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2004 8 May :: 9.44am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Don't Tell Me // Avril Lavigne
go shorty, its ur birthday
let's just say i'm lucky to become part of the first varsity cheerleading team at Park Vista High School. Michelle, Chelsea, Shay, Nikki, etc. we all made the team. i can't wait for the school year to start. just walking off the bus with jb & britt.... it felt s0o.... high school - ish, not like, we have to go home & study & sit on our asses. its more of... we are going to do sports & its traditional to hang out with football players if ur a cheerleader. plus, they are my guiding hand, or my big brothers, as i go into this year. its like... weird talking to britt on the phone too, but he always returns my calls, & he isn't such an ass when he is on the phone with me. like.... i told him about making varsity & he said something along the lines of, "well we all knew u were going to make it. u just hadda believe u would, cause i definitely knew u would." so idk he's cool... and jb, i believe took home britt's cleat. and britt wants me to go get it from jb... in hopes that i will return it. idk i'm just glad they will be there with me. plus i have: Michelle, Neil, Ashley, Shay, Alex, Chelsea, Nikki, Scott, etc. whoever is going. so i'm excited. but there's definitely going to be an empty place after leaving atlantic.
i'm trying not to say goodbye to anyone. i don't want to lose touch with anyone at all. but there is always that time....
Danielle: my sister. we've been thru hell & back, & all the crazy memories we shared and this life long friendship that can't be outdone. i mean everything has been so great, i don't know where i would be without u, and now i'm scared to be without u. i think ur the reason i've stayed so conservative & ur the reason i am who i am. and i thank u for it. but i want to make more memories with u. cars, boys, drinks, friends, etc. all that.
Anand: bitch / hoe relationship. its been awesome. ur like so... "all around" lol. we've shared so many laughs & u've been there to cheer me up all the time. i love how easy it is to talk to u. and just to make fun of each other continuously & still, "feel the love."
Avi: our relationship grew steadily. u've become my cheating buddi. always the one there that was able to "hook me up" or just to make fun of, or crack on someone, or just laugh. i know we've complained about Atlantic for s0o long... but its going to be s0o odd not waking up in the morning & going to school to watch the enjoyment of u begging carlos to do ur spanish hw. lol. sadly enough stats is over... the rest of my math classes.. i will fail... without u. imma miss u.
carlos: wow. thats all there is. i mean talking... all the time. like 2 close friends should. i always seem to understand how u feel, but we can never manage to make a solution to it. u & i talk so much... its kinda like... idk. the stuff we talk about, the moments we have. there's nothing like it. priceless. i will always be here for u.
pj: damn, from elementary school til now. its been fun. now ur living around here... we're still gonna hang out. i don't want no1 else callin' me "Tiny one" or givin' me scoops. u've been wonderful. s0o shy & afraid of girls, but s0o easy to talk to. laid back & simply sweet. i couldn't ask for more. ur gonna find the perfect girl. she's gonna be s0o lucky. don't hold out on her. <3 ya.
pretam: ur the shit man! yeah. yeah! damn, without u.... english wouldn't be so entertaining. u have the funniest personality & i love it. i could never in a million years find anyone like u. ur hands in ur pants, ur dirty dancing, ur obsession with outkast, ur funny remarks, etc. ur just unique. bi-curious lol. ur the best.
sameen: this year has been great. i can't imagine what economics would have been without u. so sweet & adorable, i just wanna pinch ur cheeks like a grandma lol. how do u play dominoes? hehe. but i'm definitely going to miss u next year.
logan: bb. my short red head friend. i am still shocked that u got outta ib. i mean... yeah... cheating. whatever it was a funny laugh while it lasted. ur the one who seems to cause all the tension between ib people, and yeah, u may be one of those kids who benefits himself, but i still enjoy your company. its hard not to like u, even after the stupidest arguments we've had... u always find something stupid, yet slick to do that will always make me laugh.
