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2004 29 April :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: ..WaNdeReR'z GuiLdD -->> ArMoR f0r sLeEp..
. i'm cRaZy WoRriedD .
JUSTiN WEiNER .. u dun kn0 h0w much every0ne iz missing u. We're all s0o w0rriedD. We l0ve u nd we h0pe that everything iz 0k. I wish i w0ulda pickedD u up .. i'm s0rry JUSTiN! i l0ve y0u ..
G0D, i wish i juss knew where he was cuz i w0uld g0 get hiim this sec0ndD. My m0m saidD he c0ulda stayedD wit us. 0mg, i cant believe wut'z g0in 0n. I'm w0rriedD b0ut hiim.
Newh0, my babyy iz g0iin t0 DiSnEy w0rLdD this wkendD. p00pie, i wantedD t0 g0 see hiim but then again, DiSnEy iz cl0se as fuck. Hmm, maybe iz tiime f0r an0ther r0adD triip. I cant wait till this summer. My m0m saidD i c0uldD briing 0ne pers0n t0 NY wit me nd i said ne0ne?? nd she saidD yea s0 she cant take it back n0w. Guna be the BEST.
edDy - i'd fuck u s0o g00d rite n0w
mE - get ur ass 0ver here then
edDy - if u t0ld me u were c0miin t0 get me rite n0w i'd hang upp the f0ne nd start walkin s0o u w0uld have t0 drive that far.
mE - ur s0o sweet.
l0l, aww .. lyke he w0uld get far. I l0ve his little c0mmentzz nd wen he singzz t0 me .. haha! We g0t in a stupidD fiight last niite but we're all g00d n0w. I wanna g0 t0 DiSNEY!! (( oNe ))
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2004 29 April :: 9.07pm
:: Mood: my booty is numb...
:: Music: Leave // JoJo
time for an update-tion.
chem: not bad, i wish we had hw. this section is s0-o easy, this way i could bring up that bad grade that i have. ::sigh:: danielle isn't the only crazy one.
stats: well for the record i bombed my short response for the AP test. o well... i hope i pass when i take the real test on tuesday. i'm going to get the barring's book for it 2morrow. i believe.
other than that, the class was funny. i sold like a million candy bars in that class, pj didn't think i reached five feet, cause murnan measured me yesterday in bio. so pj has dr. baum measure me. BOO ya. lol. then he came up 2 me in lunch & said its just... not possible... but i can still be his midget friend. "tiny one" <3
economics: that class. fuck it. i wrote a note to jackie instead of listening to mr. epstein, and he was like s0-o pissed because someone stole his VCR-DVD player... he was slamming stuff & wow... talk about frustration.
art history: i love this class... s0-o like... our AP test has got to be as easy as those recent years. u can eliminate answers s0-o easily. & i showed anand up with my test taking skills... haha that was "all around" hoe! lol. i mean come on... if u knew that in #2 Der Blaue Reiter was done by Kandinsky & u can eliminate 2 answers from #1.... haha. yeAH! x`o
bus ride home: ok... we were planning saturday night's plans... but, i doubt thats happening... my goal was to prove Britt wrong because he is just seriously pissing me off lately. o well. i just told him to shut up. i can't take him anymore. but he is like... a brother to me... so i guess its kinda.. yeah.
when i got home i fell asleep. now i have to do a quick bio graph. might do that in morone's class 2morrow. um... i called jonah... his mom said he wasn't home. maybe he has just been going to baseball games every night, or perhaps he is grounding himself from the phone again? idk. but i am kinda getting.... annoyed. i love him tho, i love talking to him, i love being with him, i love being in love with HIM.
1o`12`o3
brii `n jonah
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2004 28 April :: 9.53pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: D12 World CD. WOOT THANK U CARLOS <3
the day gets better.
this morning = ok.
chem = got a lil' better.
spanish = seemed to go by faster today.
lunch = "ur name is briana right?".... bite me. thank u. other than that... it was good. <3 those people with me at lunch.
english = that test was s0-o easy.
Bri: hoe.
Anand: bitch.
Bri: isn't it the other way around.
