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2005 24 February :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: bitchy
im not your star, isnt that what you said ?!
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 24 February :: 12.04am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: cand shop
just how you like it GUUUUUUUURL,lmao =)
HEYYYYYYYYYYY !!! welp, kriss just left my house and im getting ready for bed, trying to stay awake, well not awake cause i know im awake but online so,i dont go idle. . . dont ask
hopefully dannn will call me when hes leaving zacs house --> but i doubt it, i wanna talk to him cause well i havent? pretty much all day. but yeah =(
work --> was gooodddd trained some slow girl, that didnt like fractions !! -->haha jk i <33 you !!
tomorrow get to train her damn friend TOO !, wtf is this ?! =)
only messing wit cha
Krisss is picking me up tomorrow after school, were going to get kendra !!--- ( looong time ) and then off to work for me.
hopefully i'll be out early and kriss will be no matter what picking me up and maybe well go to our "fake beach" or something . . have some laughs about that stupid bitch =) mwahha . .
i have a doctors appointment on tuesday thank god for it im so ready, im OVER this !!. . . and onyl 2 more days left on the other stuff . . ah man what a relief =)
i need to plan a-get-away. badly, it always helps eas my mind, and clear my thoughts, and i need to my paradise isnt even helping =(
anyways, im off to bed. soo GOODNIGHT !! i love you
<33
ashyy
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 22 February :: 5.37pm
:: Mood: worried
THANKS FOR THE BACKGROUND ZAC!! =]
i'll finsish fixing the rest later..
lata gata!!
<3333 Ox i love you danny
p.s 
from zac haha.
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xxbabiigurlxx
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2005 22 February :: 2.58pm
:: Mood: content
WE FINALLY SAW HITCH !!! yay !! =]] hehe, it was good and i had an extreamly good time with dann, no real reason really?! just hppy to be with him <333333
anyways, were supposed to hang out today =]] im excited =P...
hehe, but i gotta go do some homework at the office befor he gets off !!
toodlesssss ;)
<3333 ashhhhyy
I LOVE DANN !!
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heartsbroken
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2005 20 February :: 6.31pm
i hate myself
i never thought i would hate myself but i do. i hate the way my life is going.
i miss hanging with my old friends.
i miss how close me and heather use to be . we were together everyday, we knew every little thing about each other.
i miss having my dad in my life. it was better having him in my life even though everything i thought about him was lies i was still happy.
i miss having that guy friend that i could tell EVERYTHING to.
i miss all my old friends,
i miss my old life,
i wish i could go back to any point in time before this school year because ive lost all the things that made me happy and ill never have the people i care most about back in my life the way they were before because they moved on and seem to be happy .
anyways... update...
i got really sick last week and missed a week of school so i am curently failing 5 out of 7 of my classes... next sat is my bday, im not doing anything for it cuz i really dont give a shit about my bday cuz it sucks everyyear anyways. also have a competition at santaluces next sat. hopefully i can learn all the new shit i missed while i was sick for the 2 weeks that way i dont make an ass out of mysef again.. i dyed my hair a blue black i love it! but i might dye it again soon idk... i might just dye it black so theres no blue. i havent really been doing anything.. i mostly hang out with adam now cuz hes always home and wess is always to busy with kt for me. lol i guess thats karma.
life sucks but you gatta suck it up and deal with it
-michelle
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2005 20 February :: 5.49am
its almost 6am, im still going. i cant stop.
my eyes are swollen shut.
you;ll never understand what you mean to me
i love you
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2005 18 February :: 12.57pm
:: Mood: chipper
well, iv had some pretty crazy days latley .
i really want to see hitch. and iv tryed numorous times with dann, but its like were not supposed to see this movie !! The other night ..we planned on going --> i get a phone call at the tinme hes supposed to be leaving.." im going to be fucking stuck here for another hour" bla bla bla... some shit happend so im liek fuck, ya kno? so whatever
-----> 20 minutes laster i get a phone call form him. . . "meet me at my house im going to change" im like wait huh? "ASHLEY !!" okay okay im coming lol
so we leave his house and rush over to the boynton theater were five minutes late for the movie 5 no big deal. . . previews and stuff..." were closed" the movie started 5 minutes ago?? "were closed"
..... yeaa
so we get in the car and go to the other boynton theater, we are 30 minutes late, so we just gave up. since we both were hungry we decided we would go out to eat, as were driving to find a place eat . . . he mentions city place... hmm ?!
i call 411 and the guy tells me the last showing is in 20 minutes. soo we get on i -95 and rush down there. 1 mile befor our exit. dead stop. down to one lane. we stat there a good 45 minutes, we finally got out of the traffic mess, and our exit was even closed
so we got off, and back on to go to town.
Ended up at Dennys at 12 at night.. we get a phone call fdrom krystina, her car is broke down all the way back where we were so we go home and wake up his parents and tom and dan left to go help her, i went home.. just when we though the night was ending.. mann
Befor all this i went over to best buy to buy dann a cd, as im pulling in, i fuckin hit a god damn car, i was so fucking freaked, im not going into details, nothing at all happended to his car, mine has a scratch really, but i thought i was gogin to die, and this really nice kidd and his friend helped me out the whole time, thanks "dan" & "trick"
and where was i going with all this ?!?!
--> oh yeah that was that night. lol i dunno, i was inturupted and im so confused now...
....soo i promise, you and i will go together to see hitch
i love you !!