sunil: homie! who's gonna turn around just to pinch my cheeks, give me a high five, or to call me a bitch? art history is the only class we've had together, u know, imma miss u. its like cRAzY. u give me hugs just for the hell of it. and when i need one... u always manage to give them to me at the perfect time. i wish i could be brown, just like u. i wanna be related to u lol. anyways, imma miss ur stank ass, xoxo lol j/k
adam: ur personality is so great. although u piss heather off lol, i know she still loves u deep down. but u always make ib less stressful, and make me smile everytime i don't feel so good. ur a perv, but ur also a guy lol. xoxo imma miss making fun of stupid ms french & jb. lol
ashley t: we've been friends since 7th grade. and its been a long journey. i never figured we'd make it this far... varsity, classes... everything... but i'm glad u are my friend. we have that problem... that results in making fun of ugly people & stupid people... and that problem where we just laugh about people. idk i'm just gonna miss u. i wish we could have hung out more tho. xoxo
heather: i'm glad we've became friends this year. altho i wish we could have been closer.. but don't listen to what anyone says. all those feelings and emotions are just a part of growing up, stay happy as frequent as possible cause ur pretty & there's no need to feel pissed off about anything.
kailannie: this year has been so much fun, and even though cheerleading is the only thing that really holds us as friends, i don't mind, because i enjoyed it. i mean checkin' out the cute guys, watchin' the basketball players be stupid... i mean... teaching me how to "be black" with dances... its been a trip. but now that i'm leaving, i wish u the best of luck on JV & be sure to have fun.
christina: i wish u & i would have become better friends. ur accomplishments always amaze me, and ur like a role model. i know u have those up & down days, but everyone does, just continue to stay the strong person that i know u can be. ur going to find ur one true love, i know it. if the guy is smart... he won't turn away from u. with all ur different talents, ur going to be big. i wish u luck.
amanda f: what are we going to do without being in school together next year?? ure so sweet & ur stories about ur friends are great. ur definitely not the person i expected u to be... member when we first met in McManus's class... and u thought danielle & i were going to be snobby? and the plays we put on. and then having english together this year... hanging out with u has been fun. and then all the poetry analyizing we've done. and bitching at peter. imma miss these days. love ya.
ashley c: tampa... is lucky. they are getting u. but i hope u enjoy it there. i know atlantic is gonna be worse next year too. but we've made a few good memories... even though i will cherish those, i wish we made more. ur so beautiful, idk where ur lover is. but he needs to find u cause he'd make ur life so much easier. xoxo come visit us every once in awhile.
jessica c: although we've only had english class together this year, its been so much fun. messin' around.. makin' fun of.. u know who. and figurin' out pretam's sexuality lol. i know u can do better in ib... pull through. <3
jessica b: long year, few memories. i'm glad i at least got to hang out with u twice. the time u lost ur cell phone at the club, and then during homecoming. u know i've always wanted to be friends with u, but knowing that ur very picky with friends... i just accepted i wouldn't really ever have the chance. but i'm glad there is this woohu thing, otherwise i would have never known u at all. ur an awesome dancer, & i hope that brings u somewhere in life. and all ur reasoning for situations... its just funny. great personality. keep it real. xoxo
liz: i feel like i know u so well, yet we barely talk, but i put u here because u impress me. ur always so happy & sweet & caring. ur brighten everyone's day & i look up to ya. stay sweet & don't change, u definitely have some angel wings that just happen to invisible to everyone. xoxo
ashley p: now that u're there, i'm leaving... i didn't want it to come to this... but it must. u've been a friend that i could never ask for. so wonderful, caring, beautiful, funny, sweet, smart (in some ways) lol.... etc. i love how we can make fun of each other and neither of us get personal about it. and the stupid things we say... that just make my day. haha that rhymes. <--- like that. lol anyways, make some more haitian friends for me... and enjoy the rest of the atlantic. don't forget our tree. xoxo imma miss... the smell of ur feet. jk. lol miss ya.
