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2004 30 June :: 12.41pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: ..WuT is iT t0 buRn -->> FiNCH..
. L0VE, HATE, LiFE, nd CERTAiN DEATH - ALL iN JUSS 0NE BREATH .
me nd miKe are d0iing great! i've seen hiim everyydayy f0r the past 2 weeksz. nd t0niight isz the last niight t0 see hiim until m0nDayy! but isz 0k cuz maybee n0t seeing each 0ther f0r 4 dayysz will be g00d f0r hiim t0 w0rk shyt 0ut wit phiL nd chAz cuz phiL still lykesz me nd w0nt see miKe until we're n0t t0gether (( which isz gayy cuz phiL hadda a chance t0 be wit me )) but miKe saidD he dun car nd if phiL wantsz t0 be a pussy .. then wutever. nd isz guna be g00dD f0r me t0 be wit my familyy .. even th0 imma miss hiim lyke CRAZYY. aHh, it's guna suck s0o0o badD. but he's calliin METR0 PCS t0dayy s0o he can get his text-messagiing h00kedD upp s0o wen he cant talk .. he can juss sayy cute shyt. l0l, s0o yea, t0niight we're guna g0 d0wn t0 the beach nd juss talk nd shyt. i think it will be madD cute. well, i havent calledD edDy in lyke a m0nth nd he juss s0o happensz t0 call me last niight at 3am nd tell me that he missesz me nd talksz ab0ut h0w he l0vesz me nd wantsz t0 be wit me. i kn0 i sh0ulda t0ld hiim riight there that i have a man .. but i t0ldD hiim i'd thiink b0ut it. n0w, i kn0 f0r a fact .. i'm n0t guna d0 nethiing t0 fuck upp me nd miKe nd i c0uldD findD a milli0n reas0nsz why miKe isz better f0r me .. but - i GET WEAK WEN iT C0MESZ T0 EDDY! but i thiink im juss guna tell edDy straight upp .. the truth. newh0, eRin c0mesz h0me s00n .. YAY . i S00 CANT WAiT!
s0o jAx left yesterdayy f0r NEW Y0RK. it sucksz ass but we hung 0ut the last c0uple 0f dayysz nd alm0st b0ught a puppy! 0h yea, miKe nd me r guna buyy an 0range nd whiite kitten nd isz guna stayy at miKe's place cuz my rentsz w0nt let me have 0ne. he wantsz t0 name it TiGER nd i wana name it CRUSH. but i guess we're juss guna have t0 pick 0ne. l0l. but jAx t0ldD me sum crazyy shyt the 0ther niight. g0d, i wish she never went thru it. i relle hate t0 see her hurtiing s0o badD inside nd i wana make her feel better. but i'm happyy she t0ldD me. nd i'm even m0re happyy we're bec0miin best friendsz again. jeNny nd me went sh0ppiin a c0uple dayysz ag0. she's g0iin 0ut wit sum new kidD aLex. ALEX JACK0FF .. l0l miKe nd jeNny. she hasnt met miKe yet but she's talkedD t0 hiim 0n the ph0ne.
s0o miKe bl0wsz glass nd he t0ld me he's guna make me a glass r0se. h0w incrediblyy cute isz that?! i seen his REEFER pipesz he's bl0wn nd they're baller awesum! l0l, i s0o cant wait f0r the r0se! 0k, i g0tta d0 sum shyt nd get all my cl0thesz washedD bef0re i start packiing. i'll write b0ut my triip wen i get back. HAPPY 4TH 0F JULY every0ne. have a g00dD weekendD! xoxoxo (( oNe ))
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2004 30 June :: 12.55am
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: in this skin // jessica simpson
this is how it went down...
i didn't fall asleep til' like 5:30a.m. cause i hadda fever earlier. yuh s0o i did indeed watch spiderman. it was a really, really good movie. but yeah... i slept until like... 3pm...? yeah, well w/e.
umm.. i didn't do much today... since i didn't feel g0od. i mean, i jumped on the trampoline with the little kids... that was cute. made some brownies & rice crispy treats. delicious. called danielle to see how she was doin' in NC. yup yup.
now i'm sitting here talkin' online to jonah, ashley p, carlos, and camilo. g0od stuff. camilo is trying to cheer me up, ashley wants to make sure i'm ok, & carlos is just listening to lil' ol' me. n' jonah n i... are just... talking. yup. anyways... i'mma dip, listen to some more of my jessica simpson cd.
