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2004 19 March :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: creative
i really love the fact that on the internet i can say things that i would never say in person. but then it makes me wonder if the internet is like a mask, my shield?
well anyways, tonight was the key club auction/talent show. some bands performed. i liked the guitar solos and the duo that wasn't the mario brothers people. AND, thanks to amy reminding me, i absolutely loved the step team...i am going to be the only white memebr of the ATL step team!!
much love <3
Heather
call me and we will def get together over break 542 2078
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bocaheath05
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2004 17 March :: 8.38pm
i'm walking to my computer and i walk by my parents room... i look in...my younger brother is in there watching tv and just jumping aroung like a little boy...but he's wearing my mom's sandals!
should i be concerned?!
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robbingnovember
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2004 15 March :: 10.58pm
he didn't "kiss" me goodnight.. it is starting all over again. damn it!
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2004 12 March :: 2.36am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Charlie Mingus
I havent slept more than three hours within the last 47. No intentions of sleeping tonight.
I just wrote a really deep entry, but decided not to post it. I don't think I've ever correctly expressed my emotions through words.
I started writing music again last week. Mostly blues. I never knew it, but blues really does come from the soul. It's tiring to always play others people's music, and never create anything of your own. I wish I had a 4 track, because everything I write gets lost with my bad short term memory.
I also found out that I've been accepted to be a music major at USF next year.
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2004 10 March :: 11.02pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: jets to brazil
It's like they handed me my life and for the first time it felt right
You know that feeling when your heart is beating in a melody and your breath comes out in sighs. It is something. To like someone and have them like you back.. that is something. Something i honestly haven't much experianced. ugly me. and someone actually likes me? pfft. amazing. And i have that little feeling in chest that my heart is just trying to escape from my body and fly. He thinks i am something. I think he is something.. what a concept. I can't wait to see him to just hug him and know that things are okay. and we can watch empire records and make stupid jokes and just smile. That is what we should do. He says he wishes i was there in miami today because then he would be so happy, it would be his ultra birthday. oh infatuation to the max. So sad the circumstance of him living so far away and me having to wait to just hold him or have him kiss my forhead.. something like that. he would so do that. i think it is funny that i am smiling. rare but lovely. so this is what being happy is. and me being so scared it is going to fade.. that he won't like me.. that would be just my luck
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2004 9 March :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: the cure
the boy's eyes said "how beautiful! she shimmers like a star!"
you want to know why i hate you?
well i'll try and explain...
you remember that day in paris
when we wandered through the rain
and promised to each other
that we'd always think the same
oh my god. i think i am going to vomit. this is so much more than i can handle
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2004 7 March :: 4.27pm
i miss everyone nowadays
im sorry
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2004 7 March :: 3.11pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Destruction by Definition
"Lisa Simpson; master of the double life."
I'm Lisa Simpson. I play the baritone sax and am pretty good at it, I'm a big fucking nerd, I'm smarter than my parents, I dont believe in Church, I'm the good one in the family, my talents are underappreciated and are going to waste, I hate living at home, and I lead a double life. Yes folks, I'm Lisa Simpson.
Anyways, I finished my auditions over a week ago. The rides up to Tampa and Jacksonville were nice. USF was rad. I really want to go there. I loved the campus, and all the people. JU and UNF were rather disappointing after seeing USF. On a fucking saturday afternoon, the campuses were dead. Not one student walking around, chillin, or doing anything. Were there actually any students at these schools? I don't know. The campuses weren't even half the size of USF. The only thing I liked was that UNF had an immaculate music building. My audition there sucked though. They didn't want to hear much of me playing, and Bunky got mad at me for playing a Melodic Minor with a Natural Minor descending. Bastard. My USF audition wasn't too bad, but I cant be too sure that it will give me a spot in their program. It was the best audition I did for a school I wanted to go to though. My FIU audition sucked, but fuck that school. Them and their asshole jazz director can eat me. JU was my best audition. The guy fucking loved me. The jazz director, the guitar teacher and I jammed for almost a half hour. It barely felt like an audition. I thought that was great, but the campus sucked, and the music building was old and was obviously not intended to be a music building when it was first built. It reminded me of the high school from the Wonder Years. They didn't have much to offer me other than money to cover their big private school tuition. Fuck them.
I'm still waiting to hear back from UNF and USF. I want to hear back from FIU, but just because I was told to talk to the dean of music and tell him how much of an asshole his Jazz director is. Well thats it. Pretty worthless entry. I'm done
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2004 27 February :: 11.36pm
:: Music: Aphex Twin- Selected Ambient Works
Don't call it a comeback.
But seriously folks, why does life seem to want to be bipolar in my presence? In these past couple of weeks I have had more ups and downs than an elevator. Eeep, that analogy was horrible.
WARNING: THE FOLLOWING INFORMATION IS NOT IMPORTANT OR EVEN NECESSARY FOR YOUR CONTINUED EXISTENCE. YET I'M NOT MAKING THIS A PRIVATE ENTRY, BECAUSE ONLINE JOURNALS ARE USED TO EXPRESS YOUR INNERMOST FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS TO PEOPLE YOU MAY OR MAY NOT KNOW. GO LOOK AT KIDDIE PORN.
The past fortnight has been one of the longest I've ever endured, as everyday seemed to drag on forever and quite possibly ever. Maybe time and existence is slowing down so that the 24-hour day is abolished, replaced by tyrannical 40-hour days. Or maybe I need to stop forgoing sleep to watch the Old-School Hip-Hop segment on MTV2 at night.
