You just have to be happy. If you are everything else will fall into place.

:: 2007 26 June :: 12.07am

/sigh
I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight.

:: 2007 25 June :: 5.40pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Never Gonna Say I'm Sorry - Ace of Base

I opened up a checking account today. I got sick to my stomach doing it, too. I'm just doin loads of things all by myself. Buying a bus ticket with My money, not battin my eyes and having daddy pay for it, I'm goin to Michigan alone, goin to school where I aint got no family, and now I've opened up my own checking account.
It's terrifying.
I leave tomorrow night. I'm going to be on a bus, by myself for like 19 hours. That reminds me that I need a little light thing to read. I so doubt I'll sleep much, if at all.
I'm so excited though!!
Gosh, I feel like a hormonal freak, my emotions are just everywhere.
Scared, nervous, excited, ecstatic, on the verge of throwin up, giddy... there just aint no end to it.
I hope Kell's just as much of a mess as me though. Ha. He aint gotta sit on a bus in the company of strangers for 19 hours and get a numb ass. I doubt I'll even remember how to walk once I'm off that dumb bus. Stupid Greyhound.

theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2007 25 June :: 9.34am

sorry everyone who reads what i post
i haven't really been able to type on here.
but now i can! =)

nothing really has been going on besides cleaning and what not for inspection the other day, and they didn't even come back to fix anything.. and i want my cat back! i'm just scared they'll come when it comes home and i'll be like wtf..
been like 4 days geez.
i've been emotional lately. like very emotional. sometimes i can't STAND myself. i let everything get to me, even if it's stupid.. and i just think everyones inconsiderate of my feelings.
like i always think Lance is yelling at me, when really he's just talking or sometimes he does come off mean, and i don't know why, i'm nothing but nice to him. but then he gets all cute again and everythings okay.. i don't understand i just think it's alllll meeeeeeeee.
i'm trying to come around with all the family, like his mom and brother n them, but theres so much family on his dads side i have yet to met ya know? and he still has to meet some of mine, even though i don't really want him to meet my dad's side or him.. LoL .
anyways i've been bumming it lately, my pants are gettin tighter.
im broke.
and im lonely sometimes cuz lance goes to work.
i would work but i plan on doin it after the baby, so hopefully i can get like unemployement or something? gaahhhh

but like i said, nothing new, no not now not ever! LoL.

:: 2007 24 June :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Amy Winehouse - Rehab

nore is really pissing me off

Yesterday, Me and Justin went to Kaylin's graduation party with Jayce.
We ate and everyone loved my babe. Then, we went back home.
Serg came over to help carry everything into the house because we took a bunch of food and stuff and then Justin left with him.

After he left, i got REALLY sick. I was throwing up and stuff and ugh. I had the worst head ache and I couldn't even take care of babe.

I wait til he wakes up to take him out of his crib and bring him into bed with me and that's when I go to bed--but last night I had to wake him up because I was so freaking sick.
Good thing I did, too because his diaper leaked and he was soaking wet!!
I took off his clothes and changed his diaper and we went to sleep with nore.

Today Nore is annoying me like crazy.
He keeps barking in my face for attention and it pisses me off.

Me and the babes slept in because I was so freaking sick. I slept through Jayce's nap which I usually take a shower during so I haven't even got ready for the day yet.
Nicole asked me to go to the pool with her but I couldn't. I couldn't move.
Justin called this mornign and he is sick, too. =(

Yesterday we ordered a new printer because the one we got before is the wrong one!!
I wanted the same one as Liz but it turned out to be a different model so we are selling it to Kaylin.
The one we got before is $50 and this one is $70 overall with a USB cord that we had to buy separately.

I am thinking about making this journal friends only from now on...

Anyways--I added more pictures, so click that link if you want to see them.

Jayce is about to take a nap so I am going to take a 6pm shower and maybe find something to do.. I'm feeling a lot better..

:: 2007 23 June :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: heroic

Folsom Prison
PJ and I were talking about Johnny Cash and so I'm doing what must be done to save mankind.