jackie: this is pointless because im about to repeat everything i said in ur yearbook that i wrote forever & a day in. but ur a great friend. u've been there through thick and thin and we have made so many memories together. from typing class to the cruise to late night talks to laughs & few tears & hard times & summer days. i can't imagine what its gonna be like next year, not being able to look forward to seeing u every morning. but i know summer is coming & u have ur car... and i will get mine... then it will be beach, sun & boys. love ya... sis.
to those at ATLANTIC that i missed. i love u still... and all of u... continue IB... its well worth it. enjoy the '04-'05 year. stay strong, i'm always hear for everyone. this entry is way too long, so i'm out xoxo
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2004 6 May :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: drained
i found the girl i grew up in diapers with.
s0o today was just plain bizzy.
chem: the electricity went out, so we had class out by the cafeteria. got nothing done, but it was relaxing.
spanish: i swear, the ending of PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN would have ended s0o much better... IF MS. FRENCH WASN'T COMMENTING ABOUT IT 24/7. stupid lady.
english: boring. took the vocab quiz & read. plus i did some bio hw.
bio: sat in Kenyon's class while my class took a test, i fell asleep in there, then forgot to wake up in time to go to back to murnan's. o well... he didn't care much.
afterschool: headed to Park Vista. learned the cheer & dance very well. super gay tho. 15-20 on JV, 20-25 on Varsity. i find out tomorrow... what i make, after i tryout. ::crosses fingers:: wish me luck.
the best thing in the world: not talking to ur childhood best friend in forever & then running into her at cheerleading tryouts to the same school that u both are going to next year. how awesome is that! wow, her & i... i miss those days. but we have got to make plans to hang out & stuff, so it'll be good.
then i headed to atlantic practice... they didn't get much accomplished... but what do i care??? cause i won't be there... s0o i didn't let it piss me off nor stress me out.
anyways i am so sore & tired... and woozy cause i just took 2 advil when i should have only taken 1. but all this pain... eek
need neil to call me back, i think imma call in sick for work this week. i wanna c hema, alex, ashley e, neil & jonah. <3 ttyl xoxo
leave love. damn woohu/angelfire is messin' my journal up +shrug+
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2004 5 May :: 9.44pm
:: Mood: weak
:: Music: watching the OC
chem: hadda get at least a C on the quiz.
stats: pj is my brother, i swear, and mike... i love that kid cause he is so laid back. we talk about the stupidest things. but for the most part... that class was kinda dull other than that.
economics: me, sameen & jackie talked instead of studying the whole class. which wasn't bad. jackie is really sweet. wish i woulda been friends with her this year. but she is leaving too. she told me john and kassy are going out.... haha. interesting.
art history: i felt loved when anand asked me to sit next to him to keep him company. mma miss him too. but yeah, thunder thighs, monkey man, hoe, bitch. haha. ur the best.
carol picked me up from school. kinda funny cause she picked me up in the escalade & i saw heads turn, and like... ashley p was jealous lol. funny.
so i went to cheerleading practice at Park Vista. lots of girls that are dumb, "what's a notary?" and then... i met michelle & kari. they're awesome. and shay, and some other girls. ashley defonso, devon s, althea rolle,nikki silver, chelsea paletti... they were all there. not so bad. but its competitive, & we got a "favoritism" coach from John I. because the other coach, Coach Snider, has already quit. so who knows what is going on. but yeah... its scary. if i don't pull varsity... i'm out. grr. i hope i do. X-crosses fingers-X anyways... i'm sore now. and 2morrow... i have.... practice from 3:30-6 @ PVHS & 6-8 @ AHS. goodnight. this weekend should be fun. imma c hema most definitely. xoxo should make a good entry some time this weekend. byes
(i want him 2 tell me that i'm pretty & hot. i'm sick of hearing... "did u meet so & so? she's HOT." or "this girl at school was wayyyyy hot." or when i told him today that i felt inferior & intimidated by all the pretty girls at practice... his attitude was like, "HOT GIRLS? WHERE R THEY? I GOTTA GO THERE." that sort of thing. i want to know that i am pretty. that i am his girlfriend. +tear+)
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2004 4 May :: 10.03pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: ..RuN aWaYy -->> Lp..