"i'm in a glass case of emotion" - anchorman
+EDiT+
things i'm hoping to look forward to:
*seein' the family / going to the bahamas.
*rbf concert.
*cheerleading practice & camp to start. <33
*gettin' a car to see my old friends. ((they aren't gay... i just realized how much they are really there for me thru my tough times.)) xoxo
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2004 29 June :: 2.34am
:: Mood: jubilant
turned out just like a fresh apple pie
ok... so, jackie called me tonight. we talked. =)
got online & talked to shane & neil. because neil's friends don't think he can get us to miami without getting lost... plans for wednesday have been cancelled lol.
was about to go to bed... and jonah got online =)
talked to him... and then ashley e got on, n so did ashley p, and carlos, and shane was still on, and avi got on. so ashley e & i talked about the microphone, & kidney stones... ahh i forgot to mention "ur my porn" lol. <33 um... ashley p & i... solitaire. i was talking to so many people n gettin' confused, but it finally calmed down =)
anyways, i have to go watch spiderman... i wanna see the second one with jonah but i have the first one n never watched it... so seeing the second one won't make sense to me... anyways, i'm out for the night xoxo <3
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2004 28 June :: 6.59pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: how come // D-12
if i can sum up everything i learned about life s0o far, in 3 words.... it goes on. <3
today was... eh.
woke up around 2pm after talking to carlos 'til 4am cause he wasn't tired because he just got home from miami from the beatdown. kanye. so jealous. neways... he talked to me... cause i needed a good talkin' 2. needed some sense smacked into this blonde's head.
after i woke up... he called me cause him & avi were supposed to come over from boca, but avi was bein' a dick and not answerin' his phone. w/e lol. i'll see the boca people s0on, i gotta car & a license comin' my way.
i needed to get my mind off things... s0o i cleaned the house. kept myself very busy the whole day. worked just fine. then i soaked my foot again... i took pictures, i hafta put them up here lol. *squeaks in disgust*
pj called me like 10 times but i missed the calls. s0o i called him back & he wanted to hang out cause he wasnt gonna go to delray to see the Atlantic people tonight cause he just got home from baseball. but i told him i was already plannin' on stuff to do 2night. s0o idk, he wants to make sure "the tiny one" is ok cause he doesn't want me to be gettin' hurt. u know. "i told u, if i can't spell the boy's name, u got no business being with him cause it'll turn out bad." lmao sry pj, but ur lack of intelligence doesn't need to predict my future.
ahhhh chance is over. (my brother's friend) they're listening to their wigger music. ugh. i'mma go sit outside with my mommy, carol, and booty girl.... call the cell xoxo. <3
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2004 28 June :: 12.10am
:: Mood: excited
today was a good day.
talked to jonah all day.
finished my collage today.
ryan cleaned his truck & stopped by to say hi before he left for boca, wanted to see my foot =)
brittany came over, we went to get ice cream & stopped to see ariel. =)
i took the bandage off my foot, ew it is disgusting looking lol. but thats ok... i put a few bandaids & a sock over it, so it doesnt get infected & i dont have to look at it.
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2004 27 June :: 12.56pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: ..s0mething c0rp0rate..
. i dun want it t0 happen again .
