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moomoo

:: 2007 16 October :: 1.33am

Well the party is this weekend, seems like it was so far away lol. Its finally my week of not working that much, my work schedule is so messed up. I got my costume today for jimi party. I'm so excited, thank god someone had a party after october otherwise I would of missed out. So things are going pretty good. Just have to get rest of the apartment together for this weekend.

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skife

:: 2007 15 October :: 11.23pm

the jessa and andy show huh?


what about "the beaver program?"

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m&ms487

:: 2007 15 October :: 7.28pm

Woohu.


IS.

BACK...


I thought I was going to die.

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eddy

:: 2007 15 October :: 9.18pm


Who dreams about Napoleon Bonaparte wanting to get with them?

Me, apparently.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 12 October :: 11.38am

It's a slow day on my friends page....I'm a bit disappointed, guys. I don't get to watch soaps because I'm in class.....I need entertainment somehow!!!


Anyway.

I'm heading home in about an hour for Charlie's wedding. It's going to be grand. I just cleaned the apartment and my room, and I just have to wash the rest of the dirty dishes and clean Patrick's bowl.

I don't know. It's just been so busy, and there is stuff in my head, but I haven't had time to think about it....

[edit] I have a craving for sushi. Yes.

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twiggypuff

:: 2007 11 October :: 2.12pm

Bad News
I passed my driving test.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 10 October :: 6.00am

I have a class soon, and a book I need to read to write a paper that was due yesterday.

Last night, when I was walking back from university band, I stepped on a leaf and it crunched, and I very much enjoyed it.

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twiggypuff

:: 2007 10 October :: 1.58am

I have a cellphone now.

I am taking my driving test on Thursday.

Tony and I are going to Petoskey on Monday.

"Mommy, WOW, I'm a big kid now."

Now I just need a good job to keep this growing going.

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skife

:: 2007 10 October :: 1.41am

there are just some things....
i have to much time at night to think lately.
i need less time to think and more busy time.
idle hands are the devil's playthings.


i lost my CD's, i can't find them, i'm extremely sad.



customers piss me off at work, they come in always ask for our $5 pizzas, i tell them we don't have any, they say that little Caesars does. They are always looking for a deal or a way to pay less.

i went to this delivery on cypress, well it was actually on 22 mile with a cypress address, it was rainy, i couldn't see shit, i finally found the place and the guy wanted to only pay $20 for his order instead of the $22 it was supposed to be, i told him i couldn't do it he replied with "fine, i hope you crash on your way back" what a stand up fucking gentlemen he is.

today, i guess i pulled out in front of this guy in a jeep or something, and he pulls up next to me in the left hand lane and says "watch where your're driving asshole" so i yelled back at him "fuck off" he was pissed be cause i pulled out in front of him, he was probably a good 100 feet away and should have already been on his brakes for the red light.

fuckers.

anyways, SoS tomorrow, wheel bearings. Shit like that. damnit.

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skife

:: 2007 9 October :: 10.52pm
:: Music: flogging molly whats left of the flag

i just like this song for some reason

"What's Left Of The Flag"

His eyes they closed
and his last breath spoke
he had seen all to be seen
a life once full
now an empty vase
wilt the blossums
on his early grave

walk away me boys
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me
then the rosary beads
count them 1 2 3
fell apart as they hit the floor
in a garb of black
we must pay respect
to the color we were born to mourn
walk away me boys
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

In its place grew
an angry festered wound
full of hatered and remourse
where I pick and scratch
till the blood it matched
silent rage that now fills my lungs
for there are many ways
to kill a man they say
with bayonet, axe or sword
but son a bullet fired
from a shapeless guise
just put the shell of a Thompson gun

walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

from the east out to the western shore
where many men and many more will fall
but no angel flys with me tonight
though freedom reigns on all
and curse the name for which
we slaved our days
so every men chose Kingdom Come
But sure as night turns day
it's the passion play
oh my god
what have they done
with madmen rage
well the dogged craze
but the dead rise again you fools

walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

walk away me boy
walk away me boys
and by morning we'll be free
wipe that golden tear
from your mother dear
and raise what's left
of the flag for me

face the fox


m&ms487

:: 2007 9 October :: 1.08pm

Today is nice and calm and blue and a little cloudy, and not at all evil and sticky and gross like the past few days.

I have a feeling, somewhere in me, that I can't put a finger on, but I know it's there. I hate that, not being able to identify what I feel.

I signed my major today. I am officially an English major going for a Bachelor of Science in Education, Secondary Certification degree...thing. I'm going to sign my minor in a few days, I think. I need to get this stuff done, especially since the new bill came out for Higher Education that has some stuff in it about tuition assistance for to-be teachers. I need that! ME! Right here!!

I feel _____ .

What is that blank? I feel....straight line? I feel, underscore? I feel.....blank? White? Spacey? Wiped out?