I hear the train a comin'
It's rollin' 'round the bend,
And I ain't seen the sunshine,
Since, I don't know when,
I'm stuck in Folsom Prison,
And time keeps draggin' on,
But that train keeps a-rollin',
On down to San Antone.

When I was just a baby,
My Mama told me, "Son,
Always be a good boy,
Don't ever play with guns,"
But I shot a man in Reno,
Just to watch him die,
When I hear that whistle blowin',
I hang my head and cry.

I bet there's rich folks eatin',
In a fancy dining car,
They're probably drinkin' coffee,
And smokin' big cigars,
But I know I had it comin',
I know I can't be free,
But those people keep a-movin',
And that's what tortures me.

Well, if they freed me from this prison,
If that railroad train was mine,
I bet I'd move out over a little,
Farther down the line,
Far from Folsom Prison,
That's where I want to stay,
And I'd let that lonesome whistle,
Blow my Blues away.

:: 2007 23 June :: 7.23pm
:: Music: Colors - Crossfade

I was such a bum at the start of the day, but I feel justice has been served by my dearest mother.
I went to bed around 2:30-3:00, and got up a little after 2:00.
Then mom was like "haha, I tricked you with letting you sleep." handed me a broom and a mop and told me to get to work.
So, the floors are all pretty now, and I even dusted, cleaned the stove top with the shiney-making stuff, cleaned out the fridge and did laundry.
It makes me sick when people walk on the floor after I mop though.

Yesterday was fun. Renkoski came over and we sat and goofed off at the house for awhile, and then we went to Tessi's and watched Brokeback Mountain.
He had never watched it before, but Tessi, Johanna, Whitney and I all watched it when it came out on dvd. Awkward.
lol it was fun to watch his face throughout the movie.
... well if that didn't make me sound like a creephead.
WOW.
Done with that story now.

Anyway, later that night all the guys went camping and Tessi and I met up with Kandace at Kyle's and sat around and screamed/sang angry girl music to Joey and Kyle (which pretty much made their ears bleed) and played cards. It was great fun.

Other than that, I've fallen in love with this song all over again.

Bother - Stone Sour

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

[Solo: Corey]

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten
with its memories
Diaries left
with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit

:: 2007 22 June :: 5.37pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: I wish I felt nothing - Wallflowers

I want to talk to Kelly... he's set to away. He wasn't there when I attempted to talk to him last night either, so... ugh.
Kandace, Tessi, and I are having a girls night thing tonight, and I'm leaving around 7:30 so I kind of wanted to talk to him before I left to let him know what was going on, but then obviously that isn't happening.
So I'm pretty nervous. I'm leaving in four days, something that doesn't even seem possible.
I know I won't be what he expects, and I doubt he'll be exactly what I expect, and that's quite terrifying.
What if we don't hit it off, don't have the chemistry that's needed in order to pull off a relationship? Do we just break up and will I still plan on going up there, only to possibly sit and be alone in my dorm in a state where I don't know anyone? Surely we'd still be friends. And then I guess that's a little obsurd, I've talked to a few people, and I'll be living on campus for Pete's sake, it's inevitable that I meet a few people.
I guess it's just really starting to dawn on me that I'm making a huge decision moving across the world to be with him. Pretty late in the game for that thought, though.
I'm not having doubts by any mean, I love Kelly to death, and I don't even want to fathom not being with him, but things do happen.
Just over a year ago I was planning a summer wedding with Karl. Now he's not even really in my life. We talk occasionally, but it pretty much consists of
"hey"
"hey"
"what's up?"
"nothing. u?"
"eh, nothin really either"
And then that's that.
Granted, there are like NO resemblences between Kelly and Karl, so it so wouldn't even be the same story.
Ugh, I just need to stop thinking maybe. I worry way too much, and these random thoughts that I'm sproutin out makes me feel like my mother.
Talk about creepy...

:: 2007 22 June :: 11.35am

damn you, dog

I'm waiting for the water in the dish pan to cool down and then I am going to do the dishes. When these clothes get out of the washer and go in the dryer, I'm throwing in a load of towels. As they wash, I'm goin to hop in the shower.

