Location: Mi casa.

29. Piercing/Tattoos: My ears.

30. What are you most scared of right now: We wont go there.

31. Where do you want to get married?: Not sure.

32. Who do you really hate?: I only hate one person and she isn't even worth mentioning.

33. Do you have a job: Haha yeah right.

34. Do you like being around people?: Yeah most of the time.

35. Have you ever liked someone u didn't have a chance with?: Looks that way doesn't it?

36. Have you ever cried: What kind of question is this? Obviously everyone's cried.

37. Are you lonely right now: Not really.

38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: So sick of love songs, so tired of tears, so sick of wishing you were still here.

40. Gotten beaten up: No.

42. Been on radio/TV: TV a few times but not the radio.

43. Been in a mosh-pit: No.

44. Ever liked someone, but u think they never noticed you? No I�m pretty sure if I like someone then I will make them notice me.

45. Ever liked someone who treated you like shit? Yep.

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Everyone has their firsts....

1. First real best friend: Probably Chloe.

2. First school: I don�t remember what it was called.

3. First screenname: I don�t remember. It was something about being a spoiled brat.

4. First funeral: I�ve been to so many I don�t even remember.

5. First big trip: I don�t know maybe Florida or Cancun or Cali. I can�t remember.

6. First flight: I don�t remember.

7. First celebrity love: I don�t know.

8. First job: I�ve never had a job.

*Everyone also has their lasts...

1. Last person you hugged: My dad!!

2. Last song you heard: Fall To Pieces. It makes me sad.

3. Last car ride: A few hours ago.

4. Last time you cried: Today. Jeez.

5. Last movie you watched: Wedding Crashers

6. Last food you ate: I haven�t ate all day.

7. Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: Ian.

8. Last item bought: Clothes at the mall yesterday.

9. Last shirt worn: a pink abercrombie tank top

10. Last phone call: Emily Sorensen called like an hour ago.

11. Last text message: like five minutes ago

12. Last thing you touched: Keyboard

13. Last Funeral: My uncles.

14. Last time at the mall?: Saturday.

15. Last time you were excited about something? I�m not excited for anything anymore.

16. Last person you saw: Sister.

17. Last thing you said to someone: I said "So Em wants to hang out on Tuesday okay?"
18. Last person that broke ur heart: Like I would really put his name here.

19. Last time you've been happy: A while ago.

eddy	:: 2006 29 January :: 8.39pm :: Music: BEP - Where is the Love? www.OrderMoreRon.com We are some crazy little peoples i tell you what. This is Ron And this is The www.OrderMoreRon.com advertisers And Repeat with the "Ron" symbol 7 squirrely \| have some nuts?

:: 2006 29 January :: 12.58pm

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you.

:: 2006 28 January :: 12.01pm
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco- Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks

Prescribed pills to offset the shakes...to offset the pills you know you should take...um...take it a day at a time...
AhhHHHH
Yesterday I was stranded at Best Buy so I walked to Char's. AHHH!
I bought The Office! YAYYYYY
and I bought The Notebook.
Tonight's going to be fun!!!!
Birthday surprise for Charlie-yo. <3<3
~

Fix a vice with a vice

:: 2006 27 January :: 4.09pm

So we pretty much got caught. It was bound to happen anyways. I just feel bad now but somehow I always do.

Last night I was driving and Elyse wanted to steer my car so I was letting her and when she turned she hit a snowbank. It was hilarious.

The cemetary thing didn't go so well today. Never ever go in one of those. It was just a bad idea.

And no I'm not going bowling. Everyone knows I hate bowling so if I wont go for anyone else i'm sure as hell not going for you.

You probably should stop making this into something it's not and just believe me when I tell you that I don't.

Anyways i'll update more later I gotta go to Brittanys.

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stinko

:: 2006 27 January :: 12.40pm

we are trying to get internet at my house finally. . .
but it's not going very well. we got some virus on our computer and randy was supposed to fix it but he was a no show last night.
perhaps i wasn't meant to have internet anyway.

it's like some sort of curse on my head for all of those murders i helped becca with. like seriously, i knew when she showed up at my door with a couple giant garbage bags, a pair of shovels, a flashlight, and a chainsaw that i should have simply said i was in the middle of dinner.

but no, i HAD to go along with her demonic plan.

now i'll never have the internet and i'll probably fail physics because of it. my crazy professor, he loves to point out the fact that i am at a disadvantage because of my stone-age life style.

so while i continue living in a cave, will someone please come and shine some light on me. unless you are rebecca with a couple candles at hand along with directions to the nearest grave yard. . .

