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2004 4 November :: 12.17pm
:: Mood: distracted
:: Music: dryer ::woosh,woosh, clank::
aw...i love the soothing sounds of the dryer...as sarcastic as that sounds, im being sincere. it used to annoy me and wake me up but now its calming.
i miss home sometimes.
the shows over now. its sad. i miss it, despite how incredibly hectic it was. yay set go up in a week....set come down in a day. i agree with patrice...this show was awesome especially backstage.
i hopped over the running crew, helped fill a rat with his intestines and other bloodiness, crushed on a guy for the first in a long time, havenized with costumes, took notes on the third day of the show, ate candy, ate blood, took in the show for one of my last at vhhs, enjoyed myself, super-stressed (which ultimately cleaned me) and over-all loved the show.
i should be writing my paper now but im really distracted. neil called and left a message with i miss you exactly a month ago (17 minutes since it became the fourth) and played "i miss you" on his guitar. i sent him a sweetest day card that said "if you ever forget that im stuck on you" on the outside and "then here's a reminder" with a magnet that says i love you on the inside. then he sent a card that arrived on our seventeenth month (1 nov) that said a bunch of stuff like "when i cant hug you, wehn i cant share with you, when i cant talk to you..." and beside every one he wrote "kiss you" and on the inside said simply "i miss you". the next day i got a potted miniture rose and they are so pretty and i can keep them alive. i sent him red cupcakes the same day in the shape of a heart with a letter. so right now neil and i are doing fine.
right now is fun because i sort of still have a tad of a crush on zak which is weird. it was more during the show when i saw him a lot because for some reason in the dark his long powerful cape and height and fangs and it was overwhelming. i liked it. i miss it too. (Note to self: add to list) neil needs fangs and a long black flowy cape but an attitude like i have soemthing to do im not trying to show off cuz he would try to show off instead of just be hot about it.
okie i should be done. i need to be cuz the more i think about it, the more i want the picture in my head.
i need to finish this paper.
g'night all
sweet dreams.
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2004 3 November :: 11.52pm
Cheryl is a butt! I REALLY dont want to work on friday!!!!!!!!!! and i have to work on thursday when we have no school which also sucks, but im working with patrice that will be cool and interseting
Kathryn is awesome i love kathryn i tell her all my problems and she makes everything seem so simple, and i like it i stop freaking out its crazy i need to talk to kathryn a lot more.! thanks kathryn...even though your not reading this...humpty dumpty
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2004 3 November :: 11.30pm
:: Music: Eminem
Nada
I havent updated in a while, sorry. There really hasnt been much in my life. Such a boring life i lead. I'm screwed for school. thats always a plus. So i still hate my dad. Oh i have a story to tell, i know excitment.
So my dad comes home right and he and my mom are just being asses right, and i say something like yea whatever. And my dad turns around and says a religious quote "if you even say hmmm (the evil one) to your parents then you'll go to hell" and hten he continued to say "even an evil look can get you to hell" So i stood there and i was like really just wanna ask him why should i try, why is it thta everything in religion has to be so negative, why is it if you do this you'll go to hell, why can't it be like live a good life and go to heaven. I think i lost my faith. I truely do. Im so confused. I love my religion in its purest form, i believe it. But people like my father make it poop. Islam is such a beautiful religion, you can tell by the name (it means peace) but shit heads like my dad find ways to make this religion so difficult. You do this you go to hell. You don't do this you go to hell. You never go to heaven, just hell. Arg. I don't want to go to hell, i dont want to go to limbo, i want to go to heaven. I really do try. i ended the whole patrick thing cuz you know what i htought it was morally wrong. i dont know i hate this stupid religion what not, i do prefer if the world was filled with clones, i like to know all the facts. ARG. I dont like this.
Au revoir, je sais ce n'est pas très interassante mais il est important a moi. La vie est très difficle mais VIVE.
Yasamin
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2004 3 November :: 11.19pm
big fat ugly dilemma...shit
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2004 3 November :: 10.04pm
Funny times
SneakySeaMonkey (8:25:05 PM): why are some guys so...urgh?
personofthasun00 (8:25:11 PM): well ya see
personofthasun00 (8:25:26 PM): it all started when we 'guys' decided to be complete jerks
personofthasun00 (8:25:31 PM): it was at this convention that we had
personofthasun00 (8:25:34 PM): in jersey
personofthasun00 (8:25:49 PM): and their were delagates from all over the world
SneakySeaMonkey (8:25:55 PM): were u there?
personofthasun00 (8:26:51 PM): and they decided from then on all guys would be ugh
SneakySeaMonkey (8:27:10 PM): well you should have another meeting
personofthasun00 (8:27:12 PM): no it was way before my time
SneakySeaMonkey (8:27:15 PM): tell them theyre wrong
SneakySeaMonkey (8:27:17 PM): oo ok
personofthasun00 (8:28:42 PM): its not up to me
SneakySeaMonkey (8:29:29 PM): :-P
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Haha. Thanks to Hul..the world makes sense
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2004 2 November :: 11.50pm
Holy shit...
My stomach is twisting in all sorts of knots.
::Bangs head on the desk::
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2004 2 November :: 8.55am
i only haave 1 application left to send in...well that i know of at this point, if im forgetting any thats really bad but whatever, i tore a bunch up yesterday because i decided not to apply there anymore and save $70.
The second part of this entry is going to be blocked, sorry...
