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2004 25 January :: 2.25pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: kiss me fool - fefe dobson
*it hurts me to know that this time in our lives will so soon be in teh past*
yes well ive been having a pretty odd day.. and i feel really lonely.. btu hey ive been pretty inspired lately to write soo heres some more poetry cuz im just that cool :-)
this world is full of anger
cruel intentions, silver lies
lacking what is needed
sorrowing goodbyes
and ills till stand here waiting
alone and ill be cold
these chills will comfort tears which stream
this pain never b4 told
i may just be insane
i dont knwo what i feel
but this voice that hides within me
no longer can conceal
the sky blackening above me
a storm of red and whites
just teh taste of ur skin
will get me through the night
your like a drug that paralyzes me
inaudible, unspeakable i breath you
i gotta break free from your grasps
gotta stand on my own without you
i cant get addicted
ill melt for you
i hate to speak these words
but they ring true
and the pain in my eyes
should show you all you need
maybe youll be ahppy
if off of saddness you feed
take all of me in one kiss
like a withered flower i will blossom then die
silky petals falling to the ground
i guess its last call.. i guess its goodbye
and another
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the sky is darkening
and the sun hides behind clouds
you begin to undress me
lay me down
kissing evey inch of my body
i become hot and insatiable
feinding for more
i take you in, with deep breaths
like a drug you overwhelm me
in in your strong arms i am held
protected
you colide with me and i am vulnerable
so innocently you touch me
you begin toi sweat
while kissing me..
and touching me
so pefectly we fit together
and you inside me
it feels so right
liek nothing can be wrong
and when i look into your eyes
i see reflections of me
and i feel safe
lying here sweat dripping down peach skin
i am stripped of all superficial
this is me
naked
vulnerable
penetrable
take me gently
haha hope you like :-)
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2004 25 January :: 2.12pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: none-Watching a Movie
La De Da
Well i havent written in this in a while lol but theres nothin new... lol i neeed to redo this thing its so ugly... lol i got a new icon tho!!! lol well im gonna go finish watchin my movie
<3 Lizzy
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silentcriez
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2004 24 January :: 2.01pm
"I've written you this last letter because I know I'll never have you. I stood in the corner and watched you go off with her. She's so beneath you. You probably did it just to hurt me. Well it worked, you hurt me, and now there's nothing else I can do. There won't be any more notes. It's last call."
- rules of attraction
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2004 25 January :: 8.32am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: tv!
tired
im sooooooooooooo fuckin tired.... Trix came over last nite nd we hung out! then when we finally went to sllep she had a "dream" she slipped on ice.... and she almost fell off my couch! it was truly the funniest thing i have ever seen in my life... then we woke up at like 8 so she could go to church... aaaaarrrrrrrrggggggggggg
<3 prostitute!
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2004 24 January :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: hahaha
:: Music: haha
hahaha
take it if oyu love me and make it a comment thigy!!!
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? [because of course u’ll tell me in a survey, right? lol]
16. Do you think I could kill someone? [Hehe]
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
21. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
22. What song reminds you of me?
23. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
24. Do you consider me a good friend?
25. What makes me, me?
26. Would you make a move on me?[;-)]
<3 prostitute!!!
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2004 24 January :: 7.17pm
:: Mood: depressed
You're a Pie! No one messes with you! You are hot
and steamy and keep the good stuff inside.
Find out what dessert you are! Click here! ( Girls Only )
brought to you by Quizilla
hahaha
<3 prostitute!
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2004 24 January :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: blah
ah!
ok..... so on like thursday was the most amazing day!! it was sooooo funny! Me, Jan Jan, Colleen, Ej, and Nessa walked on the ice over to the island at Dug pond!! janet thought she heard the ice crack so we ran as fast as we could!! then we "chilled" there for a lil!! then me and janet walked back(more like ran) and my gram brought us Mc Donalds!! it was yummy! then nessa called us to go back.... and cliff, Nick, Moustafa, And Martin went too! then we "chilled" some more!!Janet fell down the fuckin hill.... it was hilarious! then we hung out until practice... and we found out nessa might stay for a couple more weeks!! YAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!! im so fuckin happy!!
That was the best day EVER!!!!!!!
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2004 24 January :: 11.21am
:: Mood: alil hungover
:: Music: endo
wow, last night was crazy!
haha last night was fuckin insane. well, i called greg and he said he was gonna come over so i was like 'aright, cool.' so i was already with amy (i had my dance show before and it turned out good.) anywayy greg comes over with his friend armad or something like that and then he was like 'imma go see jake' so i was like 'aright' so, im waiting for greg and he doesn't come back to my house AT ALL so whatever. amy called brian and kurtz and they came over and brought vodka. amy had about 2 shots and i had 6 woww <3. i was soo fucked up and then whatever and whatever happend and i dont feel like explaining the rest of the night, lol. well, its 11:21 on saturday and im just a tad hungover but not really. oh well. my mom took amy to the hospital :-/
im going to my moms boyfriends ex wifes house today for kimberly (my moms boyfriends daughters) birthday party. that should be fun, i'll update later<3
od<3
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silentcriez
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2004 23 January :: 8.28pm
words wont heal the pain that throbs though these veins
sorrys wont right the things that went wrong
time cant always heal these wounds
if you want i can lie to you
tell you everything will be fine
as they say, ignorance is bliss
but its beyond that now, ambivilance...oblivious
the suns yellow rays wasted on you
hearts broken for a blackhearted fool
obdurance is your aura.. pain gets you off
and when you hold me in your arms,
the pain seems temporary..
but when appart, i see you for the coward you are
for the love that is wasted
for the mistake of a man
i see it all in a blink..in one memory of your face
but when i see you.. i melt
into everything your not
the visions of what i want you to be..
