Estuans Interius Ira Vehementi

:: 2009 8 March :: 1.40pm

I don't even know where to begin..

6 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2009 7 March :: 2.03pm

I really wish that the drama would just stay as far away from me as it could.
I absolutely hate it.
I hate it when people say anything that involves my boyfriend cheating on me.
Especially when we are barely apart, and he really doesn't have time to cheat.
It literally makes me sick to my stomach when someone says those words.
I instantly get tears in my eyes, and my stomach gets knotted up and I can't swallow.
It doesn't happen because I feel like I can't trust him.
And even though I know I can trust him, it still gets my mind thinking, well can I really trust him, how faithful is he, has he done it before, who is it..
It happens because I care so fucking much about him, and the thought of it eats me up inside, because I already don't feel good enough for him.
The thought of losing him kills me inside and I feel like my whole world is crashing and burning right before my eyes and there is nothing I can do about it.

I swear I go through this atleast 5 times a year, at minimum.
Where someone says he is cheating, or that he made a move on them, or something that involves him and another girl.

People fucking suck.
And they are lucky I'm not completely crazy.

:: 2009 6 March :: 2.29pm

I hate when my friends are all unhappy and their worlds are all falling apart.
The selfish part of me hates it, because it makes me reflect on my life.
The unselfish part of me hates it, because I hate watching my friends go through all that crap.

The only unhappy thing I have to look back on right now, is the fact that I have had a migraine for 2 almost 3 days now, and nothing is relieving the pain.
That and my cat is a bitch. I love her, I really do, but she needs a new home.

:: 2009 6 March :: 10.19am

go see The Watchmen now

:: 2009 5 March :: 4.07am

The Watchmen

seeing The Comedian, I see a lot of myself. hmm, he's not really a good guy.

jayzulla

:: 2009 3 March :: 1.56am

Whoa.... its been a few days
Yawn, i am fuckin tired. I still have enough energy to post though.

MSU has clinched the big ten title and only needs one more win to secure them as the full blown winners. and considering they play indiana (1-15 big ten record, the worst team) next it should be a gravy train to that title. cant wait to get my bracket for march madness, maybe ill actually win some money this year!

When i was making my way home the other night, i saw a car in the cemetary parking lot. this cemetary is only about 200 feet up the road from my house so i was wondering what in the hell they were doing there at 12:30 at night. as i drive by i notice that there is a fucking fire in the cemetary! i go home wait about 10 minutes, and here comes the fire truck roaring by. needless to say didnt appear that much was damaged, but still pretty crazy. i assume it was a pagen sacrifical ritual where a goats blood had been spilled in the hopes someones loved one would return to them. Fucking cultist.

Edit: I got pretty sweet at street fighter 4. pretty dope game. however, if you get pissed off when you lose in fighting games, i suggest getting high before you play. you might want to break a controller otherwise. ^^

:: 2009 2 March :: 6.10pm

I have an interview on Wednesday at 4 pm.
An office position at Town and Country Title Services.
Its 40 hours a week too! :)
Now I must find something to wear..

:: 2009 2 March :: 1.46am

here i am, sitting in the hospital right now.

my grandpa butch just had a heart attack.

his right cornary artary is fully clogged.

:: 2009 28 February :: 3.17am

:: 2009 27 February :: 2.58pm

gone insane, but the memory remains ...

:: 2009 27 February :: 10.46am

Needs a washer and electric dryer..
Badly.
It's been like 6 months that I have gone without. Can't do the laundromat thing anymore.

fishyrere

:: 2009 25 February :: 10.58pm

I love pie and I love people who love pie.

:)

3 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2009 23 February :: 7.43pm

Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I have had in a long time.
I managed to lock my keys in my car in the ghetto.
And apparently my body felt it neccessary to breakdown at that moment, because I balled my eyes out.
Crying in public, not my thing.

pjlmaster

:: 2009 18 February :: 6.31pm

WTS 1991 Taurus Sho + needs its transmission put in, plus some other random shit im sure, shes been sitting for a couple years or so.

200 bucks? 1 of less then 3000 evar

pictures and stuff

:: 2009 18 February :: 12.40pm

it happened again!

http://www.woodtv.com/dpp/news/Person_hit_and_killed_by_train

earlier this year the same shit happened in jersey.

dumbass kids need to learn trains are heavy and don't stop.

m&ms487

:: 2009 18 February :: 11.42am

So... I'm a lot less grumpy than I was this morning. I finally finished my paper on Structuralism, although it's not a full two pages. I think it'll be fine. Who cares how Torodov uses Saussures concepts in order to analyze narrative plot?!?! Gah.

