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jennapie

:: 2006 16 July :: 3.48pm

It will always amaze me how people and things move on so fast, and never look back, like they didn't truely care to begin with.

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 14 July :: 11.48pm

I blame myself for alot of things, because most of the time, they are my fault. I feel really bad about myself. I used to be all like "I'm sucha bad person" But I think I'm starting to except it all now. " *deep sigh* oh well. I'll grow up eventually and figure out what I want. Till then...who knows...?

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holiday

:: 2006 13 July :: 5.10pm

Hm. Sad sad day.
I'm really upset that I didn't get in touch with her earlier. I didn't know. :-( My friend and I had the same due dates, but she gave birth to her twin girls. And it's heartbreaking. But I can't talk more about it because I will start crying again.

Okay.
Reception is tomorrow. I know who is working it! YAY! Abbi and Jon :-) That should be fun!

Baby is kicking really hard and I can actually feel where the baby is and what is kicking/punching. haha. I'm going to be having a diaper party sometime real soon, I will get on the details later.

Anyway, gotta go.

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eddy

:: 2006 11 July :: 7.04pm

A real update maybe?

Not much has been going on lately. Been hanging out with friends, and even some old ones I haven't seen in a while. Work sucks, definately need a new job, going to go to Schuler's soon to see if I can get in there or not. That would be fun =) Ummm.....gee. I don't know. Don't really know what else to say. Got my computer about a week ago, She's pretty, and I love her. But sometimes I call it a he. Can computers be transvestites? Have to ask Joe about that one, hehe. And now I'm just rambling. So I'll stop. Later!

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holiday

:: 2006 7 July :: 3.18pm

Holy crap. I can't believe we're almost in the the 3rd trimester already. This is going so fast, which isn't hard to say anymore since I'm not getting so sick anymore. We painted the nursery and soon things will be set up. We have Charlie's old cradle and everything. Charlie can feel the baby now, so that's really wonderful. And I can all the time. It's really neat to know when my baby is awake and when he/she's not.
That was fun having everyone over yesterday! :-) I miss that.
And having this baby makes me miss the good in the world. I miss the pure, true, good that used to be around (like when you were younger). I only want that for our baby. Which is hard, because the bad things are how you learn.
Anyway, I'm kind of rambling. This weekend will be sooooooo great! My parents are at this house on Lk. MI in Muskegon right now and I've seriously wanted to go swimming for a looooooooooong time. YAY for RELAXING!

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fishyrere

:: 2006 7 July :: 2.48pm

Odd Facts about ME
DO YOU SNORE?:Nope
LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:both
WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?:divorce
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?:heck yes... still am
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?:sucks
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:yeah
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:of course
HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:not all that bad
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:black
DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:yes
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:i wish
ANY SECRET TALENTS?:haha. any talents at all? not really
WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:europe
HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?:not yet
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?:sure have
DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?:not really
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?:a lot
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:no
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:yeah
ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?:not on old men at the beach
WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:gotta do whatcha gotta do
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:i hope so
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:not really
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:dust
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU":last night to Ben
IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?:no comment
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?:I did at me sisters
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:depends on my mood
ARE BLONDES DUMB?:NO. i resent that
WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?:the cat has it
WHAT TIME IS IT?:2:43
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?:yeah my friends call me Re
IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?:yup
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?:about a half hour ago
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?:showers
IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?:no
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?:sometimes
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?:caffine
CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?:crunchy
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?:yes
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?:one
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?:heck yes
ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?:yup
HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?:no
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?:greenish
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:a few days ago
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?:sure
WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?:mine
ARE YOU PSYCHIC?:no
HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?:yes
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?:not yet
CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?:i can try
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?:depends on who i'm with
DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?:no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?:no
IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?:yes
YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?:I believe it happens but shouldn't unless certin cases
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?:no
DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?:i don't have one
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?:french fries
DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?:no
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:kind of
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?:all of them
DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?:no
FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?:Mae and The Postal Service
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What can i say? i was bored.

~Re~

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snowman

:: 2006 7 July :: 12.47pm





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swimfan14

:: 2006 7 July :: 1.07am
:: Mood: sad

My world almost just fell apart.

