thedarkerside
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2004 5 June :: 10.58am
:: Mood: Tired
Lassssstt nightt she said Oh baby I feel so downn
Lastnight turned out pretty fun actually. People did come over, most of the neighbors. There were about 12 people there..eh, it was ok. I went inside after a while with kennen and we sat on the computer making stuff then played family fued and home run derby on old school super nentendo like the good old times. We were going to play extreme hide and go seek outside but no one else would play..damnit, That would have been fun. So none the less...it was fun..
Me lol
Kendra w/ my trucker hat
Trucker hat again..
Kennen
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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graffiti
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2004 4 June :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: From Autumn To Ashes : Autumn's Monologue
You might be just what I need
No I would not change a thing
Been dreaming of this so long
But we only exist in this song
The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down, fold you in
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live
I break in two over you
I break in two
And if a piece of you dies
Autumn, I will bring you back to life
Of course I see you
I do.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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klayman
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2004 4 June :: 10.50pm
You might be just what I need
No I would not change a thing
Been dreaming of this so long
But we only exist in this song
The thing is, I'm not worth the sorrow
And if you come and meet me tomorrow
I will hold you down, fold you in
Deep, deep, deep in the fiction we live
I break in two over you
I break in two
And if a piece of you dies
Autumn, I will bring you back to life
Of course I see you
I do.
;)
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 4 June :: 9.47pm
:: Music: today-smashing pumpkins
It was like there was no air in my lungs. Not like I couldn't breath, but like I didn't need to.
anxiously calm feeling and that terrible smile.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 4 June :: 9.43pm
Well we were going to have a fire..but I don't know if anyone is coming besides Kendra. I thought about hiding in the van until she came so I could jump out and scare her..hehe.. I think she's at the door right now. I'm too late...
I was petting my cat whom was sitting in my window and I heard a song..."Thow up your rock fist if you're feelin it when I drop thisssss" I was like THOUSAND FOOT KRUTCH! lol I think my neighbors were playing it..hm.m.
Well we made some pretty damn good popcorn..
Later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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Thedarkerside
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2004 4 June :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: full
Hmm..
I found this when I was going through my old email account, I read it and I don't know how I feel...
Date: Thu, 21 Aug 2003 15:57:27 -0400
From: "*** *****" <******@*******>
To: **********@yahoo.com
Amy
I am very glad to hear from you, and wish you all the best as you truck
through this adventure called life, the ride we are all on.
You have a gift to see things in a way that many people go their whole
life without. Being a deeply feeling and creative human is a blessing
and a curse. The curse is that the pain of any negative feeling can run
deep, but the blessing comes from the joy you can find in simple
things,
such as rain on a leaf, or the color of the sky in October.
Remember the only wrong way to live is not living up to the
expectations you set for yourself. Set them high, and live by those
rules alone. When it comes down to it, we are our own worst enemy and
best friend.
Keep in touch Amy.
I am here if you need me.
-*** *****
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 4 June :: 1.40pm
Wow. AIM is blocked on the school computers. Working in my mom's classroom will be SOOO FUN! lol grr.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 4 June :: 11.14am
Lastnight, around 11 I was writing and I just stopped and I couldn't write anymore... Instead I started writing a letter that was obviously to my mom and meant to be seen by her. To sum it up I said how she makes me feel and that I wish she could just be proud of me. I left it on the couch right on the spot she usually sits..then went to bed.
......I woke up at 6 and took the notebook and closed it. Then brought it back in my room. I don't know. I guess I'm not ready to talk about it.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 3 June :: 5.58pm
I should have been more happier on the last day of school.
I have a feeling that I'm not going to like this summer. It's just a hunch....
I'm hungry. Nickelodeon Old School is on...I feel like I'm a kid again... hm..
Laaterr
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 3 June :: 3.48pm
:: Music: today
I wanted one thing today. And now I have anger tears.
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 2 June :: 9.25pm
:: Music: Seether f. Amy Lee- Broken
Hmm
It's interesting what you overhear on phone conversations, especially with my mom. Talking about how her councelor was saying how she needs to confront her childhood problems with her parents and then she went into explaining how her parents use to be and I find it more than strange that she is them.. She has become them, and always has been. How they were never there for emotional support and how they were verbally abusive..It's just too ironic.
If she even raises her voice at me or goes to yell at me for anything I'll probably just burst. I'm going to tell her that I'm sorry that I'm stupid and can never be what or who she wants me to be and I'll never be good enough. Right now I think she's at the emotion point where if I say something along those lines I just might be able to break her...finally. Then we might actually get somewhere.
As bad as it sounds I think I would actually get satisfaction out of seeing her cry because of something I said to her.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 2 June :: 6.23pm
Yeah....
I should probably go study for design and gym.
I had an incredible blonde moment today. I know Spencer..his dad and I are old friends.. Wow..I so didn't put 2 and 2 together lol I should tell Steph about that haha.
I can't wait until tomorrow is over. Hopefully I'll have a lot of good pictures too.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 2 June :: 2.37pm
Awake and Dreaming
I can't lose anything
So what's left is mine
And I win this time
Consolation day
I'll make up a way
I'll know now just what to say
I'll get away from you
Wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
I saw it all again
Fading memory became clear to me
I try but I can't say
That I'm yours for good
Support me you said you would
I'll get away from you
Wait and I'll be begging
I'll pull you down
Awake and dreaming
I'm only sleeping
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 2 June :: 12.50pm
:: Music: Finger Eleven- Bones and Joints
I've been down here before..Lost myself and so much more
I'm feeling creative. I think I'm going to go write and work on the cover for my notebook...hmm. sounds good.
Later...
Like I've said, You can never update your woohu enough... I can't help it lol
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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