How Wonderful Life is While You're in the World.

How Wonderful Life is While You're in the World.

:: 2004 21 November :: 1.58am
:: Mood: jubilant
:: Music: death cab for cutie-passenger seat.

It's really the best feeling I've ever ever ever ever ever had. Probably. At least in the top seven.

Everything I want. But for real.

I want to turn on all the lights and yell and dance.

5 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 19 November :: 11.26pm
:: Music: death cab for cutie-the sound of settling

Let's focus here:

Things are good.

I've decided that satisfied is not a place you want to be. It's only a thing to be constantly striving for. If you get there wouldn't you be bored? Without the indecision and the heartbreak and and and the uncertainty and the changes and the simple things and the tragic. . .and everything you love and hate you'd just be stuck.

3 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 15 November :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: soooo grumpy

okay okay

i'm crazy and i keep getting more weird.

i can't be aloof and i can't be overbearing and i can't find a middle ground where i feel normal and i want constant reassurance. i want to yell and hide and get a better taste in my mouth.

i mean i don't believe that it's okay even though it must be. does that make sense?

maybe i'm not even ready and i'm just going to be really imature or i'll be really good and hide all my fear and then i'll freak out.

you know it'll be fine and then that melting feeling will come and i'll pretend like i'm not crazy. and then i'll feel weird again. i'm not an intuitive person. i'm just freaking nuts.

maybe i'll follow my own advice. no bull. but that would involve me telling the story again.

ugh.

12 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 15 November :: 6.36am

I'm not sure why I can't seem to breath. Maybe I'm losing the hang of it.

5 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 14 November :: 11.17pm

will i be the kind of person who doesn't own a toaster?

pray for me.

4 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 13 November :: 10.52pm

I'm so mollifed and happy. And I don't even feel stupid or ugly or like i have to look impressive. i can trust and i can feel safe. but it's not anxious and it's not mean or embarassing and i don't have to listen to my doubt because it's not telling the truth.

it's nice.

and i don't freak out when i see durangos or look at the clock at 9:24 or care.

i only wish my mom would be happy too. not be such a meanie. but that's the only fly in the ointment.

and maybe i'll quit my jarb. and maybe i'll get my period soon and my body will be better and i can have babies.

4 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 13 November :: 12.25am

intense.

..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 November :: 3.29pm

"Are we available for Thanksgiving dinner?"

what a strange thing to say.

i was planning on three things this afternoon. So far, two of them are not happening.

5 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 November :: 11.44am

every one in this school is crazy.

9 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 8 November :: 11.13pm

i hate you. you're supposed to be dead.

how could you?

3 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 7 November :: 9.29am

so cool.

1 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 6 November :: 12.51am

you are like a cloud
floating
on a shining sea of
unhappiness
if gypsies could
talk
you would be
the only
one

clever.

..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 5 November :: 10.43pm

haven't felt like this for a long time.
annoyed with small things.

for instance:
my mother's voice

even though.

..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 1 November :: 9.40pm
:: Mood: paranoid
:: Music: snowpatrol-grazed knees

yeah, thanks for fucking me up.

seriously.

something good actually happens and what you did gets in the way.

i love it.

9 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.

sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 1 November :: 7.06pm

I've been sensationalized.

yeah. what.

too cool for school.

and freaking yum.

2 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.