:: 2003 15 October :: 3.47 pm

My days just keep getting better and better! I've been happy for a while now and i like it! Lol hey i could get used to this! And today on the way home stacy and I were talking about........"mentally impaired" people! ............long story! lol

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:: 2003 13 October :: 8.55 pm
:: Mood: happy

These past few days i've been pretty happy! Days have gone well and i've always had a smile on my face! I love being happy!

Kevin

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:: 2003 11 October :: 9.49 pm

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


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:: 2003 11 October :: 10.29 am

Three things that scare me:
1:	Death
2:	People
3:	Tazz (my dog)
Three people who make me laugh:
1:	Stacy
2:	Erika
3:	Dustin
Three Things I love:
1:	Erika
2:	My mom
3:	Money
Three Things I hate:
1:	School
2:	Soccer (dumbest game ever)
3:	Math
Three things I don't understand:
1:	Divorces
2:	People
3:	School
Three things on my desk:
1:	Cereal
2:	Lamp
3:	Monitor
Three things I'm doing right now:
1:	Eating Cereal
2:	Looking at a screen
3:	Typing
Three things I want to do before I die:
1:	Get married
2:	Have a family
3:	Fly
Three things I can do:
1:	Eat food
2:	Drive
3:	Sleep
Three ways to describe my personality:
1:	Outgoing (at times)
2:	Layed back (at times)
3:	Wierd
Three things I can't do:
1:	Math
2:	Fly
3:	See my mom

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How does it feel?

:: 2003 8 October :: 5.25 pm

Alot of days i sit and wonder if this will get any easier. If this will get any better. I wish things were how they used to be. My family is really screwy. Right around new years of 2003 through like May was probably the best 4 months ever. My sister wasn't getting in trouble. She was home more and i got to do things with her more. My life was going good. School was ok. I had and still have a terrific relationship with Erika. I love the girl to death. I talked to my mom on the phone like every week.....rather than the every 3 weeks what i'm doing right now. My parents were happy with all of us and everything was just great. And now everything has just gone down hill. I mean there is some good things.......like me and erika are still together.....and i am having a somewhat successful golf season. But now things with my family are just crazy. Kamie is just being really stupid and she is never home. The only time i see her is at school. Justin is being an asshole like always and he continues to. My parents are sick of his shit and my sisters shit. They are gone every other day so i have no time to do things on my own. I have to plan things like way in advance. And i hate it.....it shouldn't be like that. It might not make any sence to any of you....but i just hate my family shit right now.

And something that i am really beginning not to like......is me. I can do some dumb stuff. I'm sure everyone can agree that i can be really dumb. I always end up hurting people's feelings. Even if they dont admitt it.....i can just tell that what i said was just stupid and hurtful. And i dont know why but i dont realize things very quickly. I'm a guy....i just dont put 2 and 2 together very quickly. I hate myself for always getting to other people. I talk about my problems and complain when they probably already have problems of their own to worry about. I hate how i get on peoples nerves and make then frustrated at me. Even if they dont show it.....once again i just realize it after a while that i do dumb stuff and say stupid shit that frustrates people. So if you are any of those people.......more than half the time i probably dont even mean what i say or do......and things can be taken alot differently than what they were intended for. I dont know.......i just have alot of problems.......alot of issues.......alot of changes that need to be made. So if any of this apply's to any of you......then im sorry. I just dont feel like i'm being the greatest of a person right now. And i can be a better person......i know i can. And i dont think people really deserve most of the t hings i do. I dont know.......i'm just so fucked up. I wanna be a better person. If any of you have a say in this then leave a comment or something. Give me advice......talk to me about it.....i dont know...........

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:: 2003 8 October :: 5.19 pm

Fuck. I hate this bullshit. I hate going through shit that effects me and it shouldn't. I just hate life........fuck.

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:: 2003 7 October :: 9.35 pm
:: Mood: bored

Today was a good day i guess. I was gone from school all day yesterday......and i was happy that i didn't have alot of work to make up for today. But the same thing will happen thursday cause i will be gone all day thursday for my Regionals Golf match. I'm glad its almost over! Oh it was cool today.....i got to drive my dads new truck! So we now have 2 trucks, a van, my car, and kamies car. The van and new truck are for my dads work so he has more people working on the road for him. But i drove it today and it is really nice. But anyways......thats about it. Good nite.

Kevin

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:: 2003 6 October :: 9.26 pm

Wolf
you are strong and amazing you are a great friend
to have. you never give up and you are
invinceble!!!!!!!!!!!!Keep it up!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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:: 2003 6 October :: 9.21 pm

cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


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:: 2003 6 October :: 8.13 pm
:: Mood: crappy

I am extremely tired. Nobody is online. Dustin and stacy are always online, but neither one of them are right now. Erika had to go and i am bored and there is nothing else to do except for being online. I am extremely bored.........people need to talk to me.........

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:: 2003 5 October :: 6.05 pm
:: Mood: Calm, content

Alright, I just go back from the mall with stacy and erika. Stacy kept flipping out about all these clothes in the stores and how they looked all wierd! So we were both kinda makin fun of all these clothes! We went into Gadzooks.....and that was retarded. There was a table of sweaters and if you bought a sweater then you got a scarf or a hat for free. But it was only a selected few sweaters and hats and scarfs to pick from. Well Erika found a green sweater that she really liked but it was't on the table. The green one was the same price as the other ones on the table, but they wouldn't let her get a free scarf cause it wasn't a sweater on the table. It was so fucking stupid! The sweater was a little expensive but it made it worth spending if you got something free out of it. So that was pretty gay. She ended up not getting her sweater that she wanted. It was a really neat sweater too.....i liked it! Oh and we went into hot topic and they have these little cool patches and stuff! Some of them were pretty funny. They had Homer Simpson in his underwear and some other ones of him! But yeah.....thats what i did today......after i cleaned my house, woohu! So yeah.....nobody is online anymore and i've ran out of things to say.......i guess.

