:: 2003 2 November :: 8.42 pm
:: Music: TV

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 2 November :: 12.48 pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Lion King special feature things

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 2 November :: 3.19 am

He looks blue
Naw, I say Brownish gold.

But your behind in the past.

When the world turns its back on you, you turn your back on the world.

Hakuna Matata

Home is where your rump rests

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 1 November :: 7.28 pm
:: Music: VH1

2 Hermaphidites | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 29 October :: 10.38 pm

I tried. I really fucking tried. It's not supposed to bother me, but it does. I mean, it wouldn't, cuz I know I deserve it, but it still hurts. You don't need an appendix, but it hurts like hell when after it's gone, and then even after that it leaves a scar. I'm not saying I don't need this, I do, but what can I do, ya know? Whatever. I've tried. That's the best I can do.

On a happy note, I finished my costume. The wings are too silvery, but hey, its all good :-) im excited. Woooo! :-) anyways, term paper...Focus....focus.....okie bye!

3 Hermaphidites | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 28 October :: 9.40 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Criminal

3 Hermaphidites | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 27 October :: 10.36 pm

Survey...Boredom...No play
[ series 1 ]
Name: Patrice
Birthday: May 6
Birthplace: Alleghany, PA
Current Location: middle of suburbia
Eye Color: Poop brown
Hair Color: mud brown
Righty or Lefty: ::checks by doing L with hand:: hmm....Right
Zodiac Sign: Taurus
Font: Arial
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music:I like all music except rap and hip hop(sorry yassi) I have a recent obsession with the Goo Goo Dolls...Beatles...Coldplay...those fun bands.
Color: Orange
Car: Mini Cooper
Slushy Flavor: Cherry and coke mixed(Cherry coke...hahaha)
Magazine: Rolling Stone, Biography, Entertainment Weekly, and Conde Nast Traveler
TV Show:
Song at the Moment: Iris~Goo Goo Dolls
Language: I like listening to french
Food & Beverage: Chocolate and orangeish soda
Subject in School: History and English
Weekend Activity: Movies are fun. Just general hanging outness. Oh, and fire therapy..:-)
Frozen Yogurt: Vanilla chocolate swirl
Roller Coaster: American Eagle..Six Flags
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[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase:
First thing you thought when you woke up: Gahhh.....another day? Why...?
Last image/thought you go to sleep with: Last night? Fight I had with someone recently
First feature you notice of opposite sex: eyes and easyness to talk to
Best name for a Butler: Jeeves
Your best feature: Umm...eyes physical wise i think...I think that I'm overall a good listener too, or atleast I try
Your greatest fear: Being alone
Your greatest accomplishment: Finding real friends and being able to hold onto them longer then 3 three years...and also being assitant props person, I've never gotten any kind of position of importance before.
Your most missed memory: I miss North Carolina...I wanna go back really really terribly badly
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[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Group? Well, depends I guess
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers: Fingers...chickens dont have nuggets....even if they do, i dont wanna eat their nuggets
Dogs or Cats: Kitties
Single or Taken: Single
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes: LeAnn
One pillow or Two: one really fluffy one
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa: "hey patrice...go get some chocolate milk.." Umm...depends onthe weather
Cappuccino or Coffee: MOCHA!
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[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday: U mean yearly? Of course! Lol...
Have a crush: Ummm..kinda I guess, I'm trying not to...cuz guys are jerks
Think you've been in love: Nope
Want to go to college: Of course, anything to get out of this place
Like high school: It's not terrible, other then classes and annoying people, its awesome
Want to get married: If I find someone who can stand me
Type correctly: Nope...I only use two fingers..lol...it annoys Gabby
Believe in yourself: I should more
Have any tattoos? Where: Nope, i want one though, like a small one on my ankle
Have any piercings? Where: Nope, dont want none..pain hurts
Get motion sickness: Yep..not when I was little, but alot now
Think you're a health freak: Haha noo...I'm fat
Get along with your parents: Not paticurally
Like thunderstorms: yeah...theyre pretty but scary, I like it, its kinda calming
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[ series 6 - the future ]
Age your plan to be married: umm..after college and when I get set in a job somewhat
Number and names of children: 2 a boy and a girl, i dunno names, i got a while to think of that one
Where will you be at age 20: College, dont know where
Dream wedding: some place outside and really pretty and green
How do you want to die: fall asleep at night and die in my sleep
Dream job: photographer for national geographic, so i can travel everywhere
Country you'd like to visit: England...new Zealand...Italy...France...
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[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color: blue or green
Best hair color: Red! Then natural dirty blonde
Short or long hair: depends on the guy....and what looks good on them
Best height: ummm...does taller then 4'11" count? lol...umm..not past 6' 4"
Best weight: Not super skinny but not muscalar...skinnyish average
Best clothes: My green pants
Best first date location: Something fun that you can talk alot...not movies...
Best first kiss location: Outside...at night..looking at the stars...at like a park or by a lake...yep
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[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal: Last night ::blushes::
Rings before you answer the phone: three
What's on your mousepad: don't got one, I have this crappy piece of shit lap top
How many houses you've lived in: eight
How many schools you've gone to: six
Bedroom carpet color: white
Shave your head for $5,000?: Maybe cut my hair really short...hell, I'd probably do it, I'm stupid enough
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people: Cell phone, life jacket, boat hehehehe

