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sugarmouse0587

:: 2003 1 December :: 10.32pm

everything just got weird today.

just felt really angry. and for like 5 maybe 8 seconds at a time. I felt okay. then this horrible chill would overtake me again. it's one of those side effects of being out of school.

at least i did my homework.

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


graffiti

:: 2003 1 December :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: [ Godsmack ] : Serenity

I do not like secrets..

On the happier note, Lip Smackers and CG Wet Slicks make my lips really soft.

:(
:)

1 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.


thedarkerside

:: 2003 1 December :: 6.58pm

School was ok today..one of those better days where the work isnt hard and you have some fun. Jesse wasn't here so I sat next to Steph in civics and we got to talk more. She's like totally opposite than what I originally thought she was a year ago. I'm glad I got to meet her along with other people. We were laughin and messin around. Good thing jesse wasnt there because I would have lost my bet. lol The bet is still tomorrow. I hope I win so he can dance and sing the silly bones song lol it would be sooo funny.


I'm out

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


thedarkerside

:: 2003 30 November :: 6.57pm

and then there is school...
Ahh...Sunday nights always suck. Knowing that school is only a dozen hours away. I must finish my homework tonight...it can wait a few more hours. I already took a shower so I'm all set. I don't have anything else to worry about..until I have to do my homework. We'll see.

Today seemed to go by fast..everyday goes by fast...

Well, I'm heading in for the night..I'll write tomorrow probably.

later

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


graffiti

:: 2003 30 November :: 2.29pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: [ Blink 182 ] : I Miss You

Well, I guess I don't really talk about my life in this journal anymore..I can't really remember anything before last Wednesday. So I guess I'll start there. Wednesday, me and the fam left for Illinois. I got up at around 10, expecting to leave around 12:30 or so, because that's what my mom told me. Of course, she insists on telling me that she said to 'be ready by 12:30, not leave by then'. Whatever. So we left at around..3, I think. So I went with Dave, and my mom took the dog, and we drove for about 8 hours; got stuck in Chicago traffic for about 2 and a half hours, even though I slept through most of it. Got to Noni and Grandpa's house [Great grandparents] at about 11, Michigan time, it was 10 there. So we hung around and talked about the dog, and how I liked school and all that crap. So then I slept on the blow up bed in the living room, froze to death [Almost!] during the night, and was awoken on Thanksgiving morning by breakfast eaters at about 7. Ahh. So then I hung around and waited for everyone to take showers and get ready. Seven people and one shower doesn't make for a relaxing morning. But oh well. I hung around and watched the Trading Spaces: Family marathon until everyone was done. Took my shower, got ready, and left for Aunt Janices for dinner. The food is always good, but not the company. My cousin Kristen is turning out to be quite the bitch, if I do say so myself. She doesn't even bother to say hi to anyone anymore; she's too distracted by her boyfriend [A different one for every holiday..] and uncle Mike. And it sucks because she's the closest one to my age, everone else are adults [Boring] or 5 year olds. But Brodie and Sydnie are cute so I played with them. Lol. So we all ate, cleaned up, watched football [ I forget who was playing..heh] and left about 5 hours later. Which was when the REAL boredem started. There was nothing to do except watch tv..I didn't bring anything to do except a CD player and my science homework, and I did too much of that on the drive down there. So we all watched tv for like 5 hours. Which was hell. I ended up calling Ryan but I guess his cousins were being too loud, and my [Mom's, not mine] cell was being stupid and breaking up so we only talked for about 10 minutes. Grandma Sue made it a point to ask as many questions about Ryan as possible.."Is your boyfriend having family over for Thanksgiving", "Does your boyfriend have any siblings?", "Does your boyfriend have any pets? A dog?" and stuff of that nature..=\ So once again, I slept on the blow up bed, almost froze to death during the night was awoken at 7 by the breakfast eaters, again. So now it's Friday, me and Dave are leaving today, and my mom is going to a bug craft show in downtown Peoria with Grandma Sue for the day and she'll leave Saturday. Dave planned on going to lunch at 1 to see some of his old friends; I didn't want to go, so he dropped me off at Target for a few hours. Before he went to lunch though, we dropped by our old neighbors house, the Gray's, and saw Melanie and Alex, but her husband Bill and son Adam went to play Squash, whatever that is. Apparently it's a popular game at the Air Force Academy, which Adam attends. So that was fun seeing them. Also really cool to drive around Peoria and see my old city. I miss it =( I was hoping I would see some of my old friends too, but I didn't get a chance to call any of them to do anything..oh well. Next time maybe. So then me and Dave drove baaack to Michigan, got caught in a huge storm of some sort. Every car in front of us was spinning off the road or close to it, and I was freaking out. But I guess we didn't die, Lol. so I came back to a 50 degree house, and once again, froze my ass [and toes] off during the night. So on Saturday I got up at 12:30, got ready, persuaded Dave to take me to Ryan's, and hung out there all day. I met his Aunt and Uncle and cousin..watched football, watched Donnie Darko, went out for Chinese [Got addicted to sugar bread] and came back and watched some of Austin Powers..and came back to my house again. Lol..so here I am today. Got up at 11, turned on the tv, and watched Trading Spaces [It's sad, I know..] and attempted to clean my room, but got distracted like I always do. Talked to some people..Kristin's gonna buy me the Bath and Body Works store, Adam's getting me a can of pop, and Ryan a 25 cent ring. =D I can't wait until Christmas, too bad I spent 60 bucks at Target and I'll have to work my ass off to earn enough money for Christmas presents. Oh well, making candy is always a good option =). I guess today I'm just cleaning and all that..nice stuff..maybe going to Ryan's. I think I will be going now..if you read this far, I'm impressed. I wouldn't have the attention span to read it, I'm surprised at myself that I typed out the whole freakin thing. Seeya. <3Allison

