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:: 2003 7 December :: 1.58 pm
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: No Comment(Means Jospeh)

So, I've been a good girl and have been allowed 30 mins online O:-) hehehe, acting is fun. So yeah...um...Last night I went to the Nutty Cracker with Jillian, her mom, and her aunt. It was good. Then to Gino's where Jill and I split a small pizza and only ate half of it....Lol, we're good. So then went back to Jillian's and plannd our next pirate movie (Which is awesome btw...Lol) Then we talked about xmas presents..(the one time of year I'm gad I don'thave a bf, haha to all you who have to shop for a guy...Hehe) Well, yeah. Then I left at like 10:30 an I go home...watched Pocahontas while reading Catcher In The Rye...don't ask me why lol. Then I snuck online and watched Little Mermaid and then I started Aladdin, but I died like 40 mins into it so I went to bed. Then I couldn't sleep so I adde a bunch of LOTR qutoes to the cover thingie over teh electric box....my ghetto room...hehe. Yeah, so then I slept and had this freaky dream, I'll tell you later. The whole "the jourmal ruins convo" theory...so I'm excited to tell pple abot my dream..I know you are too.

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:: 2003 6 December :: 1.20 pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Butterfly Kisses

Plastic Trees
Good morning! :-) I got to sleep in today till a whole 11:35.... :-D Exciting, I know!!! So, I'm "grounded from the computer" again. Becase I slapped my brother at dinner....cuz he was being a jerk. But you see....We were in Maggiano's....and it was kinda his b-day dinner. So, my parents didn't like that one. Well, yeah...I watched the sound of music last night. I love that movie. And so...after that I watched Oliver and Company. Because I couldn't remember the songs from it and it was driving me crazy so I watched it. I like that movie too..."Why should I woorrry?? Why should I caarre? Ooo oooo ooo oooo ooo" Hehehe! I also made this picture with all theses disney charactors...Well, actually I traced them, but it was fun. I think it looks bad, but I like it. :-) So yeah, then decided I was tired and slept. Oo then Yasamin calls me at like 6:30 cuz she was coming to get the money and I'm like...Ok....and leaid back down and was like grrrrr I dont want to move...But then she called again thankfully(cuz I fell back alseep.) To tellme she was outside, so I brought the money...mumbled something...she told me I looked bad...and then I went downstairs and slept. And now I'm drinking this coffee drink I made up. mmmm...U should come over and try some, Its awesome. But but...we got our xmas tree today...and guess what? It's artifical....can u believe that?! I don't like that. Oh well, my familys choice. not mine. They're just too lazy to work. Well, I might see some of you later. Bye bye!

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:: 2003 4 December :: 5.08 pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: Unwell

My kitty...
So, my cat's sick. Well, technically my sister's cat. But it has some infection where her tooth rotted and now her gums are all infected and she can't even open her left eye. Poor baby. :'(...So yeah, my parents want to go up to Chi-town tomorrow night and spend the night. Which I don't really want to do. I mean, sure I love my family, but its friday night. I was kinda hoping to do something with friends this weekend, ya know?? So blah...Hoping we don't go to Chicago and that my kitty gets better....:-\ Byee...
~Patrice

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:: 2003 4 December :: 12.44 pm

I'm in us history now. Supposed to be doing research, but screw that. Gah...it's weird, whenever I'm in school, I go crazy and it's all WOOOSHH! But as soon as the bell rings, I'm like wooo! And it all seems a teeny bit better. I almos tdied again in lit today. My patience is waay too short for that class. Well, I should be leaving..time for gym..fuzzy pants!!! I hate gym tho..pple there are buttfaces...newho...bye!
Patrice

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:: 2003 3 December :: 11.45 pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: Silence

Stuff
So, today wasn't all that bad. I mean, I kinda broke down today and lost it, but I recovered. It's all good now. I don't know why I really lost it either. I guess I just....I honestly don't know. But I feel better now I think. I'm still insanly worried about a few things though. Yeah, first of all the whole props thing. I don't know what's gonna happen with that and I want it, but I don't. I want to do it, but I'm so scared that if I get it, I'll mess up. Now that I said it I'm not gonna get it...Blllaaaahhh....

