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2006 4 October :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: Let Love In - Goo Goo Dolls
2 words: Long week
It's only Wednesday. This doesn't seem possible at all and I so want to just curl up in bed and sleep through the rest of the week. I'm already tired of school. It's fun ... inbetween classes. Teachers are so happy to pile on the homework in every single class.
I've got the ACT to take on the 28th. I need to study for it. Refresh my memory on Sin, Cosin, and Tangent, and every other formula in math. I shouldn't have Not taken a math class this year, but I didn't need one and I hate it so much I didn't want to torture myself with it. I'll be damned if I was going to take Calc or Trig. I suppose I could have taken Algebra II again but it killed me. I got a disgusting B in that class. Eh.
Good news though, I moved from 11th in class rank to 9th. I still have dreams of becoming 4th, but i'm realizing it's slightly out of my reach atm. That's fine though. 9th is Soo much better than 11th. Too bad I couldn't have been in a dumb class so I could be Valadictorian. Too many smart people!!!
As soon as I fax my ACT results (old ones) to Ferris they can review my application and tell me if I'm accepted or not. I'm getting nervous. What do I do if I'm rejected? Obvious choice: Curl up and die.
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2006 4 October :: 1.58pm
this just in...
This is mainly for Sarah to read because she obviously needs something to entertain herself:
Sarah writes:
10.04.2006
im everything that u aint
October 4th
SOOOO I just found out that lisa meehan is STILL writing about me everyday, which I don’t kno why?? I also found out that she reads my blog EVERY DAY (i already knew that part) and saves my pictures so she can stare at them. FIND SUMTHIN USEFUL TO DO WITH YOURSELF!! how can one person be so immature and so stuck up me?????!!!??
Hahaha, I guess she calls me ugly everyday when she and I both know that im a somewhat pretty girl…. Well, atleast prettier than her. i wouldnt be suprised if she walked in the hospital one day with my picture and said, "make me look like this cuz im totally obsessed with her"..... not to mention shed p/b want my personality also, along with my boyfriend, house, and family cuz she wants everything i have, OBVIOUSLY
You know, I thought maybe she grew up by now but I was SO wrong. I don’t talk about the bitch let alone think about her ugly face. i like how she thinks shes tough cuz as shes always said, "if i have sumthin to say, ill say it your face." well.... that isnt the case. shes been talking about me every day of her life, especially on the internet, and hasnt once said a word to me.
Sumone told me she was pregnant (she told one of my friends that she was expecting). hahaha and then she says that IM pregnant and going to have ugly kids. I don’t understand how she can call me ugly especially if u compare me to her, but everybody knows I would have BEAUTIFUL babies =)
Im actually flattered that shes STILL talking about me and posting MY pictures on her blog for a year now. Yea… shes actually SAVING MY PICTURES, and putting them on her page. CAN YOU SAY PSYCHOTIC????
Its pathetic that an older girl like her has to look up to a younger girl like me. I guess its b/c my eyes dont bug out of my head like hers….or b/c I don’t starve myself and worry about what everyone else thinks. That’s her problem. Shes too worried about everyone else.. its so sad
Lisa, grow up. Its kool that u love me and wanna have sex with me, but its getting way way old…. Like a YEAR OLD.
Be happy that I took time to mention your name in my blog cuz ppl might actually acknowledge you, but I doubt it. HAHAHA
Your 18 … act like it
THEM JEALOUS GIRLS!
Hahaha.
Obviously, I'm the smarter of the two.
I made a myspace to look just like hers and she thought I got her password.
I put a picture of her on here and she thinks I would actually save that shit to my computer!!
I just copy the address. Haha, moron.
I do read her blog everyday. Me, Justin, and Christina. We read it and laugh at her everytime she writes about us.
"i like how she thinks shes tough cuz as shes always said, "if i have sumthin to say, ill say it your face." well.... that isnt the case. shes been talking about me every day of her life, especially on the internet, and hasnt once said a word to me."
Haha, I say everything to her face everytime the situation arises! She knows what I think of her, it's nothing new that I have to tell her every time I talk to her. And I would say it a lot more if you didn't run to the cops with EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING I EVER DO! Oh, I mean, show your mom and have her go to the cops with it.
"hahaha and then she says that IM pregnant and going to have ugly kids..." i was obviously being sarcastic when I said she was pregnant after i heard of the way she was making fun of me in school yesterday.
But actually, sometimes really ugly parents have really cute kids, so maybe it would work out that way for her.
"Its pathetic that an older girl like her has to look up to a younger girl like me. I guess its b/c my eyes dont bug out of my head like hers….or b/c I don’t starve myself..."
Older girl? I'm a month older, dumbass. HAHAHAHA.
Since when do my eyes bug out AT ALL and I starve myself? I'd love to know where she's getting these things considering she looks like a drown rat and I eat every hour.
AAAAhhhh ahahahahahaha. she cracks me up.
I know I'm immature in ways like this, but I just can't help it when getting to her so bad makes me feel SO good.
I just hate ugly girls that think they're hot!
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2006 4 October :: 8.40am
going to the doctor's SUCKS
I have an appointment today at 10:15.
Yesterday while Justin was at work, I chilled with my mom like I do every day he's there.
He came home early and called but it was just as mummy was making me grilled cheese!!
So of course I had to stay and eat it!! Grilled cheese is one of my absolute favorites!!
Afterwards, I went to Justin's and he was going to basketball for 7:00, so I went to Gabes with my mommy and she bought me all these sweat pants and hoodies because I have 0.
=)!!