. GaYy aSs ShYtt .
GawdD, i cant wait till i'm 18 .. w0nt have t0 w0rryy b0ut wut parentalzz sayy. I cant even see my best friend because parentzz are gayy. I never get t0 see her nem0re. Thiz DEF suxx. I l0ve y0u eRin. I'm tellin 0ne dayy, me nd u r juss guna start bytchiin lyke crazyy. Are theyy tryin t0 make us st0p bein friendzz .. cuz wutever theyy d0 .. it aint guna happen. Nuthin can break uss .. l0l, we benn thru t00 much. Good talk t0niite. We DEF talkedD l0tz 0f shyt b0ut them. 5 yearzz 0f friendshiip .. nd iz juss guna keep gettin higher .. 6 yearzz, then 7 .. it w0nt endD. Parentz are MADD gay. // eRin .n. siSi `477 \\
Missing my baby. Tom0rr0w iz JENJEN'z bdayy. wh00p wh00p lyke craziiness. 16 FiNALLY!! I l0ver her! << crazyy bananaz >> I'm dun bytchiin b0ut shyt f0r the niite. Later bytchezz. (( oNe ))
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2004 4 May :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: worn out
:: Music: u don't have to call // usher
phew, last night was a toughy. weee hours of sleep. much studying & not passing that ap stats test. sad sad thing. o well.
um.. school was ok. danielle came back today =) um... all of us studying in lunch & in english. and then when me, liz, pretam, anand, avi & jb were walking to hellllll....yikes.
after stats exam, i got home, got dressed & went to boca for cheerleading. got dropped on my head. definitely didn't appreciate that. o well tho. in 5 years... thats never happened... and the one year it does... nobody cares. niiice. they worked us out tho. pain. i'm good tho. i can handle it... but watching some of them... well 99.99% of those girls drop to the floor & i'm still sitting up. whoa lol
swanson is a funny teacher.
"its sad when ur TEACHER isn't even motivated."
anyways, since i didn't get a call from jonah, imma hit the shower, study for chem quiz & do some extra credit in art history ttyl. xoxo
hope everyone enjoyed their day. PYCE, leave love.
anyone doing the saturday night hotel thing... bring $20 to school 4 me. gotta have it by friday so i can get it to neil. any questions call: 254.8483
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2004 3 May :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: ..As y0u sLeEp -->> Sc..
. cLoSe y0ur eyezz .. nd i wiLL be sinGin the saMe t0 0nlyy y0u .
0mg, i l0ve that s0ng. l0l, newh0, juss g0t 0ff w0rk .. PAYWEEK!! l0l, cant wait .. g00d ass check. Newh0, WEiNER iz back. l0l, i dun think i've ever g0tten such a bigg hugg fr0m ne0ne. NiCk iz startiin hiz 0wn gr0wiin .. yay, free weed!! Me nd my babyy g0t in a fiite t0dayy, but then he calledD me back nd saidD he was s0rry nd that he l0vedD me. Made me feel better bef0re g0in t0 w0rk. That'z b0ut it .. tiredD az fuck. i l0ve hiim .x. 60 niine .. ohh yea, i d0. hehe .. l0l
0h yea, maTt iz jeNny'z new l0ve .. he'z in the army. HAHA .. l0l, we alwayyz laugh at the craziiest shyt. l0l, fuck anth0ny .. g0 0ut wit maTt! We didnt see hiim t0dayy th0 .. musta g0t calledD t0 arabia .. l0l, iRaq. l0l, ilu s0o much chiimmy chunga!! HaHa (( diirt laugh )), ur the bestest . . .
