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2006 26 March :: 11.57pm
Fate fell short this time.
That was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I'm sorry.
I know things are a mess but everything will be alright. I promise.
This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How could you say you meant anything different to anyone
Standing alone on the street with a cigarette on the first night
we met
Look to the past and remember and smile
And maybe tonight I can breath for a while
I'm not in this scene I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you.
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2006 26 March :: 8.26pm
:: Music: I Wish I Was Queer So I Could Get Chicks- The Bloodhound Gang
*turn off the lights, and turn off the shyness. because all the moves make up for the silence...*
so this weekend was fun. just like the last two. just hung out at home friday, had to work saturday, then hung out with kelly, mindy, and kevin. went to steak and shake! YES! i fucking love steak and shake. you wouldnt even begin to imagine how much i love steak and shake. but probably not nearly as much as i love krispy kreeme! lol! that's my absolute favorite! but yeah...anyways, then i had to work this morning from 8 to 4 then me, mindy, jessica, sonia, and kelly (wtf?) went prom dress shopping lol. well i went looking and jessica went searching for ideas. lol. and we got lost and we saw little girls dressed like whores! it was crazy! and one little 8 year old girl looked like she was pregnant! it was insane! then uhh..we went to this fancy shamcy mcdonalds and me and jessica got free food because and retard can work at mcdonalds and me and kelly played ddr! that place was awesome! they had like ddr and video games and everything was free! it absolutely amazed me...like whoa. yeah. then we were all going to go to the movies, but then sonia desided she didnt want to go and i remembered i have 3 papers due tomorrow (which i have yet to start on...) and i didnt have money anyways and then jessica was like well i dont want to go to the movies with kelly and mindy alone cause that's weird so i brought jessica home and we talked about stuff that i'm glad we talked about cause i was kinda afraid of what she'd say but it went well...yeah...and now i'm home. now i must go give my doggy a bath which really fucking sucks but it must be done...bye!
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2006 26 March :: 4.39pm
I think it's all finally sinking in. My gosh, weddings are so detailed and hard to plan. I finally sat down and made a list of things I wanted/needed/people. I've been just putting it off because of the stress. It's going to be a really beautiful wedding! I'm excited. Just a lot of things all happening at once. If I can plan a beautiful wedding in just 2 months, I think it's possible for people to plan it in a year. I'm making a cool vase in ice carving tomorrow night :-) I love that class.
We watched Katriana yesterday and that was fun and interesting.
Well that's about it for now.
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2006 26 March :: 1.25am
:: Music: Silence, but the ringing of bowling sounds still in my head
Update
Wow. Tonight was another interesting night at work. Saw my first fight. Well, almost. There were 3 girls and 2 guys leaving through the door right next to where I was working, so I heard it all. Apparently the one guy looked at the other guy wrong. He was trying to go after him and his girlfriend was holding him off. The other girls and guy were egging him on. And the one guy, finally says to his girlfriend, "Do you love me?! Do you love me?!" And, quote of the night I swear, she proceeds to say, "Not right now, you're being gay!" And I didnt really see the end of it, but it was pretty funny. It was all I could do not to laugh over the burger I was frying.
Ugh, Im so hungry, but Im sick of cooking. You don't know how much will power it takes for me to get myself to make me some food, even without spending a day cooking for thousands of others. My feet and butt hurt T_T
Anyway, so I helped clear tables for the bar people and waitresses too, cuz they needed it. Saw Sandie tonight, haven't seen her in ages =) Funny that the first person that would see me at work is one I haven't seen in forever.
Danielle, a girl who works with me, reminds me of someone, almost like I've met her before, but I can't think of who it is. At first I thought my sister Danielle, but then the more I thought about it the more I thought that it wasn't her, but someone like her...or close to her...or something. But it bugs me, and I can't figure it out.
