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2007 15 December :: 3.32pm
The best thing I've read in a long time. It gave me goosebumps.
This is what I want for Christmas. I can't decide which would be better, reading the book or listening to that wonderful radio voice reading it to me.
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2007 13 December :: 9.51pm
WHEN TALKING TO OR ABOUT KYLE IT MUST BE DONE IN ALL CAPS.
THIS IS NOW LAW.
I am done with my exams. The cat is awesome. The Baron is jealous.
If any peeps wanna hang, holla.
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2007 12 December :: 11.58pm
We are getting a new cat tomorrow. He gets fixed tomorrow and then I will be picking him up after work.
If he doesn't die. ha ha jk jk
His name is Nick (ha ha ha ha). This name will be changed (it is, ironically, Nick's turn to name the cat.)
I have talked to The Baron about this so he knows he's getting a younger brother and he needs to be nice to him.
These cats are like our children.
WARNING: CAT PRIVATE PARTS. I would censor it but we're all adults here.
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2007 10 December :: 12.33pm
I totally cannot remember the password to my icon journal. Bummer. Not that it really matters but I have heard outcries and grumbles.
In other news, we may get another cat today. More on this developing story coming up during Newz at 11 here on WRHG.
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2007 8 December :: 5.23am
Alright, so I typically hate short vague entries, but right now there is simply no way I can detail everything going through my head right now. Maybe I'll try in a bit here. Anyhow, at the moment, I am pissed, so if I say anything stupid, please forgive me. Anyhow, the sum of my thoughts seems to be: I hate this year so fucking much, and I want it to rot in hell. Now many people throw that phrase around loosely, but in this case I mean it to the full extent. Nothing has gone right, everything keeps going to shit, every light at the end of each long shitty tunnel turns out to be a fucking floodlight some asshole left running (oh, and it promptly turns off before I can make use of it), and everytime I feel like things can't get any more stressful, they plummet further into a bog of shit.
What am I stressed about, well, allow me to make an attempt to outline things:
1. I'm changing my major to psych, but I can't seem to get an appointment with my future advisor to discuss what classes I need to take and how to handle the transition.
2. I don't know where I'm living next year. I don't want to be in the dorms anymore. I'm sick of them, they cost as much as an apartment and you live in a poorly kept up closet. I found a possible roommate, but he doesn't want to move into an apartment.
3. I have finals next week
4. I may have failed my software design class. It won't count towards my major, but nonetheless it would be a horrible blight upon my GPA and really bad way to end the year.
5. I'm going to have to work at meijer when I get back home.
6.My love life is a mess (subpoints listed below, everyone grab your notepads)
-I like one girl, I believed that she liked me. She reveals this to me by kissing me before heading off to Japan for a study abroad trip. I decide to hold off on starting a relationship with her until she gets back. I figure if she still feels the same way, then we can date. I found out today from a friend of mine that she is apparently "going to put the moves on" her 'psuedo boyfriend'. Ugh I keep thinking I had to have misheard. Maybe I'm losing it or something. Maybe it's just a dumb fling. Anyhow the only other girl I have a crush on is:
-I like this other girl, she's had a boyfriend for 5 years and he seems kind of lame. Naturally I can't help but think "I could do a better job than him." Still, I think I may just be behaving dumb. They're obviously together for a reason, and I can't compete with it. I'm okay with that. However:
-if there is no possibility with either girl. I am back to square one. Screwed. I'm a 20 year old virgin who hasn't had a real girlfriend since Junior year of high school. Maybe I'm picky, maybe I'm unlucky. Either way, I feel so fucking lonely right now it's insane.
-there's another girl. She says she's loved me for 3 years. I just can't seem to return those feelings. I talked with her not too long ago because I had no one else to talk with. I just had one hell of a guilt trip laid on me. Um, did I mention that we've had sort of an off and on friends with benefits situation going for the last few years? Yeah, that complicates things further and adds to the stress more. Whee.
-not really my love life, but: I'm currently setting two of my friends up as a couple. They're extremely cute and I envy them horribly.
7. I'm trying to write my novel again. It was going well until now.
8. I have to read two novels by next friday for one of my exams.
9. Earlier this week I had a few panic attacks, and I think I may be having one now.
I basically...
...feel...
...shitty.
I'm shivering, though I'm not cold. I may have cried a bit, though that may just be my eyes watering from lack of sleep (I've been a bit of an insomniac lately). If I did cry, that's the only time I've cried in my adult life. The last time I cried before then was in elementary school.
So anyone have any thoughts? I think I may go sleep now.
If you read this all, thanks, and sorry about the annoyingly angsty entry.
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2007 7 December :: 8.53pm
We're going to see The Golden Compass tonight. I'm very nervous about it and I don't know if I want to see it.
It's my favorite sci-fi book series and I just don't want it to be ruined.
