:: 2004 5 October :: 4.47 pm

The new Hidden Hand album comes out in 2 weeks. I just preordered mine. I'm really excited. So the countdown begins.....

This is going to be a long 2 weeks.

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:: 2004 3 October :: 12.54 pm

Stuff
Yesterday was busy. I went to Valparaiso University. It's in Indiana. I really liked it. It's a pretty small school (3,000-4,000) But it kind of feels like a big school. And it's lutheran, so they'll probly give me money cuz I'm lutheran too. We went to these things where you learn about their different majors. I went to undecided and philosophy. There was only one other kid (plus his mom) at the philosophy one. Which was funny. But I actually got all my questions answered for once. The only problem I have with Valpo is it's a dry campus. Which means no alcohol. Which might suck. Maybe. Or that might be good. I'm not sure yet. But I'm thinking it quite possibly could suck. And the town seems to be quite conservative. But I don't know if I care about that or not.

I think I want to study philosophy. I don't think my parents like that idea so much. But n'importe (whatever).

I saw the Forgotten last night. It was interesting for awhile (not to mention easy to make fun of) but it got progressively stupider. And they stole some major plot points from 1984 (you know, the George Orwell book) I pointed this out to Rachel at least 10 times within like 3 minutes. I'm sure she appreciated it.

I think that's it. I'll see you all tomorow. Well most of yous anyway.

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:: 2004 30 September :: 3.55 pm

Je ne care pas
I'm having an exsistential dilemma. Why did I go to school today? So I can go to college. Why do I want to go to college? So I can (maybe) get a job that doesn't suck. Why do I want a job that doesn't suck? Because it beats a job that sucks? For the money? Why?

Honestly, is that all there is? If so, why bother? So you don't starve? But what's it matter whether you starve or not if life is just working, sleeping, and dying?

As far as I can tell, Hemingway was right. Life is pointless. Or if it ever had a point, it's been destroyed by greed and conformity.

Tomorrow's friday. The weekend. Not that it matters. We'll just have to go back to school again on mundane. And tuesday. And the rest of the year. So they give me 2 days off where I'm not completely institutionalized. Am I supposed to be grateful that the powers that be pretend to throw me a bone?
Well I'm not. I'd be grateful if they'd just leave alone altogether, though. But then I'd never learn to survive in this rigid, presumptuous, society. What a fucking pity.

Je suis tres pissed off.

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:: 2004 29 September :: 4.34 pm

Too much music......
Dead Meadow is releasing a new album in January. They just put a record like a year ago. And before that they put out 2 albums in like 1 year I believe.

The new Hidden Hand album is coming out on the 19th. Their last CD was out about this time last year.

An Obsessed reissue is coming out in January as well. When I won't have any money from buying christmas presents. And this album has been out of print for years.

I'm gonna go to the poor house buying records.

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:: 2004 27 September :: 6.41 pm

College Applications
Well, then. I just got done writing my essay for U of W. I think it's good but I'm not sure. Writing admissions essays is my new hobby. I still have to write one for U of M. And Earlham. And Gustavus. But I think I'll just send in something I wrote for a class for that one, because I don't actually care much about that school. The application's free, therefore I apply. Yes. I don't know if that makes any sense or if I'm just a sucker for free stuff.

Where are y'all applying? I don't know where hardly anyone's planning on going. And I'm curious.

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:: 2004 25 September :: 5.05 pm

I got back from Oakland a little while ago. 'Twas a fun filled visit. It's a lovely campus, as I've stated before, but it seemed a bit dead, at least when I was there. But then again, that was at like 10 am on a saturday so...yeah.

My dad wanted to go to a Lebanese place for lunch so we drove around for over an hour and ended going to Mongolian BBQ. It was somewhat amusing.

Um...I think that's it. Bye now.

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:: 2004 22 September :: 3.35 pm

Stuff is weird if you think about it enough. Try it. Think about a tree. Or a car. Or school.


Isn't that weird?

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:: 2004 21 September :: 3.34 pm
:: Mood: happy

My meap scores came today. I got a 1 or 2 on every test, which means I get $2,500 for college (if I stay in MI, that is). Yay! I don't think the meap people liked my fecicious and insulting essay. I got a 6 out of 12 on it. That is all.

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:: 2004 18 September :: 9.13 pm

Kelly's College Reviews! Yay!
Well, I got back about an hour ago. And now I'm mentally and physically exhausted.

