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Ok, my parents okayed the movie party being here (for once) so... I don't have the phone numbers of most of the people that would come, so I need those, and I don't have a day set either.... eh heh... but it must be soon, because this house doesn't stay clean for long....

She summed it up perfectly
"You're a strange one."

yup, I guess that's how it all turned out. Then again, I thought I had found a group of strange ones. Obviously the similarities I saw weren't really existant at all. Always over observant, that's what I am. Too cautious with what I do, what I say, who I say it to, the reasons behind it. I like to understand what's going on. That was a big mistake. I swear Schylar must think that I'm somewhat insane after that argument last school year... Maybe I over analyze, maybe it's all simpler than what I thought. Because I've certainly complicated my life. How humbling to be called strange again.
Love must not be as great as I always imagined it. Always thinking the happy smiles and random kisses... it's all so much more complex than that. The one thing I always thought would be so easy (so easy... only if you can actually find the right person.)... never did find the perfect match. And it's not so simple, all the fights and the I thought I love you's and the bull shit that came with it... I still don't know what's going on... the one thing I'd never get... the one thing I crave most... can't try so hard anymore... can't care anymore.....

I only took the quiz because they told me to...

Youre the Autum Fariy. You are kinda silent and a
loner you like beign alone with the beauty of
autum. You have thoughts of beign with friends
but the the elagance wins you over. Please vote
for me this is my first quiz have mercy!!


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Anywho,
My aunt told us that the earthquake (in Cali) lasted about 6-7 minutes in Lompoc, where she was with my cousin Colleen. As soon as they could walk again (direct quote) Colleen went running down the street to find Josh and Jeremy since they were selling stuff for a school fundraiser...
and here, Roxanne has disappeared (can't reach her at home)..... so we'll try tomorrow...

Well, my sister just got her wisdom teeth out, so needless to say, she's not in a Christmas wonderland right now. She seems to be having a worse trip than I did, so I feel kind of crappy (except for the fact that I've got hardware for the next 2-4 years....)
I still don't have any of my shopping done, and I have to clean my room (which is at its worst right now) because my grandma will show up tomorrow afternoon... argh.... I'm still wanting Josh and Paige to show up for Christmas, but they won't bother to buy the plane ticket, so I doubt it will happen... ho hum...
Anywho, the pageant went... um... well, it happened... yeah. We have a new DCE, so the church year for us kiddies hasn't been the best anyway, but *gotta have faith* that things will get better -insert eye roll- ...
welps, hope Christmas is good elsewhere....

neh... aboo...
Well... we finally got the tree up, so I'm finally in the Christmas spirit (Christmas lives and dies with the tree for me...). This then leads to the discussion artificial vs. the real deal... I grew up with artificial, it's easy, no allergy problems, aesthetic pleasing, less likely to burn my house down, etc.
Even though I'm now *yay Christmas*, I'm thinking I want to have a love right now... yeah, it's always better when you've get to shop for someone who actually matters beyond the family (sorry friends, I have no intentions of getting presents for you.... nor for maggie, at least until she gets off my ass...) *sigh* ... yes, that's life. So, I'm supposed to have my lines memorized by 4:30 tomorrow... eh heh... bleh... I have nothing else to say right now...
or do I?
nope... nothing...
I think...
........
..
yeah, all empty here.
*but not here*.
^^and over here there's a bit of a mess^^
but right here it's empty.
Except for the words/thoughts occupying this space.
!!#Then it's not empty you dolt#!!
get over it...

me!!!
It's amazing how many times this year people have thought I'm going out with someone. Some have been disturbing, some have been funny, and some I just think about where those rumors came from...
Anywho... I was talking to Jesse earlier (one of the few time's I'd actually talk on the phone... of course I was trying to play piano at the same time which didn't work out so well, but isn't really important anyways...). Yeah, she's another person who wants to go out with me now. And that last statement sounded really arrogant...
The thing is, I don't get how all these people can say they like me... or, excuse me, LOVE me... And, of course, I still don't understand what that word really means... But how can it be that these people ALL say that... I guess I'm really too much of a softie at heart. I don't want to go out with some girl because it'll break another girl's heart. Maybe that's why I'm so unlucky in the area... just not enough flutter to take a jump head first and hope I'm getting somewhere...
Kind of sums up parts of life...
Oh!! I should go get my poem right now... it's gonna be long (this is just the start of it), and it may take a few months to write with my work ethic.