Best time of your life so far: There's been alot...Like the old hobbit days, Les Mis, being the props gnomes, chasing geese, watching charlie chase cars on broomsticks being harry potter, playing in the snow behind jorie's house, getting lost in the woods for five hours with jorie, the first pep band game, fire therapy parties, AHHH I'M SLEEPING WITH GEESE!, job searching all summer, visitng people's families in Iowa, Pirating!!!....anything I've done with my friends...you people are awesome

1 Hermaphidite | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 27 October :: 6.23 pm
:: Mood: gloomy

Gloomy just sounded interesting...I'm in a very eeyore mood today. So I guess gloomy describes it. The play is over and things have died down, atleast today they have. The drama will be back soon enough. It always does come back eventually. The sad thing is that even though I have tons of time for homework, I can't bring myself to do it. I wish I wasn't so damn lazy. ::bangs head against wall:: Well that didn't work.

I'm a shitty person. I really am. I can't stand myself anymore. I used to think that others had things wrong,, but its me. That's why so many people are pissing me off, it's me. I deserve not to talk to all you people I've been mean to ever again, I deserve that and more. I don't know what to do. I'm in this way above my head and I can't handle it anymore. I'm not telling you to forgive me, cuz I've been a bitch recently and I know I wouldn't forgive myself. I just want you to know that I know that I've screwed up alot recently and there's nothing I can do about it. I can't deal with this anymore. I give up. I dont deserve anything.

I don't know, I'm gonna stop talking now. bye.

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 24 October :: 12.42 am

I can't talk to people. I lack some serious social skills. Thats my problem. Someone should teach me to talk. Any volenteers??

4 Hermaphidites | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 19 October :: 5.33 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: John Mayer~ Comfortable

1 Hermaphidite | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 17 October :: 11.17 pm
:: Mood: Blah

I'm just sick of it all. Sick of people, sick of things, sick of everything. Dammit, I mean, there's one or two people that I really want to talk to and that make me happy when I talk to them, and I need to talk to them right now. But theyre mad too..soo yes...GAAAHHH!! I dunno...kill me please
And why the hell am I so ugly? I mean, even the froshies can see it. I'm a cow. No one will ever like me. I know, pple should like you for personality, but how is anyone going to want to know my personality of my outside is so ugly?? ::sigh:: I dunno, I need sleep.