Kevin

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:: 2003 5 October :: 10.42 am
:: Mood: cold

Red Flannel Day was alright. It was just a little cold, but not too bad! I was just up town for a while. Hanging out with erika, stacy, becky, dustin, and some other people i dont know. Yeah then we went to mcdonalds and came back to my house. But this time it was only stacy, erika, and dustin that came over. We played pool for a while. Dustin and I were on a team vs. Erika and Stacy.......we kicked their ass in pool! Cause me and Dustin are dominant at pool! But hey the girls put up a good fight........by cheating! So let us know when you want a rematch......and keep on practicing too cause your gonna need it! And then we tried to ride my quad but its kinda hard to do that when there is no gas in it! So we went inside and had some popcorn and watched 2Fast2Furious. Then they went home. And i went to sleep. And now i'm here...........

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:: 2003 3 October :: 9.38 pm
:: Mood: tired

I really wish it would stop raining. It seems to put people in sad or bad moods. I hate storms. School is gay, and i find it pointless. But ya know what......i thought about my mom alot today. And i really miss her. I dont know if many of you know what its like but it kills inside knowing your mother is 2,000 miles away and you can't see her when you wanna see her. I am living a happy life right now. Nothing is going wrong. I'm staying out of trouble. My parents are proud of me for school and golf. I'm still with erika. A year for us is comming up very quickly and i'm excited and proud of it! I think i'm doing a pretty good job. I know i have my times where i'm not the greatest but hey oh well. I just wish my mom knew what was going on in my life. I wish that she could meet erika, so my mom could see what i see in erika. Andi wish my mom could watch me play golf and play baseball. And have her fly to michigan to watch me walk across the stage for graduation. But all of this just can't happen. And i really wish it could. When i went to visit her in the summer......she told me that she is dieing to meet erika, and to watch me play golf, and to watch me play baseball. And its not the greatest of feelings to know that my mother probably wont get to do any of that. I have a great life right now, i only with it could be at its best......and that would only become true if my mother lived in michigan.

I have terrific friends that are always there for me. And to a selected number of you.....i have a few things to say.

Erika, I dont even know what to start off by saying except for thank you! For alot of different reasons. One of the main things is for you treating me how you treat me. Its exactly how i need to be treated, want to be treated, and deserve to be treated. Your too good to me. I dont know what i would do with out you. Your always here for me, giving me advice, comforting me when needed. When something seems bad, i know i can always go to you to talk about something. You might not think so erika but you really are amazing to me, I'm sure you have heard me say many many times before. Its just something that needs to be known. You are such a sweet girl. You always have that little sweet innocent smile on your face and i love it. You always bring a smile to my face. You have a great personality and a georgeous smile! Your just such a loving and caring person to me. You are a wonderful friend and i want you as a friend no matter what. So once again thank you! You are MY girl and i love you so much. I care for you a tremendous amound and i'm always gonna be here for you honey.

Stacy, your just wierd! lol just jokin! Me and you are "loser bored buddies" for life! Lol you always crack me up. You have a great personality and sence of humor! I know i can always go to you if i need someone to talk to. I really dont know how to break everything down for you. Just to sum everything up......your a spectacular friend! You can always bring a smile to my face no matter what type of mood i am in! Lol thats just how you are.....and dont ever change for anyone! lol

Becky, yes yes then there is Becky! Lol you are just a funny kid! To go along with Erika and stacy......you are also a great friend! You always manage to bring a smile to my face and make me laugh! You always think of others and care for others. You always manage to think on the bright side of things instead of the negatives. Lol your better at that than i am! I know i can go to you to talk about anything. You can give great advice. Even if it is something you dont understand or dont know about......you still try your best to help me out. Lol and i always manage to talk to you about crazy little stupid stuff lol ! And some how my nickname that you gave me is "monkey!" But hey your a wonderful friend and i want to keep it like that!

Jake, even though i never see you.....we have still managed to develope a pretty good friendship online. And i find that really cool! You and I have things in common and we always find time to talk about the things we have in common. We always find a way to help each other out some way or another. Andi think thats really cool considering the fact that we never see each other and it is kinda an online friendship. And i know you and I will always be friends!

So thanks you you 4 for being there for me and being my friends. It meant alot to me and still does mean alot to me. I could't askfor any better friends than the 4 of you i have right now! And i hope i'm as well being great friend to all of you. I'm sorry if i disappoint any of you in any way, but hey it happends i guess. I am extremely tired right now.....so i dont know if any of this made sence to you. Thanks you guys!

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:: 2003 28 September :: 6.03 pm
:: Mood: so incredibly bored

i hope the storm is over and lots of sunshine is ahead...........

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:: 2003 27 September :: 8.50 pm
:: Mood: blank

Today is pretty well shot. I worked with my dad for like 7 hours today. Then we came home and closed our pool. Yippy fuckin skippy.....was that ever fun. My parents left to go to the casino with their friends tonight. Kamie is out doing what ever she is doing. And i'm stuck here with justin....fun fun. I went into town earlier and rented Cradle to the Grave. Shall be a cool movie. And i believe i will be going to church tomorrow morning as well.

Go Red Hawks.....quite the losing streak you have going on now.......

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