xonixieox
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2004 10 June :: 8.17pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: none at the time!!
good mood!
this is my profile as of this point in time
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A Good friend would be there to bail you out of jail, a BEST friend would be sitting next to you saying "damn that was fun TcLfBhAmJmMfKdJfDbEw
Rest in peace- Lisa.W <--- "only the good die young"
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"Lick me from head to toe' Bending me over' 69'll be the next thing' I wanna taste your body all night long"
.*.BuRniN LuNgS . dIrTy dAnCiN.*.
.*.NiGhT sWiMmiN . SeCoNd cHaNcEs.*.
.*.LoUd MuSiC . TaiNtEd sMoKe.*.
.*.FiErY KiSsEs . RaCiN hEaRtS.*.
.*.sLeEp aLL dAy . OuT aLL NiGhT.*.
.*.sChOoLs OuT . PaRaDiSe.*.
.*.No LiMiTs . TaKe a ShOt.*.
.*.SuMmEr 'o4 . bAby ItS gOnNa bE hOtT!.*.
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ya thats it! doesnt everyone love Mr. Williamson... i mean come on he was the nicest person ever in the whole entire world... his daughter was his everything and i can NOY believe he has had to suffer as hard a loss as this one! i mean come on... anyone who loved mr w has to leave a comment... because why is it that bad things only happen to good people.. .never the bad people... i guess the song is right... only the good die young!
i never went to a wake before and i went to lisa's.... thats how much of a great teacher mr w was... thats how much he meant to me, to anynoe who went!
Mr Williamson we love you...
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ok so today was awesome...
Becca came to school today... fucking awesome! we chilled and didnt do work all day... heard about two fights.,.. and saw another 2!! AHHH NATICK HIGH... a normal fucking day there! i love my school!! thats all i gotta say!
OHHHH and Semi is TOMORROW!!!
<3 NikkiE
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krazykelc1
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2004 10 June :: 6.01pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Juvenile-Slow Motion
welcome back :-)
I got my Baby back today <3 aw I missed it
I'm never letting it out of my site again.. I will guard it with my life haha
R.I.P. Marilyn,Marley & Cici
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krazykelc1
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2004 8 June :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: KRS-ONE -how bad do you want it
ITS SO WARM!!
wow it's like 90 degrees out. it's rediculously hott... I need some yummy ice pops!
well today I came home right after school cause my fajah is a fagget and made my mom pick me up. and he stole my cellphone saturday night cause of what happened..
thats gay, but I don't really care cuz I get it back Friday neway..
[inTOXICation is MajkL]
how bad do you want it
how bad do you see it
how bad do you hear it
how bad do you believe you can be it
if you doubt then your out
if you believe you can achieve
KRS-ONE
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xonixieox
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2004 7 June :: 4.54pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: the reason
people are fucking gay
someone just tell me why people are always so gay?
did god make certain people like that so other people would want to kill themselves or something! well whatever went wrong....
people need to keep their mouths shut and stop lieing... they treat "popular" people good... and have no respect for their own friends.. their best friends in fact! but whatever becasue people can do whatever the fuck they want... but i wont be involved with them anymore! from now on im not trusting anyone until i get to know them... until i really get to know them becasue i guess im just bad at reading people becasue there are only a few people who i really love and i can really call my friends!
~i talked to meg and the whole group is pretty much back together again... yay!
*Lizzy i love you soooooo much!
:'(
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krazykelc1
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2004 6 June :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: guilty
:: Music: Juvenile-Slow Motion
5 days....
this week is the last week of actual classes...
and our first Final is Friday.
kind of excited but also worried about what this summer is going to turn out to be..
lots of fights between friends lately... I dunno how they started. But there dumb and need to end.. or else this summer will suck-with noone to blame but ourselves.
It's obvious our friendships weren't meant to end now.. not today, not tomorrow. We need to think and realize some things first.
The Semi... probably our last formal dance between now and Prom.. is this Friday. I'm not going to it just to spend the night ignoring one of my best friends.. whether she likes it or not. I made you buy your ticket-- and me, you and kate are going to go and have fun.
Sorry. A word seldom heard from a stubborn fuck
I love you Emily.. probly only another month or so until court. In some twisted way I can't wait... I miss you.
Well Roseanne is on in 10 minutes, I'm out. <3
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silentcriez
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2004 6 June :: 7.35pm
life doesnt have to be so hard...
we only succeed if we believe we can..
and we only lose what we dont think we ever had...