i am nothing, to some1 who is everything to me
everything we were... a memory...
in you i am truly happy, ironically you are what brings me down
amazement fills my body when you speak to me
so easily, words roll of your tounge and fall blissfulling in my ears
and i soak up everything you say
every letter.. every pitch
every lie...
what pains me, cures me..
what loves me, hates me..
living in a one sided world.. sheltered by humor
theres always something in the way
blocking me from you..
is it fate.. is this passion... is this lust.. do i feel love?
maybe time wont heal all wounds..but only time can tell
but when i see you.. i melt
into everything your not
another poem :-)
i wrote it for kelsey.. my newyears resolution (Well one of them) was to learn a different writing style, so im trying to take other peoples emotions and write about them, like interpret how they feel
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2004 23 January :: 6.31am
:: Mood: grateful
:: Music: sevendust
last day of school before midterms
well, you'll see that my mood says grateful and gd am i grateful that today is friday and all i come in for is midterms and then maybe the monday after that of east rockaway. i've had an eventful 8 1/2 months in this school and im sooo freaking happy to get out !! oy.
my midterm schedule goes like this:
monday 26th* 8:00-11:30..english (it's only supposed to be from 9:30-11:30 but since i missed so many days of english she's making me come in early so i can finish the rest of the test (ohh fun stuff biznitch)
tuesday 27th* 9:30-11:30..global (essays)?
wednesday 28th* 9:30-11:30..earth science with all my 9th grade retarded friends...hmm
12:30-2:00...math AE2 midterm :(
friday 29th* NOTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
saturday&sunday-probably nothing cuz im grounded and then monday idk if i have to go to school because its the last school day before i go to pace...alil excited alil nervous!!!
...timothy odonnell is my love <3...
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2004 22 January :: 8.42pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: sweet child of mine- guns and roses
aright...
ok well today was an OH SO FUN day. i went into school and was alittle late but whatever and as the day went on it was just a normal day in east rockaway. 9th period i get out of school and i thought that shawn was picking me up so i called him and ask him where he was - and he was all the way out east. i didnt have any money for a taxi so i walked home. it wasn't that bad, oh well. soooo i get home and just chill around the house. my mom comes home and i some chicken and whatever. around like 5:30/5:45 i got really tired so i layed down and went to sleep. its 8:45 now and i just woke up about 10 minutes ago. my mom was afraid if i went to sleep so early i'd never be able to go in at 10:30 but im madd tired so i will be able to. aright so everything is going good with the plans that im making with jenn,scutch,vix, jaymes,josh,tim,and lauryn and marisa. i got a phone call from chris today. he called my phone and then just stayed on the phone like he had no clue he was calling anyone - haha. well, i dont know what else to say. tomorrow is friday which means i only have friday,mon-fri of midterms,and monday i might have to go in but im not sure. well, im almost done with erock- you will be missed... NOT!!!. well, tomorrow is my dance show and im alittle nervous cause im kinda shakey on the dance. ohhhh welll :-/
timothy.odonnell.i.heart.you.very.muchly.<3
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silentcriez
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2004 22 January :: 3.08pm
:: Mood: longing..
:: Music: i dont wanna know - mario
"pride is at the base of all mistakes"
midterms are fucking crappy
i cant stand this.. although it is refreshing to get out at 11! :-)
im not sure what to write about.. well liek teh new journal layout? hehe i enjoy it.
well... my tpoung hurts i burnt it..
im gonna go start writign my history essay!
- manda
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2004 22 January :: 7.12am
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
this is stupid...
im going into school at 7:20 to take a test that im gonna fail, is that stupid or is that stupid? i dont have my books because i lost my backpack so yeah that sucks. today i have to start taking my english midterm, i missed 3 days of it - oh well, i dont give a fuck.
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2004 21 January :: 9.53pm
this is the force that binds me
this is the water which fails to quench my thirst
this is the heart thats unopened
this is the girl who wants more
tainted validation, the ill repute of lies
unsaught after, un needed
defeated misstreated, hes all ive ever needed
when asked a simple question teh answer wont role off my tounge
the baracades of failure block them one by one
inhibitions all forgotten when thoughts of you remain
voices over sound waves melting in my ears
and in this curious passion, there stands a confused girl
left to linger lonely..open up, let me in
this confusion swirls within me,
a twighlight of red and gold,
afriad that i may faulter, must hide my many flaws
impress you
undress you
sink beneath my skin
unveiling all thats hidden each emotion lies within
completing all that you are and all that i can be
release all of my tension, finally set me free
and take me in the moonlight
sweat dripping down peach skin
the scent of this encounter the salt of my oblvion
as you enter sweetly, caressing every part of me
intentions are diverted, you love satanically
kissing these pink lips, fire burning me with lust
sexual empathy reflecting only trust
as lights are fading dimmmer with the setting of the sun
control my conscious being, be the only one
as we hold eachother closer with each second passing by
this desire fills all emotion, encompessed in one monent in time
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2004 21 January :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: content
school is fucking bullshit
ugh, i hate school.. today my mom woke me up at 6:30 and was like 'get up' and blah blah blah i was like what are you crazy, im not getting up this early sooo i went back to sleep and then at 7:30 (cuz my alarm didn't go off) my mom wakes me up and i couldn't get ready for school so i just decided to go in late. i went in for 6th-9th and a lot of shit happend in school. i really cant stand all this crap but whatever i have a week and then im gone, finally. well, the rest of the day was fine i took a taxi home and shit and when my mom came home she took me to green acres to get something to wear for dance. who wants to come to my show friday at 4:30???
-timothy.i.heart.you.mucho.<3
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