After that, I met Serg & Cam out at Val's and then went to Jenna's.
Me and Jenna sat on her porch and talked for what seemed to be 5 minutes, but when I looked down at my phone, it was already time for me to pick bubber up at basketball!!
(and i was going to be late... =/ )
We went to Johnny's for a little bit and then we went home.
We usually pass out super early.
I don't know why, we were talking about that the other day..
everyone our age goes to bed super late and we are in bed at liek 10.
?? we're so 30-years-old.
I dunno.
So this morning he was leaving for work and I put on some clothes and went to my mom's house to get ready for my doctor's appointment.
Pete's in the shower now so I figured I'd update real quick like every morning.
and if this entry bores you and you came for the drama
here it is:
Sarah IMed me a couple minutes ago.
I closed it out because I was going to ignore her like I always try to do.. but hey.. I'm bored.. why not piss her off and sit here and laugh?
Plus, I found it funny that she IMed me asking her why I talk about her when she is the one going around school telling everyone I'm pregnant.
Here's how the conversation went after I closed her out:
meehan0125: because you cant seem to keep my name out of your mouth
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: HAHAHAH WHAT?!?!?!? omg lisa. get over it! i NEVER talk about you seriously. u are NOTHING to me and i thought u grew up too. stop talking about me. i never talk about you let alone think about you. u and i both kno taht i dont talk about you
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: i dont even have a problem with you????
meehan0125: i dont talk to anybody except liek the five friends i have and my boyfriend. i have better things to talk about than you. the only time your name is ever mentioned is when someone is telling me they saw you and you look ugly or something gay liek that and im just like, "cool," or when WHEN-- someone is telling me how you are talking about ,e
meehan0125: like how jones said you told the whole school im pregnant?
meehan0125: bubber just said you have nothing better going on in your life that you have to consistantly say my name
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: hahahaha.
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: you kno i didnt
meehan0125: pssshht yeah right, it wasnt just jones.. i heard it from a LOT of people that you told them i was pregnant
meehan0125: i was like, "cool."
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: i dont even care about you lisa. really...... grow the fuck up already. i NEVER say your name and i dont fuckign care about you. so just stop running yor mouth about me
meehan0125: like, i really dont care, im not in hgih school and i havent been in that school in like a whole year and yet people are still talking about me there. i couldnt care less
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: thats all i gotta say
meehan0125: ill run my mouth about whoever i want
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: no body ever talks about you
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: yea. sure
meehan0125: its jsut that i have better things to talk about than you and the only time you're brought up is by someone else
meehan0125: and when someone brngs you up, i have my opinions and i am welcome to say them to whoever i want, whenever i wnat
DuDe iTs ChUbBy:yeaaaa that must be why sumone copied and pasted MY picture from your blog, and MY name MILLION timeas
meehan0125: like how christina said you had to yell across the room to sonny and ask ehr "when she was expecting," THREE TIMES so christina would hear
meehan0125: and then i get all these text messages in the middle of the day saying that you are going around school talking about me
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: HAHAHAHA. thats so funnyt cuz sumone said "is sonny pregnant??" so i asked her ONCE
meehan0125: yeah right, good coincidence
meehan0125: i know you're a little liar, so i don't even want to listen to what you have to say
DuDe iTs ChUbBy:hahhaa okay
meehan0125: i dont know why you bothered IMing me
meehan0125: yeha and each time your name is in my blog, its because ive heard some shit that you are saying about me, or how i find it funny that you can't grow up
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: for sum reason u thibnk that ppl actually find u interesting to tal about???well your wrong hunnie. your a piece of pathetic worthless shit and u might as weel kill yourself. go ahead and talk about me cuz EVERYONE already knows ur jealous of me STILL anf wanna have sex with me. grow the fuck up and go find sum other bitch to be jealous of u fuckin scum ball
DuDe iTs ChUbBy signed off at 8:37:03 AM.
She lies so much it's unbelievable.
People read my journal and "tell her about it," and she NEVER reads it, yet she loaded this page at Oct 4 08:26:20 AM.
And I'm sure if she was asking Sonny if she was pregnant, she wouldn't have been yelling across the room, "SONNY! WHEN ARE YOU EXPECTING?!" in a sarcastic voice with a smile on her face.
Don't be scared I'm going to beat you up, Sarah. I'm pregnant, remember?? =)
Bitches are so unbelievably STUPID.
Look how much she had to say because of how bad I was getting to her.
I can sit there and ADMIT every single word I've ever said about her and then answer her questions and give her the reasons for why I did them and she still has to sit there and deny ever saying my name when I heard it from a million people.
Ugh. Cool.
Well, Pete's out, it's time for my shower.
I mean.. not shower.. because I'm a dirtball.. or whatever she said.
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2006 3 October :: 8.42am
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: No Doubt - The Singles 1993-2003
It's funny how I find myself in love with you.
Note:: If you don't care about what I have to say in here, don't read it. Kk, thanks! =)
Welp.
Justin went to work and I was woken up by a text message from Christina.
Three text messages, actually.
All I have to say as an inside joke to her is that I'm experiencing severe pain in my pubic area and I think I need to shedule a doctor's appointment. HAHAHA!!
Oh brother. I love Christina.
We think Sarah might be pregnant, because Christina heard her yell to Sonny and ask if she was expecting.
Weird, I would feel bad for her kids>>they would be some ugly babies and have one terrible mother.
MJPerry4: i always read your woohu after being fired from a job and it always makes me feel better.
MJPerry4: haha
((names have been changed to protect the innocent.))