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2005 18 February :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: annoyed
thats why i don't talk about you in here anymore = \
GR
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innocence
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2005 16 February :: 9.31pm
well whats new? valentines day sucked, but who gives a shit because ::
NEWSFLASH :: so did a shitload of other peoples
plans for the weekend fell through, figured they would and im starting to not trust who i trusted before. I realized almost everybody talks shit and when its possible for you to get caught in anything you always point fingers.. always.
Ive been sick since monday which sucks, but eh what can you do? didnt go to school today for the first day this year. Stayed in bed all day and watcched movie after movie. [italian job, oceans 11, a cinderella story, freaky friday, and getting there] My cat was with me the whole time, almost like he knew i was sick. hmph.
ive decided to MOVE ON. Theres obviously not the same amount of feeling coming from both of us, so whats the point of me wasting my time. Im not gonna dwell over a guy who isnt even worth it. Friends, yeah of course i still wanna be friends, but other than that, i expect nothing. and what ive realized is .. his loss, not mine.
The only thing i wish is that this fight between my family would get resolved because i really miss rob and joe. but foreal, i dont know why i let myself cry over a guy. A guy who is being persuaded by a bunch of people who wouldnt know the truth if it hit them on the head. but thats okay, because i have my friends and even tho theyre far away, theyre still there for me. [zach i was almost ready to say fuck everything i dont give a shit, but i just needed one push to get it overwith - and u did it, like u always do, and i love you] im finally ready to say FUCK YOU and move on.
so lets be honest now
fuck you pops for never being there for me when i needed you, and now im being there for you. it killed me for years that you werent a real father, but you know what, i cant change you and i have no desire to try. so heres my new slate. fresh and clean. i forgive you
fuck you all at jfk for not being there when my mother needed you. i cant go back, i cant make my mother here again, but i forbid to hold a grudge on you fucks who have hearts blacker then night, i forbid to let ur faults stay in the back of my mind and drag me down, i forbid to let u make me feel miserable. i forgive you
fuck you alex for being a dick, fuck you mo for being the stalker you are, fuck you mike and christine for mindfucking me, fuck you jimmy for being a tease and letting people get to you and for making me hear shit from the grapevine, but you know what. i pity you all for the bullshit you put me through. but i forgive you
fuck you you bastards who broke into my house and stole from me and my mother while she was on her deathbed. but more then disgust i have in you, i again hold pity. but because you dont matter and you never did i forgive you
and God, i hated you for taking my mother from me, i hated you for taking her the way you did, making her suffer, and me not being ready for her to leave, i hated you for the life i now live and i hated you for not letting me get one last hug, but you know what, she's in a better place, and she's happy, and she's looking down on me always. of course i want her back, but shes not coming back, and i think ive finally accepted that. and God i forgive you
and last but not least
fuck you danielle for letting all these people get to you and for spending nights crying and feeling sorry for yourself, nobodys life is perfect and nobodys ever will be. fuck you for feeling inferior and for holding on to things that cant change. fuck you for holding back feelings and not doing what you want when you want to, but even more then that, fuck you for not letting go and not being yourself. but it all doesnt matter because i forgive you
i finally forgive myself, and im finally going to take a leap and let go. i have to, because denial is no better or easier then the real deal. God help me and please help me to get through the rest of my life, dont let me sell myself short, bc that is something i do easily. help me to stand up for myself and be a strong independant woman.
forgiveness is beautiful. much love to my friends and family
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2005 16 February :: 2.10pm
:: Mood: crazy
i love my friends and my boyfriend
=]]
♥ ♥ ♥
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2005 15 February :: 11.19am
:: Mood: tired
so its the day after valentines day . . and i still have this big cheesey face =]]
yeah* i had a good day . even with work . even though i had to stay way to late , and now my boyfriend is madd at me = \ . . . .
Happy Birthday !!
<33
hope you guys enjoyed your day too !!
He Gave Her A Dozen Roses .. Eleven Real and One Fake
And Said I Will Love You Until The Last One Dies <33 `*
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2005 14 February :: 1.46am
Give me three random colors.
1. Pink
2. white
3. black
Your name is: Brittany
You love: Matthew
You want: to spend the rest of my life with the person I love.
You wish: i could see him.
You have: Matt, and megan
You need: to go to sleep.
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2005 13 February :: 10.25pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: lohan - rumors
asdkfljas
____ the world. you fill in the blank.
anyway, so im not in the mood to update anybody on anything right now. I am so pissed for so many reasons I'm shaking. lauren - we NEED to talk, lets say by that one link you gave me, I found and saw a lot of information i didnt want to read and see.
i dont know what i feel, or what i should feel and frankly i dont know what to do anymore in this situation.. well im so shaken right now i cant concentrate or say what i want to say so ill just write about this when i have more self control. i dont want to say anything ill regret or anything i dont mean.
Im a strong girl who keeps my shit in line, even with tears streaming down my face i still manage to say [I m F i n e] .. fine .. freaked out, insecure, narotic, and emotional. [the italian job, so true]
love no nigga' . trust no ho'
dont allow someone to be your priority .... while allowing yourself to be their option
you gotta live your life no matter what comes along, its gonna be tough, but you gotta stay strong.
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2005 13 February :: 9.25pm
:: Mood: scared
=[
okay so i wasnt scared untill now
hold my hand . . . <33
my boyfriend , told me i "may see him" on wed . . . .
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2005 12 February :: 10.51am
i brought her back today ...
=]
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