And band...I just give up, I can't do it. I'm not smart enough. I honestly can't et the notes from the page to my brain to my fingers in the time I need to. I can't read bass clef that well above the staff and it takes a few seconds for me to figure it out then I have to figure out the high notes cuz I'm not that used to them, then with the rythmns and all that other stuff...I honestly can't do it. And it makes me sick with myself.

Oh, and guys are just jerks. Lol, but you all know that.

Well, on a happy note, Jillian and I finished our chem thing tonight...::phew:: Thank god. It's awesome too..with a cover page and all. I'm so proud. ::tear:: What else good happened today?? Hmmm...I can't think of anything lol. But I'm now surprisngly optimistic despite the fact that I have nothing going for me. Maybe that its cuz theres nothing, nothing good or bad...so then it leaves just optimism...it can be bad, but we shall see, no?

Um..forgive me for complaining about unimportant stuff. I know you all have worser stuff going on, I just need to say it...So yeah...

Oh, and good job to everyone who made call backs! Yay! Good luck 2morrow!

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:: 2003 2 December :: 10.18 pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Weird Music

weirdness
So, yeah....Doom dum doooooo...Damn it. I..I...I...I....(that's what I feel like right now) Gah to me. I can't talk to people. especially people that I like. Which is bad. Stupid patrice. Kill her. Lol. This has been a pretty weird day. Hence the name. I don't know why either. Just has been. just......BLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!! ...well...yeah...Lol..g night...

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:: 2003 1 December :: 12.35 am

YAY PIPPIN!
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:: 2003 30 November :: 8.33 pm
:: Mood: shocked
:: Music: I'll be There

Scary Thoughts
Well, I wanna write about this, but it'll be alot easier just to copy and paste the convo...

SneakySeaMonkey [7:13 PM]: holy shit, u know ive had my journal for 6 months now?? american english was a half year ago! and i've been hanging out with those pple now...for like...7ish months and i still just started talking to them...O.o;; wow...im in shock
toki358 [7:13 PM]: LOL
toki358 [7:13 PM]: wow patrice
SneakySeaMonkey [7:13 PM]: time should slow down
toki358 [7:13 PM]: wait american english was 6 months ago/
toki358 [7:13 PM]: yea it should!
SneakySeaMonkey [7:13 PM]: 5 monthsish
toki358 [7:14 PM]: but sitl....wow
SneakySeaMonkey [7:15 PM]: theres only like 8 more months until certain pple go away...my god...5 more months of school...wow..time is really flying this year
toki358 [7:15 PM]: shhh don't say that!!!!!
toki358 [7:15 PM]: it's still 1st semester....::sigh:: i should and shouldn't stay that way
SneakySeaMonkey [7:16 PM]: Yeah..
SneakySeaMonkey [7:16 PM]: Sandy Kim...i dont wanna grow up...i dont wanna be a senior
toki358 [7:16 PM]: *it should and it shouldn't
toki358 [7:17 PM]: thank u! so i'm not the only person who doesn't want to grow up
toki358 [7:17 PM]: everyone's like can't wait until i get out of highschool...i'm like no!
SneakySeaMonkey [7:18 PM]: i know...i cant imagine high school ending and being away from the pple i know now
toki358 [7:18 PM]: i know!
toki358 [7:18 PM]: it's a scary thought for me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Time shuold stop. I'm so not kidding you. There's so much I want to do and not enough time and so much I want to happen and not enough time. I hate time. Tell it to slow down. This is like..wow...for me, its like my moment of realization. I'm gonna be a senior next year. I'm gonna be in college after that. And and and..wow.

I'm growing up. I'm 16 years old. I know, to some pple it's just like...oo 16? Whatever. Ive been alive for 16 years!! And one day seems like an eternity...then why did those 16 years go by so fast?

Even since I got my journal, onyl 6 months ago, it felt like things sucked and were terribly slow...but wow, it feels like just yesterday I was sitting in Jill's house telling her about my journal. Now I read through it and alot yet nothing has happened in these 6 months. I feel like I've wasted these months. I mean, sure, I've done lots of things that I am so glad I did, but I could have done so much.