Then, I need to run to the bank to put money in Justin's bank account and then go back to my mom's to play wii and wait for Denise.

I have a busy day.

To make it worse--my mom told me to bring Jayce down NOW so I can get things done quicker. Well.. Nore pushed out the door so I was like, "okay whatever, he can go for a ride. Well--he pushed out the car door when we got to the house so I hurried and ran Jayce and the diaper bag upstairs to the kitchen and then went to go outside to get Nore and when I go outside him and Haley (my brother's pit) are stuck together. So I'm like damnit what the fuck.
I ask my mom, "aren't you supposed to spray them with a hose or something? GET THEM APART!!" and I'm liek freaking out. She said it's an old wive's tale to throw water on them but that just makes them run apart and rips the girl.
So Haley is like biting Nore and freaking out and yelping.
I'm yelling at them that it's what they deserve.
My mom said they have to relax to get apart and I said when Nore's thing gets red, if you pet him it goes away. She said, "go pet him then." I was like, "Yeah right I'm not going near Haley, she'll bite me!" cause Haley was liek freaking out.
ANyways.. we waited and it took about a half hour and they got apart.

But now we will be blessed with labra-bulls. fuck.

Justin and my mom were yelling at me liek it was all my fault.
I mean--okay, I know it was my fault, but oh my gosh I'm a freaking moron okay!? I'm sorry!!

YTRSSS SWEERETTT my printer came in!!
But I'm done for now. I am going to svae this application for ABC Program to get Nore neutered and then I am going to wash dishes, put in a load of towels, take a shower, go to the bank and then go to my mom's.

:: 2007 22 June :: 12.07am

so much for trying to lose weight..

..I just downed like four cheeseburgers and gave Nore one.

You know who I miss? Tubby. I was uploading new pictures
(click here to see them)
and I had a bunch of me and him. I missss him.
Too bad Nor' would eat 'em.

I'm super tried.
Justin wanted to sleep over tonight but I told him not to.
It's only been ONE night. I have to stand my ground and show him I mean business!!!

Jayce is sleeping in his crib. I'm about to wake his ass up to cuddle with him and the puppy.

I freaking can't wait til my printer gets here. I am going to have picture frames all over my house and the first thing I'm going is making a scrapbook for Jayce at the hospital.

Okay. I think this is it. I'm dead tired.
I have to meet with Denise tomorrow at liek 4 or so, so you know I'll be going down my mom's like two hours early to play wii while i wait for her.

ughhh okay if i don't go to bed now i will never be able to handle jayce when he wakes up in the night.

:: 2007 21 June :: 11.39am

good morning

I am sitting here, drinking coffee, watching Hollywood's 50 Most Shocking Confessions.

My babe is sitting next to me.. He's mad cause I turned off the Doodlebob's. Yeah, he watches t.v. He's cool.
He's just drinkin his bottle, chillin'.

I spilled coffee all over the couch because I tried to pick up my cup with my foot. Haaaa.

Next nap the babe takes I'm washing the dishes and taking a shower to get ready for the day.

I uploaded new pictures. Click here to see them.

I'm not srue what I'm going to do today but it's probably not going to be anything interesting.
Maybe I'll go over my mom's house for a little bit to play Wii.
I do need to caulk the sink so I can clean my bathroom though.
We put in a new sink and stuff and everything that was in the old one is now all over the bathroom floor because the sink we have now leaks because it needs caulked.

Nore is so cute, we put his crate in the kitchen because it's cool in there and we aren't locking him up anymore when we go out so we left it out incase he still wanted to go in it when we locked the bedroom door. Well--he still lays in his crate in the middle of the kitchen. He's so freaking cute.

Okay, as you can see I'm rambling on becuase I'm bored. The babe fell asleep so I'm going to go get ready for today.

Byee.

:: 2007 20 June :: 11.47pm

my babes.. i love 'em

Today, I didn't do much of anything.
I drove around a lot after me and Justin got in a fight.