3 dimensions of reality
pictures inked in black and white
a frozen bit of heaven
on which we will look back on forever
will i make it to your memories
look back on me from time to time?
will my smile stay sewn into your soul
and stay with you forever?
will this bond burn on eternally
did you mean everything you once said
dont regret, rethink, or edit your past
becauyse theres a reason for each tear
each smile, each kiss
theres a reason for each fight
each friend
and each foe
your life doesnt come with whiteout
you cant erase the choices once made
you only live once
love once, and grow once
take chances
never hold grudges
live, and learn
and forgive but never forget...
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silentcriez
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2004 6 June :: 5.02pm
this may never start
we could fall apart
and not be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can now be your memory
so get back back
back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back
back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this may never start
i'll tear us apart
could now be your enemy
losing half our years
waiting for you here
i'd be your anything
so get back back
back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back
back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this could never start
tearing out my heart
and id be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings disappear
can not be your memory
so get back back
back to where we lasted
just like i imagine
i could never feel this way
so get back back
back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this could never start
we could fall apart
and id be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can not be your memory
can not be your memory
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cocopuff
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2004 6 June :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: none talkin to my Jessica on the fone!!
wow
Well today was fucked up... i found out that one of my best friends was never relly my friend at all and just pretended to b my friend cuz i was friends with manda.... but u knwo thats ok i was sad at fist but now im fine with it i just happy to know the truth now... :-) and im not gonan let that cunt bother me cuz she mad it obv that thats all she is a CUNT!!:-D so i hope she has a good life lieign to ppl and beign a cunt and never going ne where with her life cuz shes to much of a bitch to ppl... lol but its all ok cuz i have soo many friends that really do care about me and shes nto loss....
Well yesterday was crazy!!!! lol me and nikkie and jess and Kaite, got chased by this fuckign crazy kid yellign at us to fuck him and and suck his dick... lol and we were scaired cuz 2 min before he was playign with a knife soo we thotutgh he still had it and jess and i got stuck in a prickerbush and got all wet
it was horrable but funny!!!
Well i have to clean my room today.. and i have homeowork soo im off...
Lizzy
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krazykelc1
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2004 6 June :: 12.59pm
:: Music: Smooth Criminal
EmmyD89: kelsey i love you so much...i cant believe this all happend last nite.. but im not allowed to see you and meaghan anymore
:'(what the hell am I gonna do
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xonixieox
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2004 6 June :: 11.50am
| N | Nutty | | I | Ideal | | K | Keen | | K | Kinky | | I | Irresistible | | E | Exciting |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com
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krazykelc1
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2004 5 June :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: booked
:: Music: Jadakiss ft.Anthony Hamilton-Why
I am a fuck up
I just got back from the Security Office of Filene's....
I've never fucked up so bad in my life....
everything I've ever done I've gotten away with somehow and finally tonight some people gave me what I deserve.. a nice record of shoplifting and posession of stolen material or w/e the fuck they call it.
Not only did I fuck up my own situation but I got my friends booked too... and their gonna have it 2x as bad with their parents then I am.. and thats even worse.
so please don't ruin your life by making dumb mistakes like I did, that will stay with you FOREVER.... a permanent record stays with u ur whole life..
if ur gonna do drugs... be my guest but dont fucking get caught
if ur gonna steal... dont be a dumbass about it and dont think JUST cause you get away with it once that you NEVER will, cause thats not the case
Auto response from x we4k inside:
From now on im gunna try to do better. No more drugs, no more lying, no more stealing, no more being depressed over nothing..im gunna fix my life...i dont wanna be known as a fuck up.
I second that
So now I'm desperately waiting to here from Emily.... thats probly my biggest concern right now :-\ I can't imagine losing one of the best friends I've ever had because of one of the stupidest mistakes I've ever made..
and meg.. when I think about it you are the only one who has stood by me through everything.. and never walked away when I needed you most. Thank you so much for just simply being there... I know I can always count on you to be by my side
I love you guys, always
laughh it up and leave a comment >>>
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xonixieox
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2004 5 June :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: sketched out!