0k .. s0o me nd miKe are d0iing 0k .. i guess. i dunn0. last niight, we g0t int0 a fiight cuz he wantedD t0 fuck nd i didnt .. yet. nd he was lyke well, im tiredD nd it's tiime f0r y0u t0 g0. nd he was lyke get 0ut nd he kept bytchiin s0o i g0t my shyt nd startedD walkiin t0 my car nd then he gave me a hugg nd he was actiing lyke he wasnt madD nd sayiin he wasnt nd i'm lyke wtf .. y0u t0ldD me y0u w0uldnt keep askiing nd y0u w0uldD wait, but everyydayy .. y0u ask me 0ver nd 0ver. nd i t0ldD hiim b0ut why i dun want t0 riight away cuz 0f the wh0le j0hn carmichael thiing nd he seemedD t0 understandD nd i t0ld hiim i was s0rry nd he was lyke i'm n0t pissedD nd i dunn0. it made me think that this is guna be a sexual relati0nshiip nd i t0ldD hiim that t00 nd he's lyke h0w is it guna be a sexual relti0nship if we havent hadD sex. that's wut it's basedD 0n th0 .. nd juss cuz we havent fuckedD dun mean it's n0t sexual. everyytime i g0 0ver there, we h00k upp nd that's all we d0. i dun want it t0 be lyke that. it will never last if it is. ugh .. shyt is c0nfusiing. imma g0. (( oNe ))
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2004 26 June :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: My Happy Ending // Avril Lavigne
s0o much for that happy ending.
i want to see u. i want to be with u. i want to spend time with u. i want to kiss u. i want u to hold me again. i want to love u the right way. i want to say that u r my boyfriend.
you ARE everything that i want.
i want u back.
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were [meant] to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just f.a.d.e. away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending.
Dmx504boyz: everywhere i looked i thought i saw u
HCOblonde31: =/ jonah!
Dmx504boyz: wut
HCOblonde31: i love u.
Dmx504boyz: love u too
jackie stopped over to see how i was doing. =) love ya & thank ya for keeping me company. xoxo went out to dinner with the family & friends. came home... listening to this song over & over again... and cutting out words from my old magazines.
i wish jonah would come & keep me company.
o yes... mr. camilo called me tonight =) we talked about stupid shit... mostly, he made fun of me for being blonde... believing his record for not taking a shower was one month... and other stuff. i gotta call him sometime next week he says.
wayne from UCT thought i was a horny girl cause things on my journal like "girls just want to have fun", "sex drives are outrageous", and "undress me". but jackie told him i was a virgin & an angel at that. i might be able to go to their show at skatezone on friday... if i'm not doing anything... and then meet them afterwards? *shrug* we'll see. <3
goodnight. <3 loneliness is taking over.
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2004 26 June :: 2.27am
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: your the only one // maria mena
I NEED ADVICE / OPINIONS
recently my parents have caught on to my 14 yr old brother smoking... they have caught him before smoking cigarettes in the bathroom late at night. he got punished badly, n it was upsetting... but he did what he did.
now i KNOW he is up to it again. tonight i walked outta the bathroom at about 2:15am & smelt smoke... it was funny because the only person who does smoke... is my mom & she was sleeping. so i went to my brother's bedroom door... and i smelt it more. then he came up from behind me because he was in the kitchen & goes...
tommy: "what r u doing?"
briana: "dude, ur room smells like smoke!"
tommy: "idk y."
briana: "maybe because u were smoking?! duh"
tommy: "no i don't do that stuff."
briana: "yuh ok" *walks away*
5 minutes later.
tommy: "briana come in my room for a minute."
briana: "what?"
tommy: "idk what to do, its just addicting, plz don't tell mommy & daddy, i know its wrong, but i can't stop."
briana: "tommy, i have to. what if this shit kills u in 15-30 years? or what if u drop the shit on the floor & the house catches on fire or something? what if u wind up with lung cancer at the age of 18? u obviously don't understand the stuff is wrong, nasty, and needs to be taken care of!"
tommy: "i know but please don't tell them because they will get all mad."
briana: "tommy, i can't stop u from doing it, n obviously u can't stop urself, so daddy & mommy need to stop u, because they have their controls of doing so. its just to take care of my brother... i gotta make choices i don't wanna, but its for ur own good."
tommy: "briana, please!"
and i walked away...
should i tell my parents, or not? i know he doesn't wanna suffer from being grounded... my dad yelling, etc. but i don't want him to suffer death early. =/ i'm so confused.
leave comments & help me out. PLEASE <3
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2004 26 June :: 12.32am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: ..DaRe y0u t0 m0ve -->> sWitChf00t..