:: 2006 26 January :: 11.37pm

haha
you make me sick!

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:: 2006 26 January :: 11.06pm

1. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN SOMEONE FROM YOUR PAST OR AN EX AND IT WAS AKWARD?

Sometimes it's akward and sometimes it's not. It depends on the person. I see people I had "things" with all the time and most of the time I just ignore them...

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS OF YOUR ROOM?
Pictures, posters, other stuff.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
I don�t know how to describe it..sparkly maybe lol

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
All kinds..

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Yeah, 2:22 AM

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To do something I�m not allowed to do haha..

7. WHO DO YOU MISS?
I don't miss anyone.

8. WHAT ARE YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSIONS?
My cell phone, my family, my friends, and my trusty credit card!

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?

Yeah esp. when H locked me in a locker at strike and he put a pencil through the little hole and I couldn�t get out..

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?

Sometimes after I watch scary movies haha

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?

Nobody's worth crying over.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
ABERCROMBiE AND FiTCH!!

14. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU GOT YELLED AT?

Haha at school..in math...me and april and cohen...yeah we're just a little too loud. It was a bad choice to sit us next to each other..

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
Umm I don�t know I don�t really think about these things

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?

Coffee for sure

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?

Haha pepperoni I guess

18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?

Nothing I�m not even hungry

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
I have no idea

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?

Like I remember...

22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
Obviously

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?

No

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?

Abercrombie, Juicy Couture..or stuff from Urban Outfitters.

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?

I don�t know lol I don�t really pay attention to cars..

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Yeah lol.

27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
Dogs and cats.

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?

I would try not to since I would just get screwed over but you can�t help how you feel.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?

To tell them lol

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
2

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes; because someone has to be smart.

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?

I call a lot of numbers often...pretty much the ppl that are important to me.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
A lot of things...umm when people wear black and brown together or when people talk a lot ..like a lot a lot and they don�t know when to shut up and when people straighten/blow dry their hair too much and it looks all fried and dead...it's gross.

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yeah many times

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?

I care too much.

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
YES!!! Lots of them!

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Who can honestly say they haven�t?

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
I was hanging out with my lovers at the v-ball game

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?

I wouldn�t...

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?

Something to do while I�m waiting.

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?

My hair or outfits or purses

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME iLLEGAL FOREVER?

Nothing. It�s not the end of the world.

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?

Umm I don�t know it�s a ways away

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?

Like a million haha kidding I don�t know yet

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?

I don�t think so

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I used to until I realized the wishes never come true and I�m just wasting my time.

48. WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?
Well I slept until 10:00 then I went to school for a while then I picked up Britt and Elyse and we went to the v-ball game.

49. WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT?

Pizza earlier and then a ring pop a few minutes ago

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yeah sometimes

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?

Ugh..idk

52. ANY BAD HABITS?

Yeah. A lot.

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?

I don�t really know lol...

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

Yeah

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?

Only because I had to

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?

Yeah I guess in some ways
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?

I don�t really have anger problems so I wouldn�t know

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?

My dads house lol

59. WHO IS YOUR FAMOUS/ ACTOR/ SINGER CRUSH?

Gerard Way, Orlando Bloom, Adam Brody (Seth Cohen <3)

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?

Haha probably my babies

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?

I don�t know I�ve never counted

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?

Yeah

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?

Nope

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?

Umm ask me if you really want to know that bad...

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?

My mom and step dad always call me by my middle name (Megan) and Logan and Justin call me Laguna because they say I remind them of the girls on Laguna Beach and then Little One at school

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?

Birthday Cake @ Coldstone Creamery is sooo good if you haven�t been there you pry should.

73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?

I don�t miss anyone or anything

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?

Haha I don�t know

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I could care less

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?

Panic! At the disco

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?

Water

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Umm Emily Sorensen just called me a few minutes ago

79. THE FUNNIEST THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY?
Omg I don�t know I�m always laughing but probably at the v-ball game when Elyse made me tell this joke thing to Katie, Jacque, Angela Klementowski, and Marissa Walker..we all were dying laughing...