Here's the story:
We were chilling out on the deck with the babe and nore babe.
We came in and we left the door open.
I kept on asking where Nore was and everytime I asked, he would say, "sleeping out on the deck."
And each time I would say to him, "Okay, because if he gets hit by a car, I'll kill myself."

Well, I am taking a nap and he wakes me up to hold Jayce while he washes some bottles.

I am sitting on the couch with Jayce and Justin goes outside and yells for Nore. I put the baby down becuase I heard Justin's voice get mean. I went outside to make sure that he didn't hurt Nore and just as I walked out on the deck, I saw Justin stomp over to where Nore was cowered in the yard. Justin picked him up by his loose skin and fur and threw him as he kept yelling at him.
I started to freak out. I was screaming at him and flipping out.
He tried to justify it by saying Nore was out on the highway but I told him tht was HIS FAULT because I told him to make sure he was watching Nore. If he didn't want to watch him he should put him on his leash.

Well, I fought with him a long time and he kept trying to justify what he did before turning it around on me nad saying it was my fault for leaving the door open.

I wasn't about to fight with a retard so I took the babe and nore babe and I left while he followed me out the door, down the steps, and to my car, begging me not to leave.
I told him to get his shit and stay somewhere else.

I took my two babes and I drove around all day.
I saw Amber and Christina at Exxon so I chilled there for a minute, talkin to them.

I drove around Belle Vernon for a while and then I came home.

I fixed my layout and I don't know what I'm doing wiht it so this is going to have to do for now.

Anyways, it's about freezing in here becuase the air was on all while I was out.
Justin keeps calling but it's a waste of his time becuase I'm not going to asnwer for anything.
I don't want him near me or my son if he is going to treat my puppy that way.

Well, Nore's not a puppy anymore--but he stll is my puppy.

Anyways.. I think I am going to go eat a t.v. dinner and go to bed.
Tomorrow I have a lot of nothing to do.

Actually, I have to put in a new bathroom door and caulk the drain to my sink..

:: 2007 19 June :: 11.47pm

being bored

Well, Justin and the babe are sleeping and I am getting tired but I can't pull myself away from cafemom.com

Also, I am watching a movie about fat girls or something.
Well, it came on t.v. after Entourage so I'm kinda watching it.

Last night we didn't do much of anything. Justin cleaning while I slept with the babe.

This morning, we went out to lunch with my grandma and pap pap and took Jayce with us. He was really good and i had a delicious cheeseburger. Justin and my pap didn't like their lunch so it went in a doggy bag for Nore.

After that, he went grocery shopping with Serg and I went to my mom's to play the Wii.
What a work out!!

Anyways, it's time for bed now.

:: 2007 18 June :: 10.33pm

babe's first father's day

Yesterday, I went to the pool with Nicole, Jenna and Aiden.
After I got home, we had a cook out at my mom's house for father's day and Justin came over to eat.

Tomorrow we're going to lunch with my grandma at the Blue Flame. I never ate there.

Anyways, I don't have much else to say..

Sorry I didn't get around to changing my background and layout.

:: 2007 18 June :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Colors - Crossfade

Mom's got a doctors appointment tomorrow, and then we're going to get our hair cut, get my shot records, and go shopping.
It should be a good day, unless something pisses her off.
Her and dad got in a huge ass fight a little bit ago, hopefully she won't dwell on that one.
Anyway, ballgames are hopefully almost over. Taylor and Trevor both have one tomorrow night. If he loses, no more for him, I'm not sure what the consequenses of her win/lose will be though.
Uh... and nothing else.
Blah

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

:: 2007 17 June :: 1.06pm

it's good to see i'm still on your mind, baby girl

=D
I love to see who looks at the stuff I write.
Like it's any of their business? But okay. I guess what I have to say is that interesting.

Last night, after I got home from the pool,
I got ready and went to Jenna's for a crunk fest.
Haha.. Yates and Jessica Teitze were there. Oh, and Nicole.. but that is a given.
Haha we took a lot of pictures.. well, as much as my camera would hold. It sucks. At one point, Jenna's chair got stuck to her belt and she was spinning around like a crazy bitch, screaming and me and Jessica almost peed our pants.