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eddy

:: 2006 6 July :: 11.08pm


It's a cruel (cruel) cruel summer (cruel summer)

-Ace of Base "Cruel Summer"

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fishyrere

:: 2006 6 July :: 12.25pm

Well hello.
I had fun. The fourth of July was fun. I indeed loved spending time with everyone who was there. It was nice to be able to do something besides work. I got home and my mom was pretty ticked though. And the funny thing was I really didn't care. I woke up and was sore from football. My arm hurts a lot from when Katie tackled me but I'm good. Even though I am horrible at football I still liked playing.

Last night I talked to Emma on the phone until forever and that was awesome too. She knows how to listen and I found myself telling her things that I can hardly admit to myself. It was sort of refreshing to get some things off my chest. Yeah.

~Re~

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eddy

:: 2006 6 July :: 1.25am


Gotta love John Mayer, man.

Clickity Click

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eddy

:: 2006 6 July :: 1.06am



I Love You.

(You know who you are)

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eddy

:: 2006 3 July :: 11.21pm


So stay, sweetly numb.
Remain lifeless, love.


-Davey Havok - "Affliction"

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holiday

:: 2006 30 June :: 4.47pm

Almost vacation time!!! :-D
Today Charlie and I watched Chicken Run and ate breakfast in bed (he made us yummy eggs). It was really really nice. My car actually quit while I was in the process of driving it...on the expressway. So that was scary. It was the battery connection and now it's fixed but yikes. I called the doctor this week, I think Tuesday, because I keep getting sick when I try to eat in the morning/afternoon. They told me to come in cause I kept losing weight. I'm still 2 pounds under my original weight and I'm supposed to have gained more. Well, everything is fine, but they prescribed pills and I am not for taking them. Especially because if I didn't have insurance, to get 20 would be about $800 they said. So next week will be the big vacation! Then Friday the 14th is the reception!

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chelthesmell

:: 2006 29 June :: 4.27pm

I've been thinking...


I've been losing friends left and right. Every move I make could cost me a friendship. I had started watching what I was doing/saying so I wouldn't hurt anybody or offend anyone. I didn't want anyone mad at me and I didn't want any conflict or drama to go on...

Half of the people I used to talk to everyday dont even want anything to do with me anymore. For example:: a bunch of my friends are all going to Lake Michigan on Saturday. I didn't find out until Ashley asked if I was going. No one invited me, no one was going to invite me...

Yet no matter how hard I tried to keep everyone happy, things just manage to blow up in my face. I get fucked over everytime I try to keep something going.

It's stupid...

I'm done with being polite and trying to make people like me.

This is who I am::
I drink, I dont have a problem or anything, I just drink. And I dont party with complete strangers, I have fun with friends that I know will take care of me and make sure nothing bad happens to me.
I'm selfish. I like money. After being so unhappy with my parents being in dept most of my life and always wishing to be someone else because of what they have, I do believe that money buys happiness no matter what anyone says.
I hold grudges easily and for a long time. It takes so long for me to get over something even if it's just a little thing and I know that it will all be cleared up in no time, there's still something inside of me that is pissed and wont let it go.
I have a problem with opening up to people.
I dont cry in front of people. I dont like letting everyone know I have a weakness. I dont like people pittying me. It makes me feel stupid and I dont like that feeling too much.
I'm judgemental but I hate being judged.
I have terrible grammar when it comes to typing things online.
I really dont care.
I'm a procrastinator.
I like things to go my way and no other way.
I get pissed when my plans get ruined.
I'm messy. I hate cleaning.
I dont care what people think of me. I used to but things are starting to change.
You either love me or you hate me, there is really no inbetween.
Mindy and Ashley are my 2 best friends in the whole wide world.
And I have a piece of shit car, but atleast it has a speeddometor now.



So this is who I am. If you dont like it, then oh well.

I can make new friends just as fast as I can get read of them.

I hate saying goodbye. But if people dont like who I am, than I suppose it is time. I'm not going to say I dont need anybody, I'm just need someone who's going to be there and like me for me, no matter what my flaws are.

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