It starts off with everything all right,
But from the gunshot, one knows it isn't true.
Fourteen runs of a rock in the night,
These things don't seem to be improving.
The once hallowed ground, so pure a foundation,
Has found a way to rot and become
Wicked. And only the master here
Appreciates the destruction he caused.

The house had done well, at least
In twelve passing revolutions.
Time bided, waiting for its chance
To prove the man idle.
Hel left his land, eager to know
What was being held beyond the boarders.
Ultimately, his quest would show that sisters
Love and Hate were bound by short chains.

As he passed through his silver gates, he found
Wasteland, barren and useless for salvation.
And yet, the man found this new world a beauty,
So different from his royal housing.
Living his previous life in such glory of a manor,
Wonderful becaume mediorcre to his eyes.
A simple change of the world around him
Let him see Variety is true beauty.

An oasis was known to be not far away.
Searching, he found it occupied by
Fair Maiden. Wailing raised from her throat;
The poll long since filled with acid.
Frantic, he pondered a way to save Fair Maiden.
Never, he believed, should his own life be risked;
Even for such treasure as Love. Head hung low,
He traipsed on through the playground of brothers Life and Death.

A century gone to take civilization;
Second of the lies this man was told.
The firus that took the world by storm
Man, himself, was programmed to nurture.
So came to be the desolation, rotting, hopeless,
Homeland to the silence of chaos.
Death, theme of the Eighth Day, finished
The Spectre's work, and Nature's undoing.

As foot sank lower into burning sand
The man then pondered this paradox about him:
In the land where only Moon shines,
How does Earth smolder so?
Looking to the Eastern Sky, sunrise seemed to be
Testing Night, and soon the truth was revealed to man.
A golden cube, high walls of the city, was Light's source;
This man had entered the Devil's Kingdom.


Yeah, so that's the start (this poem is about some of my life experiences for you dolts out there...)
Nick tired... Nick leave now...

Christmas doesn't need to come
"I'm Going Home" you must look forward to
the end of the movie, or maybe you just like
it.


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Well... the end was sexy... kind of...

Anyways... Yeah, I'm not feeling like Christmas this year... bleh... So... I've been crushing on well... a few people for a while now, and of course they're not getting the message... I've always been a bit subtle. Of course, I can't get Aly to get the message that I want her fucking hands off of me...
eh.. heh... bleh... neh... ..... nope... nothin else... ergenflargenbargen....

!!! We're watching two movies right now... GATTACA in Biology... It's the strangest, yet coolest movie that I've seen for a while... and in History we're watching MP's Holy Grail... yeah... and that's life.

grr!!
I still haven't gotten cameron's email address... oy...
Anyway... I'm missing morp tonight because I'm going to the SO party.... oh well, I really don't want to be out till eleven anyways, so it works out......

   Quiz Result: You are olive  
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you are olive
#808000


Your dominant hues are red and green, so you're definately not afraid to get in and stir things up. You have no time for most people's concerns, you'd rather analyze with your head than be held back by some random "gut feeling".
Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right.
Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.

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Three faces are staring at me...
I got kicked in gym today... and we were playing basketball... I still don't understand how it could happen, especially since I've got a good sized lump on my leg now...

Ok, so I started writing a poem today, and it might actually turn out quite well... I just need to finish it. :P
I'm really worried because I still haven't made up my Bio test, which I was supposed to take a week ago... oh, I figure I'll get it done sometime...
Wow! Mr. Kellogg is wanting me to play the solo in our Christmas piece... strange... yay, though...
bleh... I really need sleep right now, but I've got to finish English and health work still... :( no fun, no fun...

Posting on stuff...
Ok... first off, fruit sales suck...
next, half days are pointless.
also, don't ever wish you could get surgery... eh heh...
Ok.. onto the stuff that *matters*...
I've had this question that's been bothering me for a few weeks:
If you were in a cylindrical room, and the whole wall was a mirror (so the room is essentially a curved mirror...) what would your reflexion look like??

Let's see.... what's been in the dreams lately... Kyle has been showing up in my dreams... strange. He basically acts like he does at school. He's there, but has nothing to say... I guess nothing's really been standing out in mine...

My mom had an interesting dream: She said we were all at the house when she saw Michelle standing out by my sister's car. The horn went off, but Michelle was standing on the passenger side... then my mom called me to tell me Michelle was here, but when I looked, she was gone.

Oh, and my next little **Nick's words of wisdom** installment:
Is the fire truly your poison? Or do you revel in the blunders of the earth?

Damn...
KIRSTIN STILL WON'T REPLY... GRRR