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2003 26 July :: 2.35pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: blink - first date
Mr. don't you pee on me
well i hope everyone who went had a good time at the allnighter. i stayed up till 7 in the morning by myself doing nothing. i ended up watching out cold...that movie is fucking halarious. i also played my guitar really really loud at like 2 in the morning cuz i was bored and i felt like it. my fucking parents are home for some reason. i guess i should go find out why, grrr. its about 2:30 and i just woke up. im so hungry. anyway yeah im gonna go now because this was a worthless entry. goodbye.
Bradley
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2003 26 July :: 3.13am
:: Music: blink 182 - man overboard
can someone take me away?? please... im going crazy here...im all alone and i have 2 more days of complete nothingness...i got really pissed earlier and i accidently cut myself....there really shouldnt be any knifes near me when i get like that..i get the idea that pain is nothing and if i cut myself then it will help but it just leaves marks to remind me of my stupidity. i have so many dreams that will never be achieved. i wanna be a singer/guitarist so bad but ill never get the balls to sing in front of people. i dont know why im stupid like that i just need some way to get rid of it. ive been working on my voice alot this summer. im trying to get my sound that fits me and i think i have it. ill just never be able to show it. that makes me sad...the song i typed up below all this is my favorite song to sing and play. when i sing it at my cousins he always misses the chance to record me cuz he never gets time and i never do it when he says. somehow he thinks i do a really good job with that song. i need someone to take me away. if jay would respond to me half of the time then we probly would have went out tonight but he ignored me. oh well. anyway im gonna get going. i dont want to annoy anyone anymore. goodnight all.
Bradley
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2003 26 July :: 1.53am
:: Music: Blink 182 - What went wrong
I'm sick, of always hearing
all the sad songs, on the radio
All day it is there to be mine
An over sensative guy
that is lost and alone, yeah.
I hate, our favorite restruant
our favorite movie
our favorite show.
We would, stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high
and never answer the phone.
I can't forgive, can't forget
can't give in, what went wrong cuz you said
this was right, you fucked up my life.
I'm sick, of always hearing
sappy love songs, on the radio.
This place, it's fucking cursed and its plagued
and i can never escape, when my heart it explodes.
I can't forgive, can't forget
can't give in, what went wrong cuz you said this was right, you fucked up my life.
I'm kicking, out fiercly at the world around me
what went wrong
I'm kicking, out fiercly at the world around me
what went wrong
I'm kicking, out fiercly at the world around me
what went wrong
I'm kicking, out fiercly at the world around me
what went wrong
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2003 25 July :: 6.35pm
well im not going to the allnighter. i dont have a ride and have like 6 bucks on me. oh fucking well. i never go anywhere so its nothing new. anyway im just letting whoever cares know. goodbye.
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2003 24 July :: 9.45pm
Well isnt that just fucking odd? i wont hide it i guess. at least my hearts not black...assholes
Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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2003 24 July :: 9.37pm
She's from tenchi so ill take her, hurray
Who's Your Anime Girlfriend?
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2003 24 July :: 9.24pm
:: Music: blink 182 - Online songs
*thinks* hmm, nope
Actually im a liar, a big fat liar. im not going with my mom and jason this weekend. i changed my mind, i still probly wont go to the allnighter because i dont have anyone to go with. and yeah sorry mindy for being..umm whatever it was i was being. anyway im going to stay here this weekend and do absolutely nothing..because im a loser, and thats what losers do. they stay at home everyday and do nothing. so anyway im gonna go now, just letting anyone who cares know. goodbye.
Bradley
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2003 24 July :: 6.36pm
well, i decided not to go to the allnighter, no ones going but mindy and jessica. and mindy's being all not cool right now so yeah. anyway im going with my mom and jason tomorrow after my mom gets out of work. we're going to lake michigan in our boat till sunday. we hope to catch some big fish. anyway, the whole warped tour thing is cancelled..i had a few problems so yeah i'd rather not talk about it on here. anywho, im gonna go, you all have fun now. bye.