I went to school yesterday,
and I walk in. Nobody's doing work--but then again I don't really pay much attention to that because nobody EVER does work.
and then Joey told me they are shutting down the school.
Whaaat?
Yeah, I know, I totally know.
This calls for a: WTF?!
Yesterday was the last day. Douglas decides to give us zero days in advance and tell us to get the fuck out after today and relocate to either the Century III location or the Washington location.
First off, everyone was pissed off about that. Rebecca drives a Cadillac and obviously doesn't have the gas to afford to drive a half hour away every single fucking day.
Anywyas, I jsut sat there and did my work, occasionally asking "why?" and trying to figure out what was going on.
Bob took each school aside and arranged for transportation and addressed some problems.
Then, he came up to me and asked, "how much do you have left? You're almost done, right?" I showed him how many lessons I had left.
He said, "Do as much as you can today and then you're done."
I was just like "Are you serious?"
and he said he was. When I told him Belle Vernon wouldn't let me get my diploma if I didn't finish it, he asked me if I thought I learned enough. I nodded my head with a smile and he said, "Belle Vernon won't know. We'll give you the grade you have."
SSSSSSSAAAAAAAAAHHHH-WWWWWEEEEEEETTTTT
Soo.. I finished up and peaced out and yesterday, I graduated. =)
Other than that, I'm starving and I stepped in dog shit so I'm going to shower and peace out to my mom's.
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2006 2 October :: 9.12am
you know i'm no rowdy chick,
but sometimes i hafta fight cause my mouth too slick
I just took Justin to work.
I hate when I have to do that.
He gets pissed cause Shaun sleeps in and Justin HAS to get a full 10 hours in of work every day.
He bought this '73 Cadillac off of my uncle and is supposed to be paying him $500 a week for it and the past two weeks he's only been able to give a total of $800.
It's sick. I can't wait to pimp it out.
He blows money like no other.
He probably could pay it off no problem if he didn't have to buy everything he sees.
Yesterday, we went to La Eda's.
Mmm.. it was so good.
I think I'm going to take the leftovers to school for my lunch and heat it up in the microwave.
After we went to La Eda's we rented some movies at Hollywood Video and it turned out to be super cheap at 3 movies for $6!
The movie we watched last night was extremely gay, though.
The box said it was supposed to be the "funniest movie ever" by the makers of Super Troopers.
Did you ever see Super Troopers?
I watched it at Opie's house a while ago and it was soo extremely hilarious.
Anywyas, this movie last night--sucked.
Justin and I were talking about cars on the way to Greensburg and I know there is an entry in here from a while back where I was looking up something on Acura RSXs and they WEREN'T hatchbacks. I hate hatchbacks. But I can't find the entry!! =(
I told him when our kids grow up I want an Acura RSX and he said that I couldn't get it because it's only a two-door and it's not a family car. (But then he started talking about how he is getting this two door something soo..??) He said we should get the Acura TL but I just looked it up and it is really nice..
Now I have about two hours until I have to leave for school. I figured I'd take the allotted time to throw in an update.
I put in a couple new pictures on my webshots of myself. I know, boring. But if you want to check them out you can do so by clicking here.
Hmm..
What else?
If you didn't already know, I don't smoke anymore.
That's somethign that's extremely weird.
Everyone asks me if it's hard and surprisingly.. it's not at all.
The other day we were going to go Cosmic bowling and I was having second thoughts saying to Justin, "I'm not going to be high.. or drunk.. or anything!!" and he was like, "Whyyy you gotta be fucked up?!"
I mean.. I don't.. it's just weird.
I've been fucked up since I was 12.
???
Now? 6 years later??
I'm not.
We'll be on a smoke ride and he'll pass the blizzy to me atleast four times and every time I'm like, "..no.."
and he'll be like, "i forgot."
but it's weird.
And no, THAT'S not hard, because in my mind it feels like I'm just waiting for my turn in the rotation.
..the whole ride.
Oh well, it's not a big thing. Marijuana really isn't an addictive drug at all. Not physically addicting, anyways...
But then again, I've never been addicted to anything in my whole life so maybe I just don't know what it feels like..
Anywyas, I'm rambling on about getting high when I really have to go pee before I need to change my pants.
Lata.
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2006 1 October :: 4.27pm
Sunday Sunday
Friday we were supposed to go Cosmic bowling, but Justin was too mcuh of a baby and he wouldn't wake up.
Oh well, cause Saturday morning he took me out to Eat n Park for breakfast. I looove Eat n Park breakfast. Pancake Smile. Mmm.
Afterwards, we went to watch my brother play some football against the Redskins. The Eagles won, of course, despite Justin's constant reminder of how good the Redskins are. =)
After the game, we went to Dick's so babe could buy football gloves. He didn't find any he liked, though. We looked around Pac Sun and I found these shoes I wanted but CopyCat decides HE wants to buy them! I told him go ahead, but that I was going to buy them, too. He bought these slipperish shoes instead.
Besides that..
I guess Cody's out of jail because Christina was telling me how she was at Pozza's house the other night and Cody was there.. without Sarah.. talking to Christina and Kris.
I don't know, but I'm glad that I'm not his girlfriend because of some of the things that I heard were said.
He did stick up for her, however, and said she doesn't have problems in the head (psht--yeah right) and that she's just wild, but besides that, he was talking about how she thinks they're getting married and how he would never marry her and such.
I would be pissed if I were her, and when I heard about it I told Justin how much I lovies him and that he's the best boyfriend ever.
Tomorrow I'm putting in my application for an apartment because everyone is psuhing me to do it.