[lmao]
180/200 on the research paper... YeAH!! something is definitely wrong with morone. o well... i don't mind hehe.
bio = she needs a sports bra. lmao. yoel, me & kayli. <3 then... sam's low heart rate. all i can say... BRIANA CAN'T COUNT. oops. one hit, one hit, carrrrr etc. lmao. i swore, i thought it was the rubber band.... but i have to admit that pulling that would have SUCKED testicles. PMS. wed. are the only "difficult days" lol... yeah i love those freshmen. haha
jackie marx & i went to jackie g's house afterschool. that was fun. talking about everything from guys to school to cheerleading... whoa. <3 munchin' on junk food & pimpin' in jackie's car. lol... jackie m. broke ur car lmao. she was so scared lmao. that was great.
practice was good today. leila taught a new chant, and we taught the traditional jumpline & the traditional, "we bring u" chant. <3 c0okiie & i messin' up. ALRIGHT lol. then, LEADING THE TEAM TO ..... VICTORY. haha. GOT IT! <333 good moments. no stunting = makes me satisfied. cheer gym next tuesday. i need $45. thank god. i'm selling candy, bring ur money tomorrow, $1. BUY SOME <3
O.C.: teresa = pregnant.... uh oh... RYAN'S BABY.... we were all wrong... o goodness.
called jonah... last night & tonight... didn't answer either times... ??? man.
talked to neil tonight, and talked to hema last night. thank heavens. had a nice talk with carlos last night & a funny convo with pretam, made me feel good.
tomorrow is thursday already. not looking forward to stats tomorrow, i know i might just break down in tears. but i do get paid tomorrow, and since mommy owes me $60.... its gonna feel like an X*tra big paycheck. YES!
x`o`x`o ttyl. i'm bored. its now 10pm. P*YCE
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2004 28 April :: 8.53pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: ..i pRaYy -->> AmAnDa PeReZz..
. tRu l0ve neVer d0es die .
U were in my dream
Before i even knew there was a u nd me,
Now i cant wait to see ur smile,
Wen i wake up each day,
It makes it worth while.
-->> So0o in l0ve .. s0o happyy wit hiim. I l0ve hiim t0 death!! He makez everythin in my lyfe seem 1oo tiimezz better. I never want this feelin t0 end. Iz s0o much different this tiime. I think he relle has changed. This iz great .. it'z g0tta last! <33 [[ i w0uldnt want nething else .. ]]
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2004 27 April :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: apathetic
watching re runs of real world. hehe
once again, i was up late last night too. i couldn't sleep. 2 much thinking.
chem: the quiz was ok. i still don't like that class. i feel like it's lonely. and then... it gets so lonely that i feel so stupid. and then i feel so stupid that i can't ask for help. and then since i can't ask for help, i just fail.
stats: i chose not to answer those questions on the short answer test. simply because i don't know how to do them. so pathetic. i don't know how... and i don't know why i can't do it... because i understand it... maybe it was because i couldn't keep my eyes open. idk... it was just another reason to add to a reason for tears.
economics: hate the class. thank god for sameen being there. somehow i go from a D to a B in the class... with 2 new grades added. 70/140 on the test & 60/50 on the notes... go figure.
art history: just waiting for it to end. didn't talk to anyone. carlos was writing all class. i just felt like banging my head against the desk. i will probably end up with a B in that class.
Chem: D
Spanish: B
English: ?? who knows... its morone.
Bio: C
Stats: C
Econ: B
Art: B
hoping to pull them up to:
Chem: C
Spanish: keep @ a B
English: hopefully have a B
Bio: keep @ a C or get a B
Stats: keep @ a C
Econ: have an A
Art: have an A
anyways... i'm kinda sad right now... over a million things... talking to carlos... cheerleading... school.... that stuff.
i just wanna c jackie, jonah, alex, hema, neil.... they care.
i love talking to jackie, no matter what she is always there for me. she cares about me... like... nobody else.
jonah is my boyfriend, and i can't live without him. that's love. member that? i just want him to hold me... see him more often.
alex is fun to hang with, and we manage to talk for hours about stupid stuff. she keeps me sane sometimes.
i miss hema. i want her to come back or i wanna live in the apartment that we planned to buy together.
neil... i just miss the fact that we are friends.... like... he knew when something was wrong & if it was he'd make me happy again... whether it was making fun of me or just putting his arm on my shoulder & giving me that funny look.... <3
these people could make me happy. i wanna change... i wanna make people happy.