. LeXi g0nzaLez . chRistie b0ner . stePhanie ceFaLi . me . <<-- l0l, we dun hang 0ut wit 0ur wang 0ut .. we sm0ke 0ut wit 0ur b0wl 0ut. l0l, 0nlyy st0nerzz w0uld think 0f that .. u guyyz r my new 42o gurliezz. Next wkend guyyz .. guna be great!! l0vezz y0u. <33 (( oNe ))
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2004 2 May :: 11.08pm
partied, at what started as amanda's party but then got in the jb's car with him, britt, and neil and roamed around. good moments. <3 hittin' my head TWICE. seein' trent @ lake charleston, neil jumping outta the moving van, jb & britt just being dumb.
returning to amanda's party & jb eating all the cupcakes and stupid stuff. good time.
talked on the phone with jonah for a lil. fell asleep, woke up early, studied stats, went to work, came home, studied more, and now i am here. <3 talking to carlos & hema. miss hema. anyways i gotta dip cause i gotta shower... SSSSSMMMMMEEEEELLLLLLYYYYYYY eewww lol
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2004 2 May :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: ..SumThiNg CoRpoRaTe Cd..
. i ThiNk iT miTe WoRk thiZ tiiMe .
YaYy .. WEiNER iz back!! l0l, he was in a psychiatric place cuz he t0ld hiz m0m he wantedD t0 kill hiimself. l0l, he'z a dumbass f0r bein fuckedD upp .. see, that'z y pillz r badD .. theyy make ur parentz think crazyy shyt 0ver stupid shyt u sayy. l0l, he h00kedD up wit sum cutter gurl. Her name was shawnDa .. l0l. But he'z back .. even th0 he'z gr0undedD till he can pass a drug test .. that will be NEVER! Newh0, last niite was a g00d niite. Saw MEAN GURLZ .. cutest m0vie ever. Nd h0ttest guyyz next t0 me nd eRin at the drive-in. l0l, theyy saidD we were cute f0r laughiin at the m0vie. g00d stuff. We came h0me nd made munchiezz. Sm0kedD lyke 5 tiimez wit riA nd anDy. Drank sum beer nd g0t drunk 0ff 0ur assez. Then at 2am, me nd eRin decidedD t0 walk t0 juStiN'z h0use wh0 livezz lyke a neighb0rh00d away fr0m us by train trackz. l0l, we were fuckedD upp.
Well, i finallyy kn0 n0w he has changedD. My babyy iz the sweetest guyy ever. See, thuRsday he pr0misedD he'd call me bef0re he left f0r DiSNEY 0n fRidayy .. he never did. But last niite, my baby st0le hiz LiL cuzin'z f0ne t0 call me. 0mg, last niite he was lyke the first tiime i met hiim .. but sweeter. He saidD s0 much cute shyt but 0ne thing was madD cute. He was talkin t0 eRin nd she saidD suttin b0ut h0w he was guna cry nd he came back wit thiz .. nd h0nestly, h0w many guyyz sayy suttin lyke thiz t0 their gurl'z best friend. l0l, he t0ld her the 0nly pers0n he w0uld shed a tear f0r w0uld be hiz gurl nd i grabbedD the f0ne s0o quick nd i saidD d0 u relle mean that nd he said .. fr0m the b0tt0m 0f my heart babyy. Nd that'z wen a tear ran d0wn my cheek. The veryy first happy tear i've ever shed f0r hiim. Nd that'z wen i realizedD that he was a different pers0n. An0ther thing was eRin askedD me if a car was c0miin nd if it hadda hit either her 0r edDy .. wh0 w0uld y0u have it hit, nd i didnt kn0 wut t0 sayy nd edDy said that he w0uld jump in fr0nt 0f a car f0r me nd if he survivedD he'd beat the shyt 0utta the pers0n driving .. till his veryy last breath. AwWnEsS. It was a veryy g00d niite. l0l, then wen we hadda hang upp we were lyke i l0ve u m0re, n0 i l0ve u m0re .. l0l, nd eRin was lyke thiz remindz me 0f the c0mmercial 0n TV wit the guyy 0nliine nd if u guyyz dun shut the fuck upp imma break ur f0ne. HaHa, i l0ve hiim s0o much. G0D, nuthin can get me d0wn t0dayy. I'm s0o happy! I'm telliin u .. he'z changedD nd me nd eRin b0th can tell. I l0ve y0u babe! <33 x 69 .. l0l
0kie d0kie, imma g0 n0w. TiredD az fuck .. n0 sleep last niite but wh0 carezz, funn az hell. I miss my babyy a l0t. T0dayy, i juss kinda went sh0ppin nd that'z it. Later h0mezz. (( oNe ))
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2004 1 May :: 10.41am
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: ..WaYy AwAy -->> Yc..