Bradley
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2003 24 July :: 4.45pm
:: Music: taking back sunday-head club
Brads a pimp
guess whos getting a pimp mobile? thats right, you guessed it. ME! and if you said anyone lse your stupid and your not my friend. anyway its a 1988 Lincoln Mark 7. its old as shit but its awsome, it runs good and it looks all pimp like. everything works in it and it has tinted windows and a sun roof so yeah kiss my ass. and its got the same engine as a mustang and everything. me and jason are gonna work on it and put a new exhaust and a system and shit in it. its gonna rad as hell. and then ill be pimpin down the streets of cedaah. thats right. ill probly have it by next tuesday, of course i have to get my lisence but that wont take long at all. im not gonna have to wait 6 months like all you fuckin suckers out there. anyway, just wanted to tell ya'll the good news. goodbye.
Bradley
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2003 24 July :: 12.04am
leave me to die
why do i ever bother caring for someone? everytime i truely care about someone they either ruin it or someone else does. tasha is my first example, everything was perfect, then it was ruined. now everytime i try to get close to someone it blows up in my fucking face. me and justin are supposed to go to wisconsin for the warped tour. he might not get to do this..is it fate or was i just born fucked in every way? he doesnt know how much going to this means to me. its not only about the music...its about a girl. a girl at the rockshow, how ironic. i havent been close to anyone in almost 7 fucking months...i cant take it anymore. i cant be alone, ive been so lonely. i cant wait for tasha because it will never happen. we both know this. last night i had a dream about tasha and it was great. but when reality hits again it depresses me. why cant i just have someone that i can be with...jessi was right, she was the only person that will ever love me like she did. and of course stupid me, i fucked everything up. i always fuck everything up, i was a born failure. i dont know why these things happen to me, ill never understand. all i know is i think i will be better off alone...alone as in alone from everyone. i could just not give a shit about anyone and care for myself and thats it. i wouldnt need friends, all i would need is myself. i would be the only one who could make me happy. im not saying this will happen..but if my life remains as shitty as it is....then i dont know what will happen to me. im not doing this shit for attention, i never have. im just a peice of shit with a lot of problems. and i have no one to help me through it. i havent really talked to anyone about all this because no one understands. i probly dont even deserve what i have, i dont deserve any kind of a life. i should just lock myself in my room and ignore everything. i dont know how many of you actually give a shit about all this, i dont really know who all cares about me..im just going to go now because im alone and i will remain alone. goodbye.
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2003 20 July :: 6.50pm
lifes hatred toward me is raining down upon me. a few minutes ago i was informed that my grandmother has died. yes i am sad but i saw her today and to be honest if i was her i would rather be dead. she couldnt talk, she couldnt eat by mouth, only by tube, she could barely breath...i guess reality just hit me right now because the first tear just fell..i feel so bad. i need to go
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2003 20 July :: 7.59am
who all is going to the allnighter the 25th??? please tell me if you are so i can decide if i wanna go. and i hope everyone had a good time without me at that party, its ok i like not getting invited to be with my friends.
