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2006 10 December :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Phantom Punch - Sondre Lerche
I'm taking a ride with my best friend
I hope she never lets me down again
I was at this family dinner.
Not my family, of course, but my roommate, Tanya's family.
I ate... Potatos and salad. (As I have been a vegetarian for several monthes now. Except I still eat seafood. SUSHI!)
Then there were many sweet things and tea. I love sweet things and tea. ... Why aren't I fat?
I want a bagel.
And a boy who isn't a douchebag.
And actually cares about me.
And doesn't just want to fuck me. (Like I'd give it up to you, idiot.)
God damn, I hate people.
I return home tomorrow from school.
I am excited to see my friends.
I hope everything doesn't go to shit.
I know Shawna will love me. <3
I got her Beauty Pop Vol. 2 for Christmas, which she wants soooo badly, but I want to get her another little something too.
Any ideas?!
Goodnight Woohu.<3
Edit:
Oh god.
Did I just say I "want a boy"?
I've thawed too much.
Eugh.
I sound like a dreamy 14 year-old school girl.
If anyone needs me I'll be in the freezer.
(Speaking of which, the snowman that I built and stuck in my freezer has dwindled down to almost nothing. wtf freezer.)
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2006 9 December :: 3.45am
Things to do before I die =3
Random order; list in progress (and will likely be for long, long time).
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Last update: 02/21/08 08/10/2014
To be updated and marked as complete as I go along.
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2006 6 December :: 1.26am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: space monkey - Placebo
we're sewn together
he's born to mesmer
With Malcolm's quote of "dating you meant nothing to me", as well as shit he's said to other people and myself, I have concluded that he never cared about me and was only "with" me to try and manipulate me into letting him fuck me.
Sweet.
Not only does this make me feel like shit to mean so little to my first "boyfriend", but I'm angry at myself for not kicking him to the curb.
This does not restore my lost faith in humanity.
I'm done my classes for winter semester, except for a final on Thursday that I have not begun to study for. English Lit, ugh. I should probably go to sleep or something but I think I'll sit in bed and watch The Omen.
Today I slept until noon... Probably because I was so tired from pulling the all-nighter to write that 1800 word essay on satire of Shakespearean characters in Goodnight Desdemona (Good Morning Juliet).
I'm going to watch the Gankutsuou: The Count of Monte Cristo anime soon. That has me a little excited. And I return home on Monday. Hopefully there is love there waiting for me.
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2006 4 December :: 5.30am
:: Mood: dying
:: Music: Depeche Mode
I hate you, English essay.
What the fuck.
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2006 26 November :: 2.47am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: N/A
Aww.
Malachi says:
I need a picture of me making you smile.. like. genuinly..
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2006 25 November :: 2.21am
:: Mood: bitter/anti-social
:: Music: N/A
i need a home for my hands and head
I just walked Nikolai part-way home... I hope he doesn't fall asleep on the way... The poor little guy was so tired.
Other than that, I am so sick of people.
And half the time the state of the world makes me want to cry.
I'm sick of being a figurehead for some guy and I'm sick of not being cared about. I've been treated like a joke, I have. Someone is going to get a hell of a lot of backlash for it.
All it does is make me more bitter and jaded and it becomes harder for me to put my trust in people... And really, do I need to get any worse with those things?
Nay.
I was never really taught right from wrong and when I was in high school I always had somene to look out for me. Here it's different. I've gotten myself into a "how many stupid things can I do, how far can I go before someone stops me?" mindset.
Trust me,
there is no one here to stop me.
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2006 16 November :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: ill
:: Music: The Noose - A Perfect Circle
Finland, Finland, Finland... It's the country for me.
I have had a fever the last... four days or so.
I should be writing my sequence analysis... But... I am sick and procrastinating.
I was tagged to write six strange things about myself in Xhanny's journal... So... Here I go!
1. I can't sleep without socks on. If I have cold feet I have an unsatisfying sleep and wake up tired and cranky.
2. My body is naturally two degrees cooler than the normal human body temperature.
3. I get anxiety attacks.
Emphasis on when someone kisses me for the first time.
I get so scared of physical contact that I start shivering and have a good 'ol anxiety attack.
4. I hate dancing, so instead of "getting down" when I listen to music, I pace. It helps me think.
5. I can see in the dark almost perfectly.
6. I hate cauliflower, not only because it is a wholly disgusting vegetable, but because it reminds me of an STD.
On the whole, this little exchange has made me feel much better.
Thanks, woohu!
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2006 7 November :: 7.33pm
A Rant in Response to Subway Rants. <3.
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And on that note: Eat more Subway! Just don't be a jerk!
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2006 22 October :: 10.11pm
:: Mood: unsure
you don't want baggage
without lifetime guarantees
you don't want to watch me die
I just came to say goodbye, love
goodbye, love
goodbye
I work at Subway.
I get out of school at 12:05 pm.
Finally out of debate class, but keeping the t-shirt.
Yearbook is going well - so are English and SWAT - my only classes.
le.. whoo.
Must clean tomorrow.
After work.
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2006 24 September :: 5.30pm
:: Mood: elated
:: Music: Nothing
Ooohhh, my love...
I await the day when Paul Dano falls deeply in love with me and sweeps me off my feel and marries me in Finland and garnishes my bed and silk sheets with rose petals. Black ones.
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