Yesterday I went to University of WI in Madison. And I adored it. I originally thought Madison would be like Ann Arbor on steroids. But I was wrong, I was wrong. Madison is like Ann Arbor on acid. It is that cool. As for the campus, it's enormous. It's like it's own little city. But you can ride the busses for free, or ride your bike to class. Or drive. They admitted that the lecture classes are huge, but they break them down into smaller study groups once or twice a week. Professors teach the lectures, and TA's do the study groups. The cafeteria food is edible, which is good. The campus is insanely hilly. I bet that gets annoying. I saw a flyer for an anarchist potluck and it made me laugh. There were also a bunch of "Beat Bush!" flyers. And apparently both David Cobb (Green Party) and Ralph Nader are gonna be in Madison. There's this road right off campus called state street. It's all pedestrian and it is the craziest thing I've ever seen. There were 3 or 4 people sitting out there playing guitars, and also just random people asking for spare change. Someone asked us to sponser a runner for the race to beat Bush. Whatever that means. There were hippys everywhere. And there was a VW Beetle with a psychedelic paintjob.

In conclusion: U of WI is calling my name.

Then, we went to Rockford College in IL. That's a real small school of like 1500. Smaller than the high school. They are all about volunteering and helping out the community and stuff. Jane Adams graduated from Rockford. Which is cool. They give every incoming freshman a scholarship based on grades and volunteer service that's renewable. All the classes are within walking distance, so thats nice. I went to a mock class called The Art of Listening. It was about listening to music and the professor thought I was a genius. Or something. I think if you want to impress a professor you should sit right in front before anyone else does. I guess all the classes are pretty small, with like 20 people. The dorm rooms are pretty big. I was impressed. There was another girl from here there. How random is that? I've seen her in the halls but I don't know her. But I guess I do now. I'm not so crazy about Rockford, IL. It might be hard to survive without a car. And it doesn't seem to be the bastion of culture, but you never know.

In conclusion: Cool but iffy.

Um, I think that's it. I shall see you all soon, I hope.

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:: 2004 16 September :: 4.44 pm

Hi. School was monotonous as usual today. Yeah. Tomorow I won't be there because as I said before, I'm taking a college day. I'll be back sometime saturday afternoon/night.

I went to the very first meeting of french club today. It was fun, even though I didn't really know anyone. I made friends because I am oh so cool like that. We ate bread and cheese and brownies. And played croquet. I came in third or fourth, I think.

Um so yeah, that 'twas me day. Hopefully I see some of yas this weekend. If I get home in time.

[edit 5:00]
I almost forgot. I haven't sworn yet today. Usually I don't make it past lunch. Only 7 more hours to go....

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:: 2004 14 September :: 3.27 pm

I found a funny qoute:
"The Bible contains six admonishments to homosexuals and 362 admonishments to heterosexuals. That doesn't mean that God doesn't love heterosexuals. It's just that they need more supervision."
-- Lynn Lavner

School was boring today. As usual. I almost fell asleep in physics concepts. I'm writing a definition essay about God for senior comp. Why I picked such an insanely vast topic, I do not know. But oh well. I'm going to U of WI on friday and Rockford College on saturday. I'm excited. I think that's it. Bye.

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:: 2004 11 September :: 7.12 pm

I checked out Central MI today. It's a pretty nice campus. The library is enormus. And now my legs hurt from walking. Mount Pleasant is kind of...meh, I don't know. It's kind of out on it's own. It's not out in the middle of nowhere, but there doesn't seem to be a whole helluva lot to do there. It might be ok if you had a car but I won't so...I don't know.

In other news, the taurus went into the shop last week. All the right rear lights were out. It turned out it was because when my dad replaced the light for the right blinker, the bulb didn't work. So the mechanic put in a new light and didn't charge us anything. And also used the car to run errands. Which is hilarious. So I now have the taurus back and now harm done.

That is all.

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:: 2004 8 September :: 4.32 pm

I saw 2 concerts last weekend: Madison Greene and Dickie Betts. Both were fun. I don't feel like going into detail now. Not that anyone cares :p Madison Greene played yesterday too. I wish I went, but live and learn.

I've been trying to go a day without swearing since...last wensday I believe. So far I haven't been successful. I'll try again on the morrow.

"Love isn't lying, it's loose in a lady who lingers, saying she is lost."
-Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young

Well?

:: 2004 5 September :: 1.16 pm

I'm supposed to do something today but I don't remember what. Stupid nonexsistent memory.

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:: 2004 3 September :: 5.59 pm

Another campus visit...
So I checked out MSU today. It was cool. Today was the first time I visited a college when classes were actually happening. So yeah. I actually saw some prospective classmates. MSU has a really pretty campus, but it's huge. So that presents a problem. But as long as you can read a map and pay attention to the signs, it's manageable. Dorm rooms are really tiny. I'll have to figure out how to fit my gee-tars in. There's some huge lecture halls at State. They biggest ones have like 600 seats. So that would be easy to skip :p Not that I'd skip, of course. MSU has a ton of study abroad programs. They've got one that goes to France and one other country (I can't remember which) about the post-modern world. Which is awesome. East Lancing is a pretty cool town. Not as cool as Ann Arbor, but I've never seen anywhere outside of WI that is. Elderly Instruments is there. That's one of the biggest guitar stores in the country. I saw a hippy guy walking barefoot down the street. Um so yeah, I'm done.

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