My mom wants me to move back home and Pete said the same. He said he doesn't care what time I come home and if I get in trouble it's my own fault. He told me he would fix my room up pretty and stuff.
Normally, I would fall for it in a second, but I can't stay anywhere without my babe. I miss him too much, so it wouldn't work out.
Granted, living for free and eating for free sounds like any sane persons dream, Justin makes me insane without him. =/ So.. that seems to be out of the question and an apartment is nearly the only solution.
Wednesday is my doctors appointment.
But besides that I have nothing new going on.
I want Jenn to dye my hair soon because my roots are growing out.
I just don't know what I want to be happening with it.
I dunno?? I might just tell her to surprise me.
This year, I thoguth I might wanna go lighter for winter, but who knows.
Dark hair makes pale girls look paler, so I think black/dark brown is out of the question. Plus, my hair was black like two times ago.
I wish I could go tanning, but I can't for a while and that blows. =( I will just have to stick with being pale this winter.
On another note, I miss my Rebecca.
I think I am definitely going to try to make it to school tomorrow so I can see her perty face!!
The other day I heard about how Bishop hung out with Tadd and tried to keep it a secret from Becca, being the whore that she is.
You know how Bishop is, she has to get on everyone's boyfriend.
Right now, I'm watching Donnie Darko. I never saw it before so Justin is making me watch it because he said it's a good movie. I don't really know what's going on because I didn't watch it from the beginning, but I saw some kids sniffing coke in the hall of a school and so far it's a pretty weird movie. I dunno?
And now some girl walks into a classroom as a new student and she asks the teacher (Drew Barrymore) where she should sit and the teacher tells her to sit next to the boy she thinks is the cutest.
haha, that's kinda awesome?
Ohhh, I think on that note--I'm out.
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2006 30 September :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Gone With the Sin - HIM
So... the month is over and so my life has returned to me, and somtime around the middle of October I'll be getting a $170 check... which is great news imo.
I have a ton of homework to do tomorrow. Not so much on the "good" side of news, but not all together bad.
Went to the optomotrist yesterday. My vision is 20/200. I swear I almost died when he told me that. ha... plus, adding to the greatness, I've got a mildly bad stigmatism on my right eye, and I'm developing one on my left. They have time to get better since I'm "so young" but then that also just gives them time to friggin go psycho, so eye surgery is a likely event in my future.
Ashley freaked out today. I was talking to her about Ferris and she started crying and telling me that she had always wanted us to move out and live together and all this random stuff... I had never heard of this in my life. I was like "uh... sorry...." and kind of quietly left. I felt like an asshole, But... it's my life. I might as well do what I want to do and not succumb to others wants. *shrugs*
Church tomorrow... I might just stay home. I plan on being up as late as I can remain awake talking to Kell, and then I have homework tomorrow. seems I need to do something tomorrow as well, but it's not coming to mind.
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2006 29 September :: 9.43am
pickles with BBQ sauce?! wtf?!
It may sound gross, but when you're on a little barbecue hype and pickles are the best food in the world, it's actually quite tasty.
if you're going to try it--don't overdo the sauce!! you only need to dip it once.
haha.
anyways,
i haven't been to school in forever.
i need to get my act together.
it just sucks how sick i am in the morning!
actually.. it lasts all day and i'm usually sick 'til around 5:00.
i tried to sleep at my house last night so i could wake up to my mommy making me toast and food, but i didn't have that kinda luck.
justin was mad/sad at me because i left.
he said that i "left for no reason."
there is a reason--no one is here to pamper me when i wake up and feel like barfing my brains out.
i mean, i don't throw up, but still, sometimes i'd like to.
=)
i drove to my house and then couldn't even fall asleep.
so i woke my mom up, told her i couldn't sleep, and that i was going back. i love her. i gave her a kiss and locked the door on ym way out.
i'm about to head over there right now, actually.
..and eat some french bread toast!!
mmm.
other than that..
nope, nothing new.
i applied at Subway just for something to do in my spare time because I get ridiculously and utterly bored not having a job.
Subway was super easy, the only reason I quit was to make more money waitressing.
Buuut I can't be a waitress right now.
I can't be running around or any of that sort of stuff.
That's why I think Subway is the job for me.
Actually, Christina, your job would be ideal but.. hey.. you know.
haha. I'm happy for you, but if you ever want to quit for any uh, reason.. uh.. let me know. ;] haha!
Okay, I'm outtie. It's time to head over mummy's.
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2006 29 September :: 1.20am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects
SPELLING WORD!!
though commonly spelt "lieing".... the word is actually spelt... are you ready?
lying.
crazy.
i love you Kell!!
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2006 27 September :: 10.54am
I find it comical that dumb bitches are still obsessing over me.
I recently [today] heard that dumb bitches still have nothing better to talk about than what goes on in my personal life.
Well, that's the conclusion I've drawn, however.
Sarah must still be wishing and praying every day that she will one day have my life.
So, I guess she goes around telling people that I'm a dumb bitch because I let my boyfriend cheat on me all the time.
I don't need to explain myself, but for the record--my boyfriend doesn't cheat on me.
About 6 months ago or something, we were going through a rough time where we thought that we didn't like each other. I felt like I wasn't satisfied with him and he didn't know if he wanted to be with me.
I started talking to my ex-boyfriend and he started talking to his ex-girlfriend.
..but we were broken up. We never cheated on each other.
And then surprisingly, we dropped them both to get back together.
What more to the story is there?
I don't care who thinks differently becuase it's MY life.
I don't care what jealous bitches have to say about it because I know what's what.
THE END.