Overall, the night was really funny.
After Yates left.. Me, Jenna, Nicole, and Jess went to Eat n Park at like 4 in the morning a little inebriated.
We were sitting there, deciding on what to order and all of a sudden.. some pancakes get thrown at us. We were like what the fuck?
We turn around, and the guys at the table behind us were very drunk and decided on a food fight while their wives/girlfriends yelled at them.

I dunno, I pretty much inhaled my chicken sandiwch--as I did with all the munchies at Jenna's house. Me and Nicole chilled in the kitchen for a minute.

"Do you have a brother?"
"yeah.."
"does he wear glasses?"
"...Sunglasses..."

"Guys.. I think I am just going to drunk work."

"I'm painting my fingernails purple."
"What does purple mean?"

"I DO NOTcondone drunk driving. You're definitely okay to drive.. here.. drink another one and we'll leave."

This morning we woke up to go to church.
Me and Nicole picked up Joey and TK and dropped TK off at BP.
Nicole took me back to my car and we headed to church.

I love this little boy down in the dowstairs room. His name was Colby he was the cutest little boy ever and he eats everrrryytthinngg so he was my perfect friend.

Now, I am about to head to Shop n Save to grab Jayce some more formula and then we are going to the pool. I think Justin might stop by to spend time with us.. he said he wanted to so I dunno.

It is weird because when I dated Cody I would always be so afraid to go out with my friends especially to hang out over Jenna's house. He would freak out on me and be pissed and I would end up having to fight with him on the phone all night and hang up on him and uugghh.
So like, I found myself trying to explain myself to Justin last night when I told him I was going over there.. he was like, "uhh.. it's cool, lisa... do you want me to watch jayce?.. i wll just sleep over Serg's so I don't have to stay home alone..."
He was going to stop by last night to see me for a little bit but he ended up getting sick and passing out at Serg's. I felt bad for him we were texting each other all night.

ANywyas, I'm gonna go now so I can get Jayce.
I miss my baby!!!!!! .. and Justin and Nore.
But Jayce first and then Nore and then Justin.
I loooooooove my babes!!!!!!

Peace.

P.S.
I KNOW THIS BACKGROUND IS DUMB I MADE IT IN TWO SECONDS. I am changing it, I know.. it's lame. So shut up and no comments on it.

:: 2007 16 June :: 7.28pm

I want to make a new layout for here..

Any ideas?
I am in the middle of changing my mind that's why it looks like this.

Anyways--comment me with ideas for a layout or background.

I just got home from the pool. We were playing a card game called Phase Ten and my back was to the sun so it's liek burnt. It will be tan tomorrow. I was trying to get some sun on my GROSS stomach but I'll work on that tomorrow.

I'm about to hop in the shower and get ready cause tonight I'm going over Jenna's with Nicole to spend the night and go to church in the morning.

:: 2007 16 June :: 1.10pm

Dummy!!!

My baby is sleeping so I took the opportunity to update real fast before I hop in the shower and get ready for the day.

You know how I said Justin went to Creek Falls the other day with Ben? Well, haha--he got a littering fine!! Game commission was watching them with binoculars. There was a bunch of people up there and a few got fines. When I asked Justin what he littered, he said he stopped in mud and thew his socks over.

Anywyas, Justin went to Mercy a few minutes ago with his uncle to see his gram. She needs to get open heart surgery Monday and her birthday is tomorrow. Poor Shirley. =(

Anyways, I don't know what I'm going to do today but before I do anything--I need to take a shower.

:: 2007 14 June :: 4.46pm

Well..
Liz and I just got back from eating lunch at the Olive Garden.
Mmmm..

Justin went with Ben and CJ to Creek Falls..
=( I told him it's too cold today!!

I called Becca today because I heard she finally fought Bishop and that Becca got a lot of punches in on Bishop but that bishop scratched her all up. (Figured that one--HAHA)
I wanted to ask her if Bishop is going around bragging that she whooped her ass yet because that's what happened when we fought. She tried to get her story out before everyone heard the truth. That's what happens when people who care a lot about what other people think about them end up looking stupid.
Anywyas, if she is dumb enough to say she beat Becca up everyone is gonna know that ain't true--if a girl can't beat my ass when I'm ON CRUTCHES with a gimp ankle then she sure as hell isn't going to beat Rebecca up. That's what I say, anyways.
I called Becca to hear the story but she didn't answer. She is probably at work or something.

