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Ice Works so a while after tony and them had left, felicia calls me and asks if id like to go to ice works with her, debbie and chelsea. so i agree coz going out with them would be hall of a lot better than sittin in my room crying.. so i agree and we go and chill at chels house for about an hour.. then we go. all night we were lookin at hot guys and tryin to hook each other up with one. well me and debbie go in at one point and theres this group of cute guys and they're like "HES DESPERATE!" pointing to a cute guy in a greenish BAM hoodie. So debbie points to me and is like "She is too!" so we go back outside and debbie and chelsea go talk to him to get a number or sumthin and stuff.. and they come back out and they're like "he said he dont have a number or hed give it to you" and i was like "well... ...i have a number?" but then she goes "well.. he thinks your cute.. and we're all gonna come back next week and your gonna ditch us to hang out with him" so ya kno.. im like "Ok." so we HAVE to go back next saturday so we can see him. he knows my name, i know his name.. and thats about it. but yea.. that was a WHOLE lot better than sittin in my room and crying.
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tony ok.. first off i want to point out the icon.. yes we FINALLY finished it!!! lol.. took us long enuff but we got it.. and last night i gave Lena the software to make icons and stuff so now she can do stuff that i can do! lol ok.. so yea.. tony.. i go down to the parade today.. and who do i run into but missy, theresa and patty (and jordan!! lil cutie-pie) so im chillen with them and everything right.. and we end up goin over sams house and theresa gets tony, and im around by the steps and shes like "tony, i got a surprise for you" so she bring him around and i just give this smile.. and hes like "who is that?" im like "u dont remember?" and he goes "stef? oh my god, i didnt even recognize you" and then he gave me a hug.. and then we walk over to where patty, jordan, missy, miranda and jen are.. and im lagging behind a bit.. and i just get this feeling.. like im about to cry.. and inside im like, screaming at myself like "NO YOU CANT CRY!" but for some reason now, it might have been a good idea to cry.. like i am now.. so then he goes back to sams and we all go to the park. im tlkin to theresa and i talk about tony and she talks about her guy and stuff.. i tell her bout the poems i wrote for tony.. and just all this stuff.. then we decide that they have to get goin, so we walk back up and get tony and walk to the car. they give me a ride home and i let them read the article about Rob and look at my pictures. then they JUST left about 5 minutes fromt he time up there.. so i came in here.. and i just broke down.. and im still crying.. i wish someone (specifically tony) would come and stop this.. i didnt even give him a hug before they left coz i knew if i did id start crying right there in his arms, and i didnt want to make him feel awkward, like, if i started crying.. so i just went in, and watched him thru my window as they drove off.. and OMG he grew his hair out some.. omFg hes even fucking hotter now!!.. i want him back soo bad.. ='(
im about to give up on damn subjects.. ok.. so yesterday i like.. avoid Kevin all day.. i was at lunch, and i went over to kellys table and i asked her somethin, then the person across from her was talkin to the teacher at the door behind me, so i turn around and look at who the techer is and at the SAME moment, Kevin walks thru the door, and i think he saw me and i just turned around and rolled my eyes.. then he comes through the cafeteria and this time im sittin next to shannon, kelly yells down the table "STEF!" and im like "huh?" and she nods her head towards kevin, and im like "kelly.. i.. dont.. care.." so its kinda weird.. how today is like his last day at school a stuff.. well.. techinically, coz for prom, u can leave at 9:30.. 9:30!!! thats fuckin insane! but i guess if i dont avoid him tomorrow on my way to third period, ill see him for the last time in school tomorrow.. then its his prom.. and thats it. and my mom made my fuckin dentist appoint on the day of graduation.. and i was hoping to go, if they dont have the whole "ticket" thing like the middle school has. ok, so after school.. like later.. Lena came over.. so we sat on my front steps for a little bit then decided to go out and take pictures.. we went to the park and we took pics with the message "THEY MADE ME DO IT" and we wrote it in the dirt and stuff.. and i told her i'd upload them today.. but i cant, coz i have to go to my grandmoms.. i even brought my camera and its USB cable, but i forgot that it need the software for it to run.. coz i tried uploading them on the schools ocmputer, and nothing happened. so i wont be able to work on the icon untill friday.. ..i just looked over at the TV in the class room.. and whoever this lady is.. her shoes are really cute. lol. but w/e.. i guess ill shut up now.. and no ones online.. not even jake =( ... and it should be 1:45pm where Jay is.. so he should be on.. unless hes still got school.. but idk.. =(.. i want to talk to SOMEONE and not JUST the boy sittin next to me in this damn classroom.. ghaa.. later -x-
shit dude, i look like AND feel like shit today.. my legs hurt form doin the mile AND walking home.. my hair is fucked up today, i just pulled the little bit of it into a ponytail.. and this out fit not only makes me look fat but i also feel fat in it.. blah.. today i can tell, is just one of those days i cant forget about.. ehh.. i guess ill get going..