I don't need to explain myself to anyone, but the fact that she feels its necessary to tell everyone and their sisters that she has sex with my boyfriend all the time is not only funny, it's pathetic.
I not only live with him, I spend every second of the day with him after he gets home from work around 6:00 every single day.
So OBVIOUSLY you're not getting to me much at all, girly.. and you should move on with your life as we have.
i'm sorry it hurts you to see this, but we haven't been more happy than with each other.
Don't blow up my car because I wrote this. =)
UGH!!!!!!
Sorry, I had to get that out.
My clothes are in the dryer right now and I think I'm about to take a shower.
I've been putting off going to school because I am soo super sick in the mornings.
That's the worst part about everything.
I usually skip school and go to my mom's house so I'm not sitting at Justin's by myself. She makes me food and stuff and I just chill with her all day until babe gets home from work.
Yesterday he gave me "the talk" about not going to school and how it "makes him mad" to see me not just go and get it over with.
But he doesn't understand!!!!!!! I can't even move in the morning after I open my eyes!
The days he doesn't have to work, he makes me toast and stuff when I wake up, but it sucks when he's not here and I'm by myslef.
Right now, I want a tomato sandwich.
MMMMMM..
On really light toast with salt and pepper.
Maybe a little bit of mayonaise?!?!
GOSH!
Yesterday, my mom caught me pouring a glass of pickle juice and she told me I'm not allowed to drink it anymore beause it thins my blood and that's not good right now.
But how can she tell me I can't drink pickle juice when that was one of my favorite drinks?
and then yesterday.. mmm.. i mixed it with some v8.
DAMN fuck school i think i'm going to my mom's house so i can get some goodies!
Last night me and Justin went to Wal-Mart.
He was buying stuff for his lunch and he bought me a can of pickles because there are only sweet ones at the house. (YUCK)
I was thinking about getting an apartment at Rostraver,
but only for a little bit to save some money up.
I hate staying hereeee.
My mom told me to stay at home but me and justin can't be separated DUH!!
and I still want to live somewhere that's MINE.
He found this cute litlte apartment for like $500 a month.
Cam's parents rent it out and he says it's real nice with a wrap around deck.
My mom says if we want it, we can have it.
We have everything we need so I'm jsut waiting to find SOMETHING.
Anywyas, I'm out.
I'm about to take a shower and.. regretfully, skip out on school again so I can pig out at my mom's house.
=)
Shhh! Don't tell bub, he'll be so mad.
Maybe I'll go, we'll seee...
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2006 26 September :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Lips Like Morphine - Kill Hannah
Goodbye Life
I fucking am sick of everything!!!
My stupid sister and I have to watch Travis (at my grandma's) 40 hours a month, and if we don't then grandma kills us and we don't get paid. So, I've been working most the weekends and I THOUGHT that she was getting the weekdays. Last night I went over there to watch him because gramma had this TOPS class which is like weight watchers thing and found out that we only had like 8 hours. WOW. that means that i have to get in 32 hours in one week by myself. fuck Ashley. now I have to spend my life over there, I can't go cut wood like I'm supposed to this weekend, because I have to donate my weekend to stayin at grandma's, AND ... I can't get on late at night and talk to Kelly. *sigh* that's definitly the worst.
So tomorrow is Senior Sneak Day. it's gonna kick ass. We're going to Silver Dollar City as they always do.
Tonight at 11:00 Kandace, Tessi, Johanna, Heather, Renkoski, Tylor and I are all going to meet up at the school and spell out "SR 07" in front of the school with plastic forks. it's going to be freaking amazing.
Anyway, Taylor just ALMOST burnt the house down. she put in a TV dinner that I didn't even know we had, or ever had bought any ever, and turned her back to get a piece of cake and i walked through, there's fucking flames everywhere i was like "OM EFFIN G" and jerk open the damn door, and throw the dish into the sink. My hand hurts like a mother, but other than that I'm alright. She's going to die. Not by me, but just because she's a dumbass.
Anyway, I have to go do some stupid homework before leaving for grammas.
Later
Kelly..... I love you. Hopefully I'll be able to get back on before I die.
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2006 24 September :: 9.31am
:: Mood: sicky =(
lame brain
Well,
I spent the night at my house to go to church with my mom today.
Not last night, but the night before,
me and Justin got in the dumbest fight ever.
I said I wanted to go to my house to be wiht my mom because I missed her.. he didn't want me to leave.
I said I was leaving anyways because I had a feeling she was worried.
He told me if I left, to take all my things.
Well, I packed them all up and.. he took my cell phone.
(He always takes my phone when we fight.)
His mom argued with him to give it back to me so I can leave and he said no.
I went out to my car without it and I sat there, crying, because I didn't want to leave him but I needed my mommy.
He came out and sat in my car with me, begging me to stay.
Finally, I kicked him out and he pretended to walk to his house.
I saw him around the corner, but I turned my car on and put it in first.
I drove away as fast as I could and he chased my car half way down the street when he turned up the alley and ran down the other street to catch me.
I stopped.
It was the saddest thing in the wholest world to see him running down the street with no shoes on, with the most heart breaking look on his face. I stopped in the middle of the street, shut my car off, got out and ran to him, bawling my eyes out.
I made him give me a hug and we drove back to his house.
I called my mom and told her I'd stay another night because it was too late.
In the morning, she asked me if Justin and I were having a little spat and I told her kind of. She asked if he talked to Sarah. I said, "no way jose." He said, "psshhttt," and we laughed about it.
Mom said she was just wondering because she said she heard Sarah's been whore-ing it up with Cody in jail.
