survey
[What does your name mean?] me
[Birthday?] 9/10/87
[Zodiac Sign?] Virgo
[What are your plans for tonight?] i have no idea! rest bcuz of the tiredness my cuzins cause
[What time is it?] like 3:27
[Who was the last person that...
[Called you?] wow a long time ago... danielle
[Slept in your bed?] me
[Saw you cry?] just me, myself, and i
[Made you cry?] _ _ _
[Spent the night at your house?] TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long ago man!
[You shared a drink with?] cant remember
[You went to the movies with?] danielle, her brother, and her cuzin
[You went to the mall with?] my mom, my aunt, my grandma
[Yelled at you?] wow it hasnt been awhile but probly my mom
[Sent you an email?] probly vanessa
Have you ever...
[Taken a picture of yourself with a milk mustache and sent it to the milkpeople?] haha no i should try
[Said "I love you" and not meant it?] i dont do that
[Gotten into a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish/etc?] i dont have a pet
[Been to New York?] yep
[Been to Florida?] i've lived here all my life
[California?] yep
[Hawaii?] hopefully thats wat next summer is for! :D
[Mexico?] no... *sniff sniff*
[Philippines?] no
[Danced naked?] for me to know
[Had a dream about something really crazy?] define crazy
[Stalked someone?] heee heee heee
[Had a mud bath?] no
[Wished you were the opposite sex?] YES
[Had an imaginary friend?] not that i can recall
[What time is it now?] 3:30
[Apples or Bananas?] i eat both
[Red or Blue?] red
[Wal-Mart or Target?] target
[Spring or fall?] fall
[Do you have a boy/girlfriend what is his/her name?] no ... dammit!
[Santa or Rudolph?] santa!
[What time is it now?] 3:31
[Has the most distinct laugh?]valerie, danielle, vanessa, but everyone has their own laugh really
[Will grow up and be a model?] lil vi! hehe. if she gets tall enough. we'll see.
[Is going to have the most kids?] tranny lol i dunno if she'll have the most but shes so good with them
[Have you known the longest?] amber
[Knows you the best?] thats hard to say
[Is the loudest?] wow they all are lol
[Is the quietest?] probably me i guess
[Do you have the most classes with?] ashley c
[Do you miss the most?] _ _ _ and all my friends from wms + atl
[What are you going to do after you finish this survey?] take a shower
[What was the last meal you ate?] i had easy mac and i had some bread
[High school or college?] i dunno i havent been in college, but i assume college is better cuz the freedom
[Are you bored?] no not really, more like tired
[How many of your buddies are online?] 13 but i'm not talking to any of them
[Last movie you saw?] men in black 2
[dvd] men in black 2
[Last noise you heard?] my keyboard
[Last birthday party you went to?] vanessa's
[Last time you went out of state?] umm like in september? to houston, tx
[What is your lucky number?] i dunno
[MY HAIR:] badly needs to be washed
[MY MAKEUP:] i have no makeup on right now i hardly ever wear it in high school
[MY FAVORITE THING TO DO:] having nothing to do. altho it's my least favorite when it actually happens lol
[I'M WEARING:] a sailor moon shirt and black pijama pants
[I'M EATING:] i ate already
[I'M DRINKING:] cke
[I'M LISTENING TO:] tapping of my keyboard + kelly rowland
[I'M FEELING:] tired! get the picture yet?!
[I'M THINKING:] i hope this survey ends soon
[I SEE:] the computer screen
APPEARANCE
[eyes?] chocolate brown
[height?] 5'4" ... at least thats wat it says on my learners license
[weight?] riiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.
[kill?] devon. lol and i have ppl to help me.
[shag?] haha. that is not a priority of mine right now.
[slap?] devon. lol.
[hear from?] _ _ _ or greta
[get really wasted with?] i dont
[tickle?] me elmo
[look like?] me
[be like?] when i grow up i wanna be just like me!
[avoid?] doing homework
FAVORITE
[food?] moms cookin.... resturants..
[drink?] caramel frapp, mango-a-go-go smoothie
[shoes?] steve madden, tommy, chinese laundry, etc but the shoes i wear the msot are my target flipflops
[site?] i havent updated my website in like forever
[dance?] i love dancing! but i need a partner.
[song?] right now, kelly rowland "havent told you"
[vegetable?] potato
[fruit?] peach, mango, logan, leechee, sugar apple
[berry?] stawberry
LAST PERSON YOU
[touched?] my aunt, uncle, and cuzins
[talked to?] my brother and my grandpa
[hugged] my uncle
[instant messaged?] nicole
[kissed?] no one
[had a crush on?] i still like him
[who broke your heart?] _ _ _ ... and he still does everyday

xoxox

.....
*yawn*... my little cuzins have been with me for a like a week now and it seems like forever. i love their company though. they make everything seem more fun and they make me forget about everything except family and fun [as cheesy as it sounds]. my winter break has been tiring, but invigorating at the same time. i love not having to worry to do stuff and to be with my little cuzins playing video games, playing tennis, bowling, etc.