theme thinkin of changing the theme.. i <3 nightmare and all.. but i get bored QUICKLY with themes.. so yea.. post comments saying "yes" for theme change, or "no" for theme change.. and if you post yes.. also tell me what u think the theme should be.. i have SOME ideas.. but i wanna see what the readers thing..
...too.. hott... omfg, its worse than a fuckin sauna outside!! ghaa... water.. *gets water* ... *drinks water* ahh.. thats better.. ok, so yea, was today "torture stef day or what?" i mean c'mon now.. 2nd period, i show amanda my webpro that has friends pics, and the bottom says "if ur not pictured and want to be, find me, beat me to the ground and demand to have a picture put in.. or just im me" so she turns to me and jokingly punches me about 10-20 times.. kinda hurt coz i wasnt ready for it.. then at lunch, 4th period, Juli came over for her binder and punched me right in that little bone in my shoulder which also kinda hurt coz shes never easy when she hits you.. then she brought the binder back and bashed me over the head with it, hitting me somewhere on my head with the metal thingy.. it felt like it was bleeding but i guess not, but it still hurts like a bitch, espcially when i poke it.. ..ow.. i gotta stop poking it.. ..ow.. ok im done. then what else... o0o0o yea, 6th period, in gym.. we had the mile today.. and omfg i felt like i was gonna throw up and pass out at the same time.. and Ms. Jean wouldnt let me go to the fucking nurse, she said go inside for a minutes and get a drink, so i went inside and sat down, no drink. As soon as i hit that floor, the room started spinning, then i knew if i stood up, id pass out. so then Bobby Jo comes running in.. "MS. JEAN SAYS IF Y'ALL DONT COME BACK UP IN 30 SECONDS, UR ALL GETTING WRITTEN UP!!" so i had to force myself up without passing out.. or throwing up.. then in 8th period Juli found this yellow thingy and put it on my head like a mohawk.. and i was like "Hey Sean, look at my mohawk!" so he walks over and goes to flip it off like you would a hat.. and his fingernail got caught on my forhead, ripping some skin off.. but then after all of that i went up to the Sev and blew it all off by playin a few games of Hack and splitin a slurpie and some pizza with Josh (("cool teeth" Josh.. Josh F. ..not ass hole Josh Williams..)) then we all left and i had to fuckin walk home.. and it was fuckin hot as hell.. or worse! and some fugly like mexican-ish, 17 yr old yelled out the window "HEY BABY!!" and i just gave him the finger.. like wtf, ya kno? but whatever.. he can go home and fuck himself.. well i think im gonna go.. i finally cooled off so i think im gonna call briana to get more cds after i copy this last one..