So, I have to work tonight, still have a few more classes today. I have a french oral exam tomorrow, then I have Literary theory, band, meeting, then I get to sleep in on Friday morning. Woot!

I hope i get my grade back for my political science (foreign policy) exam. I'm not sure how I did.

I'm super busy and I've been grumpy to Rueben. Sorry, dear!

angel_bob

:: 2009 17 February :: 10.10am

This semester I need 11 credits. I am taking 12 to be full time. I only have one required course left. It is, of course, the one course I cannot be on time to, ever attend or do the homework for.

I am hoping I snap out of this soon. This weekend I need to finish up my incompletes from last semester so I can get out of here on time. I also need to CLEP my French credits still.

I am lazy.

3 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2009 15 February :: 1.57pm

leaving for alabama thursday.

be gone for like 10 or so days.

peace.

:: 2009 15 February :: 12.08pm

:: 2009 14 February :: 8.55pm

I got a ring!!
Not an engagement ring though..
But a thoughtful, pretty, and shiny one..
And once again, the tears begin. but happy ones this time..

jayzulla

:: 2009 14 February :: 3.03pm

Im a pill poppin animal
Last night was pretty fun. didnt do that well in madden though. only went 1 - 2 -.- . However i went 39 and 6 in COD4, whatchu know bought the golden uzi? Im so high you couldnt reach me with a fucking antenna

jayzulla

:: 2009 12 February :: 2.19pm

The "It" Team
MSU - 54
UoM - 42

Ah, the great feeling of success.

:: 2009 11 February :: 10.40am

events of last night

1. went to rosie's, drank a little beer and a bottle of beer.
2. andy [marini]convinced me to go to the crazy horse with him to play some pool, that was preceded by another killian's and a coors light, then we went and chilled and watched people line dance, then we had another beer and a shot of jack
3. andy starts line dancing
4. jordan show's up to pick me up from the bar because i'm not trusting andy to drive me home, espically after he had the shot of absinth
5. jordan takes me to her mom's house, where i almost win at 3 games of cribbage
6. go back to jordans, cuddle up with her and fall asleep.

:: 2009 10 February :: 7.31pm

can I play with madness

:: 2009 10 February :: 6.34pm

Love it

m&ms487

:: 2009 10 February :: 3.05pm

Rueben, I'm sitting up at a computer on the fourth floor of the library by the big windows because our phones don't work. Again.

Ahhh. I also forgot my literary theory book. See, I thought I was suppose to write a paper on this horrible forty page article about reader response theory and it turns out it's on the eleven page less scary one that I actually understood, except the only problem is that I didn't bring my book, so I can't do that paper. But, I did do my paper that is due on Friday for my Victorian Literature and Thought class, so I'm a little ahead, but still behind :(

It's super nice out today and I feel like I want to be outside but I'm stuck in here in the library because that's where Rueben knows I will be because our phones don't work because SOMEBODY didn't pay the bill. I guess we probably should have checked that out after what happened last time. Oh well. I think I'll go through and plan my future now. I'm not doing French anymore. Well, I am. I'm in French 102 this semester, but I'm NOT fulfilling my BA requirement and taking a whole nother year of it and killing myself. No siree. So, that means that I'm switching to a Bachelor of Science which won't be quite so bad and I really only have english class, political science classes and three science classes to take for it. Yippee.

AHH. I'm sick, too. bah. I'm feeling better since I wrote my paper and I know that it's fanfuckingtastic. I feel a little crazy right now. AHH. Woohudotcom. bah. Fifty more minutes until Rueben is done with his lab. Then I can go to the store, get my pills, buy some cookies, go home, write my other paper, maybe, go to uband, go to the concert, go home, go to bed, go to class, go to work, go home, go to bed......

:: 2009 9 February :: 8.36pm

our president just used the term "ginned up"

3 slinked away | face the fox

:: 2009 9 February :: 4.20pm

A lot has happened since October 12, 2006.

:: 2009 6 February :: 6.37pm

So it's looking like if I keep my nose to the grindstone I'll be graduating next summer with 2 Bachelor's of Science degrees. Two degrees in 3.5 years isn't bad. Then possibly graduate school.

angel_bob

:: 2009 6 February :: 12.21am

My sister turns 18 later this month. I feel old.

We're both graduating this year. Crazy.