Anyways,
Last night me and Justin went to the movies with Serg and Nicole.
We saw Ocean's Thirteen. It was pretty good. Ocean's Eleven is still my favorite though.

Afterwards we went to Belle Vernon to pick Jayce up at Justin's mom's.. she wasn't there because she had to take his gram to the hospital.. she's okay though.. she had a slight heart attack. Justin was up all night worrying about her. =(

Tuesday, my mom watched Jayce while I took Justin to the tattoo shop. He got "Jaycen" like on his wrist in red. It looks sick. It's my favorite one he has!! THe only thing that sucks is that I was going to get his name written on the inside of my wrist really small but.. I can't do that now cause I'll look like a copycat. I might get his name on my heart at like the top of my boob.. you know? Who knows.
I know what tattoos I want to get but I don't know where to get any of them. I think I will draw one up and decide where it looks best. Haaa.

Other than that... not too much is going on.

Went to a few grad parties this weekend.
I went to Christinas and my mom and my brother were there but he left to pick Liz up so I sat with my mom for a while. Then pretty mcuh everyone started to leave. Well, everyone my age. I sat and drank with my mom and when they ran out of Shmirnoff, she got me wine? and I drnak three glasses. Haha.
When we left there, we weren't ready to go home so we went to Dena's! Dena's mom and my mom like love each other so they gave each other big hugs and stuff. I started drinking again there and kinda got a little crunk?.. but nothing I couldn't handle. I was just having fun. I sat with my mom and Ashley Merella like the whole time. I talked to Meg too and Covol showed up.. then Brown came to pick them up and they wanted me to leave with them but I wasn't about to roll out on Jayce and my mom.
When the party died down we helped Denise clean up and then we left.. mom almsot wrecking my car..

Anyways, me, Nicole, Bubby, and Serg are going to have a drinking contest. Justin was like, "we need yuengling though," me and nicole say at the smae time, "fuck that--we're going with liquor!!!!"
serg and bubby say they can out-drink us but they want to drink beer and said no way to liquor.
HAha, we'll see when it happens... but were not drinking beer I'll tell you that. Yuck.

ANyways---I'm gonna text Justin and see when they are leaving cause vben has to be back by like 6:30..

:: 2007 14 June :: 2.28pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too - Say Anything

The funniest thing ever happened a long time ago, and for some reason I just thought of it.
I was on a major caffine high from about 68 pots of coffee, and Kelly goes:
"My girlfriend is addicted to the bean. And the bean is not my balls... that's kinda weird"
I got so confused, but I didn't care because it was really funny, and still is.
I miss him! We haven't really had a chance to talk very long lately because we've been kind of busy, especially what with him going to PA for his {DS} thing. Then last night, I swear, Michigan died because I was talking to him and PJ and then they were both suddenly offline without a word. PJ ended up coming back later though, saying something about the internet crapping out, but Kell, I'm assuming, just got mad and went to bed. Hopefully I get to talk to him today though. I miss his voice!
I so need Kelly time.

:: 2007 13 June :: 8.49pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: You're the Love I Wanna Be In - Jason Aldean

It's been awhile due to the fact that nothing ever happens that's worth telling.
Taylor has become an emotional mess and is nothing short of perpetually hateful. I understand, Ashley's gone, I'm leaving, Mom and Dad are never around, but I'm not about to accept it and let her get by with it. She's 12, she needs to act that age and not like a 5 year old.
Just today she was rude all day, didn't clean up after herself and then left at 2:00 for band practice with her stuff strung out everywhere. I couldn't just leave it for mom to see when she got home, so I delt with it all, and then mom asked why I was in a bad mood, so I told her what all had happened. Mom didn't say anything about it until just about 5-10 minutes ago when Taylor was getting on to Trevor for leaving some toys in the floor, and Mom was like "Alright, well what about blah blah blah" and Taylor came in here and picked up a picture of me when I was a baby that was on the desk and she freaking "shot" me. I didn't say anything about it, I just let it go and kind of laughed, and then she came back and she was like "Hey, do I have anything on my back?" and as I was looking, she goes "... Like a knife" and then sat down on the love seat behind me and I was just like omg what a dumbass. I told her she could leave and she glared at me for awhile and then left.
I am really tired of her. A few days away from her will be great, as well as Trevor, because he himself has warped into a prick.