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2004 1 November :: 6.46pm
Death is the first Dancing Turtle
woo i got in more applications today, im good now. So i should do my genetics projct...i will, will dont worry blahhhhhhh. so new internet...i have to re-set all my favorites bleh. but hey one acts is going great today we decided on the shirts, and the order and tech stuff and its kinda cool im excited, so i think im going to work now, maybe ill update later. SO MUCH has happened since i last updated but thats cuz my internet was messed up but ill make it up and write stuff laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr bye bye now
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2004 1 November :: 4.59pm
Thanks goes out to Patrice... Missing Trig today was fun :)
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2004 31 October :: 11.19am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Superman(It's Not Easy)
Finding Neverland. November 12. Woo hoo!
That's my exciting news of the day.
This week has been insane, but yesterday was awesome. It was just a full day of theatre stuff with theatre people(most of which just rock my socks off) Very little drama from my side of the smoothie. It feels good. To be doing play stuff but not to have much stress because everything's done and you just do what you've done for three nights. You allow yourself to have fun. Which is a good thing.
I've found out...that alot of times you have to allow yourself to have fun. It's not too hard. Sometimes it can be, but there's always going to be something on your mind. You can't let it effect something that has a chance to be a good thing. I don't know, I don't care as much about the bad stuff as I did last year. I realize that I'm a senior. And that this year will be my last with many people and the last in many of these situations. Why make everything crappy because a few things are going on?
That whole speel will be misinterpretted and someone will be mad that I'm telling people to just forget about their problems. Which I'm not. I'm just saying don't let them decide your life. ::nods:: If that makes sense.
Strike is going to be interesting today. Most of the set has to stay together. And we're just sticking props in a box that says "Box O' Dracula". Haha. Woo slacking off. I can see us not makign it to theatre fest and having to clean it up again, but it'll be much later when I actually might have some motivation. Hm. Patrice with motivation? That is just insanity.
I'm glad the play is over. At the same time, I'm not. It was definitly a stressful show. Mucho stressful. At the same time, it was a blast. I'm going to miss it. This is maybe my second or third favorite show. After Les Mis and Joseph. In some kind of order. This show was just fun after all the stress. And there were actually nice actors too. Which is fun. The running crew was awesome. O man. If I get time, I'm writing backstage stories here. Just because I want to remember them. yeah. Just everyone backstage was awesome. Fun times. Let me tell you.
Yeah, the cast party was actually fun last night. Except when the speeches went on hour late and I was home uber uber late. But it doesn't matter that much. Didn't get in trouble.
Oh, and benny boy(if you read this), I meant to tell you... I made sure to kill mucho babies at the party. I think the count was at 17. Hm. Not bad if I say so myself.
I'm allowing my brain to turn to mush for another half hour. When I come back I have a whole outline to bullshit. Woo hoo. I'm hoping it'll take me an hour at the most. ::crosses fingers:: Maybe then I'll convince my sister to trick or treat with me for a little bit. That'd be fun. It'd be really sad if there wsa no way to celebrate halloween tonight. I would cry. I love halloween. It sucks having responsibility. Pooooooooo.
Ok peoples. Time to shower. I smell.
Je T'aime,
Patrice
(I love that. I wish I spoke french.)
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2004 25 October :: 12.05am
So i figured out how my internet works...dont hate me for not updating in forever, i got it no, so ill update all the time again. woo!
So Friday was awesomly amazing! IT WAS SO FUN! I WAS SO HAPPY! EXCEPTTT when Bellito pronounced my name wrong... :/ bah to him. oh well, i need to get my sleep because everyone knows i will not get much of it for the remainder of the week :) byeeeeeee
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2004 21 October :: 5.40pm
I hate you.
Yeah thats right.
You...and you...with the funny face.
But esspecially you.
~*~
And we always say,
It would be good to go away, someday
But if there’s nothing there to make things change
If it’s the same for you
I’ll just hang
The same for you
I’ll always hang
Well I always say,
It would be good to go away
But if things don’t work out like we think
And there’s nothing there to ease this ache
But if there’s nothing there to make things change
If it’s the same for you, I’ll just hang
Hang- Matchbox20
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Tuesday's horoscope
Jackie,
You may be feeling a bit too dry as you long for a deep emotional connection. The problem is that your nervous system has been on high frequency alert. It's like you've been taking an exam with only one question on it -- an unsolvable mathematical equation. Take the pressure off yourself and take an incomplete on the test. This is not a failure; you can come back to it later when you feel refreshed. This frees you up to attend to more important issues.
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Yesterday
Jackie,
You have tools that allow you to go into deeper emotional realms than many of your friends. Now it is time to use whatever tricks you have in your bag as you dig further into the roots of your own needs to control emotions. As you discover the sources of your fears, you'll be able to better loosen up the blockages in your life.
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Today
Jackie,
Tension arises from your own lack of clarity about your feelings. You are still feeling the intensity from yesterday's Venus-Pluto square, but now it's time to find your way back up to the surface. Even if your perspective is a bit clouded by your own fears, move past your uncertainty. Head directly into the mists of your own illusions, for it is there that you will find the blessing of self-forgiveness.
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2004 20 October :: 12.50am
Soooooooo I don't like this week. It started with tears and will most definitly end the same way, just for different reasons.
Tomorrow's going to be interesting.
I'm feeling a little more confident about the play now. It's a good thing. I hope.
I don't know what else.
Good night.
-Patrice
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2004 20 October :: 12.35am
List of things to give up this year for new years:
Quality conversations...the kind where you talk about stuff that is actually important and meaningful.
"Love" or the idea of it
Lonliness
Jealousy
Hate (or strongly disliking...)
Meat or possibly just cheeseburgers and fast food.
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2004 18 October :: 7.59am
The earthy Capricorn Moon helps you feel secure and you want to make the most of it by using the day to add stability into your life. You begin to think more about your long term goals, yet it can be difficult to separate them from your more immediate chores. Don't take on more than you can complete and you will make progress on both fronts.
Haha! I guess progress is dead. Man, am I screwed. :-)
-Patrice
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