I don't know how my mom hears these things, but me and Justin heard it too a couple times.
One day we were talking about how disgusting she is and how she must think she's a player for fucking like a millon guys. Ew.
How could someone do that to themselves?
Anyways, of course that wasn't the case.
Last night, we were supposed to go to Cam's cabin,
and I was taking a shower and when I got out, Justin opened the door and said we weren't going.
me-"why?"
babe-"cause.. cam's being gay.. i don't wanna go."
me-"okay, well, what's the problem?"
babe-"he said you can't go cause there's 5 people and that's cramming in and it's all guys."
me-"okay well then i just won't go and you can go and i'll stay at my mom's."
babe-"*points to heart*hurts my feelings to leave you.."
to shorten it up, he didn't want to go without me, but i said it would be good.
i dropped him off at val's and went to my house where i ate everything chocolate and watched Deal or No Deal with my mom, yelling at the t.v.
I made her sleep with me so we layed there watching t.v. when I fell asleep at like 10:30.
Well, I have to get ready. I feel horribly awful.
Babe texted me at 6 in the morning and said he was sick and throwing up, so I hope he feels better.
Ahh, I'm out, this update was lame.
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2006 21 September :: 4.36pm
Oh So Sick of Being Sick
Well, I'm at my mom's house.
I didn't go to school today because I wasn't feeling good AT ALL,
so I came to my mommy's so she could make me toast. =)
I got ready and went to my doctor's appointment.
Mudder made me go in by myself and because of that I was highly ticked off. She said I have to do it by myself.
=(
Well, the nurse was a cunt.
She said nothing was wrong with me.
...and she didn't even check.
She was talking to me like I was a hypochondraic, like I'm in there all the time or something.
??
I called my mom during the half hour she [[the nurse]] left me waiting by myself.
I told her I needed her to come back there NOW and that the lady was a bitch.
My mom came back.
Dr. Dawn came in and checked me out.
She pressed on my tummy and I told her where it hurt. (all over.)
She asked me a bunch of questions and said I would have to go in for blood work.
The lab was closed, however,
so I have to come back tomorrow.
It's nice staying here after school.
That way I don't have to sit by my lonesome while Justin is at work. =)
After we left the doctor's,
I told my mom I wanted Subway.
She said okay, but we were going to wait 20 minutes until 4:00 to get the 4 six inch subs for $9.99.
Soo.. we went for Mor For Less and got some retarded shit.
Then, we went through the Subway drive thru.
Me and Mum got in a fight, though, because I obviously know everything there is to know about Subway. (haha, that's a joke.)
The girls were all confused, so we went inside.
I was trying to explain to my mom that the cheese steak and the chipotle southwest cheese steak are the same sandwiches but the southwest one has the chipotle dressing on it. (but they ask you for the dressing anyways, so it is retarded...)
I ate my sandwich by the time we were home, of course.
Now I'm chillin', about to roll out to Justin's cause he'll be home from work soon.
Okay, peace.
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2006 20 September :: 11.34pm
"Needless to say, I'm pretty psyched..."
So after school, I go out to my house to spend a little bit of time with my mom while Justin is at work.
The other day while I was there, I was telling her how sick I've been. This came about when she told me how horrible my complexion look and I stated that she wasn't the first one to notice.
I was standing in the bathroom, straightening my hair when I began to feel light-headed and a little dizzy.
I didn't think anything of it, because I have been feeling like that lately.
The next thing I knew, I was laying in the hall and my mom was asking me what I was doing.
We called the doctor's and I have an appointment for tomorrow.
My iron is super low. That explains why my gums are discolored and why I can't walk up and down steps lately.
I told the doctor that I can't eat any food. It's not that I throw it up, it's just that I don't have the appetite to eat anything. The only thing I can actually swallow is tomatoes... or v8.
On another note,
I love being able to drive a stick shift.
It makes me feel way cool that everyone says something about it. =)
I absolutely love driving.
I quit smoking weed on Sunday for personal reasons.
I'm reppin' a drug-free America. =)
(Can you still represent a drug-free America if you take your boyfriend on burn rides??)
I am almost completely finished with school.
20 lessons of... ugh.. algebra.
I asked Captain Joe if he wants to do my math for his english.
We'll see what's goin' down tomorrow.
Also!!;;
I am getting a job at American Eagle. =)
My aunt's the director of investor relations for AE,
and when she found out I wanted the job, she said she'd call and make sure of it!!
Needless to say, I'm pretty psyched.
To wrap things up,
I'm going to bed. =)
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2006 19 September :: 9.48am
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: Calling you - Blue October
I found a(nother) song that makes me happy.
--Calling You--
Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away
and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away
well expect me to be
calling you to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i thought that the world had lost its sway
(its so hard sometimes)
then i fell in love with you
(then came you)
and you took that away
(its not so difficult, the world is not so difficult)
you take away the old
show me the new
and i feel like i can fly
when i stand next to you
so what if I'm on this phone
a hundred miles from home
i take the words you gave
and send them back to you
i only want to see
if you're ok when i'm not around
asking if you love me
i love the way you make it sound
calling you to see
do i try too hard to make you smile
to make a smile
i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
well i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
i will keep calling you to see
if you're sleepin are you dreamin and
if you're dreamin are you dreamin of me
i cant believe
you actually picked...me
Blue October is almost my new favorite band. I need to go get their album.
Razorblade is kick ass
Hate me is sad, yet kick ass as well
Calling You... perfect example of my feelings. though i don't call Kelly 24/7...