I don't want to waste anymore time feeling sorry for myself or being sad. I'm only gonna be here for so long and my friends are only gonna be here for so long, if I spend the whole time complaining and saying how pple suck or life sucks, god, my life would have no purpose then. I mean, would someone who was positive or negtive have a better affect on you?

I feel like I'm in that mario game. Where teh background keeps moving but you have to keep up. And you can't slow it down, all you can do is run with it.

GAH!! I Don't wanna leave high school! :-( Grr...too much thinking, to bed I go...night...

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:: 2003 30 November :: 6.07 pm
:: Mood: exanimate

Hi
It's cold. Maybe I should shut the window. Lol. Okay, Soo...hi. I feel...like...dead. I'm probably just dead tired. Blah..write more later.

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:: 2003 29 November :: 5.57 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Carmina Burana

Friday
So...Friday was interesting. Badish goodish interesting. Know what I mean? So, yesterday I hung out with Justin from like 2ish-6ish...and it was awkwardly weird.

Yeah..:-\...GAH! I HATE GUYS!!! >:-O :-(..

Well yeah, then I called Jackie cuz I was freaking out and she was cleaning her room. Yup. So I was talking to her and started cleaning my room. So yeah, she was all like "we should do something, I'll call you in a little"...

A little turned into an hour...but that's not her fault...Anyways, I got to watch Kim Possible's movie. "Oh wise one, What is the Meaning of life??" "Cheese!!!" It was some good shiznit.

So yeah, then she called and Benton picked me up and we went to Jackie's house.Then we went to Target and hehe, we won!! Cuz we ran away from Benton and Wender and we were like "We should hide by the car so they freak out when they try to find us, we'll be here!" Well, we didn't realize that 15 mins in winter weather was cold. But yeah..we ended up winning anyways cuz things were all twisty and they were "late" coming out of target. Mwehehe...

So yeah, Jackie and I were all laughing like HAHAHA and annoying them. So it was good fun. Then Jackie got her hand caught in the window. Then we went to Jackie's and umm...Jackie and Wender fell asleep and Benton was watching sportscenter and I was dazing off...yep...that was my fun night. Tonight I get to go to Jorie's mom's party thing...wooo. So yeah, i'll probably have stories about that..Ohh! And I had more dreams..hehe I know you want to hear them. Well, bye then!

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:: 2003 28 November :: 1.16 pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: My sister's CD again

Good Morning
Well good morning. Happy late Thanksgiving, since I forgot to wish Happy Thanksgivings yesterday. Yesterday wasn't too bad, I was surprised, I mean, a day with my family, yuo'd expect that to be hell. But thankfully Jackie was online from her cousin's house, so I had human interaction. Yeah, so I was pretty much just .....blah...all day yesterday. Then like at 11:00 I got this insane wave of energy. Like I was more hyper then I've ever been in like two weeks. The bad part: I was only talking to Justin and Wender...so yeah, I was going insane. But then Justin had to start talking all serious and Wender was all "I'm not gonna talk back" So I died. But I was still insanely awake. Crazy, eh?? So yeah, did you know there's nothing to do at quarter to two?? It sucks, So I'm gonna switch places with someone who lives in like Italy or GB or Ireland...anywhere but Libertyville/VH..cuz I'm bored of it. Um yes, I had a freaky weird dream last night. But I'll wait till you're there, cuz I h ad a story I wanted to tell people but I wrote about it here and everyone knew, I was like grrr...So HA! You'll have to wait...::clears throat:: :-D Ahhh, I have to like completly clean out my room today. And I have this feeling that I'll have to stay home all day and watch Joey. :-( I HATE MY FAMILY!! Justin's supposed to call me and I might do something with him and one of his friends that I don't know sometime this weekend, so blah. I kinda don't want to though. Cuz I dunno, I'm not good with new people. The only person I could talkt o the first time I met them was Jessica. Weird...I know. Anyways, I'm bored. If you're bored, call me.