sum up of my winter vacation:

-andrew came
-andrew's ib graduation *snore*
-lotr two towers! orlando bloom!
-preparation for relatives.. cleaning
-spent 24 hours with danielle
-xmas eve party @ tran's aunt's house
-uncle, aunt, + 2 cuzins came
-xmas! presents!
-overpriced lion country safari
-went to orlando to see anne and lil vi and met up with another aunt, uncle, and three cuzins
-went to IOA with my brother, four cuzins, two uncles, and lil vi
-came back with all family in tow! 13 ppl total stayin in our house
-saw maid in manhattan with danielle... cant believe how sweet it is!
-boomers and lotr two towers again! more orlando bloom!
-new yr's eve, some family left, some family came, sickness, and fireworks!
-new yr's day, gardens mall, saw just married with danielle
-aventura mall in miami and bowling

thats it so far! wow i've had a busy little vacation. i miss my friends a lot though. obviously not danielle, lol but i miss all the happenings at school. oh well. i should enjoy not being in school while i can right?

<3 xoxo

yay xmas is here
i waited til after 10 am to open my gifts! thats like a world record. i was all like "every kid in the whole world has opened their gifts except us". lol i had to wait for my little cuzins to finish their breakfast. i love xmas. all the giving and receiving is so nice.

yesterday i cleaned, and then i went out with my mom for lunch and some errands then we came home and prepared to go to a party. i looked so cute! i sound like valerie now. but i did! i took pictures, and i hope it captured my ravishing beauty haha. it was a pretty boring adult party but hey i have to go thru with it. then we picked up my uncle and his family. their kids are so incredibly cute its not even funny.

today we didnt do anything of course, cuz wat is there to do? we drove and walked by the beach but it was getting boring + cold so we left. i came home, took a nap and then nicole came over to give me my present. i love her! she went thru hollister just for me. and she got me a clubcali card.

stuff i got over the past two weeks of the holidays:

dvds- donnie darko, lilo and stitch, O

cds- mariah carey, j.lo, amerie, brandy, nivea, 3lw, b2k, 10 things i hate about you soundtrack, p.diddy, kelly osbourne, jennifer love hewitt, good charlotte, jay-z, mario, kelly rowland

clothing- belt, pants, two necklaces, a bracelet, fsu soffes, hollister shirt, simple plan tee, happy face slippers

etc- victorias secret body stuff, guess wallet, teddy bear, picture frame, shimmer body powder

i think that's it? who knows! but i'm very grateful. i'm sad that i couldnt get my guy underneath the tree but no one can get everything they want, right? oh well. the presents took my mind off him for a LITTLE while anyways.

ok i'm bored
hey... i'm on the phone w/ devon right now. yes. she always calls me. she just cant get enough of me like every1 else. i think she's jealous of me hanging with danielle so much. its funny! she like sort-of-kinda-not-really disses her sometimes and she was all like "well i never imagined that u'd be hangin out with her" and i was like "well we're good friends" and she's all like "well WE'RE good friends" and i was like "oh... well i only have 1 class wit her so i dont get to talk to her". she's talkin to this guy online and ... its annoying me. y doesnt she talk to me online? i have no idea. she must love my voice. lol she wants to know where my online journal is.

yesterday i went to go see two week's notice cuz maid in manhattan was sold out! but it was a cute moive. go seee it! i slept over danielle's house with her cousin johannah and we had a great time. we danced, laughed, and talked. we stayed up til 4 am and woke up at 11:30 to the sound of drilling from the bathroom. it was fun spendin time wit them tho. first time of 24 hours straight of danielle lol. i might go crazy now! hehe. johannah's brother is a cutie lol.

