"so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick..."

yeah. I am sick.

Sick of it all, physically sick, emotionally sick, think it? I've got it :0P

Thanksgiving was nice. I got to see Kevy Wed from 1-4am :0) Good times.. drove up to Disney around 3 on Thanksgiving day.. let me tell you, cruise control is the greatest invention known to man :0P I felt like I was steering in a video game the whole way up. Disney was a lot of fun. I'm a chicken shit & couldn't think of anything to say to a cute boy that was smiling at me... grr. ummm went to see Cirque du Soleil.. excellent show, highly recommended :0) that was Fri night.. Sat night I watched the chorus sing @ the candlelight thing & then went 2 see Sevendust which was excellent also. Just relaxed cept it was freezing and I got sick :0(

I came back to several missed calls from Shane which I found peculiar. I found out some interesting info bout him 2day which I won't publically share cuz I may offend some people or something... eh

Thursday I leave for the Festival of Winds in Tampa.. good thing I haven't gotten the audition music yet.... wonderful lol O well.. guess i'll just hafta wing it :0P actually thats really not cool at all.

I really wanted to go ice skating w/(him) this Friday... but then again is that really a reality? no. I don't think i'll let it become reality again. One chance allotted, one chance blown. I shouldn't have to settle for less. I swear (they're) plotting against me... i'm getting awfully suspicious... they've been really buddy buddy & practically blackmailing eachother through me which is weird. very weird.

Thought of the day ~ Love sucks, you're better off w/o it... don't listen to all that shit " better to have lost a love then to have never loved at all" its shit. You'd proly b happier if you never had to put up w/any of that shit. Thats it.

18 days till my bday!

5 going | downtown.