No. Not really. Sometimes I hate that I only have seventyish years on this planet, and I've already used up about one third of them. What have I done in my one third of a life time? Prepared for the second third, I guess. Is that a waste? I'm not sure. What if the second third ends up being about preparing for the third third...and what if the third third is preparing for death...then am I just living my whole life to die? Always preparing for a moment that will never come. What am I trying to achieve? What is the goal? Yes, to have a job, a car, a house, a family maybe....but...why? To have a stable life for the future? What future? I'm afraid that I will have lived my life constantly trying to over achieve in a world that doesn't notice me.

I have poured my emotions into this text box so many times...

just an observation.

I don't understand how I function. I don't believe that there is an afterlife in the Christian sense of the word. I don't believe in a heaven or a hell...maybe a little waiting room with Cosmo and National Geographic magazines from 1988.

What keeps me from being totally depressed about living a whole life, and then just dying, like i was never here in the first place? How do i not be upset when I waste days doing things that I hate, because I know that I will never get those days back?

I know what the meaning of life is: ______________ .

I am feeling rushed.

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allyson

:: 2007 9 October :: 12.32pm

Well, I'm not pregnant anymore... and I kind of miss it.
so, I hold her 24/7 to make up for it.

She was born September 26th at 12:15 pm and weighed a whole 8 lbs. 9 oz and was 21 inches long.

I have no idea how she fit inside me.

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skife

:: 2007 9 October :: 12.08am

just another day in the life of a pizza delivery guy.

the end of this movie makes me want to get all teary eyed. (the devil's rejects)

i bought some apple juice today. i havn't been eating very good lately.
truck act's up in the rain, i don't like it.
anyways, thats all i want to talk about, good night.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 9 October :: 12.06am

I am very angry and bitchy.

Last theology class tomorrow.

Tired.

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skife

:: 2007 7 October :: 9.51pm

good news, new haircut.




"they call me mr. clean"

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skife

:: 2007 7 October :: 8.38pm

66.07 hours for a hungry howies check for next week.

mmmm money.


the kegger went horriable.
there we're random ass highschool kids there.
people driving stupid
people making a shitton of unneeded noise.

so jenny kayleigh and i bailed and went to jennys
people came with us and took the keg.

people came after the keg, almost had a fight.
lots of douchebaggery
somehow i got blamed for a bunch of stuff, fuck you guys that tried blaming shit on me.

shit's weak.


anywho, going to do another starter in the yota, this one did the same shit as last time. fucking napa.

*sigh*

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moomoo

:: 2007 7 October :: 5.55pm

Red Flannel
So Red Flannel was okay. Didnt really find anything cool at the flea market thing. Kinda disappointed, I thought it was going to be bigger. Oh well, But hanging out at Jessicas was fun. So its was a okay day. Besides all the drama at night, but oh well. Going to Ihop at night is always a good call. Well its almost time go bowling. I'm glad I finally joined a league, good times. Life is going pretty good.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 7 October :: 5.27am

My brother called me earlier to tell me one of their new cats had died. The little cute one that would just chill on your shoulder.

I thought I was okay after I cried it out once but apparently I'm not. She was not gaining weight and Mom thinks she died of respiratory failure because she had a cold. My sister was at a friend's house and it was homecoming so they didn't tell her. And they haven't told her yet. Mom said she buried the cat, Hero, and will tell her on Sunday when she gets home.

Hannah had a rough time when we had to put McHenry to sleep and she loved this cat so I'll be up in Rockford tomorrow.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 6 October :: 12.59pm

Pushing Daisies is a show you should watch if:
you have ovaries
you like Gilmore Girls
you like laughing
you like style
you need something to watch on Wednesdays because every other day is booked
you are worried about watching a new show too late (you can watch episodes you missed on abc.com)
you like Big Fish, Amelie, Edward Scissorhands, Wonderfalls or Wes Anderson
you are awesome
you are lame


Watch it, fools. Catch it on rerun

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skife

:: 2007 6 October :: 12.47am

thinking hurts, girls are confusing.
work was interesting tonight.
i don't know what to think on some things right now.

i do know there is a party tomorrow
and that i'm going to the lumberjack breakfest.... lesbians...

sleep.

why does music always sound better like this?

my mouth is dry.

i wonder what the dog things.

hopefully things go well at the party tomorrow, i won't drink much, maybe play some flippy cup....

played quarters last night.
will swallowed my quarter.
will puked my quarter back up
i wiped it off and kept playing with it.
Its a 1982 quarter, blackish in color. It was bouced on the shelving unit that i was sitting in front of.

bonnie is dumb.
ugggh.

work is one of the few things keeping me sane. by the looks of it i'm going to get all the hours i need now.
hopefully buying a 4 runner next weekend.

my truck doesn't like me much.

i'm thirsty.
i want some ice cold water, out of a chilled glass bottle.

red flannel tomorrow, i've got to work. i hate working on red flannel.

andy, i'm sorry for not going to your bon fire, i just got out of work and i have to be there at 10 am tomorrow.

that fucking music boosters want pizza at 10:15 or some shit
they want tax exemption too. fuck them, they tip for shit, it takes forever to find a parking spot, they order a shit ton of pizza and give you like a dollar.

i'm glad i don't work inside.
maddie dog is dreaming, i wonder what about. i always think chasing squirrls.

i'm just writing random thoughts down.

i think i want to play drums.

anyways.

sweet dreams everyone.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 5 October :: 12.24am

I have a communication theory exam tomorrow morning that I'm not prepared for. I have a speech to give on monday that I'm not prepared for. I need to start doing some preparation!