bradley
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2003 6 July :: 5.25pm
:: Mood: woosy
:: Music: the used-box of sharp objects
for as long as we both shall live
well this weekend has been a hoot and a hollar kids. i went to my aunts cottage fo the 4th. well friday i didnt do much but get a little drunk and play a shit load of horse shoes. went swimming alot and other regular stuff. then uhh yesterday...woah buddy. we were supposed to go home but we didnt. sooo they let me drink more. which was a mistake on their part..cept for a good laugh. anyway on with the story, over the nights span i ended up drinking 2 20ouncers of ice house, a sex on the beach, and two cups of redbull and vodka. mmm it was good but i got fucking hammered. when i was first drunk with my whole family which is funny, i uhh was talking to everyone around a fire and they tell me i had my head phones on of course with techno on. well i went to take a drink they said and i fell asleep with the cup to my mouth and they were all laughing at me. well anyway i woke up because it was pouring all down my chest and shit so i quick drank the rest of it and got some more. then they said i went to piss behind the shed and i was back there for like 5 minutes, and they all came back there and they found me stuck in between the shed and the house passed out....standing up...after that they decided it was night night time. so they put me on the couch with a bucket next to me to puke in which i never puked. anywho after that they found me on the floor with my face in the bucket for some reason. then they picked me up and tried to put me on cushens, but uhh i fell right off those so they left me on the floor with a pillow and thats it. and this morning i was not feeling good. of course they were all like hows the hangover? and i didnt talk until about 2 hours after i woke up. i still feel sick but im not throwing up or anything. but yeah thats my little story. ill see you all later. bye!
Brad
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2003 2 July :: 7.48pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: blink 182 - waggy
hurray
well folks, today i had my interview at KFC and tomorrow i have to go back for a little orientation and to get my hours and whatnot. im starting off at about $6.25, i guess thats decent. i also get my uniform tomorrow and whatnot. i have to be there at 3 and they said ill be there for a couple hours.thats gonna be fun...-.- but yeah i havent done too much. just sittin around. i really want to go to the beach again. the last two days have been perfect out but i have no one to go with so yeah it really blows. ive been making alot of new online friends lately, all girls of course cept for one guy. anyway i think thats all. ill see ya'll later. bye.
Brad
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2003 30 June :: 3.03pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: blink - blowjob song
mmmmyup
hey people, its been about a week now since ive updated, sorry everyone. anyway im moved in now, its been about a week since and umm its going pretty good. this morning i turned in a few applications for jobs and i guess im gonna be working at mcdonalds and probly KFC or burger king. meijers is an option too. but anyway lately ive been chatting alot for some reason. i had one chat open and i had about 13 people in there and i was reffered to as god. it was fun. but yeah now i live by the beach and its great. the other day me and chris f. went to the beach and we saw a shit load of hot chicks there. it was heaven. we also went swimming and there werent much waves that were too big. but after a while the waves got like 8 or 9 feet high. the water was shallow so we could touch but we were pretty far out there. the waves were going way over our heads. it was nuts. but yeah there was a huge like 2 1/2 ft. dead fish and i picked it up and threw it on the beach. first i was holding it up screaming while everyone was looking at me all funny. now that i got cable im downloading like crazy. i got all the blink cds now and a bunch of videos and stuff. well i think thats about it for now. ill see ya'll later. bye.
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2003 23 June :: 3.38pm
well i have news for everyone. i already announced i was moving out for the summer i think. i might be moving out today, the thing is there is no phone lines there so i will have to wait till i buy my own. i should have a job by the end of the week if i move in today. but i probley wont see or talk to any of you for a little while. i just you all to know so no one gets confused. well im gonna go now. email me or reply if you got anything to tell me. bye all.
Bradley
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2003 22 June :: 6.32pm
:: Mood: achy
:: Music: blink- emo
well kids, its been about a week. i havent done too much, friday i went to my cousins and stuff and just hung out and whatnot. then saturday we went to a friends wedding, i had fun, the reception was fun, joey (the grume) was dancing and getting really crazy, hes 20 something, so is his wife. hes really funny, him and his brother, they were both drunk. you know the best part? i cought the guarder. it was awsome, he pulled it off with his teeth then threw it and i caught it. its great, its now my prised possesion. in case you dont know what it is its the little thing the bride puts around her upper leg. :s anyway i went to the flea market today..didnt really get anything though cept for one thing but yeah. i got some hair dye. i dyed my hair an orangish look. i actually think its the same exact thing as what kevin had. i didnt know at the time but oh well. my mom and sis said it would look ok so i got it. plus i got a haircut today so its cool. other than all that and some yard work i didnt really do much. i have news for you all. im going to be moving for the summer. its about an hour away from here. im moving in with my cousin heather. im gonna get a job there and make about 2 to 300 a week so ill have enough to get a car. i might have my license by the end of the summer. but yeah if anyone wants to invite me with them for the 4th please do..i dont wanna go with my mom and jason...anyway im gonna get going now, ill talk to you all later.