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2006 19 September :: 8.54am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Pretty Baby - Spin Doctors
One more day!!!
*misses Kelly too much*
*sigh*
This is odd. I feel like a stalker missing him this much, always wanting to talk to him.
Hopefully I don't annoy him :s
... or scare him.
haha
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2006 18 September :: 9.03am
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Call me when you're sober - Evanescence
I so did not know that I had an invitation code. I would have used it long ago, because I <3 Woohu.
Anyway, I've got 2 tests today. I thought it was 3 but I was wrong.
Coming up: Business Management test. It should be relatively easy, a lot of it is common sense. I still get nervous and stress about it though.
The Psych one is actually only a quiz, but I don't like the word quiz, so it's a test. We have one everyday after we take notes (which is almost every day) and it's a lot of shit to remember, but it Does make you memorize it, so I guess it does work in the long haul... but I still effing hate them.
Dramatic people annoy me... *sits and listens to 2 dumb girls in front of me* yep... hate them.
I hope I wasn't that dramatic and dumb when i was little. Actually, I can rest assured that I wasn't; they annoyed me then too. If you've got some drama, keep a journal at home. Takes care of that solution. Now if only I can convience about 98% of the female population to do this....
I kind of make me sad. Used to I could smile and listen to dumb things dumb people told me about. Now I'm finding it hard to smile at most people even if they're not telling me anything dumb. I'm annoyed but about 8/9 of the school now a days. ... *sigh* i've become a hateful person I fear. Can't wait to get the hell to Michigan and my love.
Speaking of my love, he's away. Up and left me. He went to ... Mackinac.... i think.... to do his job. He will (hopefully) be returning on Wednesday, though it could be on Thursday I've been forewarned.
He's so cute and I love him
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2006 17 September :: 10.26am
surprise, surprise
i.feel.like.shit
i made an attempt to clean up the living room while babe got a shower, but i can't carry the bed away because it's too heavy and i'm too weak.
my dad should be calling me tonight to make arrangements to meet me tomorrow to give me my car.
i'm pretty psyched about that.
I'll probably do it after school, i only have a few more days left.
the only thing i have left are about five lessons in economics and about a whole class of algebra.
i hate algebra. it will take me probably like five days or somethign to finish my math.
other than that,
i have a doctor's appointment thursday,
and afterwards i'm probably going to fill out an app for an apartment.
there's something i have to tell my mom, but i'd like to wait until after i get an apartment to do so--that way she knows i'm responsible and that my priorities are straight.
i'm nervous.
i've been really nervous and on edge lately and a select few know just why that is.
all i'm saying is that i've thought about it and that i've made my decision and i'm pretty happy about it overall.
babe is there for me 24/7 and gets me anything i ask.
i love him and i am happy right now,
despite the fact that i wake up feeling liek shit every single day! =)
okay, i'm out.
i'm about the throw up this breakfast.
peace, ya'll.
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2006 16 September :: 6.24pm
:: Mood: content
Talking to the one I love, so all is well right now.
Still no news from Ferris. I'm really trying to be calm about this, but it's definitly getting to me. I never was one with patience.
Ashley got a new dog, and it's completely house trained so mom said we could keep it in the house rather than in the kennel... I hate dogs. that means that we have 2 1/2 inside dogs. the half is the only one I like, and only counts for half because she's outside most the time anyway. She's a white lab, and the dumbest/funniest thing ever. That's the extent of my liking of dogs.
Anyway, new dog's name is Piper, and I let her outside, and she started trying to kill my 2 cats. It was a freak out moment of mine, because I couldn't make her stop attacking them. It pissed me off, but Ashley wasn't here for me to scream at. *sigh*
The psychotic children that I called cute are definitly giving me a headache. Here's the line up
Marcus - 10
Kelsey - 7
Peighton - 5
Raygen - 4
Kendra - 2
Trevor basically has a non-stop conniption while they're here. He's used to 3 older sisters that don't touch any of his stuff because it's of no appeal to us, to 5 kids wanting to play with all of his stuff all of the time.
Marcus is Taylor's shadow, and an annoying know-it-all. sadly he does know most of it, he's one of those little kid geniouses.
Kelsey's a good kid, quiet and doesn't get into much, Peighton is probably the biggest whiner in the entire 5 year old population. Raygen is into everything, but it's almost impossible to get onto her because she's so sweet.. and, trueth be told, she's just a little ditzy blonde, which makes her even cuter. Kendra is a mouthy little shit. She can talk really freakin good, and uses the wonderful skill to put you in your place.
Anyway, I'm now bored with that, and tired of writing.
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2006 16 September :: 1.11pm
all work and no play
i went to school yesterday.
it was the first morning in like four days that i woke up feeling fine.
the only thing about it was that i was hungry about 12:30 and had to walk to Foodland to buy some lunch.
I got a good amount of work done and finished up five lessons.
I can't wait to finish it this next week.
I am so fed up with working at Sonny's.
I never have any hours, and the hours that I do have are rrreeally sucky ones. They pick favorites at that place and I hate it.
What's the point of working there if I never make any money and have to pay most of it back to the government anyways when I claim my tips??
Bob (my advisor-guy), wants me to get a job at Macy's. He says they're hiring, and I think it would be cool to work in a department store. I dunno, I just want a job at some place in the mall.
I get my car on Monday, so that will work out perfectly.
I'll go to school, get Bob's recommendation and then meet my dad to get new tires and windshield wipers.
Then, that way, after school on Tuesday, I can just drive up to the mall and apply.
Saa-weet. I'm way pumped about getting my car.