Had Stephen Lynch stuck in my head all day. Its odd to be cooking burgers with lyrics like "Oh to have two testies would be so nice!" going through my head =S
Got my first paycheck! $25 bucks! woo! lol. Thats cuz the first day I worked was last monday, and monday is like their last day of the week as far as paychecks, and so its like i got a check for one day. lol. This weeks will be tons better. It feels good to have some money just sitting around waiting for you to use it. My wallet actually has some weight to it, and it loves it XD
Tips today were really awesome. Had a party from Verizon wireless come in, they were a-holes.
Saw Kelso, gave him a hundred bucks to strip for me, but he just gave me a bunch of 5's back instead.
Umm....I have a feeling there was more I wanted to say, but I can't think of it right now =S Well, thats why I love the edit option, If I think of it later, I add it on. All in all, things are getting easier, I like that. =)
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2006 25 March :: 6.24pm
I love Jake Mellema, and he is my shining star!!
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2006 24 March :: 6.12pm
i'm so fucking bored. there's nothing to do in this shitty little town. i've been thinking about things these past couple of days and...yeah...i dont know...things are weird i guess. i dont like it when things are weird. it kinda bugs me. i wish mindy wasnt working so we could hang out. i miss her, granted i'm going to see her tomorrow but still. lol. we've been spending alot of time together lately. it's nice. but yeah, got invited to the geek fest (lol) then un-invited...so yeah, there goes my plans for the night. lol. welp...i'm done i guess. anyone wanna hang out, you know the number and if you dont, you're gay...
231-668-3809
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2006 24 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: calm
Dear Ashley,
I love you. You're perfect just the way you are, don't ever change for anyone. Not that you would anyway, haha ^_^ You're the best, don't ever forget it. So no matter what, (and you know what I mean) chin up, because someday, you're going to be somebody. Those who couldn't make the time for you now (and you know what I mean) will be kicking themselves when they see who you've become.
You're a star, babe. Let it shine.
<3 M
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2006 23 March :: 10.40pm
ugh, honestly, how can people judge you when they don't even know you? It drives me crazy, I know I gossip and everyone else knows that they do too, but honestly! what the heck!! Is there really a point? It not only makes us look bad by showing how immature we really are, only focusing on what we see on the outside of people, but just think about some of the things that we say, and think if those things got back to the person you were talking about?! How bad would you feel? Unless you're heartless and you wouldn't feel bad, then whatever, you wouldn't care, but for all of those people who arn't Satan, wouldn't you feel terrible!? Especially if later you found out what an amazing person that you just put down was, or found something out about them that made you suddenly know why they are the way that they are, and what if it isn't their fault! Seriously! I feel like such crap right now, because someone judged me when they didn't know me, and honestly, it isn't a good feeling, I actually feel very bad and ashamed of myself. and I SHOULDN'T feel that way! But I do, and I don't even know this person and they don't know me, but anyway, I feel like a big let down and an embarassment. Well whatever, I guess I'll have to work on that, cuz I do feel bad and I want to change, so starting now, I'm done. AND, just like swearing, I'm not talking bad about people either, I'll keep my thoughts to myself, or block out the bad thoughts entirely, I can do it, just watch me!
ugh, oh my goodness, why do people have to be so immature! And talk about things that they don't understand! I don't get it! From now on, I'm going to live up to my full potential, and not waste my time doing idiotic things that have no point or meaning in my life what-so-ever! I am through with it all. If it makes me feel this way, someone with a relatively high self esteem, then just imagine what it must do to others. I honestly feel like crap, and kinda like puking. well, I'm going to go wallow in self-pity now. Everyone else, enjoy your night!
ugh again! why am I crying?!?!
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2006 23 March :: 10.49pm
i'm sooo bored lol...i thought this was funny
Chelsea...! says:
lalala... i love mindy...
Mindy says:
I love you 2
Chelsea...! says:
it was a song mindy
Chelsea...! says:
if you're going to say it back you have to say it in song
Mindy says:
oh
Chelsea...! says:
duh
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2006 23 March :: 10.35pm
I LOVE YOU MINDY!!!!=)
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2006 23 March :: 10.01pm
Woo. Work tonight was....interesting heh.