:: Music: none`
fuckin scary shit!
wow tonight was fucking scary as fucking hell! lol... katie man you can fucking run fast!
being chased by a kid with a knife and a saw isnt fun... right girls!
omg what a fucking physco fucking child! holy shit!
lol i love jessie lizzy and katie! you girls are fucking awesome!
well yesterday wasnt that fun becasue meg decided to go with ryan and lie to us about cleaning her room... im guess im just dissapointed becasue i dunno i just didnt think meg would do a thing like that! i yhink i should learn to look deeper into people before i get like attached to a friend... i should stop trusting everyone until ii get proven wrong! i guess im just really upsrt becasue she dissapointed me!
well the rest of the night was fun! me katie and lizzy slept over mandas!
Amanda fucking maltz! i just want you to know that whenever you need a shoulder to cry on or an open ear to vent into im here! if it something totally huge or just something simple like a boy, im always here for you no matter wehat and i will always love you no matter what! you could never dissapoint me .. ever.. (i mean remember what happened on 420?) i just hope you always remember that im here even when your 95 years old and your husband dies and im in a wheel chair and cant see anymore... i will still have a shoulder for you to cry on! that is how much i love you!
^that goes for all of you guys! you know who you are!
<3 NikkiE
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krazykelc1
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2004 5 June :: 1.05pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Brandy ft. Kanye West-Talk about our love
LOOK ITS MEG!!!
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xonixieox
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2004 2 June :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: angry
ok so yesterday after i wrote that i was happy everything else went down hill! my parents shut my phone off becasue they are gay and my mom brought me to the hospital today and threatened to put me into the 10 day unit thingy! i refused to go and threatened to leave if she went in to get someone... then she triend to bring me to the police station.. and my mom was like shell chance to my dad on the fone and he was screaming at her like she will never fucking change shes a bitch and i wish she wasnt mine.. when shes 17 shes getting the fuck out of here .. i cant take two more years! i fucking hate him so much becasue he flips over nothing and things that arent his buisness! i just weent into my room and started crying.. and he calls me a fucdking baby! now im crying writing this entry and i dont know why... why should i cry over a worthless piece of shit! ahhhhhhhhhhh
ok so now my mother just came up to me and tried to give me a kiss and i pulled my head away and she was like ohhhh shes starting again! what the fuck!
i dont even know who i can vent to.. i cant even put everything that happens in here becaue people... even my friends who read this wouldnt understand.. and i dont even thin most would care... i know i can tell like lizzy and manda and they will listen.. but i dont think they would really care... they have other things going on in their lives too! sometimes i just wish that i didnt exist! i hate my life and i just wish there was someone i could talk to that would just sit there... listen to me.. comfort me... and eat a bigggggggg bowl of ice cream with... but im not sure if i have anyone like that! im ust not sure
NikkiE
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2004 2 June :: 4.39pm
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Ja Rule-Caught Up
Summerr is right around the corner!
the four day week is half over... then only 5 more days of actual school.. & finals the next week, then we're out!
I dont know if I should be excited or not...
I love the summer but I also hate leaving everyone at the end of the year..
and I know this summer won't be the same as last summer, no doubt about it.
Last June around this time, I probably found myself in the same position as I'm in now. Thinking to myself, what the hell am I gonna do this summer without them? well... by the time August of last summer came - the them's were replaced by a new group of people.. who I became very close with in that one month and changed with a WHOLE lot. I wouldn't be what I am right now if I hadn't met them... Everyone knows how I was in 8th grade, and should see the difference between now and then... and if you were wondering how it happened-its all because of them.
And the one person who started it all doesn't even talk to me anymore..
When I met her last summer and became really close with her I left alot of my old friends out of my life for a while.. and thats exactly what she did to me and Lizzy and Amanda sometime at the begining of the year.. and I'm not writing this to make her feel bad or guilty in any way.. because I know growing and changing and meeting new people is all a part of high school.. I just hope she knows how much her friends cared about her and missed her.
This summer is going to be real hard for me at first... and I think I can speak for my friends as well when I say that. We will make something good out of it though-we always have. It's just going to be a whole lot different.
As long as we don't spend our vacation reminiscing in the past.. we should be able to make new memories with new people. Although it may be hard to look into a new future when you are desperately trying to hold onto the past... people DO come and go, just hold onto the ones who are with you now-they are all you will need to make it through. And remember there is always a reason why some people dont make it to your future.
- SuMmEr '04 -
I love you Elizabeth Amanda & Meaghan
MajkL* & everyone else.
HappY 15tH BirthdaY KateliN!!
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