i kept thinking bout my guy. i miss him too much to xpress in words. i like to try though. danielle + johannah did a great job at trying to take my mind offa him. some quotes:

everytime I look into your eyes, I'm helplessly aware, that the someone I've been searching for, is right there

if its the thought that counts than you can count on me cuz i think of you all the time

love is not finding the perfect person, it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly

sometimes i wish i had never met you, because then i could sleep at night without knowing there was someone out there like you

sometimes i wonder if life is worth it then i look at your smile and i know it is

xoxo xtina.gabino.selene

ok i'm bored
hey... i'm on the phone w/ devon right now. yes. she always calls me. she just cant get enough of me like every1 else. i think she's jealous of me hanging with danielle so much. its funny! she like sort-of-kinda-not-really disses her sometimes and she was all like "well i never imagined that u'd be hangin out with her" and i was like "well we're good friends" and she's all like "well WE'RE

sigh
today was an ok day. i got an A in bio for the nine weeks! now i just gotta get a C on all my exams... not too hard, but i still gotta study.

lol. heather was tellin me bout this kid she likes from s.tech that rides her bus named joel. and i was like hey is he friends with ben [cuz a.j. said somethin bout ben always sittin wit a kid from s.tech] and she said yes and i was like lol! ben and joel... like benji and joel from gc. hehe.

i'm feeling lonely. i feel like some people [especiall guys] don't wanna talk to me. hmmm. i dunno.

ok. i tried three times. i have realized that i just cant stop liking him like that. it's gotta be natural ya know? just like falling for him in the first place. today is like one of those days. those days of wanting to be in somebody's arms, those days of wanting to feel loved. i am loved, but not like how i want to be. i know it seems a little selfish, but it's true. i just kept looking at him today and the feelings were like blowing me away cuz i want to be with him so bad. why? i have no idea. he DOES have faults. he IS a loser/jackass/dumbass sometimes. it's just... when you like someone... you can't explain why. it's just that feeling you get. that feeling is what you want to be like all the time and only that one person can make you feel that way. greta says you can tell in my eyes that i want him so bad. its not like when i look at him, i think or say "OMG! THERE HE IS, HE'S SOOOO FINE" like my other friends [altho theres nothing wrong with that]. when i look at him, when i get to really look at him, my mind is thinking

h/o devon called... second time today...

anyways when i look at him, i think of all the happiness he could bring me and that if i wait for him long enough and i'm patient then i'll be able to be with him and be able to experience that. i dunno how i like him or why. but i just know i do and i cant stop it. even though it hurts to like him and not have him, it hurts just as much to try to not like him when in actuality... i do.

but thanx to everyone who loves me and think i deserve better. i love that ppl try to help me get over him, but it's almost impossible [...almost].

"pretty baby don't you leave me
I have been saving smiles for you
pretty baby why can't you see
you're the one that I belong to
I'll be the embrace that keeps you warm
for you're the sun that breaks the storm
I'll be alright and I'll sleep sound
as long as you keep comin' around, pretty baby

and I know things can't last forever
but there are lessons that you'll never learn
just the scent of you it makes me hurt
so how's it you that makes me better

can you hold me and never let go
when you touch me it is me that you own
pretty baby the place that you hold in my heart
would you break it apart again... oh pretty baby"

yay!
wow.

ok nicole came over and we got all nice and ready and purty as we could for our concert and then we left with tran and christina g.

we went in, our seats were incredible and RIGHT as i was walking down the steps, the people were like "and here is simple plan!" and i was like OMG and they played three songs. they played my fave, addiction. then they were all like "oh we'll be between sections 102 and 104 and you can meet us" so i was like OMG and i left tran to go see my boys! it was so fucking annoying it was like they were a boyband or something. all these bitches and hos were all like "who are theses guys?!" and "oh oh oh i want their autograph" when they didnt even know who the fuck they were. i had to buy to cd to get in line for their autograph!! but me and nicole thought it was worth it. we met them, and we had our simple plan tee's on. they were cool and we took a pic with them. i got a hug from the lead singer and i was tellin them how they should have more shows, with LESS people.

the show itself was pretty good overall. there were some disappointments but it was still worth the money [$110!!]. craig david is really talented, he sang with his guitarist. i missed angie martinez [i was waitin for simple plan] but tran said they were good. nick carter was bad :( ... thats kinda sad. i'll stick to crushin on aaron hehe.

destiny's child was so beautiful and so talented. i love their performances. and they even did their little parts from bonnie and clyde and dilemma. no xmas songs tho. i really wouldve wanted that. solange performed after them too.