Even with a half-day and staying home one day because of sickness, life slowed to a crawl this past week. I guess that's what a whole lot of drama can do. Jake put it best today; it's so easy to get sick of high school with all of the drama. The only drama I like to start is woohu drama with Cary, but that's me personally.
Actually, now that I think about it, I don't want to type about it, or write about it, or think about it. Not at this moment at least.
Instead of dwelling on the bad, especially to the public, who I'm sure doesn't want to hear it (they probably don't want to hear any of this), I'll just mention a few things that were good this week:
I am a real fan of making mix cds for people.
I am a staunch supporter of watching the series finale of "My Big Fat Obnoxious Fiance."
Talking in the hallways or while walking to my car with girls who somehow make my stomach feel funny is always a highlight of a day.
And most of all, today at lunch, I realized that I am truly blessed to know some of the kids I do know. Just talking with five of these guys, about anime porn or some other inconsequential thing made my week. Thanks.
Keep on truckin kids.
Drew R.
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2004 25 February :: 9.19pm
new journal on live journal swamp_inthe_sky
i still will update woohu
much love to all
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2004 22 February :: 8.17pm
Today I went to mass!!! And for those who don't know why this is such a big deal....I'm jewish! We did some mystery bus ride thing for youth group which involved mass and it was crazy!
Anyways...Not much happened at school, we had family in town this weekend. Yesterday i went to Atlantic Ave and ate at Splendid Blenders ( something liek that...) and we walked around and played tourist ( fun fun :)
Then Friday night, I seem to be doing my weekend backwards, I went to the mall with Jessica, I bought a shirt, no biggie.
Well, I think I am going to go do something with my family.
much love
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2004 21 February :: 10.41pm
nosb owned youuu!! yes.. you! especially. im so tired i want to sleep. mast owns everyone.. including me.. damn mast, stupid boys.. fun ness.. ill expand later
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2004 19 February :: 11.16pm
bah. i am so out of it right now i don't even know. I keep fighting in my head about whether to bring my contacts or just wear my glasses. And i just want to sleep in my bed. really sleep. I just stuffed my face with grapes. oh being too fat to care. We just worked forever on the project.. it will be good enough. Too bad i didnt study. too bad indeed. i just want to sleep. but i guess this is exciting. I'm excited.. in an anxious annoying way. If i wear my contacts i can wear my sunglasses. What about money? how much do i pack? it is only one day. imagine if i was going away for a week.. i would fucking bring my whole house. ugh competition. ugh. im tired. my weekend will be wasted and i will have the work of ugh to do this weekend.. with bib cards of hell.. bib cards? whyy i can't even comprehend because i realized i don't even know what my thesis means. My brother just came home.. yeah 11:10.. my curfew on weeknights is 9.. funny. gnomes are cool yet scary.. like they are just creepy midget old men wearing colorful outfits.. my hair is gross.. i want to either dye it again or let it grow out. i really need a cut of mass proportions. Screw studying.. i will do it tomorrow in paiges car. I really need to get this rollyness off of my body. i would like to be skinny. When kate moss runs up to me and complements my skinniness,.. i will become. oh he is sleeping out.. he is fucking sleeping out.. ahhhh!!!!! his birthday is tomorrow.. the big 18.v whatever. i should really drive. vroom. i suck at it. watch out world.. bah im going to wash up and sleep before i tear up the world hxc.
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2004 18 February :: 2.07pm
Wow I wonder if people actually read this thing!
Hey all, remember me? Remember this journal? Ok, here's my deal: I neeeeeeed someone to mail me pretty pretty please one of them IB calc formula books, I realized just how excellent of a cheat sheet it would be, or if anyone knows where on zee Internet I can find it?
-Lana
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2004 18 February :: 9.05am
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: Yes
FIU Jazz audition today at three. USF on saturday, UNF and Jacksonville U the next saturday. Concert next week. Musical is comming up, and state S&E after that. Maybe state concert after that.
I've got a little too much shit on my plate. I'm getting a little overwhelmed. Maybe after my auditions, it'll be a little bit better. I'm so nervous. For most of my auditions, I'm playing two standards, a ballad, and a latin from the Aebersald books. It's not that hard; I just play the head, and improv on those chord changes once or twice. I'm just worried about my improv. When I first started to improv, it was all by ear, so I played what sounded good. But anyone can play a Bb to F change by ear. These songs that I'm playing for my auditions are legit. songs, with legit. chords and changes. Improvising them by ear doesn't work for someone at my level. I don't know enough scales to put out a decent solo on any of these songs. At the most, I can get the root, 3rd, and 7th of any chord from just looking at it, but that's not very much. Scales are what's going to kill me. I'm fine with my majors, but I dont know my natural, harmonic, and melodic minors off hand. I know how they're constructed, what they're for, and how to use them, but I just haven't worked on them enough to play them from memory. I can play them off a sheet of paper, but all that shows is that I can sightread.... yea, I'm bad at that too. Well, atleast sightreading jazz. I've played more concert music than jazz in the last year, so counting straight is really ingrained into my brain, rather than swing.
I wouldn't be so worried about my auditions if I was just going to get accepted to their music dept., but I am going for scholarships. They want to give their money to the best and most talented, or those who they think can become the best and talented. I have potential to become friggen' awesome, but right now I'm just a mediocre player.
Almost forgot to mention: I got a superior on my solo, trio, and quartet at S&E. All three are eligable for state, but we decided not to do the trio, which is the hardest and sounds the worst.
Enough for today.
-A.J.
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