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2004 26 April :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: Eating Sour Patches
forever is never. until today.
monday = monday.
up late last night. early school day. stupid chemistry class. i don't enjoy it anymore. stupid spanish test. never enjoyed ms. french.
s0... ate lunch. laughed at steven a majority of the time. funny, funny kid. went to morone's, studied for his 30 word vocab test in 5 minutes & passed. listened to peter try & uninclude amanda in their poetry analysis presentation. o0o, i oughtta beat the shit outta him for that. morone's class was fun, after that. i love being in there with those people. EVERYONE is s0o sweet & easy to get along with. went to murnan's class... sucked. took that quest, probably failed. but for our lab assignment i got stuck with sam & chris. but that's ok, but i have yoel who is a really funny/cool kid. <3
afterschool: went to jackie's house. me, ally & jackie ate a lil' something, got ready for the beach & pimped out to alex kelso's beach in jackie's BRAND NEW baby blue convertible buggy. w00t. s0-o much fun. shitty parking job tho, jackie... lol s0-o fun. and then... the beach with kelso. <3 after the beach we ran home & got ready for cheer practice... good stuff.
now i remember why i don't enjoy cheerleading.... because of the people on the atlantic varsity team. thank u. we did stunts today, right? everyone is telling me that i will be flying.. and then... nobody puts me up. instead, they put jackie up... and jackie isn't even on the team. +shrug+ i hate this place. however, i'm still cheering until i make park vista, which i am rather scared of trying out for. but yeah. i have melinda in my ear WHINING about shit... how she came to atlantic because of me and ellis and me leaving ib is going to stink. idk whatever.
so jackie & i talked a lil' and my mom came to get me. then poof.. i was home.
walked over to carol's and talked for a bit. booty girl was talking about how her and i have the same butt lol, "come here, lemme show my boyfriend this junk in the trunk" lol.
then... i was playing with her coach shoes. she says they give her blisters... she offered to give them to me, but they're a size 7, and that... happens to be to big for me. i'm only like a size 6. but they are soooo cute.
now... imma go do that crappy art hist hw.
damn... its only monday x`o
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2004 26 April :: 10.06pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: ..PhaNt0m n0w -->> aFs..
. i GoT myy BaBiiE baCk -- iCe iCe BaBiE .
I'm s0o fuckin tiredD cuz i g0t n0 sleep last niite. I drank nd g0t fuckedD upp nd at 1.15 am we decidedD t0 g0 see KiLL BiLL 2 .. l0l, it was a g00d ass m0vie. I g0t h0me at 3 am nd then i talked t0 eDdy till 4.3o. I finallyy g0t hiim back again. I'm juss prayiin iz different thiz tiime but i have faith in hiim. He already t0ld a bunch 0f hiz friendzz. I miss hiim s0o0o much .. he'z the 0nly 0ne that relle can make me feel happy insiide. We talkedD b0ut everythin last niite. He said he never knew that i usedD t0 cry my eyezz 0ut 0ver hiim nd he felt badD. I askedD hiim if i ever hurt hiim nd he said i did wen we br0ke upp last MaY nd i went 0ut wit that 0ther kidD. He saidD he caredD f0r me lyke a m0ther fucker wen we first met nd he wishez we c0uld g0 back nd never br0ke upp .. but we cant. Well, my rentzz are g0nna be 0utta t0wn thiz wkendD s0o if everythiin w0rkzz 0ut riite, me nd eRin r guna g0 get my babyy! I h0pe it w0rkzz 0ut. I dun think he realizez h0w much i relle care f0r hiim .. he saidD he alwayyz felt lyke i never caredD nd that'z DEF n0t tru nd he sh0uld kn0 that. Newayy, imma b0ut t0 lyke fall asleep riite n0w s0o imma b0unce. (( oNe ))
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2004 25 April :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Don't Tell Me // Avril Lavigne
work was pleasant.
i worked with walter all day today, fun! thank god he was there because it was s0o damn slow. we were picking on tom & pissing him off, making fun of kevin's hair, making fun of steven, & i was picking on walter for the wet spot he left on his butt.... eye level lol. hell yea it is.
anyways... idk why i'm s0o pissy. maybe its cause my dad is offering to pay for my phone bill this week which means i could have spent another $60 at the mall but instead i decided to save it for my bill... which i now... don't have to pay. or maybe its because my mom borrowed $100 off me... for her trip to chicago... which she claims to pay back on thursday. maybe its because i have all this money and because i want a car, i have to spend it on car insurance rather than new clothes. or maybe its because erica jipped me an hour of work today because she knew i am making $7 an hour, and didn't want me making more than i usually do.
o how i love the real world and the money.
perhaps i'm going to go out to dinner with daddy & my brother to a mexican resturant 2night. hehe.
did i mention... i love being able to spend my money... i haven't done it in so long, and i love having someone to shop with- who doesn't care about how much she spends or how long we stay in the mall, and i love being able to talk to someone who is so much older than i am about life, because her advice helps.
i love having my boyfriend, and the love. the feeling of being strong even though we rarely get together... but those butterflies that i get in my tummy every time i see him.... it just makes this world feel great. i miss hema. i love danielle & the friendship we have.
peace 0ut. A-Town Down.