kylie minogue was cute. her dancers just looked kinda freaky in their outfits. she sung her songs and she sung locomotion! but she made it all weird. i was ready to bust out with the 80s style locomotion but she screwed it up.

p.diddy was a show stopper! he totally got the crowd into it. he brought out loon, foxy brown, pharrel [sp?], and genuwine! genuwine sung "my whole life"... he was kinda X-rated, he was all grinding the stage and touching himself down there. me and tran were just like okkaaaaay. p.diddy threw his white spino hat RIGHT TOWARDS me and tran. it was like coming directly at us. and this kid sittin in front of his jumps up and doesnt let go, all these girls are like beatin on him but he keeps it and he ruins it. he wasnt even like enjoying the show til then. ugh. when p.diddy did "every breath i take..." it was so sad! they had pictures of aaliyah, left eye, tupac, notorious b.i.g, big pun etc on the big screens. i wanted to cry. it was a good part.

ja rule. man... can he be any more lame. he was disapppointing! he made the crowd sing like half the time and he didnt even bring anyone to work up the crowd. he had like 50 ppl on stage with him just doing nothing.

then it was really really late and my parents had already waited in the car for like a hour and avril and mariah still hadnt performed. my mom was all like "u betta come out at 12 i dont care whos singing". so me and tran were all like "should we go up and find nicole and christina to tell them" cuz they didnt answer their phone [we had diff seats]. so we went up there and a lotta seats were empty there so they were suggestin we stay for mariah and then we'll leave at 12. so i was like fine ok. then... MARIAH WAS LIKE RIGHT AT WHERE OUR SEATS WERE. if me and tran had went back, we wouldve been able to see her up close and touch her and... sigh. i didnt think i'd mind such a thing but all i was doing was crying nonstop with tranny. i had no idea i'd be so emotional. all throughout "through the rain" i was crying. then ... she sang "all i want for xmas is you" and for some reason it made me and tranny like ecstaticly happy. only mariah can make us cry nonstop then extremely happy in less than 10 minutes lol. and then we missed avril. she was VERY last so we didn't get to see her. but there'll always be other times. i'm happy i saw mariah :)

anyways i can't remember anything else that happend. today was chill. the odyssey is funny. algebra 2 exam tomorrow. wish me luck!

omg i cant wait... this weekend is gonna be kick ass!

hells yea! though next week is exam week, i'm gonna have loads of fun this weekend. i already have had some!

this week at school was just blah. yesterday danielle came over and we went to dinner and we went to see drumline! yes! finally! i love that movie. maybe ppl will appreciate bandos a lil more. danielle's like my movie friend hehe. i saw like 7 ppl from atl. i saw a bunch of ben's friends and i saw some ppl from my art class. i had fun :)

today hopefully i will get my gift for valerie. she told me she got me something from victoria's secret... i figured it out lol she's not too good at keeping it from me! i'll probly go town center with mi madre. then tonite we'll probly go [woth danielle again hehe if we can get her] see maid in manhattan.

now the biggie:

JINGLE BALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!!!!!!!!

I'm going with tran and nicole down to miami tomorrow to go see the Y-100 jingle ball. hopefully, we can worm our ways into someplace where we can meet someone. i cant wait! i love ALL the performers. avril, destinys child, nelly, ja rule, jay-z, craig david, mariah carey, angie martinez, kylie minogue, and SIMPLE PLAN! aaaaaah! hehe. wish me luck on trying to meet them! next time i write in here, i betta be fucking ecstatic.

confusion?
ok, last time i posted, i said i was gonna give up my guy. well i ended up not. but now, i REALLY AM. i swear. it's like the third time now. it's just sooooo hard cuz when i see him i just feel what i originally felt for him and all the happy feelings. but he's been bad lately and i've heard so many bad things about him i just... cant deal. i'm glad my friends help me, but it's basically all up to me if i really do give him up. wish me luck.

this weekend i did nothing. my peeps went on the prism band trip and had tons of fun without me. oh well. it'll happen a lot more too! i guess i just hafta stay at home and be lonely. i did nothing this weekend! i went xmas shopping thats all.

in school, imma be soooooo blah. if i'm quiet, just... ignore me. lol.

xoxo

aaaaahhh... finally i have my hw done
today was an a-ok day. even days always are. cuz it's like totally chilling out most of the day cuz all i have history, art, drivers ed, and english. i get to relax. but then the bad thing is i come home to homework in four subjects for the next day. oh well.

today my feeling is sorta indifferent. nothing happened. when you give up your guy, there's really no excitement in the day, ya know? and valerie just has SOOO many guys haha she's ALWAYS excited. but just me with my ex-guy. hehe, not even my ex-boyfriend, my ex-guy. its kinda hard to explain. i'll always like him, but ... there's no point in inflicting emotional pain on myself bcuz i'm stressin about whether he'll come talk to me or not. it feels a lot better, like to not worry and stuff, but also i feel kinda empty inside.