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:: 2003 26 November :: 8.50 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Norah Jones~ Shoot The Moon

Blaaahh
Why did you all have to go see The Producers?? I hate you, lol. Well, I'm loaded with stories today. Not really I got two actually I think. Or three. Well, I went to Bauer's class twice today ::kicks self:: Oh well, it was Jillian's class. So it was funish. :-)

And ummm...Oh, So I had Jackie's pink goo thing and I so was planning on giving it back to her after 8th...but I had Jill hold it for me while I was fixing my book load(since my damn bag broke... ) and Hul ran up behind her and stole it. So yeah, after, she comes up and is all "Where is it?!" And I figured Benton was in on it too, so I told her he had it. So she was all "where is it?!" And I guess he wasn't cuz he didn't know about it. Then I was getting blamed and I saw Hul and I'm like HE HAS IT! But he stupid kid denied it, oh but he ahs it. So jackie was all GRRR and I'm all GAH! HE HAS IT! Damn him...I'm so sorry Jackie!! I swear i do not know what Hul did with it! :-(

Oh and my other story, so in band today, me and this froshie were joking around about making this culb of people who laugh at poms(Don't ask...lol) So, I was all "Ok, next year we'll do it" and he's like "ok, and we'll get all these other cool pple in it" Blah blah blah...so as I had to go, i said "I'll call you about it.." Like hehe we're joking..I'm joking again, So i turn to walk out of the band room and he goes "do u have the cougar caller?" and I'm all...ummm..noo..and he's all "Oh, don't worry, I'll give u my number" I was just like "ok...umm I gotta put this away." Omg...I dunno if he was kidding, but I didn't mean it like that...and wow...it's weird...So yes, my stories. Enjoy. :-D

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:: 2003 25 November :: 4.06 am
:: Mood: awake

Sleep( A long entry )
So, I can't sleep. So you get another crazy early morning entry. I know, don't try to hide your excitment. You know what I realized? When i say you...I mean everyone, but technically I'm talking to no one. So everyone is no one. O.o;; I'm so confuzzled. there's freggin nothing to do. Dooom Dooom Dooooooommmm....I dont want to sleep but I might have to force myself to if I dont find something soon.

So do u know whats sad? Have you ever heard of The Sisterhood Of The Pants?? Well, its a series about a group of friends. I don't know what age group its meant for but the first tiem I read both of the books I was like Booo Hoo Hoo crying. And I reread the end of the 2nd one tonight and woosh...I mean it's like.."wow...thats sad...he died" then next minute full on crying. Then...doom doom doom "She's playing soccer" then Cry then "Shes talking to her mom"....CRYY..Lol...Yes if you understand that you know me too well.

"Full Review
Today I finished reading "The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" by Ann Brashares, which is probably one of the best books I've read in a long time.

This book is about four girls who have been friends since before they were born (really!). The four girls are going to be apart for the first summer ever and they're all worried about being "friendless." They decide to share a pair of "magic" pants between the four of them to help keep their friendship intact. This book shares the unique stories of each of the four girls' summer activities, problems, and experiences.

I enjoyed this book because I can relate to almost everything that happens in the book. Topics range from a first love to the death of a friend to the remarriage of a family member, as well as many other things. Brashares makes this novel unique by telling a few pages worth of each girl’s activities, separating each incident with a short letter from one girl to another. The letters are how the girls communicated their summer lives with each other while they were apart. They also send the pants back and forth a few times between the four of them, sending with the pants their own experiences they had while wearing them, often along with some advice. Whenever one of the girls' segments ended, I was disappointed that it didn't continue, but excited to move on to the next girl. Each girl’s story was very interesting and unique, and can be compared to incidents that we all experience in our own lives. One of the rules of the sisterhood of the traveling pants was that the girls had to write about experiences they had while wearing the pants inside the legs of the pants when they all were reunited. When the girls get back together at the end of the summer they have all changed but their friendship has definitely survived.

The only thing I really found wrong with this book was that a few of the things that happened seemed unrealistic. For example, one of the girls ends up running away from one parent's house to go back to the other parent. In reality, I don't think parents would react the way they did in the book.