Anyway, enough of my family troubles.
I need a life.

:: 2007 9 June :: 12.01am
:: Mood: wayyyyy too tired

this is why i rock!!

i'm going to bed.
i just got finished cleaning up a little bit and i am going to take the boys into the bedroom for the night.

tomorrow jayce is going with april. =(
I am going to run a couple errands and hopefully i can get justin to tag along so i don't have to go alone.

we put in the new bathroom sink and i need to get a new drain for it because the one we have now is cracked... or something.

alright, other than that.. nothing.
i'll update later.

This is my wallpaper for my phone:

theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2007 8 June :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: dead presidents - hip hop

11:33pm and i think i have some names in mind.
If it's a boy; Kaden.
If it's a girl; Chanel.

now those aren't forsure but it's been lingering among me. so we will see.
anyways, it's friday and i'm bored as fuck and hungry as hell, i might eat a bowl of reeses puff's cereal, YUMmm! :)

nothing went on today it stormed all crazy though, kinda scared me! i thought the power was gonna go out, but it turned out to be a blow over really and just effects from other areas where they were gettin' hit. sucked though, but atleast it rained.
then doug came and chilled for a min with my boo* he took off and now hes just playin socom and i'm on here like a loser, cuz i'm alil stoned *eekk* and tired and boredddddddddd. someone help me? LoL
my mother gave me a few bucks today.. i needed a few grocerys cause my cubberts are bare. lol well not all the way but enough to where you cant put anything together; but were fine now thats to her. thank heavens.
i could go for some icecream right about now. or tomorrow, so jena wanna go? :)

:: 2007 6 June :: 11.42pm

stupid woohu

it pisses me off because when i try to update i always accidentally hit something on this stupid keyboard that redirects me and makes me lose everythign that i type.

to sum it up--
i never have time to update anymore so i was trying to get a quick one in before i go to bed.

we went to rob's wedding on saturday which was really nice.
the reception was fun and me and justin never drink but we did there a little bit. it was funny because neither of us ate a thing all day so once u got a little alcohol in us we were a little tipsy but once they opened the food it was over, haha. we weren't feeling anything at all because we definitely pigged out. i never saw justin eat so much!!

he has to work tomorrow which is lame ebcause i will be lonely all day.
he was with serg tonight and said as soon as he got home, "i saw bishop at val's and she's still trying to cause trouble--she came up to me saying that cody tells people the baby is his and serg heard her say i looked hot.. i think that was the funniest thing i've heard in a while!!"
i was like ??? uhh alright. i said, "i bet cody doesn't even say that and she's just saying that."
why would cody say that? he would be dumb to. jayce was born in april which makes him made in july or august.
aaaand that's funny because i hadn't talked to cody since like.. february.. haha.

anywyas.. it's 12:30 i've been reading past journal entries and now i'm beat. going to bed!! lata!!

theedgeofyouratmosphere

:: 2007 5 June :: 5.20pm
:: Mood: tired.

alot of things have changed in my life.
i'm on my own now, and yes i do miss my mothers house alon with my sister... i basically dropped outta school and i'm going to get my G.E.D and hopefully get a job in the near future. i live with my boyfriend. and where going to have a baby.. i'm like 3 months.
hopefully it's a boy. hehe, i do need help picking out names though, i can't seem to find one at all and i can't find a girls name either. moneys of course.. TIGHT. but we live and survive to the fullest. i'll deff be updating my journal now since i finally got the net today, SHIBBY! LoL ANYWHO. i'll attend tomorrow. <3much love.