First, I get there and the teachers bowl is going on. Crazy lights, loud music. Tons of fun. Then I look right in front of me...and there are teachers wearing skimpy loungerie(sp?), I mean...wayyyy gross. I feel sorry for the kids who have to be taught by these women. But anway, then I noticed some teachers from Cedar. Seeing teachers outside of school is just wierd. I saw maybe 5 or 6 of them. I only remember one name, which was Mr. Martens. Most of them were middle school teachers. Then Mr. Taylor came in later. So that gets over with and the leagers come in to do their stuff. One customer comes up to me and says "Hey beautiful, I need a pepsi!" Flattering, and yet oh so creepy. Thats the first time thats ever been said to me. So the rest of the night passes on rather smoothly. Oh, and this job rocks, because its one of the few I know where we get to pick on and make fun of the customers to their faces, as well as pick on and make fun of each other. Everyone there is awesome. Theres a guy Matt who works at the main counter, hes pretty awesome, and can't forget Kelso! Ugh! So hott. lol I've only got to work with him once so far though. Ummm....yeah anyway. So its about half an hour before I get out of there, and a guy who was bowling in the lane right in front of the counter comes back from bowling a frame, just super pissed. And he proceeds to knock over chairs and then kicks his bowling ball across the floor, which shoots back towards us and hits the counter. Aparently its not that uncommon for that to happen. People really get worked up over their bowling I guess. Then Connie and Danielle were telling me stories about all the fights they usually have on the weekends. I can't wait! lol. Drunk people are funny. The smoke really gets to me sometimes though, I get really nauseas. =S
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2006 23 March :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: The Best Deceptions - Dashboard Confessional
my fine day
so today was nice. nothing too exciting happened but nothing terrible happened. school was fine i suppose. Gravid David came to pick me up to take me to eat. it was good. we had mcdonalds. it was delicious. thanks again gravid...then we went to jessica's and her and sydney entertained us with their mad rapping and their awesome moves. it was ammusing, let me tell you...yup. so..yeah...i should really be doing some homework and stuff seems how tomorrow is like the end of the marking period. but...i'm lazy. i dont like being lazy. it makes me look bad...oh well. i dont really care. i'm really bored. *sigh* i should do some extra credit for physiology/anatomy. errg...ok...that's all i got...
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2006 23 March :: 5.35pm
Cant you see?
There's a feeling that's come over me.
Close my eyes.
You're the only one who leaves me completely breathless.
No need to wonder why.
Sometimes a gift like this you can't deny.
I wanted to fly so you gave me your wings and time held it's breath so I could see, yeah you set me free.
When I was alone, you came around.
When I was down, you pulled me through.
There's nothing that I wouldn't do for you.
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2006 22 March :: 5.23pm
Wow, its been a while. =) For those of you who don't yet know. I finally got a fricken job! I'm excited, and yet horribly depressed about it at the same time. lol. Worked two days so far. 5 to close. That takes a lot out of ya. Ill get used to it though. Its a lot of standing around, and everyone does everything, theres no assigned things. Work thursday and this saturday and sunday. Sat I probably won't get out until like 1:30 in the morning =S But a paycheck is a paycheck right?!?! Oh, heh. Forgot to mention where I worked. I work at Westgate bowling alley. $6 and hour plus tips, not to bad for starting out.
In other news, I "skipped" school today. Had Lynne call in. I needed a day to get myself caught up with my life. I needed to do laundry and I needed a nice long shower and a few extra hours of sleep. And I got it, and it feels great. Going work clothes shopping tonight with my mom. Need some pants. We can't wear blue denim and thats pretty much all I have. Ummm.....backstage pictures!!
......will be posted later because I just ran out to my car to get my camera and realised I left it at home =S
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