Oh man.

So...I got the brother of the month award, which is pretty awesome, but not so awesome because it doesn't mean anything to anybody but me.

whatever.

I need to go study: relational dialectics! proxemics! symbolic interactionism! oh the horror...

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angel_bob

:: 2007 4 October :: 8.47pm

For those of you who want to join my NaNoWriMo quest, go to the website (nanowrimo.org), sign up and add me (Angel_Bob). You'll get an adorable email and then we can make a party and start this thing.

I've decided I'm going to write my romance novel because it does not need to be very good.

I'm planning already. 50,000 words in 30 days is 1,666.66667 words a day. I've decided to plan it out the first two days so 50,000 words in 28 days is 1,785.71429 words a day. So if I start in on it the first day, I'll need about 1667 words a day but if I wait, I'll need 1786 words a day. For comparison, MLK's I have a dream speech has 1,601 words. And that's not that long at all.

We can do it.

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skife

:: 2007 4 October :: 1.50am

nightly update.


things that are going good:
work, and lots of it.
Friends, they are good.
Tempo, because its sold

I might buy another toyota, an '86 4runner with the same motor as my truck, this thing is rusty but trusty. I'd swap the motors this spring, drive the runner through the winter, have my motor rebuilt over the spring with a port job on the head some bigger injectors and maybe some other mods.
Then part the 4runner out when i get the rebuilt motor in the truck.

the bad:
the brand new starter took a shit in my truck today at work, starter is locked up but the siliniod engages
still have some bills to pay.
justin moves in 11 days. wich would be nice if he was moving to GR, but his ass is moving to Florida. one of my best friends is just leaving. he's like a brother to me, i'm deeply sadded.



tomorrow i've got to swap a starter on the yota, then go bowling mmmm bowling, i love bowling.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 3 October :: 11.53pm

I have decided to try NaNoWriMo this year. We shall see how it goes.. I don't get on the computer much but I guess I could hand write it like the olden days.

I am sadly excited to do it. It's like motivation.

Oh, in case you don't know, November is National Novel Writing Month. A bunch of people all sign up and pledge to write a novel from November 1-30. A novel being a 175-page/50,000-word piece of work.

It's always sounded fun but I've never been inspired to do it until now. Or wanted to. This semester is easy and I can always get rid of a few hours at work if need be.

This is exciting. I am stoked.

P.S. If anyone else wants to do it (Katti, Jessa) that would be awesome. Then we can all motivate each other.

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skife

:: 2007 3 October :: 10.12pm

got home from work tonight and the dog was wound, decided to run with her, went all the way to howies and 3/4 the way back before the dog decided to slow down.

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angel_bob

:: 2007 3 October :: 9.54pm

Andy, I noticed a change in the saying. It is not cool. I loved you first. That bitch don't know shit.


In other news, I will not be able to go to Red Flannel for the first time in two years. Nick has to work which means Nick has the car. It wouldn't be the same without him anyway. This makes me sad. Red Flannel is the start of fall and I'd get to see Nick's parents.

And play bingo.

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jayzulla

:: 2007 3 October :: 5.49pm
:: Music: Weezy - Top Back (Seat down low)

Red Flannel for the win. People at work were asking me at work what exactly we do up there. I told them I go with no plans, except for partying hard and seeing my town act like a buncha idiots. W00T.

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m&ms487

:: 2007 3 October :: 1.54pm

"Everything will exist, move, separate in a river of change which in that instant will dissolve it, age, and corrupt everything without a single voice to sound the alarm...The sun is burning itself alive, iron is crumbling into dust, aimless energy is dissipating in space, masses are wearing out in radiation, the earth is cooling into death...And you will wait for a mulatto and an animal, to cross the mountain and begin to live, to fill time, execute the steps and gestures of a macabre game in which life will advance as life dies; a dance of madness in which time will devour time and no one alive can halt, the irreversible course of death...The boy, the earth, the universe: in those three, someday there will be no light, no heat, no life...There will be only total, forgotten oneness, nameless, without a man to give it a name: space and time, matter and energy all fused into one....And all things will have the same name...None"

From The Death of Artemio Cruz
by Carlos Fuentes

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skife

:: 2007 3 October :: 2.44am
:: Mood: uncomfortable
:: Music: flogging molly [whiskey on a sunday]

should i even call hungry howies a real job?
its not much work at all.
oh well, i had fun today.

its really windy out right now i'm enjoying the crap out of it.
i really don't know what to post, i kinda miss having a girlfriend, but whatever you know?

i downloaded some flogging molly today, actually the whole album "whiskey on a sunday" lots of acoustic stuff on it, i dig it.
i want to watch a movie right now. maybe something is on the tv.

see you guys tomorrow

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skife

:: 2007 2 October :: 4.23pm

the gogo tempo is gogo gone.

$200 i still need to pull it off the jack stands so the guy can come and get it.
he's got the title, i've got the cash.

face the fox

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