. RiP HeAtHeR .
I cant believe it .. i juss saw her lyke a week ag0 nd n0w .. n0w she'z g0ne! Her babyy was b0rn 4 dayzz ag0 nd her b0yfriendD had askedD her t0 marry hiim. jeRry nd maRtha (( her br0 nd sis )) l00kedD upp t0 her s0o much. She was 0nlyy 17. Her babyy will never kn0 wh0 her m0ther iz. Y d0es shyt lyke thiz have t0 happen?? Her lungz c0llapsedD the dayy bef0re last, then her kidneyzz went nd finally .. her heart. Iz s0o sadD .. i cant believe it. I saw jeRry nd maRtha last niite .. jeRry was in tearzz cuz he wantzz his sis back nd maRtha was juss n0t talkin. I cant believe thiz happenedD .. RiP HeAthEr .. every0ne misses y0u.
Newayyz, didnt d0 shyt last niite cuz my rentz we're g0in 0utta t0wn s0o theyy wantedD me t0 stayy in last niite .. which iz c00l. Yesterdayy bef0re sk00l, me nd chRis FaN g0t fuckedD upp! l0l, sum g00d shyt. NiCk'z party was last niite .. but i dint wana g0. So0o t0dayy will be g00d .. me nd eRin r g0in 0ut lyke all niite nd then c0min back here nd gettin drunk wit riA nd anDy cuz they're stayiin 0ver. jeNny was sp0sedD t0 c0me but she cant n0w. iighty, im 0utt (( oNe ))
0h yea .. i miss my babyy, eDdy. Cant wait till he getzz back fr0m DiSNEY. I l0ve y0u babyy! x0x0.
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2004 1 May :: 9.26am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Loyalty // D12
Loyalty is 1st, all the bullsh`t is 2nd
\\ i'mma man and a man gonna do what a man gotta do, but he ain*t really family if he ain*t loyal 2 u. if they was really s0ldiers then they wud do what we d0o. //
yesterday wasn't bad. well ok... school was.
chem: if u couldn't tell... that's the reason i hate that class. ya got the 1st 2 rows of people that work 2gether, ya got all the guys on the right, pyros or w/e con jb, that r friends, u got christina, adam, & danielle (but she was absent cause of her wisdom teeth, <3 ya). and then u got... me. s0-o cute... cuz i go alone.
spanish: all i can say is: MS FRENCH WON'T BE HERE NEXT CLASS! thank the lord.
english: did my bio hw. nothing really interesting. jessica c & i = not a good idea to be together... talk too much smack lol.
bio: <3 this class lol. yoel was drawing pix of carrrrrr etc. & earl the homophobic. then yoel got ideas of what to draw for me... although he didn't draw the pic. haha. on the butt, write BLACK. woot. we all did the rest of our labs and what not. good class. x`o
after school: took a nap 'til 6:30pm and then jonah called my cell & woke me up ::shrug:: told jackie i wasn't working, so she came over & we went to see MEAN GIRLS. after watching that movie... i felt really guilty. o well. got outta there around 11:30. got home... and she slept over. i talked to jonah on the phone for awhile and then jackie & i fell asleep.
jackie left this morning, and now i'm doin' chores..... gotta go to amanda's tonight, but i might hafta leave early from the party cause family has something planned when daddy gets home.
danielle feel better. call me if u need me... i'll ride my lil' bike over there.
AP stats exam on tuesday... shoot me.
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