silentcriez
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2003 8 October :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Red Hott Chili Peppers-"Scare Tissue"
HELLO!
Hey Manda Bear!
Its Hollis, hope ya don't mind I hacked onto your journal to write you a little note. Thanks a bunch that you are making my journal look all pretty.
Um, yeah I had fun hanigng with you today, also I can't wait till this weekend with the new HOT TUB!
Its going to be some good, fun memories!
Well I guess I'll see you tomorrow in that little shit hole we know as "School"...
Love ya lots! you god damn waffle buns!
~Baby Hollis :o)
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silentcriez
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2003 7 October :: 7.04pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: hollowpoint - ABK
just another note.. lol
hmmm yea sounds about right.. except i hope to be heard of...
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silentcriez
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2003 7 October :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: you make me wanna - usher
help? anybody?
well hello there...
just re-read last nights entry ahhh kinda deppressing sorry if it put ya ina downer of some shit lol
well i just did soem major cleanign in my room FUCK YEAH ITS ACTUALLY NEAT
im so proud of myself lol... well yea i ahve abaddd headache
you knwo what i realized? that i am totally and completely jealous of people with real relationships.
like holly look at her shes beautiful, funny, fun to be around, exuberant shes got everything going for her.. plus an awesome boyfriend, u would give anything to have what seh has... i mean honestly look at my relationships...i honestly cant say one of them has been ugly :-[ that makes me feel sooo shallow, dammit. well its true... i need to stop this and date some1 for the relationship some1 i know will care about me...no jealousy, no strings, no nothing just a barenaked relationship.
yeah otehr things have been on my mind lately.. like meg n kelsey.. that whole ordeal has been upsetting me...
i mean i love meg, honestly and i love kelsey too but it just upsets me how kelsey can be totally against her and say SOO much shit like "I HATE HER" etc and then they go and get to be best friends again and hang all over eachother.. i mean of course im happy for them and i want my friends to be friends again liek we all were before but its sooo hipocritical and it upsets me how meg just takes her back everytime...i mean everyone says things about every1 when they piss eachotehr off occasionally but i dont use the word hate.. becuz i know i dont mean it...
hmm well thats all thats basically on my mind.. aside from the fact that i deffinitly have a thing for older guys.... such as, JOHN MORRIS.
LIZZY I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM AND ME!!!!
- manda
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2003 6 October :: 11.18pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: desperately wanting
I remember runnign through the wet grass...
Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world
'Cause you don't love me anymore?
Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love.
I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why ev'rything's the same as it was.
I can't understand, no I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does
Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye
Don't they know know it's the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye.
sometimes i feel like im gonan be alone forever.. like for everyone theres some1 special right? i mean io cant say that i have never felt loved or had a good relationship but i mean everythign started going downhill for me last year... and i havwent been bale to bring it back on up...
im feeling a little better, thanks to hector, love ya babe u made me smile and im,mma try to get myself back up...
Hector198: just let go of everything
Hector198: just let shit happen
Hector198: thing will get better
Hector198: if u stress it it just gonna look like it wont
i knwo what you mean im going to try but its so hard to let go and wait.. becuz waiting makes you wonder if its ever gonan happen at all.. and then when you wait you wonder more and then when it doesnt happen teh pain is even worse becuz u wanted it so bad.. and waited so long for it .....
**would you choose water over wine?**
well im so tired right now btu i cant go to sleep.. dont wanna really...
my eyes feel liek they are gettign heavier and heavier...
my heart feels obdurate i dont feel open to any1.. maybe becuz no1 is opening to me... im sick of myself im sick of my feelings im sick of my reflection in the mirror, becuz what ui see disgusts me.. honestly disgusts me and i dont know how i keep going through the days the way i do so fucking bruised... so torn.. so ugly... so ajacent... so nostalgic.. and so fucking obtrusive...
i dont know what i am doing here anymore.. i mean i just get put down by people and fucking fight and get yelled at by my dad.. i mean god damn what is the joy in this life of mine.. just now im stalled becuz my dads yelling at me.. im cry8ing now god damn i just want everything to go back to teh way it wwas.. why and forced to be put through this...
well.. i cant stay up anymore.. teh tiredness and the tears arent a really great mix...gonnna go steep in teh trash heep i call a room.. its the only thing thats safe to me right now.. superficial, cluttered, faux, terrible, scented, unenthusiastic, dusty.. just the way i like it.. just the way my life is... just the way...
Are you lost?
Do you find life turning out
Not quite the way you planned?
Come around stay awhile
That's OK That's Alright
Couldn't get to sleep so talk about it.
Let's talk about it right now.
Here it comes on my head again
I guess I'm born to be the Long lost friend.
Long lost friend
Are you cold?
Is there no place better, safer, friendlier than this?
Call me up, I'm alone.
That's ok, That's Alright
Rather it be me than go without it.
So don't think about it right now.
Here it comes on my head again
I guess I'm born to be theLong lost friend
Long lost friend
I've given ballast
Held you up when you were failing down
What happens when I'm not around?
Friend?
Friend?
Friend?
Long lost friend
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SilentCriez
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2003 6 October :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: redneck hoe - ICP
getting started
um yeah hey im testign this shit out
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