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2008 11 January :: 1.09am
So the other night had this dreams where i got into this elaborate knife fight with katie colligan.
I remember it was sorta like a movie. It ended with us like face to face and me slowly stabbing her in her eye.
It was just fucking weird. Haha.
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2008 9 January :: 7.45pm
there is like $53 in debt to the movie place i got taken care of :)
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2008 9 January :: 2.39pm
decided its probably a good idea to update...
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2008 7 January :: 8.19pm
:: Mood: frustrated
this is absurd. the very first day of class and i'm already stumped. i'm very - not quite concerned, but - uncertain about how this semester's going to go. if this assignment is any indication, probably not well.
PSAs are unavoidably tacky. especially when they're about high school. i thought a PSA was a good beginner assignment. but making the topic high school dropouts is cruel and unusual punishment, especially when you're giving it to a roomful of college students who have obviously never dropped out of high school.
and then you give me 30 seconds to change a mind that i can't even begin to fathom? that is bullshit on a stick.
any bright ideas?
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2008 7 January :: 5.14pm
:: Music: a day to be alone - one less reason
Its amazing how your surroundings impact your feelings.
Lately I have had more than enough time to think about things.
And I'm not sure if it's because I'm a very fickle indecisive person, or because I really truly do not know what I want out of life, but I haven't been able to come up with an answer for anything.
The more I think, the more clustered everything gets.
I'm almost positive what i want to go to college for, and career i want to pursue.
I feel that my boyfriend deserves more than what I am capable of giving him.
But I know that if that were true, he'd leave or been gone a long time ago.
Which makes me very grateful for every moment I've spent with him, every memory we've created, and anxious for moments and memories to come.
Is it possible to be so completely happy, yet feel so depressed at the same time?
Oh, and I suck at journal entries..
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2008 7 January :: 1.25am
i havn't updated in awhile... meh
oh well, not really much to say except;
its a new year, tomorrow i'm going out ot manpower, hopefully i can get in at ITW.
Box moved to ludington with his mom.
Its funny how a group of friends can fall apart.
wow, i just relised i started this update 35 minutes ago.
started talking to people on AIM and forgot about it. lol.
i'm watching the shineing now. Its the one with jack nicolson in it, this is the part where there is a naked chick in 237... Oh well, it doesn't make sense to me at all. i'm hungry, going to go find some eats.
you guys have a good night.
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2008 5 January :: 6.52am
resident evil: extinction is amazing....
best resident evil movie yet.
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2008 4 January :: 1.07pm
is woohu not generating cookies for anyone else either?
it won't let me stay logged in.
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2008 3 January :: 5.04am
good night tonight.
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2008 3 January :: 12.34am
it's 12:34 ... make a wish.
i feel - unfulfilled? i'm not sure that's the right word. it's just that nagging feeling like there's something missing. something i forgot to do.
and i know there are things i forgot to do. which is okay, for the most part. i can accept that, drop them, and move on.
but obviously there are more that i have not yet realized, because after dropping them and moving on, the feeling remains.
i need to make this go away. it's not unbearable, so much as obnoxious and slightly depressing.
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2008 2 January :: 5.07pm
i love it when i have those moments where i feel like i'm on felix felicis and everything just falls into place.
then there are those other times where i try and try so hard to adapt and adjust correctly so that it will fall into place, but no matter how hard i try, it just doesn't fit.
i hate those other times. i'm always tempted to give up on them. but i never do, because i know there's always hope that suddenly felix will step back into the ring and make it all better. but he doesn't always do that. and then i'm left holding the bag.
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2008 2 January :: 3.19am
last night was good and bad at the same time
the good:
got to hang out with all my friends again, i drank way to much, jenny gave me noise makers :D, i seen people i havn't seen in a long time.
the bad:
i drank to much
i had to sleep on half a loveseat
Will tried to fight me.
Will tried to kill me.
Yeah, that shit was weak, ever been just trying to sleep and the one of your "friends" decides its a good idae to strangle you? fucking weak man.
oh well, the future looks good.
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2007 31 December :: 1.05pm
just wanted to say.
fuck you 2007
welcome 2008
things on my list of shit to reslove
new job
move out
get bills cought up
find a stable relationship.
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2007 31 December :: 3.59am
La famila. I love that i have two legit families. All i gotta say is my niggas since day one.
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2007 31 December :: 12.40am
:: Mood: on the precipice
:: Music: jamie cullum / jamiroquai (libby's playlist)
i've never really made a new year's resolution before. i mean, i've had little things that i decided to do or not do, but nothing monumental. kind of similar to lent. i give shit up for lent sometimes, but it doesn't fucking matter. i don't take it too seriously. mainly because i think it's bullshit.
mom makes new year's resolutions every fucking year and never keeps them. which is far more huge than she realizes, because it exemplifies the much larger personal issues she has yet to overcome.
the point is, this time i'm actually resolving to do (and not do) a few things. however, the chronology is merely coincidental. i would be doing these things, regardless of the time of year. which is why i'm not starting the effort precisely on new year's day. but i am making the effort ... and soon.
additionally, i'm not doing it for anyone other than myself. to prove to myself that i don't have a problem. i mean, i know i don't, so in that sense i don't require proof, but that doesn't make the proving of it superfluous or unnecessary. i am essentially proving to myself that i can prove it, even though i know i don't need the proof itself, per se. how's that for circular logic?
and i'm going to use the reallocation of funds idea that hunter gave me this evening as a part of that effort. and it's going to be brilliant. the only flaw is going to be making sure that the fund is not liquid, so that i wind up spending it on other stuff, which is what always happens. the fund has an express purpose. it's not a slush fund, it's exactly what i said it is, a reallocation to a different end.
so, to recap:
:: i am making some resolutions, which should resonate in my mind, body, and pocketbook.
:: although it will be the new year, these are not new year's resolutions.
:: although they are outward acts, these resolutions are for nobody's benefit or harm other than my own, despite their potential external impact.
:: libby has a kickass playlist
that's it.
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