Dance 'til ya drop

1 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 4 March :: 11.32pm

Two pills just weren't enough.
The alarm clock's going off but you're not waking up.
This isn't happening.
It is.

:: 2007 4 March :: 10.31pm

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

:: 2007 4 March :: 9.21pm
:: Mood: anxious

im having a hard time breathing.

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panic attacks slkdfjslkdfj blahh

anyway

life is weird as of late
mostly involving the police

:: 2007 28 February :: 9.22pm

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.

I spent two weeks in Silverlake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks
And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.

Wanted to believe in all the words that i was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that i was telling
And all the playful misspellings
And every bite i gave you left a mark

Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did i that day

All i see are dark grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "was something wrong?"
That i think "you're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."

So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me

1 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 28 February :: 7.41pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: sufjan stevens

"Don't know about you.

But I believe every detail is a part of the picture. Leaving no stone unturned.

I also believe that your choice of title suggests where the words are coming from. And that the comment is part of the whole.

And yet, what has always intrigued me about all this are the stones themselves, and the unsaid carved into them, glowing faintly in the corner of my mind's eye.

It's opening a book for the first time and reading the ever mysterious dedication.

It's the first thought you have after saying goodbye.

It's the possibility that some day in some way that perfect stranger understands your perfect thought.

It's listening for secrets in the music.

I like that stone alot."

4 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 27 February :: 4.21am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: miss misery - elliot smith

i didnt know elliot smith was dead, that makes me kind of sad.

being grounded is a pain
college makes me more sad everyday
i have to write an essay four days ago, i dont even know what on...
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i want to drift away right now.
i want to make my daddy happy, he needs it.
i want to see loren.
i want to see nicole.
i want to see the world.

christina is really starting to piss me off, all she talks about is sasquatch.. its really annoying. i dont care if you're going a you're going to see the beastie boys or interpol, so stop bragging about it.

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i am so confused with everything....

at least i have all science fiction novelists on my team.

2 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 26 February :: 6.29pm

i am the one who wants so much to laugh with you right now.

on a completely different note,
my dad should not go to this court hearing alone, jesus.
i feel so bad for him :(

6 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 15 February :: 8.38pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: at the bottom of everything - bright eyes

AHAHAHAHA

I LOVE NICOLE@!!!;sdjflksjdfoiwe

:: 2007 15 February :: 6.26pm
:: Music: portugal the man

SO MUCH EXCITEMENT

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i think i might explode

:: 2007 14 February :: 10.56pm

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

:: 2007 14 February :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: tear - red hot chili peppers

today was weird.
but good.
but sad.

i unno.

<3
i got butterflies.

:: 2007 12 February :: 9.31pm

I found a letter that said:
"I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down,"
You'd think I'd ought to be used to that by now.
Save for a few of those late night episodes,
Missed opportunities, and "I Don't Cares,"
There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about.

I'll have my brother stop by this Saturday to pick up my things,
Just make sure you're not there.
This may sound bad, and don't take it the wrong way..
I love you, however,
You hold me down [x4]

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
How will I break the news to you? [x2]

Cancel our dinner with Max and Coraline,
feed Jacky's gerbil and try to stay clean.
We'll talk it over after I've had some time alone to sort it out.
You hold me down [x4]

You're the echoes of my everything,
You're the emptiness the whole world sings at night.
You're the laziness of afternoon,
You're the reason why I burst and why I bloom.
You're the leaky sink of sentiment,
You're the failed attempts I never could forget.
You're the metaphors I can't create to comprehend this curse that I call love..
How will I break the news to you? [x5]

:: 2007 12 February :: 7.34pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: shout out louds

today was totally not a bad day, im going to miss hanging out with all those people at the falls :(
they're wonderful.

beau was being an ass today.
but eli was really nice, so we hung out and watched Diego in the food court.

pshha.

AND I FUCKING PASSED PORTFOLIO. beat that bitches.
with a tough reader, and i got a mofo'in compliment. sheesh.
i rock.

mmmm, and i dropped logic today.
and i miss morgan
and oli

xk7x	:: 2007 12 February :: 2.10pm ahhhhh im home sick. errr. but ppl might come over to help me catch up on my homework... v-day should be cool. You wanna play?

:: 2007 12 February :: 6.19am

i didn't know that...