. lyke t0dayy never happenedD bef0re .
| Basics | | Name:: | shaWna | | Age:: | 16 | | Height:: | 5'3 .. sh0rtyy | | Hair Color:: | bl0nde .. well, dark bl0nde wit highlightsz | | Eye Color:: | veryy blue | | School Life | | What's your school's mascot?: | STA raideRsz | | School color(s)?: | bLue nd g0ld | | G.P.A.?: | 3.4 | | Who is your favorite teacher?: | mrs. m | | What do they teach?: | ge0metryy | | Is this your favorite class?: | yea .. cuz we dun d0 nethiing at all .. is a big j0ke | | Internet | | Do you use any instant messengers?: | yupp | | If so, which ones?: | AiM | | About how many hours a day do you spend online?: | i'm alwayysz 0n cuz i have DSL but actually at the c0mp .. lyke 1 t0tal. | | Do you have a digital camera?: | n0pe | | If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: | --- | | Music | | Do you play any instruments?: | n0pe | | If so, what one(s)?: | --- | | 3 Favorite Genres Of Music:: | punk . r0ck . rap | | 3 Favorite Bands:: | D12 . arm0r f0r sLeep . bRandD nEw | | Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: | yea | | What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: | $ 2o.oo | | What is the least you've ever spent?: | fRee | | Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: | suRe | | Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: | n0pe | | Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?: | umm .. n0 | | Word Association | | Blue:: | water | | Camera:: | friendsz | | Boy:: | immature | | Pretty:: | m0delsz | | Pants:: | 0ff | | Music:: | punk | | God:: | g00dD | | Sweater:: | c0ld | | Live Journal:: | w00hu is better | | MTV:: | punK'dD | | Labels: | | Do you think labels are dumb?: | yuhh | | Why or why not?: | cuz y0u cant judge a pers0n by the wayy theyy l00k | | What do people label you as?: | a st0ner .. seri0uslyy | | How/Why did you get this label?: | cuz i hang 0ut wit all the p0theadsz nd c0me t0 sch00l fuckedD upp all the time | | Which Is Worse? | | Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: | em0ti0nal pain | | Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: | g00d charl0tte | | Being Deaf/Being Blind?: | beiing blindD | | Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?: | being b0redD | | Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?: | d0minant leg | | Love | | Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?: | yea .. y0u can l0ve s0me0ne after 2 weeksz but t0 be iN L0VE .. it takesz much l0nger | | Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: | i dun think s0o cuz if y0u've never benn l0vedD then y0u dun have t0 feel that h0rrible pain that seemsz t0 take f0rever t0 g0 away .. | | Are you romantic?: | i can be | | Are you in a relationship now?: | yeaa .. wit miKe . xo | | If so, for how long?: | n0t l0ng at all .. 6 dayysz t0dayy | | If not, how long have you been single?: | bef0re this .. lyke 3 weeksz | | Are you a virgin?: | n0pe | | What song describes your love life right now?: | i miss y0u -- incubus | | Randomosity | | War: Good or Bad?: | can be b0th .. g00d by pr0tectiing us // badD by all the dyiing pe0ple | | What do you think of designer labels?: | i l0ve them .. LV baby! | | Who's skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: | bRitneyy spearsz .. i think paRis hiLt0n is awes0me! | | What is it with guys and cars?: | i dunn0 .. but isz h0tt. t0wer sh0psz .. l0l | | Do you sing?: | in the sh0wer | | If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?: | i cant sing that g00d. | | Kiss or hug?: | kisses | | What color is your room?: | pink . purple . babyy blue | | How old is your mom?: | 47 .. ? | | Black and white or color photos?: | black nd whiite | | Who cuts your hair?: | Debra .. my hairdresser | | What color is your toothbrush?: | green wit TAZ 0n it | | What color is your hair brush?: | black nd grey | | What kind of hair products do you use?: | herbal essences . bi0silk . rave | | Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?: | n0 .. but i lyke walmart wayy better | | Are you sXe?: | y0u tell me .. | | Are you sexy?: | am i ?? | | What color to people tells you looks nice on you?: | blue .. it bringsz 0ut my eyesz | | What color do you think looks nice on you?: | blue | | Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?: | DEF cl0thesz | | Who do you sit with at lunch? | | Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: | n0 wayy | | Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: | edDy .. i l0ve c0untryy accentsz! | | What is the website for one of your favorite bands?: | .. i0n0 | | Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: | 0lder .. every0ne else is immature | | Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: | yupp | | Who was the last person you hung out with?: | miKe <33 | | What did you and that person do?: | umm .. cuddledD, talkedD, h00kedD upp | | Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?: | yupp | | How often do you bathe?: | everyy dayy t0 everyy 0ther dayy | | Are you a people-pleaser?: | i think s0o | | Do you dye your hair regularly?: | every 3 m0nthsz f0r highlightsz | | What about your eyebrows?: | every 6 m0nthsz | | Do you wear makeup?: | yupp | | If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?: | yes i am | | Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: | un - editedD | | Can you beatbox?: | n0pe | | Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?: | n0 .. nd i hate it even m0re! l0l |
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2004 25 June :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: stuck on u // stacie orrico
just got back from ashley's house =D
s0o thursday... me, ashley, and shane went to the beach. talked, got burnt... yeah =) s0o glad we get to hang out again. then we went to hang out at her pool. the water wasnt cold, but we talked about the old stuffed animals that she had & we used to name & play with lol. then around 7:30ish her mom picked up Bret & we all went to the movies to see WHITE CHICKS. it was so funny... but it wasn't funny that shane was mistaking me and ashley for some ugly chicks in the theater lol. o and bret with the damn penny lol. i swear he was smoking something... but then... ashley saw the guy on the penny too. but i know she doesn't smoke.. so maybe... bret is normal... lol. we'll give him the benefit of doubt. but anyways... after the movie... we dropped them off.. and then hung out at home. changed into the pjs, u know how us girlys do. we talked a bunch, tried on skirts, and then talked to shane & jonah. that was cool. tried understanding guys.. but of course that doesnt work. =) um... we went to bed around 3am & woke up around 2pm. =) then we sat in bed and talked but i hadda go cause i had a stupid podiatrist appointment. o well.... maybe i will see ashley tonight or something... ((besides we best friends need to spend as much time together as possible... making up for all the years we've missed....)) considering i can't go to city place tonight anymore because of what just happened with my foot... i shall explain...
so i went to the podiatrist for this bump on my foot which hurts a ton. i got it because i was wearing flip flops at ATLANTIC & something got stuck in my foot... well... my mom pulled it out & it became infected because of whatever was in my foot.. s0o finally... we made an appointment to see the podiatrist. we thought that all they would do is tell us what is going to be needed to be done & make another appointment to have it done... well.. instead they just said, "we are going to numb ur foot, cut around the 'wart' ((which is what we found out it was because of the infection, yuck)) and we will get to the root, remove it & then bandage it up." that sounded horrible. so i get the shot... and cry because the shit hurt like hell... and then i waited a good... 40 minutes before he actually started doing anything to remove it. well... when he started cutting it... i felt a pinch, and then that pinch became a sting and that sting became..... the feeling of the blade cutting my foot. OUCH! i was about to die. yeah... so i screamed, he stopped... i became light headed because i havent ate much in the past 5 days or so. and it was just like having an f*ing baby which i am sure is worse.. but still lol. anyways.. that ruins my plans for the night because now i can't go to cityplace with jonah. sux. o well..... my mom was like, "why dont u have him come over 2morrow. i'll go pick him up, if he wants to come and see u." which i thought was sweet.... except... i highly doubt he would want to. but if he does, it would be nice.
ummm imma go now cause i need to eat my yogurt. considering this is what i will be doing for the next 2 days because i can't work. grrrrr.
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