=)
ehh, i'm out.
no drama on this one, i just wanted to share my excitement.
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2006 15 September :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: To love you more - Celine Dion
I've a new favorite song!
Pretty Baby - Spin Doctors
Look around your world Pretty Baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be
The wrong guy
The wrong situation
The right time to roll to me
Roll to me
And look into your heart Pretty Baby
Is it aching with some aimless need
Is there something wrong and you can't put your finger on it
Right then
Roll to me
And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there
So don't try to deny Pretty Baby
You've been down so long
You can hardly see
When the engines stall and it won't stop raining
It's the right time to
Roll to me
Roll to me
Roll to me
And I don't think I have ever seen a soul so in despair
So if you want to talk the night through
Guess who will be there
So look around your world Pretty Baby
Is it everything you hoped it'd be
The wrong guy
The wrong situation
The right time to roll to me
The right time to roll to me
The right time to roll to meeee uuuhhhhhh
gorgeous hmm?
So tonight there's a party. i don't know if i'll be going or not. i kind of feel like putting on pj's and going to bed early tonight. It's been a really long week, and tomorrow some girls that we babysit a lot are coming over. Their mom was in a really bad wreck and was in the hospital for like 2 months so we kept them a lot. We're not needed anymore, but ... well it kind of seems like we're getting used, "oh, well i wanna go to the movies, so brian lisa and the girls can watch the kids." oh well though, the girls are so funny.
Still nothing out of Ferris.
Ok i just may go lay down, i've had an awful headache all day, and i don't need it turning into a migrain.
Love you Kelly.
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2006 15 September :: 10.56am
umm how pathetic can you actually get?
DuDe iTs ChUbBy: hahaha. i read your journal for the first time today and just saw ur entry about me. hahahaha.. i guess lisa forgot to mention that her man was getting on me.. and that we actually had sex 13 times.... while she was still with him
damn i love dumb ugly hoes like you... im glad i have fans!! thanks bitch! you suck at life.. hahaha
dude, wtf?
me and justin were fucking fighting and we broke up and he used her as a resort. it actually sucks on her part because she obviously is still in love with him if she's talking about him 24/7 and STILL trying to break us up and yet he picked me over her when we got back together. is she for real? i told caitlin to ask her how many times her boyfriend cheated on her. hahaha, ask her if it felt good when he lied to her about me? when he was calling me every day, trying to get me to be with him.
isn't that what we're fighting over in the first place? because i have her ex-boyfriend?
i mean, i never said anything to her. she saw my car parked at his house one night when we first started talking and being the psycho that she is, even though they were BROKE UP, she punched my mirror off.
and then after going around the school, telling everyone and their mothers that she was going to kick my ass, i fucking made her bleed like a life-sized tampon in front of everyone and embarass the fuck out of her because she is supposedly "as tough as they get."
if she doesn't like him, then why not let it go??
ooohh: THIS JUST IN--
I'm on the phone with Christina. She called me to ask me if I knew that it was actually me who keyed her car.
I just started busting out laughing. I was like, "what?!!!!!!"
I guess some dumb fat bitch (figures, sarah is friends with fat, scummy bitches) was saying stuff about how sarah is telling everyone that christina is trying to get all these girls after her.
and ben harve was like, "umm who do you think keyed christina's car or poured paint thinner on lisa's?"
and i guess that girl said something about ME keying christina's car.
HAHAHAHAHA yeah.
christina asked me if i need a ride to school and i told her i was "really sorry for keying her car, but i would appreciate it."
haha yeah, i uh, ran to school real fast around 10:30 from belle vernon right before i was about to go to school so i could key christina's car real fast.
HAHAHAHA HOW DUMB. bitches never cease to amaze me.
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2006 14 September :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: The Gift - Seether
Kelly & Rachel
IT'S OFFICIAL!!!!
He asked me!! We're happy and together now!!
Hopefully he doesn't realize how crazy I am just yet lol
*Thursday, September 14, 2006*
9:44 pm (my time)
10:44 pm (his time)
Isn't everything just perfect now? I think so too.
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2006 14 September :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: Nervous
:: Music: Remedy - Seether
I just realized that Ferris hasn't gotten back to me. I'm scared now.
Hopefully if they thought that I sucked and didn't want me at their school, they would tell me so in a letter right? Surely they wouldn't just trash my application while maniacally laughing... If I were them I'd be nice enough to let the person they're turning down know, rather than letting them hang in the air forever.
Unless of course they don't check the applications until closer to the start of the applied for school term? I bet that's it. I'm probably stessing over nothing.
*Crosses fingers*
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2006 14 September :: 7.38pm
:: Mood: horny
:: Music: Call me when you're sober - Evanescense
So, today was very well compared to yesterday.
I kind of forgot to bring home my homework yesterday so I had to hurry up and do it second hour when I have library. I also had to make up an interview with someone because I was simply too lazy to do that one. I need to stop being lazy and forgetful and do my stuff. It was a damn good made up interview though.
I'm slightly (majorly) disapointed because I've yet to tell the world that Kelly is amazing and that I love him whole heartedly. Again. lol
I never stopped loving him actually, just tried to pretend I didn't. But now we're together again, though not official, and where as that's pretty sad, I guess it's alright because ... hm. I can't think that thought out tonight. We'll let it go.
Fruit Sales for FFA started today, and I kind of don't like it. I'm not good at giving the sales pitch to people. But I sure can take the money!! .. ha.
*makes that invisible to Kelly's eyes*
Ah! speaking of which, I told him to update and I've not even read it yet!! I gotta go do that pronto.
<3
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