just being poetic cuz i didnt write yesterday
listen to my heart beating through my chest
this is me, at my best
tell me do you miss those days when we couold have changed it
we will always have regrete
dont make other plans were set
as the time passes by
cant stop thinking why
we are the way we are
we always try to leave our scars behind
and i will always say
"dont give up dont delay,
make every moment last,
dont it all seem to fast?"

all it is...

everything is nuthing
nuthing is sumthing
sumthing is coming
coming is timing
timing is everything

11:42 and i can't sleep
usually when i cant sleep its cuz sumthing bad happned, and i love it when i cant sleep cuz i'm ecstatic, but tonite ic ant sleep because i'm stuck in another rut...sucks cuz i spend so much time trying to get out that when i do finally reach the escapse i just fall right back into another situation...ahh...how theraputic. Anyways i'm still searching for a job and finding nuthing, time is running out. tiff comes home soon. i just relaized how unpoetic i am, did u read the frigging thing i typed at the top. wow. anyways today i woke up and stayed in my bed till 3, trying to convince myself that my life is sooo damn exciting. i sing-on AIM, no-one on. cuz i have no friends. then i went to alexs house and hung out there with him and rickardo. rick left and me alex went to mission bay, i got some applications, then i went home and watch a whole bunch of TV i wish i had a guitar to play music on, i have rickt and alex to thank for that. tonite i WANTED to stay in i dunno why but everyone else is out but me b/c i didnt wanna spenad any $$$ cuz tomorrow we are all going to the RAPIDS, rapids are fun. but before i leave to go to ricks house i need to go to coconut creek and pick up some $$$ form my boss.

now on to the A-files, sicne my cell hpone has been cancelled i havent talked to her since yesterday, but i think she worked tonight so i was thinking that would stop by her work but i dunno, i'm trying to stay STRONG ...very hard maybe its for the best right? hell i've seen the better days.
she's moving closer to me too did i mention? ha! how crazy. anyways i thinkg that watching a hampster crap is more interesting then reading this, so i'll c-ya later J.

-Peac-E

cries turn into tries
sitting here

1. my cell phone got cancelled :(
2. i still havent found a new job :(
3. i got a sunburn :(
4. i found the camera :)
5. we didnt practice today :(
6. ricky got i trouble :(
7. i drank rootbeer :(
8. summers closing in :(
9. i havent done anything in the legacy :(
10. running out of $$$ :(

today i woke up around 11:30, cuz jose called me, i had a head ache form warped tour. me, alex, ricky, pat, and jose all went to the spanish river beach in rickys car. we had a good time, we built a hole and dug each other up, then we went to go jumo off the lyons rd bridge. then went swimming in a pool. after that we went to CICI's i drank fuking rootbeer not good. anyway i get home, and watched ALI. so now i'm bored but i'm worried. i dont know why. sumthin int he back of my head, it a bunch of lil things.

she called me today, she wanted me to come to her W/P practice, i couldnt go cuz i didnt want to go, but she got angry as usual and just blew me off, i'm gunna call her later

theres this new band i've heard of since w/t they are called Plain white t's , they are pretty good

alright this is ridicolous

-Peac-E

get over it...
you know, i think i fall "in love" way to easy,

its 1:05 and i JUST got back from the warped tour it was awsome, good bands MEST,RANCID,DKM, AFI etc, the only problem was that we couldnt get a ride home, cuz cara couldnt find her car, no biggie though cuz we pulled thru like the powerline team that i know.

i'm talking to her right now online, i called her, she never calls me, hey maybe just maybe i'll slowly stop caring, do you think that could happ'n? i need help
listen i'm tired as hell and i'm going to bed cuz i cant listen to you shyt n-e more

peac-E

i feel alone
tonites not a good night.
everynight isnt a good night nowadayz
i'm not too blah i need music

ok so itz been 2 days since
wow this is hard. i'm gunna start thinking that it will be last time i see her, not just a break, but now i got ntuhing to show you know? this sucks... rickys at home...jose is smoking hash...alex isnt home yet but he should be...oto got back today...pat is at home talking to jenny...i just droped chris off...i needa job! i cant get out!

i'm stuck in this deep depp rut, wow its dark down here. we pat and chris vdeo taped today for F.A.C.E. got some funny shyt the usual

the reaosn my mood is blah is because today i tried to contact but no answer and i dont think there will be one, i'm not going to TCBY... its too much of a hassle, i probably wont even go through with it. so i'm just stay here, i'm in for the ngiht cuz i wanna wake up earliy tomorrow for WARPED TOUR with TBS! oh yaaaaa

my #1 is to get over her
my #2 is to promote POWERLINE as much as possible
and my #3 is too keep on vidoetaping

my ex called me today, but i JUST missed her, i called her back but she said she would call me back but hasnt yet, eh w/e

i g2g, well not really i dont really HAVE to go or GOT to go, but i'm just gunna you know do what i always do

1. Peac-E

tomorrow...
wow its been a whole days since i talked to anna, feels weird, feels like its been a week, but thats the price i pay. theres no real reaosn i just thought if i kept my distance then it would work out.

its thursday night today i woke up, went to the beach, went to burger king, went to pat house, hung out, jumed off a bridge went back to his house, went to yersenia house, went to TGI fridays. ran around and had fun as usual. tomorrow, me rivky and pat are gunna go bush jumping and video tape it. should be good, then we'll probably go surfing. then just practice. Saturday is warped tour 2003, i'm excited about going becuase this year TBS will be there and it was good last year anyway. I heard Alex comes home tomorrow. that would be cool.
wow i feel kinda mixed right now, and it hot as hell
"dont look back you can never look back"
easier said then done
i'm gunna go i'll c-ya later J
-Peac-E

Can't stop thinking
ok its 11:18, this is my first journal entry,am i excited? not really, i already have a journal in which i write in, but i guess THAT journal would be more secretive since this one is open to the public and is to be viewd by anyone, but i'll try not to hold back and dissapoint you or myself. right now i'm in a state of "wha?"
1. summer's out of reach
2. no job (no money)
3. my love life is a wacked, but i have no love life (ironic)
4. my band powerline is starting to pick-up

...but enuff about me, anyone who has ever felt like they dont know tomorrow will bring, put a comment up and just tell me, i'll be sure to read it.

yesterday alisa came by...she's leaving for europe then she's going to FullSail in Orlando. i'm not going to see her for a awhile. we went out for 4 and a half months.

(i feel like the lonliest "pimp") after alisa came by i went to go see Anna at work. i dont even know why i go there. what a waste of time, gas, and heart to see her. she only makes me go crazy when i see her, but her presence makes me feel like i'm in like a better place (no bullshyt) why? who knows
some times it seems like we are a couple but other times i'm thinking that i really dont even know her, so i try to keep my distance hoping that one day SHE will call me for once and ask to hang out when it just the 2 of us. i eman dont get me wrong we have done other stuff to complete my ngiths and make me smile about but nuthing that involved a wink. i think i've said too much for tonite.

i'm stepping off getting tired of hearing my fingers type on the keyboard
Peac-E