I enjoyed this book immensely and I think this is a fantastic first novel from the author. I feel this is a book many people should read because the characters are so well developed that it gives the reader a good idea of how different even the best of friends can be, as well as how different kinds of people deal with different things. This book has made me realize the true value of having “girlfriends,” and it left me craving a sisterhood and magic pants of my own. I cannot wait to read the sequel, "The Second Summer of the Sisterhood."
(A book review..I told you i was bored)

I dunno, I like the books cuz there's 4 girls I think. Carmen, Tibby, Bee, and Lena. And all of them have been best friends forever. But all their lives are so different and they're all going through something different in the books, and you can relate to each girl atleast six times throughout the books. I mean, it's not some deep psycological thing like National Hawthorne or anything, it's an easy read. But I reccomend them. So yes, go read them!!! Or you can borrow them. If you have time and just want a good book that's nott to headache causing, go for it. ::wink:: And that was my book reccomendation of the week...Enjoy.

Grrrr to you all. Not being online at 3:00?!?!?! I'll just eat your livers. Yuuuumm....::ar ar ar::

You know what band I hate? Tatu..that stupid russian band. I mean, they aren't even a band! It's so stupid. I mean, come on, some people think they honestly are lesbians. Well, it could be, but unlikely. it's just a bunch of P U B L I C I T Y...damn publicity.

What to do what to do?
My library book is 32 years overdue!
Should I admit that its mine and pay the fine?
(forgot this line)
Oh what should I do? What should I do?

I am Nobody, who are you?
Are you Nobody too?
Then there's two of us, don't tell
They'd banish us you know
How dreary to be somebody
How public like a frog
To live your life the livelong day
By some admiring bog
(Kinda shaky on the last line..I had to memorize it in 5th grade...lol)

you know was looking through my documents on the computer and I found this random thing I had written about the good things about all my friends and I was all...woooahhh...lol...Like how we can talk for hours and never run out of things to say and when we do, we just make up stupid inside jokes. I love all you guys...lol all my friends are great people. Don't ever change. (Lizzie McGuire quote...::sigh:: Gordo) :-)

I wasted almost an hour typing this damn thing up. I'm proud of myself. Well, I see you're all bored enough...so I'm outtie...off to look up random movie quotes online..weee!
~patrice

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:: 2003 24 November :: 5.59 pm
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: Beatles~ Revolution

I HATE THE WORLLDD!!! GRRRRRR!! Lol, Okay, had to get that out. I'm ok now. Well, not really, as of right nwo I'm getting a 58.7% in algebra and my grade in history just dropped 16 percent cuz of one damn assignment. And I haven't made up my chem test yet and I'm gonna get a zero if I don't do it by Wednesday. So that's where I'll be during lunch tomorrow. Woo ::rolls eyes:: Oh and to further my joy..gabbie just got straight A's again. So now, again, I will be told how stupid I am because my 8th grade sister is getting better grades. GAH! I'm so pissed too cuz I had such good grades gor me. Now I'm not getting an A in anything. I had a fucking a+ in three classes, now its an F, B+, B, B- in my main classes. I am so screwed. Can I die for just the week the midterms come home? You have no idea how terrified I am of this. My dad is gonna kill me. :'( Damn grades!

(Oh, and mel, don't worry, its official. The scouring of the shire was never even filmed for the movie...peter jackson said he never liked the scene...and teh house of healing scenes were cut out too..but they'll be on the DVD..Bah peter jackson)

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:: 2003 23 November :: 3.27 pm
:: Mood: exanimate

You don't understand the power of your actions. No one does. One sentence uttered under one's breath can spark an entire world war. Seriously think about what you're about to say or do before you do it. If you have any doubts at all in your mind, Just keep your mouth shut. The negatives will undoubtibly overrule the positive and you'll just want to kick yourself.

I apoligize here to anyone who I have made worry or cry or rethink things by things I say. Don't listen to me. Or others. You can only listen to yourself. It's your life. People may know alot about it, but you're the one who has to live it. You're the one who has to live with the consequences, not the person who's feeding you the information. They can give advice but only you can know what the right thing to do is.

That is the only advice I have that I think should be followed. Everything else is more of a suggestion. Please, just do this one thing for me.

Listen to yourself.
Follow your heart.
Trust yourself.

The only person who truely knows you is yourself.

(And for pple out there..I'm not gonna tell you specifics. I'm not telling anyone, so please, know enough that this isn't your place and don't ask.)

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