"don't mess with my man, imma be the one to break it to ya. got my girls, got my man, so find your own and leave mine alone. dont mess with my man, imma be the one to break it to ya. here's a little advice for you: find your own man. "

hehe. i love that song ^.

noooo... i dont wanna go back...

i LOVE being on vacation! i don't wanna go to school. i wish it was still thanksgiving night.

on friday we went shopping at palm beach gardens and then we went to city place. nothing really interesting happened. kinda sad.

saturday, we went to wellington mall and then we went home. that nite, we went to see moonlight mile. it was greaaaat! i love jake gyllenhaal, he's my absolute favorite actor! why? when he acts... like when he plays a role of a guy that falls in love, his face and his actions REALLY make you believe that he's %100 devoted to that girl and really wants to be with her. and i want that. in the movie, he's quite muscular! haha, they show a lot of him, and lemme tell ya, i loved it lol.

today was like the chill at home day for my family. we did noooooothing. and we haven't really left the house. i'm extremely bored. i dont wanna do hw, cuz i dont need to right now. but i wanna be somewhere a lil more entertaining or talking to someone more interesting. hmm.

peace

interesting quiz results...

What type of a Bando are you?

Which HP Kid Are You?

uuum... i dunno.

yeah i told everyone that i was givin up my lover, but i dunno, i'm having second thoughts.... it's just, when i see him again on monday, i KNOW that i'll start liking him ALL OVER AGAIN. that's not good. he made me cry, and no guy is sposed to do that. he's not worth it, but i just keep thinking and thinking. thinking is bad! everyone supports my decision, but now i dunno if i support it myself. hmmm. it's funny, all these ppl tryin to hook me up! alexis & eduardo are tryin to hook me up wit eduardo's best friend. his name is danny, he seems cool so far. we'll see what happens for my love life.

today is TURKEY DAY! time to eat! hehe. i have been cooking and cleaning and now i'm on my break. i think i might go play some tennis later with andrew but i dunno if we'll have time.

i'm sooo bad... i havent even STARTED ANY hw. i told myself i'd finish it all on wednesday so i wouldnt have to worry about it. but i guess the damn feeling of procrastination got to me. oh well.

<3 Xtina.Gabino

yay... school is out!
i feel like the guy i like is totally fucking ignoring me... wat have i done wrong? janyll says we need to get me a new guy...

hopefully, tomorrow night will consist of dancing my ass off at club safari for teen night! i hope i can go... i hope i can get a ride...

school is ok. i have a B in bio right now, but that can definitely change. if i DO get a B on the report card, i probly wont be writing in here anymore for a WHILE. but if i DO get an A, i will be ecstatic, becuz then i don't have to worry about acing the semester exam. cuz i know i wont.

how come everyone on woohu writes so much less than me? am i just a talkative person? no... maybe just cuz i'm a fast typer.

sometimes i see people dissing singers bcuz they dont think their lyrics are meaningful or they think that they are conformists or some shit like that. like how everyone disses avril cuz she's "a britney who went on a shopping trip to hot topic", pretending to be punk. excuse me, but ummm did i say i liked her punk style or the fact she's a punk? no. i like her music. i enjoy it. and she has a good voice... that's why she SINGS people... and christina aguilera, ok if she really was a slut, does it fucking matter? no, i dont admire her for her nonexistence of virginity, i admire her cuz she's a great singer with determination who can handle taking all this shit from everyone.

sorry, but i just felt like saying that. and hey, if i ever became a singer, and happened to have a lotta songs about love, would you say that i'm an airhead just cuz that's what i feel like singing about? some would. they would say "god can this girl talk about anything besides guys or have any real substance?" some wouldnt even take the chance to find out about my actual personality to see if i AM fake or if i'm a good person.

anyways... my tangent is done now. :D