1 Hermaphidite | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 8 October :: 10.36 pm
:: Music: Nada

1 Hermaphidite | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 6 October :: 12.53 am
:: Mood: happy

Happiness
Well, Yes, Happiness. Went to Ash's party tonight. Wooo...it was fun. My butt's cold though. Like frozen numbish cold. Lol, I know you really wanted to know that.

So I found out something tonight. Life will go on. I can move on from the bad stuff and onto good stuff. I don't know, I'm tired of being sad and lonely. And well, even if I keep wishing he'd break up with her and come back to me..that's just wishing, and you can wish and wish and wish, and it may never come true. The only way to change things is to take action. But in this situation, I can't do that.

So time to face reality. He's gone from that part of my life. I still like him, I mean he was my first "boyfriend", but I'm over the "Omg, I'm gonna die if I don't have him back" stage. I made a mistake, and I know there'll be more guys in the future, and I'll never make the same mistakes. Creepy how horoscopes can tell you the reality of things sometimes lol. I dunno...If you want to know more, ask me. Maybe I'll tell you.
+-+Toki+-+

1 Hermaphidite | Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 4 October :: 10.54 pm
:: Mood: indescribable

I Hate The Mall
So, I hate the mall. And that's the end of that story. Well, yes, obviously I went to the mall today. I got pants with a really funky design on the side, I like them. I hope they fit though, cuz I tried a small and my mom was scared they'd shrink so she wanted me to try to medium but I was too lazy so I just got the mediums. Then I got a book. A Clockwork Orange. I wanted to read it sicne I saw the movie, I don't know, I'm excited.

So I got grounded for today. And this was the first day that people actually called me O.o;;....grrrr....Well, whatever. I still have plans for tomorrow night, which looks like it'll be fun. Hopefully. :-\...Well, We shall soon see. Hopefully I can go. Then my next wish is that I can stay the whole time and that my parents won't freak out about curfew...DEATH TO CURFEWS! Yes...Oooo! I made a new SN...It's soo cool! It's SneakySeaMonkey. I'm thinking of permenitly switching over...::sigh:: I don't know, I'll miss halfling if I do. And I'd have so much to change and move over and it might confuse people. I'll keep both for a while and see. Well...good bye my dear friends.
=-=Toki=-=

Are you a purple cow?

:: 2003 26 September :: 6.46 pm

You know what? I think I'm the only one who still does this journal thing, but I don't care. I like that no one does it. It's my own....MWEHEHEHHE ::looks over deserted land that I now rule:: Mwehehe...ANYwhoo...

Soooo....Today was weird. I mean, I think people hate me and I know certain people can't stand me anymore, but I don't care. Cuz...well...I can't change their minds. If people don't want to talk to me anymore or don't want to be my friend, I can't change that...sooo yes. I am not mad about that. Still mad about the whole guy thing, but hey, that letter thing helped. I mean, in all honesty, I'm not over him, but this helps alot. I mean, I can move on now ::packs up bags and prepares to leave Zakville:: Okie...maybe not just yet...damn roadblocks...but I'm close.

oooo, I'm so excited! I just found out that I'm getting a 99.7% in chem...wooo! I dunno, it made me happy...other people are mad. I told Yassi hoping she wouldn't get mad..she's not exactly in my class..but she and mel were all like "I hate you..." So yes...I am telling my journal now...WOOOOO! YESH! MY FIRST A+ OF HIGH SCHOOL!!! YAY!....::clears throat:: Yeah...and my sister told me that my US teacher said that I set the curve in her class..O.O Shocking...eh?? I dunno, I'm happy about school right now. I'm just worried about keeping my grade as high as they are. But I can do it. I mean, as long as you do homework, its easy, no? :-\ hehe I don't know, its good enough for me.

Soooo....a whole night alone to myself...nothing to do but to sit and do nothing ::sigh:: If anyone does read these anymore, call me...I'm bored...I think everyone's busy though...:'( Anyways...back to my nothingness...Shall see you invisible minions later.
-=Toki=-

2 Hermaphidites | Are you a purple cow?