80. LAST THING SOMEONE SUGGESTED?

Well today Mike Kratjewski haha I don�t think that�s how you spell his last name but anyways he said that he thinks I should go to the next away bball game with him and so should Lisa.

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?

Favorite thing? Let's try "favorite people"

82. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXT MSG�D YOU?

Logan just did like five minutes ago..

83. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TALKED TO YOU ONLINE?

Aaron Cohen or Stacy

84. FAVORITE COLORS?

Pink & Orange

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown

86. EYE COLOR?

Hazel

87. HEIGHT?

UMM... 5'3
88. SIBLINGS?

Like a million

89. FAVORITE MONTH?

June since that�s when school gets out or July since that�s usually when I go to Cali<3

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
YES!!

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?

The v-ball games and The O.C!!!!!

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?

Christmas, My Birthday..and the whole summer counts as my favorite too.

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?

Yeah probably

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?

Summer

95. KISSES OR HUGS?

BOTH!

96. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU BORROWED?
Umm I don't know lol I don't usually borrow things but Ryan Case and I both love Life As We Know It so he just told me I can borrow the first season of it because he's just that nice lol.

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Clothes

98. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?

I got bit by a dog.

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?

The very last Gossip Girl book!!

100. ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
Yeah basically...

:: 2006 26 January :: 4.41pm

What an ass.

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:: 2006 26 January :: 2.01pm

So I finally got around to seeing the Notebook. Wow. I haven't cried so much during a movie before. It's just so sad. :-(
I have class today but I'm sick. I must be dying or something. I've been in a really really good mood and I enjoy being at home. I'm not annoyed with my puppies, they're actually pretty fun :-) And I am making dinner tonight. I just enjoy taking it slow right now and taking everything in. Like I said...I must be dying.

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Iron-Cipher

:: 2006 25 January :: 11.11pm

I can never be any more or any less than who i am. I may change but I will never fail to be a hundred percent me. If you do not like it you can wait for me change, but do not think it is becuase I am be too much or too little of who I should be that you are displeased.

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tonyp.

:: 2006 25 January :: 10.47pm

shuting house phone off soon if you need me call my cell 1 616 520-1993

:: 2006 25 January :: 7.11pm

Today was definitely exhausting. It was my first full day back.

Today in Anatomy we had to disect sheep brains and it was alright I guess but Bruce Hunter and I always joke around and pretend to be mad at each other even though we never could possiably be mad at each other, we just like pretending and anyways we were cutting our brain and he was just messing around and he threw a piece of the brain at me and it hit me and then some of it went into my mouth. I wanted to throw up lol. He kept looking at me and smiling afterwards to see if I would smile back at him because thats just what we do to show we are kidding and then I wouldn't smile back and then when class was over he's like "Bye Ashley!" and I just walked out and he goes "Fine, I see how it is!?!?" and I didn't say anything so now he really thinks i'm pissed off about it but I really don't even care I thought it was gross, yeah but it was also funny.

"I'm just going to forget all about them when i'm famous and they wont get my money" haha Mishy it's true..they don't get my money now lol.

Oh and yeah stacy and I went to McWendys today. It was pretty sweet. I totally said that by acciden't and then today I was standing there after school and Ashley Marini comes running up to me and she gave me a huge hug and she was freaking out because she hasn't seen me in so long. Aww she's so cute I love her.

Wow I can't believe he called me. :) That was a nice suprise. Seriously.

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:: 2006 25 January :: 4.52pm

I'm really happy with life right now. Everything is great. For once it just feels like things are balanced.
I'm proud of what I've accomplished too. I can't believe (it seems) like my first year is almost done. It just feels like it's going fast. It's a good feeling though, I'd like to get out as soon as I can. But I really like it. I've paid off my own car. $5000. That felt good. I've got a great job and am gaining more and more experience. I made the Dean's list. I like being home and relaxing and actually have time for that. I'm with the man I love and we've got a great future ahead of us. I have great friends. I love my classes. I'm just overall very satisfied.

I went to Spectrum today and learned a lot. I guess there's a job opening, but it's third shift. I may take it...who knows. It'd definitely be an experience. But until my classes are over I'd only get 4 hours of sleep w/both my jobs and classes. That wouldn't be so great.

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