Well, today I finished painting the castle...tomorrow, I go and clean everything up so the youngin's can go in and play...how joyful it will be for them...they will be so happy...I mowed the lawn today, and that was about it...Didn't go to the fair because I was tired and I didn't really know of a good reason...Hung out with Josh a little bit today, and had pizza for lunch with Daniel...here ends my day...

Quote of the day:
"I arose from the lullaby
Enduring yet another tale
You tempt me again
With your embrace, so tainted
Within the night you beckon
Cursing me with every glance"

Well, I have been working a lot at the Library...I was interviewed today, and I am going to get a paying job there around the start of school...hopefully, this works out for me...Today, I went to the fair for band, and ended up having a good time (after band, that is...) Chrispy was there around 9:30, so I hung around with him and Carmen and Josh and Coomes...I had a good time...Let's see...today, dan and I went to Britt's Great Uncle's visitation...

Quote of the day:

"Love sees love's happiness
But happiness can't see that love is sad
That love is sad
Sadness is hanging there
To show love somewhere something needs a change
They need a change"

Back in boring B.G.
I've not been home since Sunday...Why? Because I was at Wooster band camp, on the campus of the College of Wooster...I had a great time...I made top band, and we made some good music...Wow, and I think I've improved greatly over last symph season...maybe I'll even beat Dan out for once...Not that it matters or anything...I just had a really great time...Winston and Ian came this year, so it wasn't just Brendan, Alex, and I...we were all in the basement of the dorm, which was sweet...we had somewhat of a posse this year, always hanging with the same people, people not just from Bowling Green...we had three others in our group; Brittany, Jessica, and Katie...We also had a few others hang out with us off and on...Yeah, I had a great time, played a lot of pool, ate a lot of popsicles...if ya want to hear the music, just ask to listen to the cd if you want...

Today, Friday the 25th, Xiao is supposed to be in town, so hopefully I'm going to hit it up with her today...w00t!

Quote of the day:
"There is a destination a little up the road
From the habitations to the towns below
A place we saw with the lights turned low
The jig saw jazz and the jet fresh flow
Pull jizes and jamboree handouts
Twuo turn tables and a microphone
Bottle and cans, just clap your hands"

So, I was talking with someone...about my damned relationship status...I am always alone, always lonely...why can I not find someone who likes me as I do them? Why is it so hard for them to like me? What do I do wrong? What does every single female I have ever liked find wrong in me? I wish I knew, so maybe I could be happy...maybe they just think I am some sex crazed freak...which couldn't be further from the truth...I don't give a shit about sex or anything like that...call me what you want, I don't give a fuck...but all I would like to have is someone to console and to care about, someone to have good, quality times with and not be worried about anything...to have someone that has an effect upon you that just melts all the cares of the world away and all you feel is pure elation...I need someone to love, truly to love...I don't care if I get my dick sucked or not, or if I get into her pants, because that is not what is really important in life...it is not what is important to me, not in the least bit...it isnt what makes the world go round, it wouldn't make me happy...I'm not depressed because I'm sixteen and have never been kissed, nor laid...I'm depressed because I am so alone...

"the sun don't shine
the wind won't blow
when you go hide
without your love
i'm lonely
deep inside"

Argh...two games of baseball where all I do is sit the bench...This can really hurt a man's confidence and self-esteem...but oh well...I saw fuck it, and that is what it's left at...tomorrow (Thursday) my family (bar me) is going to Cedar Point for the day...I'm gonna volunteer at the library, and then go work for Norman Chambers...yard work...then I've pretty much got the house to myself the rest of the night...ya, that's right ladies...Doug the Thug is free for the night, come and get some...yeah, and if that actually happened...