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... yea, i got more music yesterday from Briana.. she brought over Eve 6 and No Doubt.. and i got my patch yesterday! from eBay!! woo! lol.. its fuckin huge, 4 inches by 4 inches! lol yea, zach was just on the computer next to me and it wasnt working.. he was like "stef, is ur computer right there working" and i was like "yea.." i mean, c'mon, im on it and typing on a webpage, yea i think its working.. lol but yea, d'ana said i should be getting my cds in a couple days.. I CANT WAIT.. i cant wait to get my sugarcult from michelle.. she needs to get her damn cd burner.. ghaa.. -x-
this weekend.. so this weekend (well.. saturday) was fun.. friday i did nothing.. well, anthony and briana came over right after school and i played mommy.. lol i made me and anthony grilled cheeses and bree just ate chips. on saturday, me and Kevin went to the mall around three.. we chilled there for a couple hours and when we decided to go home, no one answered at his house or his moms cell phone so we decided to go to spencers. There was this huge black and red butterfly chair there and he sat down in it. Hes like "omg, this is so comfortable.. here, sit" so he gets up and i sit down and im like "duuude, ur gonna have to buy this chair to get me out of it" so we chilled in there for about a half an hour, listening to music, talking with each other and then we also talked to the dude who worked there.. there was some sort of Cingular thing going on and there was a concert with JoJo and.. freeway? but yea, we tried to stay away and the dude in spencers was like "yea, see, ur not bothering anyone or anything so it's cool that ur here" or sumthin like that.. so then we decided to go again so we went and called, and while we waited for his mom, steve and jenni came.. steve kept giving me this damn look.. i dont care if he hates me, he didnt have to stare at me like that!... weirdo... so his mom came and got us and we stopped up at the chinese place so he could get something to eat, then we went back to my house around 7 and we watched.. well.. SE7EN.. lol with Brad Pitt (<3) in it. lol.. very good movie.. so then i asked if he'd come to my youth group with me.. and he said yea, but then never showed... maybe today ill find out what happened.. well im gonna go.. -x-
we made the news again.. sorta.. this is from yesterdays paper.. Editorial: Chi administration’s actions questionable 05/20/2004 A long, long time ago, before the current crop of high school students was even born, students in an Iowa high school wore black armbands to class to protest U.S. involvement in the Vietnam War. The school administration didn’t approve of the demonstration. So, it did what administrations do -- it suspended the armband wearers. But, activists that they were, the young protesters didn’t accept the ruling quietly. As a matter of fact, they fought it all the way to the U.S. Supreme Court. In 1969, in Tinker v. Des Moines Community School District, the court ruled school officials could only limit student free expression when the expression would cause a material and substantial disruption of school activities or an invasion of the rights of others. Advertisement All of which leads us to Chichester High School in the year 2004. It seems the administrators of the district made two questionable calls. First, it changed school rules in midstream. It at least appears that way because the school handbook, accessed by anyone who calls up the school district Web site, states very clearly that the minimum grade- point average to participate in sports and extra-curricular activities is 2.0 But, when an eleventh-grader wanted to run for vice president of his senior class, he was told his 2.2 GPA wasn’t sufficient and his name could not be on the ballot. Sometime, somewhere the administration had raised the required GPA to 2.5. Since the young man could not find that new requirement written anywhere, he scattered posters throughout the school proclaiming his write-in candidacy. School officials confiscated the posters and suspended the would-be class officer. But it didn’t end there. Six students who disagreed with the school’s action, six students who supported the candidacy of the suspended student, wore their feelings on their shirts the next day. And that illustration of freedom of expression got those six students the right to join their favored candidate in suspension. What is the lesson those students learned? That those in charge can bar you from expressing your feelings? Seems so. And it seems in direct conflict with the Tinker ruling of long ago, unless we assume the six students who wore their feelings on their shirts caused a material and substantial disruption of school activities. Or did the suspensions do that? One idea that gives this nation its place of honor on the world stage is the freedom it grants its citizens. And the First Amendment our founding fathers formed promised no law would abridge freedom of speech. It’s one of the great privileges of U.S. citizenship that each one of us is free to express our own point of view -- even if that view is offensive to some who hear it. The action of the Chichester administration seems to cross the line between maintaining a proper discipline and plain, old-fashioned censorship. This is a slippery slope we do not want to go down. In the 1969 words of former U.S. Supreme Court Justice Abe Fortas, "..fear or apprehension ..is not enough to overcome the right to freedom of expression. Any departure from absolute regimentation may cause trouble. Any variation from the majority’s opinion may inspire fear. ..But our Constitution says we must take this risk." High school students should be allowed to peacefully express their opinions. If we take that right away from them, well, what group will have that right revoked next?
