This is your life, is it everything you wish it would be?

4 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 11 November :: 10.52pm
:: Mood: sad

And now for my ~~bad~~ day.

I woke up around 8:00.. started my report for child 2, around 10:00 i quit; i'm half done with it. Jim stopped by to give me a paper for my mom, he only stayed for a moment.. he had to go home. Around noon Alisha came over from Christan Charities and gave me some diapers and formula.. after she left I finished getting ready to go to my doctors apointment and to Wal*Mart.

Kelly went with my mom, Sam, Gab and I. We got to the doctors around 1:10.. my apointment was for 1:15. I'm doing good.. healing fine. He said I have a 'tilted uterius'. which isn't bad, it's just that my uterius is tilted up a little instead of laying flatter like most women.. I'm now on birth control..

After that, we went to Wal*Mart. Kelly and I got some really cute clothes and we got out hair cut.. we both look so cute if I do say so myself. huh kelly?! (:

..i have to pee

3 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 11 November :: 9.05pm

Well if I'm not a doofus beyond dufuses. I forgot to put a journal in here for my birthday on monday. I turned 16 w00t! I had dinner at Luna Rosa with Lorelei, Devin, Amber, Fran, mum, Linda and Michael. It was an awesome birthday. I didn't think I would of had fun, but I did. I got good presents. I got an iPOD, detachable shower head (get your mind out of the gutter), pretty picture from Amber of her uberly cute brother, sexy man blanket (Brandon Lee from the crow), a big snoopy doll, some eyeliner, and good stuff. Well now that I have done this I can sleep peacefully.

-Chasmin-

7 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 11 November :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: Cheerfull now
:: Music: Avenue Q soundtrack....thank you broadway.

The internet is for Porn
Any 6 - no matter how personal, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly.

In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal // OR // you have to answer the questions that are asked to you.

Ask away, even if you don't have a journal.. leave an anonymous note.

-Chasmin-

musicalbabe

:: 2004 11 November :: 12.46pm

Business (well, not really.)
"COME TO THE MARCHING BAND FALL FINALE!
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Football Feild, LAHS
11:00 am
I have no clue about Tickets.
Featuring LAHS Marching Band performing their show, "New Century Dawn"

Watch the LAHS Marching Band perform one of their last shows of the year. 8.5 minutes of perfection, intensity, precision, and entertainment! Our band this year is better than it has ever been in recent history! We won Sweepstakes (first place) at the Clovis band tournament against 14 other bands. If you want to see the breath-taking product of 75 performers working hours and hours on end for months, come to our performance on Saturday." (copied from Jeff's LJ)

I now have a webshots account! It's a bitch to manage, but I'll put some time into it in the near future. The URL is:
http://community.webshots.com/user/horseeyoregal

I am going to donate 10-13 inches of my hair to Locks of Love. I'll get it cut sometime before/during Christmas break. This idea was inspired by the girlies last night, but it is also something I've wanted to do for a long time. My hair is getting really thin and nasty, so I think if I get it slightly layered and cut, I'll be able to take better care of it.

Football game tonight at LAHS! First night game at LAHS in history! The marching band will be severely depleted, but there! We'll play stand tunes, but not march at half-time. See you there! 7:30 for Varsity!

6 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 11 November :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: Undecided
:: Music: Boy from Oz still

For once in my life, I want someone who needs me..doo doo
I'm not keeping this lil' journal thing with me, so whenever I get sad, or happy or something like that I can write it down. It does help. I saw Ryan and Betty together today, I have no idea whats going on but it's really starting to bug me. Anyways. What else happened today...stuff stuff and more stuff. I have acting lessons later. I'm gonna go play furcadia and listen to my music as usual.

-Chasmin-

Old and busted

10 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 10 November :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: depressed

Ask me 6 questions.
Any 6 - no matter how personal, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly.

In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal // OR // you have to answer the questions that are asked to you.

Ask away, even if you don't have a journal.. leave an anonymous note.