2 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.


sugarmouse0587

:: 2003 30 November :: 11.51am

feelin' slightly CRANKY



but zee sun it is out and i likes zhat

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


sugarmouse0587

:: 2003 29 November :: 10.13pm

for some reason i feel dissatisfied

and nothing bad happened today.

i'd say it was all good.

but still. i'm not in a dazzling mood.




and for another strange reason, this bc party doesn't sound like a good idea.

4 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.


thedarkerside

:: 2003 29 November :: 9.31pm

Happy Birthday to my 325 entry for my woohu.

Your so pretty look at you..soooo pretty lol

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


thedarkerside

:: 2003 29 November :: 8.50pm

Its uncomprehendable....how I look back a year(s) ago. Things that were happening. How I was feeling. It was only just a year ago..it seems as if it was decades ago. All the fighting and how people were so childish...things were childish things wern't right..they didn't feel right anymore. I feel like I've changed so much..Not even around the same people who I was before. Who knew that my 6th grade secret santa would become my best friend. Who knew I'd find new people that would be so accepting and would just be...everyone who I thought I would never even talk to. I've made alot of things possible that I never could have dreamed about. I've been able to look past the word group and I've been able to see people just as indivisuals... It's mind boggling...way beyond mind boggling. I feel overwhelmed in the sense that this is my life and I've been able to mold it into whatever I want yet some things won't take their new shape. I wished for a new life and in a way..I have gotten some of that.

But it doesn't change how I feel about things..inside I'm the same Amy...the same Amy whos been trying to get out of hell for years..same Amy whos been trying to prove that I can do things on my own and that I just want to be loved. That's all it comes down to in the end.

I stand alone....

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


rachelle

:: 2003 29 November :: 7.43pm
:: Mood: thirsty
:: Music: You'll be in my Heart by Phil Collins

Another night under the Moon.
Greetings fellow Earthlings! Hi its aproximately 7 hours 39 minutes and 54 seconds. I am in the grocery store in the grape produce section. It is very tempting to steal one and bite it and have the juice fly all over an old lady! But I can resist for I am now distracted by the lucious peaches. I am writing on my Notebook software technology laptop that I recieved for completing a invention that I am submitting to the government called the "Floating Planter". This invention realisticly floats over the meer store floor. My client Jeffery Pegzino has recently tried out for the new movie James bond 4 and has been called back just yesterday to try out again for the James Bond part. I, tomorrow, plan to succeed in the movie business just as young Jeffery did yesterday. The film I will be directing is Apollo24... Return of the Martians. Wish me luck. I am now in the check out line with my half squeezed grape and my purified glass of peach milk. Want some? Get some. Bring it on. Represent....... word!!