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2003 16 June :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: achy
:: Music: blink-voyer
i hurts
well today was hard as fuck..i went to bed at like 3:30am last night and woke up at about 6 and got ready and whatnot to leave. then coach sabinas picked me up and we went to the highschool to wait for the rest of the team. after everyone was there we got in the 4 seperate vans. me josh gates nick drangon or whatever and kelly edly were all in the same van with coach. then we drove to mcdonalds for breakfast and what not then we got to the place which is over 150 miles from here near traverse city. when we got there i peed then we ran a mile to get warmed up. then we went to the actual dune. when we got there coach told us to look out from the top and so we did and everyone was like holy shit this is gonna be impossible. the dune was about an 80 degree angle which was almost straight up. it was a 450 foot drop if it was a straight drop but it was about a quarter mile long. so we all ran/stumbled down it. after we got to the bottom we had to go back up. after about 1/4 of the way upeveryone was tired and was hurting.lemme tell you, you cannot run or walk up this hill, you crawl. you cant walk it. it was not easy at all. after about 15 minutes or so we finally made it to the top. then we got some water and whatnot then we had to do it again which was even worse. i could barely do it the first time but i did it, both times..and i wasnt last! but yeah after that we went to a smaller dune and did that 2 times. then we ate lunch. after all that we started heading back and i fell asleep 2 hours of that way back and i woke up with another hour of driving. we all talked and had fun. coach sabinas is an awsome guy. hes really funny. anyway now im here and yeah right now brie bowlin and her mom are cleaning the house on my driveway because they're renting it. their gonna live there, its gonna be cool. anyway tomorrow at 10 in the morning im getting picked up by coach to work and earn omney for camp. hes borrowing 2 movies from me, matrix reloaded and bruce almoghty, he was really glad i had bruce almighty, he said he was gonna take his wife to the movies to go see it but he dont have to now. but yeah it was funny. on the way back from the dunes i got coach to listen to ac/dc. it was awsome. but then he turned it off cuz he said he would rather listen to fuzz on the radio. well yeah anyway im gonna go now, bye all.
Brad
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2003 15 June :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: depressed
add another soul to your list god, you fucking faggot!
just to add to my last entry....now my other fucking rabbit is dead...hes burried next to his brother. just wanted to let you all know. bye.
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2003 15 June :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: kid rock-only god knows why
my own two hands
well people...i have very bad news..well for me anyway i dont think any of you care. but i just got done burying one of my baby rabbits behind my garage. i came home from my run and my mom was crying holding the bunny and said i gotta bury it. i didnt want to but i knew there wasnt a chance this time he was gonna come back like the other one did 2 times. earlier today they were both playing and stuff and the little one stiffened up and stopped breathing 2 times then came back after about 15 seconds...and now the one that was doing ok died, the little one probley doesnt have that much time either. even though the one that died did have a boken leg because it got out of its cage and jumped off my tv which is about 4 feet up so that wasnt good either. anyway im really tired. i went to coach sabinas's house today to talk to him about tomorrow. tomorrow morning at 8:00am hes gonna pick me up and we're going to the high school. then leaving from there we have to run up and down huge sand dunes. he said their only about a quarter mile long but its like almost straight up so thats why its hard. we're also going to mc donalds for lunch. but i dont think im going anywhere after all this cuz ill probly be very tired. josh gates is supposed o come over in the morning to be picked up with me but i dunno whats all going on, he still has to call me. me and my mom went to kmart to get me some new running clothes so yeah thats good i guess. im just gonna go im rambling on now. ill see ya'll later. bye.
Brad
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