4 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 10 November :: 1.14am
:: Mood: crying

i hate when my mom comes in my room like she did a little bit ago and starts telling me that everythings my fault, and that she's in so much debt because i made the mistake of getting pregnant. my "asshole boyfriend" isn't helping with anything.. and that she lost everything [meaning george] because of me the baby and my "asshole boyfriend". and how my dad would be so dissapointed in me, and her because i got pregnant. i don't understand anymore, i just don't understand anything.. i cut my arm; and you know what? i don't even give a fuck anymore.. i don't fuckin' care who knows, or what the fuck anyone says. fuck them, fuck everything.

i'm leaving, i'm not going to ruin everyones life just because i made one mistake.

musicalbabe

:: 2004 10 November :: 12.40am
:: Mood: giddy

QUELLE COINCIDENCE?!? JE PENSE PAS!
http://www.lyonpuppets.com/grover.html

Take a look at that, Egan graduates! Remember Mr. Smith, World History teacher, 7th grade?

I e-mailed Rick Lyon:

Subject: A question from a fan...

"I had a World History teacher 3 years ago named Reed Smith. Along with an incredible sense of humor and a love for puppets, theatre, and music, he had (and has) an uncanny physical resemblance to you. I was wondering if you were in any way related...? There are just too many coincidences (physical appearance, similiar hobbies: costuming, making lame (but funny) jokes, music, puppets) to leave this question unanswered.

Oh, and I will offically freak out if indeed you two have some connection. That might just be the coolest thing in the entire WORLD.

I look forward to hearing from you,
Melissa (Egan Intermediate School class of '01)"

This would just be too good to be true. Flipping awesome, I say! And I'm almost absofreakinglutely positive that there's some connection...

9 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 9 November :: 11.34pm
:: Mood: upset

what the hell is wrong with me anymore?
i'm sitting here checking my e-mail.. i just started crying after i read an article on breastfeeding babies. "it's so good for them" "it's a bonding experience" "babies grow up healthier" "babies are less likely to be obese when they grow older" okay.. what the hell? i feel so guilty for not breastfeeding, it's my fault if gabrielle isn't going to be healthy when she grows up.

anymore if gabrielle cries, i cry with her. i feel like i'm doing everything wrong. no ones here to help; i'm doing everything on my own, plus i have to take care of the house, school work, my sisters, myself.. and i don't even have a job.. so i have to get my mom to buy everything for me. it's all to much for me anymore, i'm getting so over whelmed, and i feel so guilty for having to ask my mom for everything.

the other night gabrielle was crying and crying because she had a stomache ache, i sat there and said to myself i wish she would shut the hell up. then i realized what i said and freakin cried for like an hour after i got her to bed.

what's wrong with me anymore? i wish someone understood.

:: 2004 9 November :: 6.45pm

Oh yay, I tried to tell my mom what happened today at school when I we were getting food at Robertos Taco shop and I burtsed out crying. This isn't getting better.

-Chasmin-

:: 2004 9 November :: 5.33pm
:: Mood: Crappy el crappo
:: Music: Boy From Oz soundtrack

I honestly love you...
Ok today was going fine all happiness, untill lunch. A bunch of people I hang out with were standing in front of the AV room as usual I moved away from them some but I was still on the steps. Charlie is sitting there and I was listening and he's like "Yah I've sorta been out of the loop lately. I heard that Digem(Ryan) had a thing for Betty" I heard this and it felt like the wind was knocked out of me, it was hard to breath and my heart was beating fast. Ashely looked at me and saw that I was about to cry and she was like trying to make me feel better. I had to look up to hold back the tears. But they came out no less. I got fed up and I went over to where my next class was and just cried...god...even thinking about it hurts. I can't do this anymore. I have to find a way so it doesn't hurt me

-Chasmin-

9 New hotness | Old and busted

:: 2004 9 November :: 1.40pm
:: Mood: depressed

..i just feel like crying

jus4fun06

:: 2004 8 November :: 9.31pm
:: Mood: ugly

im so upset with myself
these guys were callin me ugly today. it makes me so sad. i jus wanna cry. im sick of being ugly... i think some day soon i will post a picture of myself to show you and let you decide if im ugly or not...