dead journal allright.. i HAVE decided to use my other journals.. this journal will be for day to day stuff.., my live journal will be for surveys and shit, and my dead journal will be my depressed journal where i bitch about life and everything else that sucks.. go visit.. live journal name: p0ke_me dead journal name: cut_bleed_die
Shrek 2 so yea, me and heather saw Shrek 2 last night (opening night) and it was awesome.. actually better than the first one.. and we saw a preview for the sponge bob movie.. and i HATE spongebob, but shes gonna drag me there to see it with her anyway.. grr her.. but b4 we went there, we went to some meeting thingy (i dont feel like explaining it) but there was this REALLY hot guy there.. his name was.. Mike(?) but he was really hot! lol i cant wait till the next meeting! heh =) iight.. i think im gonna go.. i think i got homework to do.. grr >_<
WE MADE THE FUCKING NEWS!!! w00t A student election at Chichester High School turned ugly last Friday after a candidate for senior vice-president was suspended for trying to launch a write-in campaign. It got downright nasty Monday when sympathetic students decided to show their election-day support for the banned candidate. Six more students were ultimately suspended for what school officials saw as "insubordination." Some students and parents, in contrast, are calling it a "ridiculous" product of the school’s zero-tolerance policy -- not to mention undemocratic. Either way, Justin Loretto got to sleep late Tuesday morning. The ninth-grader received a one-day suspension Monday for refusing to remove a makeshift shirt label supporting Eric Kok, an 11th-grade student who was barred from running for senior vice-president based on a disputed election technicality. "I don’t know why it would have upset them so much," said Loretto, who was lounging around his house Tuesday morning, catching up on his reading. The school’s student handbook says a candidate for office must have a cumulative grade-point average of 2.0 or higher, according to Kok, whose cumulative GPA is about 2.2. At some point prior to the election, the requirement was apparently raised to 2.5, which made Kok ineligible for the position. (The student handbook is posted on the Chichester School District Web site and states that the minimal cumulative GPA needed to participate in sports and extra-curricular activities is 2.0.) So Kok tried to run a write-in campaign by hanging a few homemade posters around the school, asking students to write his name on the ballot. School officials responded by confiscating the posters last Friday, escorting Kok off the property and suspending him until after the election. "I think they just took it way too far. They could have just took the posters and said I can’t hang posters or whatever, but they just had to suspend me on the spot," said Kok, who acknowledged that he has not always been a "model student." Because of his past, Kok believes he was shafted by the school administration. Principal James Donnelly said Tuesday he had "no comment about any discipline issues that pertain to any students. I can’t comment on that. It’s confidential." Chichester School District Superintendent Michael Golde was unaware of the situation. "Even if I were, I wouldn’t be allowed to comment," he said. Because Kok’s name is pronounced "Coke," some teachers may have interpreted the messages as a reference to cocaine. Two of the labels worn by students were: "Free Kok. Join the Movement," and "You Know You Love Kok. Vote Kok." Some parents say the crackdown on their children was a case of disciplinary overkill and a violation of their freedom of speech. Kok’s parents, Jack and Barbara, are meeting with school officials this afternoon to get to the bottom of the story. "Some of the students taped signs on their shirts and I think that really rubbed the administration the wrong way. But so what? It’s high school," said Jack Kok. "It seems they take that stuff way too seriously and hide behind the zero-tolerance rule." Eric Kok took advantage of his suspension Tuesday afternoon to help paint a friend’s house and make some cash on the side. Though heavy-handed, Kok said school officials’ reaction to his supporters was somewhat predictable. "If (students) rebel like that and support a person who got in trouble," he said, "that makes them really mad, just really peeved."
FREE KOK!! so yea.. we did the whole "Free Kok" thing.. we were all told to take em off and me and 4 other ppl refused to take them off, so Mr. Stan was like "allright, this is ur last chance, either take them off or go upstairs" he told me and jimmy, so me and jimmy stand up and head upstairs.. then three more came behind us, and they told us that we all got applause... heh ^_^ so then we all went to the office.. and well, got suspended.. so i wont be back in school till wed. and i had my detention to serve tomorrow.. o0o well.. hopefully if my moms not too bitchy, she'll let me walk up to the SEV tomorrow and i can see everyone after school. but yea.. i got suspended.. i guess theres a first for everything!! lol im out -x-
Van Helsing ok, so we saw van helsing.. awesome effects!! lol we ran into steph, joe b., mike, and scott.. so we all sat together, steph had seen it a ton of times already.. but oh well.. so yea.. good movie.. found me some nice sunglasses, lmao but yea, monday is the mohawk/"political-punk" day thing.. so yea.. look for me with my "free kok" sign!! lol
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movies yea, im goin to the movies tonight with kevin.. i had asked him for van helsing.. but my movie tickets cant be used till the movies been out for two weeks, so he asked "how bout the punisher" so i was like "ok" but then i checked the paper and its not playing.. so i gotta get a hold of him today and just tell him that if we go to painters crossing, we can sneak in and see van helsing.. lol and then not have to spend money (coz my mom will give me money if she knows we cant use the tickets) so yea.. thats about it
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