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:: 2008 2 December :: 4.07am

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angel_bob

:: 2008 2 December :: 2.28am

crossposted
I am very blessed. I have a boyfriend who loves me (and lets me sleep and makes me bagels with cream cheese and turkey (when I don't feel well and when he thinks it sounds disgusting)) and whom I love. I have a family that despite my coming home from a semester in Europe and immediately moving out, still loves me.

I am blessed because I had two Thanksgivings. And I will have two Christmases.

I talked to one of the new student workers today. His father lost his factory job and his mother lost her greenhouse job. Downsizing. He had Spaghetti O's for Thanksgiving. In his dorm room. He says Christmas doesn't look too great either.

I left work crying.

I've always had a Christmas. I've always had a Thanksgiving. No matter how poor my parents said they were that year. I can't imagine not having one. But this kid did. This kid will.

:: 2008 1 December :: 2.49pm

Saturday night at the liquor store
Thought this sounded kinda dirty

:: 2008 29 November :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: irritated

When your friends call me crying looking for you, I think thats a sign that you should quit being so flakey.

and i take care of your fek-in cat while your gone and you can't even come over to thank me.

I'm very very underappericated.

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:: 2008 29 November :: 4.16am

Another fun night of bowling. My game average has a direct correlation with beer consumption however, fun times none the less. Really getting into bowling, going to get a ball for christmas from the folks.

Open invite for any friends that want to join us in bowling alley shennaniganz, hit me up for details.

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:: 2008 27 November :: 1.41pm

So the old techtv has been somewhat resurrected under the name Revision3, a web channel.

Better yet, they have a weekly podcast that is very much like the Screen Savers entitled tekzilla. I am very excited I discovered this today. The screen savers was probably my all time favorite show and one of the big reasons I got into tech.

Revision3
Tekzilla

jayzulla

:: 2008 27 November :: 2.31am

step 1 - drink vanilla vodka and rootbeer (was absolutly chronic). step 2 - go to the club. step 3 - go home and eat and burt yourself on the oven grandma boy style. step 4 - get plenty of sleep to feast upon bird tomorrow. and sneak some to the pendubs.

angel_bob

:: 2008 26 November :: 10.14pm

I feel like I learn more about faith and feel better about faith in my Arabic class than I ever did in my Theology class.

In my Theology class, I was angry and upset that I was supposed to believe what he said I needed to. That I needed to obey the laws he said existed. Laws and rules I didn't think any god cared about.

In my Arabic class, I feel good about this god that I thought was mean and restrictive. I feel good about the world. Every day we have a religious discussion, even inadvertently.

I guess I'm not doing the Catholic thing anymore? I guess I haven't for a while. I like this God guy. I'm feeling things out but I'm a big fan of this non-denominational thing. I just hate religion so much. We'll see where this goes.

rayray

:: 2008 26 November :: 2.11pm

I'd like to believe that we decide when to wash our hands, or reveal the skeletons that we keep baracaded in our closets.
On our own terms, at the right time, and when necessary.
But in reality that doesn't happen.
Sometimes the past comes whirling in and everything else that mattered completely stops.

..While driving around greenville today, I had all these insightful thoughts that I planned to write. But when I got home I got side-tracked and had to do laundry. Now all those thoughts are barely there..

Crap.

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jayzulla

:: 2008 25 November :: 10.13pm

A.I. for right now, what do you know about Lebron James in 2010?
Im thinking Pistons will destroy everything.

edit : thinking about getting cornrows, A.I. style. Not sure yet though.

:: 2008 25 November :: 12.24am
:: Mood: aggravated

Karma comes around in full, I keep thinking of that. Believe what you want but the grapevine lies and the liars within can go fucking drown.

:: 2008 24 November :: 11.25pm

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BUAHAHAH!!!!

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:: 2008 23 November :: 12.08pm

So apparently I was the only one that knew about old greg yesterday

:: 2008 23 November :: 4.46am

Went to KC bar with Will T, Sam Adams cherry wheat on tap is the best the best the best

drank 3 brews there
then we went to eric's and wasted some shits at beer pong

good night

:: 2008 22 November :: 5.29am

i hate being woken up early.

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS me to talk to them.

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS me to talk to them so the don't fall asleep behind the wheel

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS me to talk to them so they don't fall asleep behind the wheel because they are driving drunk

i hate being woken up early because someone NEEDS meto talk to them so they don't fall asleep behind the wheel because they are driving drunk and they don't wannt a ride.

UGHHH $%(!#$()&!#$&(*

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eddy	:: 2008 21 November :: 7.40am Things are better. Not like they were before, but still even better in some ways. I hope things continue to improve. =] 4 slinked away \| face the fox

:: 2008 20 November :: 11.10pm

....at least my female problems don't involve bleeding.

:: 2008 20 November :: 4.15am

I played to much rockband and i now have aqualung by jethro tull stuck in my head.

eddy	:: 2008 18 November :: 1.56pm OMG OMG OMG So maybe life is looking up. Aparently Tim Burton is making an 'Alice in Wonderland' movie. Guess who's going to be the Mad Hatter? Heck yes. LOVE IT 10 slinked away \| face the fox

rayray

:: 2008 17 November :: 10.33pm

It's pathetic how I find myself defending why I love my boyfriend after 3 years, to people who know me better than a lot of people.
And they tell me that I'm not happy.
But truth be told, I am the happiest I've ever been.
In high school, I was a train wreck.
I was always depressed, crying over never-meant-to-be relationships, drama ate at me like I was a thanksgiving turkey, and I was stressed out the moment I stepped foot into my house.
I was constantly being told what to do.
And I hated every moment of the life I lived outside of my friends.
I may not hang out with my friends as much as I used too, and those relationships may have grown awkard over the past 3 years.
But I truly am happy.
I finally have someone I love that I can come home to everyday, and wake up to every morning.
It may not be the best of relationships, but I am happy.
After this long, I shouldn't have people who I feel I can trust, telling me that I should have a baby, but not until I get a different boyfriend.
I haven't felt that hurt in awhile.
Many of you feel the same way, but don't judge until you know the whole story.
I shouldn't have to defend my life to others.

eddy	:: 2008 17 November :: 1.04pm Fuck the world. 1 slinked away \| face the fox

m&ms487

:: 2008 17 November :: 12.01pm

I have a french exam in one hour that I am not prepared for.

I'm fairly sure I just failed a math exam two hours ago.

But I think I'm going to be okay, and that's all that really matters right now.

[edit] I think the French exam went all right and I've almost eaten an entire tray of sushi. Yippee.

:: 2008 17 November :: 2.44am

I hope they don't kill opie.

He's one of my favorite characters

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:: 2008 17 November :: 2.32am

I don't know what to believe anymore.
Tired from over thinking, numb from over feeling.
When you try to move on and things get thrown back at you.
This whole event seems like mutually assured destruction.

:: 2008 16 November :: 1.11pm

Mudvayne - Pushing Through This
Salt the wound
Cut through a conscience I've failed to explore
The calm before the storm
Speak your peace and prepare for the fall
Words have been chosen
Tainting the gift
Lying truth's so increditable
So fuck you all
I'm turning my back on this killing so small

Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Eye for an eye I'm pushing through this
My law
Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Tooth for a tooth I'm pushing through this
Through you

:: 2008 16 November :: 1.39am

my brother thinks that i'm an alcoholic for taking a minicooler with 3 beers in it, in the bathroom for my bath.

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:: 2008 16 November :: 12.39am

Drastic steps

:: 2008 15 November :: 1.36pm

why do i do this to myself?