Nick keeps saying that the book will stay the same but it won't. Now I'll forever see those actors when I read the books.
I am, however, excited for the second one. Real excited about how they portray both the knife and the seams in space/time.
End.
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2007 1 December :: 2.44pm
I am published
Hi Rachel,
I am delighted to let you know that your submitted photo has been selected for inclusion in the newly released fourth edition of our Schmap Amsterdam Guide:
Rijksmuseum
Thanks so much for letting us include your photo - please enjoy the guide!
Best regards,
Emma Williams,
Managing Editor, Schmap Guides
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2007 27 November :: 6.56am
Skye Here.
Ready to shoot herself in the face.
Seven am shifts at work make want to die. :)
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2007 24 November :: 5.27pm
Well, Crap.
I don't know anymore.
I felt empty.
So I made good grades.
I felt empty.
So I made amazing friends.
I felt empty.
So I called my family.
I felt empty.
So got a new apartment and a new roommate.
I felt empty.
So I create all this art.
I still feel Empty.
Do you know why?
I would very much enjoy an answer.
I love my life..but there is something missing. Something missing that i can't put my finger on. I don't know. Why do I feel like this..? No, Robert, is not really in my life anymore, but I'm getting over that. So what is it? I'm lost. I can't figure it out. I making the grades. I'm doing the job. I'm making it, what the hell is missing?
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2007 24 November :: 8.48pm
Liveblogging November 2007
Katti is drunk. It is hilarious.
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2007 24 November :: 2.16pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
What is your heart's deepest desire?
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2007 20 November :: 6.25am
I absolutely adore Men, Women and Children. The Band. They're amazing. I haven't had a band make this happy with a random song as much as them.
:]
Its 6:30am. And I'm not grumpy.
What the heck?
Yesterday one of my friends, who at one point in my life I had a crush on, was trying to get into my panties. Instead of being irritated like normal..I was actually flattered. I've been through the whole sleep with whoever shows attrations for me phase, what the hell happened? I think I'm just lonely. I very nearly gave into it. But I didn't. I made a vow..now more messing around with people I'm not in an actual relationship with!
I dont care what other people do. I've had my share of drama from sex. No more. :/
Anyway. Merry Almost Thanksgiving.
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2007 18 November :: 7.27pm
I made this after I heard the song the "Shankill Butchers" by the Decemberists. I was in a slum yesterday, after I made this I felt a lot better. Thats the main why I get my anger out. I'm obviously not that articulate. So here it is.
I realized yesterday that life could get a lot worse. My friend came to me in the night and I had to dress the wound he inflicted upon himself. I don't usually give suicidal people the time of day. But I understood his pain. I just hope he never tries to again. Made me see things in a different light though. I have amazing friends. An amazing future ahead of me. I might be a bit lonely. I might miss my family. At least I have them. I"m here. I'm doing well. I shouldn't complain.
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2007 18 November :: 10.11pm
You don't have to read this.
I am uber-depressed. This shit sucks, bitches.
I am still having serious trouble readjusting. I am not going to class, slacking off when I actually am in class, not writing papers until late or not at all...it's like work is the only thing I am doing. And I latch onto that to get me through the day.
It's like after four months of vacation, I can't do anything but be very lazy. It's a good thing I'm not the only one feeling like this or I'd think I was crazy.
I can totally see how that girl who went to France a few years ago dropped out of school and wasn't able to make it through. I just feel like I can't do this. And this is a thousand times easier than being in France.
It's like I can't do life anymore. This is so frustrating.
I went to help with the study abroad orientation and the coordinator of the program asked if any of us were having or had trouble with reverse culture shock. We said yeah and then she asked how bad it was. I said it was just as bad as adjusting to France but it's not. It's much, much worse. I've been home for longer than I was gone and I'm still having trouble. No one cares about my pictures, my stories, I have to work, pay bills, write papers, go to class, be in Michigan, talk to people on a consistent basis.
Oh, and the cat we were going to get died the weekend before we were going to get him.
The end.
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2007 17 November :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Beruit - The Flying Cup Club
Breathe
I don't feel like doing homework.
I haven't done two weeks worth of Information Architecture. And three weeks worth of Graphic Illustration :D
I was doing well, but I think I'm burnt out now.
I'm also tired of everything..
Today is our groups drawing night at my apartment. My roommate and I host it every Sunday. I think I'm going to sit in my room, close and lock the door, and play mindless mmorpgs. I don't feel like thinking.
I can't go home for Thanksgiving. I'm having problems with my car and no phone. I'm thoroughly depressed. I'll get through it though. I always do. I'll get to see my family on Christmas at least.
Heres to the Blah journal entry.
I've been going on dates. None of them are exactly working out for me. They're either not funny, too quiet, too weird. I miss my best friend. I miss him a lot.
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