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spud	:: 2005 22 November :: 2.00pm that was a most unpleasant experience. but i seem to be doing better now. and all my drink seems to be staying down. i just had a piece of bread. we'll see how that goes. i'm missing my class. ugh. 4 comments \| p.s.

spud

:: 2005 21 November :: 4.19pm

check out the Solare website at www.soundclick.com

cool stuff. and me playing crappy drums. the only one that's semi-finished really is "kiss me".

but more to come, more to come.

i need to write a paper. and read several reams of stuff. and learn how to speak german.

by tomorrow.

smile!

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spud

:: 2005 20 November :: 1.39am
:: Mood: sleepy-weepy time

ghouls... i mean goyles. shit.

yesterday was fun. and so was today, for that matter.

yesterday i went shopping with ellen and katie. then we went on a bridge walk downtown (pizomp points), then we went to hunter's for pizza and a movie. we watched "love actually" i liked it a lot.

we also sang karaoke on this video game thing. it was weird. even more weird, my best song was "oops i did it again" by britney spears. oh well. the ladies were impressed with my falsetto. i think hunter was too, but he did a good job of hiding it. and honestly, he wasn't too shabby himself. a very good michael jackson - of jackson 5 no less.

i suppose i ought to join cuddle-sluts anonymous. population: us.

today i went with dad, libby, and kathy to see the goblet of fire at the IMAX. it was really cool and all. there was some stuff i didn't like. some stuff i did. i'm really still not sure how it all balances out, so i'm reserving official judgement. but it was certainly well done from a cinematic standpoint. neat camerawork and everything.

then rich's 40th birthday party. that was fun too. tomorrow is jackie and mom's and rob's and homework and radio show. monday is "write a paper and do german" day. and laundry also.

shit shit shit. i'll have to see if ellen has finished the reading yet. i just remembered it, and it's gonna take hella ever. oh well. no rest for the wicked, or whatever it is.

g'nightz!

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spud	:: 2005 16 November :: 5.17pm and i was having a good day too. why did i let it get to me? good riddance to bad rubbish, i say. gar. i have such a weak constitution sometimes. this is seriously stupid. i've gotta stop. 7 comments \| p.s.

spud

:: 2005 16 November :: 12.34am
:: Mood: confused (perpetually)
:: Music: DMB - Typical Situation

gah. in other news, i'm incredibly lame.

but i squeaked out an 80% on that paper. obviously not my best effort, but i was glad just not to have sucked total ass.

i'm seriously slacking in the german dept. i did the software, but i need to study more for the vocab quiz in the morning. and i didn't do any of the book work, because it requires all sorts of internet research. which i translate into a lot of frustration and a 3am bedtime. no sir. chris needs his beauty sleep.

so, that's why i suck.

but i helped ellen out tonight. and i vacuumed. and i did dishes.

so i must not be a complete waste of space ;)

if feelings suck, why am i such a whore for them. it's that whole "i'm a little kid again" thing going on. just lots of stuff that i haven't felt. and i don't get it. and i don't know what to do about it. but i kind of like it. i just don't know if i'm being stupid or not.

shut up, brain! and slow down, chris!

be the tortoise, be the tortoise!

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spud

:: 2005 14 November :: 11.15am
:: Music: the mahavishnu orchestra - birds of fire

can you say bullshit? because i can...

HNR 215C
Paper Topic #3
Due Tuesday, November 29, IN CLASS
5-7 pages

One of the central questions the Enlightenment raised was whether or not civilization (the culture of learning, ideas, and writing) was a moral force. Define the Enlightenment, discuss its origins, and analyze whether or not it made Europe a better place.

Your response must use Galileo, Voltaire, Mary Wollstonecraft, Olaudah Equiano, and Cowans. Please use both Candide and The Philosophical Dictionary.

p.s.

spud

:: 2005 14 November :: 2.37am

resemblance?

vs.

eh?

or not.

first radio show was tonight.

i had a good set list. only a couple of screw ups. not very charismatic.

pretty standard, actually. it's college radio anyway. dead air ... um ... dead air.

katie's home. ellen has her guiding star back :)

i felt like i was letting her down with my lack of instruction.

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spud

:: 2005 13 November :: 2.06am
:: Mood: nervous?

this is absolutely wild.
hunter's was a blast. he's always so fun, in his own weird way. i don't know what it is.

it was sad this time without katie there, but that's okay. nobody to impress or freak out about. i'm cool with that.

then ellen's DDR party was this evening. i'm actually getting halfway decent at the "beginner" stuff. i'm almost ready to go on to "light".
so so very lame, i am.

and then ellen and i went and took showers. then we watched "the ladies' man" and ate some food and stuff. and we also commiserated about the absence of katie for awhile. but it was all really good natured.

i sincerely hope that jackie honestly feels good about being rid of me. that's what i would like for her to feel. mom was concerned... about something else. but i don't think it will be an issue. or at least, i hope it won't be. if it is, jiminy cricket may never forgive me. but that's okay, i guess. you have to do the best you can. and work out twice a day. don't ask me why i said it. because i already forgot...

i just want to be sure i'm doing the right thing. which is like, never. i really don't know. and god really doesn't appear to feel like letting me in on the secret any time soon. 'salright. i wouldn't expect her to. him to. it to.

p.s.

spud

:: 2005 11 November :: 10.41am

*SB voice* : weirded out!
it's incredible the things i apparently say without actually saying them.

it all seems to happen so fast.

i guess it's better that i can't keep up. if i could, i'd be totally freaked out.