Quote of the day:
"Last night I had a dream about you
In this dream I'm dancing right beside you
And it looked like everyone was having fun
The kind of feeling I've waited so long

Don't stop come a little closer
As we jam the rythm gets stronger
There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun
We were dancing all night long

The time is right to put my arms around you
You're feeling right
You wrap your arms around too
But suddenly I feel the shining sun
Before I knew it this dream was all gone

Ooh I don't know what to do
About this dream and you
I wish this dream comes true"

The Rain Elates Me
The eve of destruction is upon us
The torrential rains pounding down
The lightning splitting the ground
The thunder tearing the drums of ears
Great riots now surge across the planet
Looting, adultery, the pawns of Satan now rule the earth
Not I though
I am not one of the mindless
I fear nothing now
For the rain elates me

Quote of the day:
"Don't you love her as she's walking out the door?
Like she has one thousand times before..."

Lonely Bench
A man, Incomplete
Looking out from his bench
He laughs as he cries
For it is a beautiful thing he sees
Seeing this man’s tears
She comes and wipes them
For this is what she does
She rights all wrongs in him
She makes the sun shine
Though the tattered clouds that are him
Life has changed for him,
In a way he will never know
For she meant the world to him,
And all he ever did was watch

Quote of the day:
"I'm gonna love you,
Until the heavens' start the rain
I'm gonna love you,
till the stars fall from the sky"

Hmm, I promise I will start updating more, but as of now, I really don't have much to post...I've not been doing well in baseball, and that's about the only thing that changes in my life...this morning, I volunteered at the library, doing odd and ends jobs around the facility...tomorrow, I am going to watch Old School with Emily, so that should be very fun...so yea, so much for an update, maybe something good will happen to make it a good read, eh?

Quote of the day:
"With their jock straps pinching
They slouched to attention..."

Okay, so the rest of that week was blah, up until Saturday, where I had another baseball game...I almost got a homerun, but didn't, and that started my hitting spree...even though that was my only time up to bat that game, on Sunday, I went 2 for 3 with 2 RBIs...

Quote of the day:
"We woke up one morning
And fell a little furthur down
For sure as the valley of death
I open up my wallet, and it is full of blood"

Wee!!!
Long time, eh? I would have updated sooner but it was fucking up...let's see...I went on vacation, starting on Saturday the 7th...We drove down to Charlotte, N.C., to visit family...then on Sunday, we drove down to Myrtle Beach...we spent the rest of Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday there...Wednesday, we left and drove up to Gettysburg...Thursday, we toured the battlefields, and Friday we returned home...Saturday I saw the second "Fast and Furious"...it was alright, nothing spectactular...Sunday was boring, and Monday Coomes came over...I've gotten into Tribes 2, which is almost as addicting as Diablo 2...Monday night, I had a baseball game...I made contact with the ball, and that was about it for the game...I got to play first base, so that made me a bit happy...

Quote of the day:
"The demon in your mind will rape you in your bed at night"

Whoop-de-fucking-doo
Yeah, that sums up my life...a whole lot of nothing...what the fuck is there going on for me right now? Baseball? Phht, my first game, and I don't fucking play, and I strike out the only time I am up...fuck that...Hmm, vacation coming up...Fucking school is ending...So I aksed that girl to a movie, yeah, and now it seems like she doesn't want to talk to me...hmm, maybe I have that effect on people...I am a good friend, and that is as far as it goes...Like someone would be embarassed that I like them, or even that I would ask them...Why does everything fucking suck? My fucking art project might come together, and It might now, so what the fuck...I hate this...

Quote of the day:
"You're breaking my heart,
You're tearing it apart
So fuck you."

Well, today was kind of fun...We started to disect earthworms in science class today...it was very interesting...we finished "Life is Beautiful" today in Smathers' class...it has a very good ending...other than that, nothing good...

Oh, well, I asked la belle fille to a movie this weekend, but she said she was busy...hmm...

Quote of the day:
"Meanwhile back in the year One,
when you belonged to no-one,
you didn't stand a chance son,
if your pants were undone.
`Cause you were bred for humanity
and sold to society
one day you'll wake up
in the Present Day
a million generations removed from expectations of being who you really want to be."