P.S // thank u 4 the compliments on my journal. <3
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2004 25 April :: 1.22pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: ..SaVe YoU -->> Sc..
. Nd she wantz t0 hear .. she'z beautiful .
0mg, i miss hiim s0o much! I finally g0t t0 talk t0 hiim last niite .. nd i criedD. I think, n0 i kn0, he must be the 0ne. He'z all i think b0ut .. y d0 i l0ve hiim s0o much? But i d0 nd i cant h0ld back my feelingzz. He'z meant t0 be wit me .. i h0pe! I h0pe he still l0vez me t00 cuz my feelinzz get str0nger everytiime i hear his v0ice. I have never, n0t 0nce, st0ppedD l0vin hiim .. nd i never will. I l0ve hiim. We talkedD b0ut everythiing last niite. I feel 1oo tiimezz better wen i hear hiz v0ice. N0 guyy will ever make me feel the wayy he makezz me feel. I want hiim t0 l0ve me again. T0 care f0r me again .. i want hiim t0 ask me t0 marry hiim again. Y cant thingzz g0 back t0 the wayy theyy usedD t0 be .. wen we caredD s0o much b0ut each 0ther. I wana live wit hiim .. i'm seri0uslyy thinkin b0ut it. EdDy iz the 0ne nd i wana spendD my lyfe wit hiim. . .
Newh0, planzz switchedD thiz wkendD but it was still crazyy az hell. Went t0 eRin'z m0m'z last niite nd we went guyy huntin nd sh0ppin .. 0mg, we met sum h0tt guyyz. We went t0 the m0viezz .. 13 g0in 0n 3o was great! l0l, i criedD. Got st0ppedD by a c0pp last niite. He saidD i was drunk nd t0ld me i was weavin. Nd he never askedD me f0r my license. l0l, but i g0t 0ut 0f it newayyz .. dint get a ticket! l0l, then i calledD <3 eDdy <3. Thiz m0rnin we went t0 staRbuckzz nd we were sp0sedD t0 tan but we're g0in next wkendD cuz eRin dint have en0ugh m0ney. T0dayy iz my sis' partyy which meanzz i'm g0in t0 sk00l wit a madD hang0ver t0m0rr0w. A l0t 0f drama thiz m0rnin wit me nd weiNer .. i care b0ut u s0o much weiNer nd i w0uldnt 0f s0ld u 0ut lyke she did. I'm here f0r u nd u kn0 that. l0ve yazz.
JAX --> u have changedD s0o much t0 the p0int 0f a t0tal different pers0n. I cant trust u nem0re .. u screwedD weiNer 0ver nd that'z fuckedD upp. I wish u never changedD but u cant change back. We hadD sum great mem0riezz wen we usedD t0 be best friendzz but it will never be lyke that again. I'm sick 0f tryin t0 be niice t0 u nd i'm sick 0f u cryin b0ut me hatin u. Thiz tiime u relle upset me cuz 0f wut u did t0 hiim nd that'z it. U'll never change nd we'll never be friendz again. I'm g0ne -->> (( oNe ))
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2004 24 April :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: lovable.
:: Music: Turn Me On // Kevin Lyttle
today was deliciously lovely.
it's days like today that i love.
woke up at 1:30pm. found all my clothes lying around the house. here's the reason:
Daddy got home from Marlins game with Tim & my bro around 12am. Daddy & Tim hung out in my garage until about 5am this morning. Carol came here after work around 2:30am. They all went out & since she didn't wanna wear her work clothes, she grabbed some of mine.
anyways, after i woke up... Carol called & asked to go hang out at the pool with her. which i did. then around 4:30pm:
CAROL: "i REALLY want those green capris that u bought, & i have to go get my ring from the boynton mall sometime."
ME: "Let's go!"
CAROL: "Alright, let's go."
ME: "...i was only kidding."
CAROL: "o. let's go."
so we went home, got dressed, & buzzed off in the escalade lookin' all pimp. got to boynton, parked in B.F.E. & went into American Eagle. Bought a new outfit. she bought the outfit i already had cause she was dying for my pants & she bought the outfit i bought today... only in a different color & size.
got home. called jonah. went out to dinner with daddy. that chinese place had me laughing for hours. old people. old people with big white beards. chinese people with funny accents. lobster bibs. lotsa food. lotsa laughs.
now, i'm calling it a night. i might get ready for bed... do some hw. idk. we'll see.
1o.12.o3 x`o
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i can't sleep. it's 2am. re/did woohu
s0ngs 2 him:
¹. Cupid // 112
². iF i Ain'T Got y0u // Alicia Keys
³. i Pray // Amanda Perez
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