.

i accidentally bumped into some girl on my way out of german today. it totally caught me off guard. we were kinda mutually oblivious. i suppose it was very antisocial of me, but i just walked away without saying anything. she kept apologizing, but i was just as at fault as she was. and no harm, no foul, right?

communications test at 1. i think i'll take the bus to class.

hunters at 6 tonight. have to get in touch with ellen, and see when she wants to leave.

big wheel keeps a-spinnin' around. or something.

p.s.

spud

:: 2005 10 November :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: pensive

i hate being a jerk, but i hate having her think i'm pretending to be something i'm not. or maybe i am pretending. i don't know.

not anymore, i guess.

not that i ever was. i can't act. but even the normal me can be misleading sometimes.

i have a feeling that this holiday season is not going to be like the times of old. which will take some getting used to, most certainly.

*

hm. i'll keep doing my thing. well, it's not my thing, it's dad's thing. i just borrow it for times like this. hope it works.

in other news, i nearly forgot i have a german essay due in 12 hours. plenty of time. just annoying, as i thought i was going to sit down and watch a movie, only to be writing a paper instead.

can't always get what you want. then again, i guess i always do.

nope. gotta stop that. get it out of my HEAD!

geht aus meinem schwammkopf. ? nein. das ist sehr falsch... ich habe kein schwammkopf. ich habe ein schweinkopf. ja. das ist gut.

my grammar is abysmal. ich bin SCREWED!

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spud	:: 2005 9 November :: 9.15pm :: Mood: slightly irked ist es das Deutsches Uhr? on a completely unrelated note: yeah. i don't know. i'm not sure how i should feel about it at the moment. i guess just hope for the best. Heute, sehr viel Hausaufgaben. 1 comment \| p.s.

spud

:: 2005 8 November :: 11.25pm
:: Mood: tired?

shit

i'm beginning to realize how much confidence i've lost lately.

but i haven't yet ascertained why...

not that i was ever that confident to begin with. but i'm really getting shaky. and it totally compounds itself. and i don't know how to stop it. i guess just hanging around people who are willing to tell me how awesome i am. but they have to be people who i respect, and will believe.

and even if i am that awesome, i seem to be letting it all go to waste.

nicht gut. sehr mal. wait. mal is spanisch. oh, nevermind.

p.s.

spud

:: 2005 6 November :: 5.48pm

this weekend was wonderful. i had such an awesome time with jackie. it was the best. but now back to the grind. write a speech, read a book... you know the drill.

there's more i'm sure, but i just don't feel like talking about it right now.

oh... kathy got us tickets to go see harry potter 4 at the IMAX opening weekend.

i'm super-duper excited about that.

there, now you have your gossip, and you can leave me the hell alone.

:)

p.s.

spud

:: 2005 3 November :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: oh my gosh.

this is funny shit.
Thu, Nov 03, 2005 -- GVHNR215_216.C.053:
POUR MARDI 8 NOVEMBRE
S�il vous pla�t, lire les articles DIEU, EGALIT�, EZECHIEL, FANATISME, GUERRE, INONDATION, INQUISITION, JOB, MA�TRE, PATRIE, PAUL.
Posted by DAVID EICK

this is for my honors course, he just posted it on blackboard. my honors course is supposedly studying a history of european civilizations with a focus on spain.

so, why exactly did they give us someone from the french dept? that's twice now he has inadvertently regressed into french. the first time was a powerpoint about the FRENCH encyclop�die. and now we're reading voltaire's philisophical dictionary. translated from its original french. sometimes i wonder.

it's fun though. and they're absolutely brilliant. i mean it's just some incredible insight into the culture and the age and everything. really makes it come to life. but it's a shitload of reading... and writing... and worse yet, they expect you to be brilliant all the time, because you're an honors student.

and on top of it all, i guess i'm supposed to know french.

.
.
.

cognates are your friend. if anyone's tellin' you different, they tellin' you dead wrong.

p.s.

spud

:: 2005 3 November :: 10.18am
:: Mood: woodchipper?

Ich habe das Fernseher brauchen.

yeah. i want to just do laundry. and lay down. and watch a movie.

does that make me depressed? or lazy? because i don't think i am. i'm just a greedy bastard, that's all.

i'm alreay wearing out this keyboard, i think. i'm not sure how that's possible, but there you have it. it keeps making this strange rattling sound.

"dude, you should've gotten a dell." fuck you dell. and fuck you compaq.

i have a lot of reading to do. it's just not going to happen. oh well, right?

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