I MISS YOU KEVIN DON'T LEAVE ME!!

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


thedarkerside

:: 2003 29 November :: 7.53pm

slightly obessed with Gauge 32 -wink-
Verse 1
Woke up on the bathroom floor
Like I've done for long before
Alone I lie an empty shell
Trying to escape this hell
But where to go, and who to see
All these questions torture me
The questionns burn inside my brain
Pushing me to go insane

Chorus
Why
Do I
Even try
Nothing ever changes
Life just re-arranges
Crushing me..and why
Do I
Even care
You're not even there
You're nothing now to me
why don't you let me be

Verse 2
Is there ever something more
Something that's worth fighting for
Something that will clear my eyes
Saving me from black demise
Year's I've searched and never found
And now I'm lieing on the ground
Left alone, a broken soul
Leaving me without control

CHORUS

Verse 3
Now I wonder where you were
When everything became a blur
I passed out by the bathroom door
And fell onto the bathroom floor
The cries for help you didn't hear
Were muffled by my angered fear
So I lie upon the floor
So I will forevermore.

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


thedarkerside

:: 2003 29 November :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: tired/content

I stayed up till like 2 in the morning watching "The Breakfast Club" That's one of my favorite movies. (note to self..get on dvd) I woke up like 11ish and we started cleaning and there was unpacking of various boxes. We got out the fake xmas tree and put it together and got the lights and ordiments on it and all that jazz..... So Christmas is almost here...Jesus couldn't just hold it back another month could he. Although I'm happy that we will have 2 weeks off from school...but I'm sure it will go by fast. By the way..I think I personally am an Atheist...lol yeah it does sound funny but... I still can't wait for spring break. Last year I did alot of thinking when I was there. Thinking and writing...it felt good. I hope I can put myself in that element again this time....

I do have something to live for..something ahead of me to look forward to...it just might take longer for me to get to it....gradually..baby steps...

I just have to keep telling myself there will be an end to it soon. That's what I live on, my own word. Even if I'm wrong, atleast I will have made it that far...

I feel as if I have just been swept up in complete randomnesss...

Later...

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


rachelle

:: 2003 29 November :: 12.58pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: i cant stop loving you- the chicago song

another day under the sun
i watched apollo 13 last night. im positive i want to go to space now. and i think i actually have a chance at it. although, i have to put that excursion on hold until i get my pilots license. that means i have to wait until after december 22nd. i called and they were like, "im sorry, we have no openings until the 23rd of december." and i got really upset, but thats okay i guess, its not like i have the money right now to pay for it anyway.

we put our christmas tree up today. it looks nice i guess. i love chirstmas time, its so wonderful. now all thats missing is the snow and carols. i cant wait until we kick the season into high gear.

its been about 5 days now since i've seen kevin. its upsetting, but on the bright side i only have 3 days until i see him again.

yesterday me and lindsay and kari went out to woodland on a hunt for christmas gifts for kari's momma. she did really well. another aspect of the trip was to find and outfits for both me and lindsay, however, we did not. so i guess it was a successful failure. :)

i think im gonna try and redo my room. i have ideas. but i dont know how im going to accomplish them. all i can to is try though.

well, im gonna take a break for now. maybe i'll write later.

until then.......
this is rachelle- signing off

..you can tell everybody this is your song.


sugarmouse0587

:: 2003 28 November :: 11.12pm
:: Music: threedoorsdownherewithoutyou

just when you think it's safe.

nothing is funny, and everything comes back to bite you.

2 sung. | ..you can tell everybody this is your song.


sugarmouse0587

:: 2003 28 November :: 10.08pm

intervention time. ah.

it's like the ghost of relationship past.

..you can tell everybody this is your song.

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