:: 2003 4 October :: 1.06 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: My own Flava

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:: 2003 2 October :: 6.07 pm
:: Mood: confused

today on aol
I was talking to one of my good guy friends today on aol. I love that dude, he means so much to me. Well he asked me to do a favor for him. So I said sure. He just wants me to get this guy off this girl's back so he can go to homecoming w/ her. When he told me this I was like wha?? Jealousy came over me. It sux. I dunno if I like him or not. All I know is that I'm jealous. It totally sux, TOTALLY! What do you guys think?? I dunno what to do. I guess I'll talk to you kids later. Byes...

AndI

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:: 2003 1 October :: 4.44 pm
:: Mood: calm

whatevas
I'm just bored now. Woo! lol. Yeah so um...sup ladies? (u too men)

Ed got a tat! That kid is getting more weird everyday. He's tat is a Black and Green punk star. Woo! It's located on his four arm.

I have no clue on what to do w/ myself when i have extra time and nuttin is on the telli.

I'm worried about Levi. He hasn't been the same for a while and I call him once a day and lately he hasn't been picking up. I hope that white boy is fine.

At my school they have a christian gathering during 2nd lunch so I went today. It was ok, i didn't really like it. But I'll go again maybe.

In biology i had a 60 question test! Geez! It sucked totally. But w/e I passed.

Amanda sent me another balloon! lol. It's my 2nd one from her. Logan got me the other one, so all together i had 3! (nice math right?)

I have youth tonight. Woo! I hope Levi is there, so i can talk to him.

You know that 11th grader that u may have heard about? Well I can't resist him! I wanna but i can't! He's such a good talker! lol.

I'll talk to u gents later!

AndI

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:: 2003 30 September :: 9.37 am
:: Mood: creative

Of All the Ways to Go!
By: Brandon (again)

Over the years it has been sort of a competition among the human race to see who can die in the weirdest way. Can you imagine getting shot by your best friend for drinking his last beer? On November 5, 2001 Steven Brasher 42, shot and killed his life long friend Willie Lawson 39 after accusing him of drinking the last beer in his fridge. “There were only two beers left,” Steven said, “so I took one and told Willie not to take my last beer.” Willie reportedly screamed for mercy before he died under the pretences that he had not touched the last beer, but had instead drank bacon grease. The last beer was found in the crisper shortly after police arrived on the scene…the irony is astounding! This is a pretty cruddy way to go, but hey, it is Texas, so what can you say? However, this is not nearly the worst way to go, the worst death I have ever heard of hails from the Philippines.
In Zamboanga in the Philippines, one rooster got tired of animal cruelty. A rooster, about to be released for a cockfight, suddenly and unexplainably turned on its master. With a mighty crow of rage and indignation the rooster attacked the Pilipino man, slashing his thighs and groin to ribbons with the razor sharp steel spikes attached to its tiny rooster legs. The man bled to death on the way to the hospital. A 200 lb man got utterly destroyed by a 3 oz bird that can’t even fly! All the paramedics wanted to know was whether or not the cockfight was still on, because they now knew whom they were going to bet on. Some villagers say that on dark and cold nights in mid July if you listen to the wind hard enough…you’ll be a moron standing outside listening to the wind in the middle of July! What was this man thinking? Training a rooster in the ways of Pilipino martial arts and attaching hepatitis B infected spiked to its tiny rooster feet?
The weirdest and most ironic way to go award has got to go to none other than Chucky Cheese the Rat. An Ohio middle school was taking a field trip to the Chucky Cheese pepperoni processing plant, so a janitor was called in to wear the Chucky costume during the field trip. All was going well till one overzealous went to give Chucky a “hug”, as he told police, and accidentally knocked him over the railing of the overpass they were on at the time. The janitor then proceeded to drop about twenty feet into the giant meet shredder and be processed into little Chucky Cheese pepperonis. Oh yeah but its, “The cool place for kids!” yeah sick little friggen’ cannibalistic janitor eating three year old kids! Just imagine, your four year old daughter biting into a nice hot slice of pepperoni and bacon pizza the next time you go to Chucky Cheese, and then I want you to imagine her sweet little face covered in the blood and flesh of a dirty sweaty janitor in a giant rat costume. There is only did he really need the overtime that badly?


um...AndI

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:: 2003 28 September :: 10.12 am
:: Mood: excluded

alone
No one invites me to do n e thing n e more. Thier like everyone is goin to the movies together and i'm like not true, i'm not goin and they ask why i'm not goin w/ my friends and i said they didn't invite me. I mean...i dunno...I'm just not use to this i guess.

I c few of my friends at school b/c i have none there except for like 5 and then they go off and do stuff w/ the friends that i never c or talk to n e more. I feel excluded and left behind.
I don't like to feel that way. But i guess i have to live w/ it.
Only one person invites me to do n ething and it's not one of my friends in Cape Coma.
i'm just....i'm just..i'm just gonna leave.

AndI

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:: 2003 27 September :: 6.31 pm
:: Mood: Crap

the week and the weekend
The past week is Crap. Crap is my past week.

My life is crap , crap is my life.

My weekend is crap, crap has taken over my weekend, my week and my life.

O CRAP!

How am I? I am crappy.


AndI

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:: 2003 26 September :: 8.37 pm
:: Mood: irritated

eventful
Morning: Bus was late, really late. Like 30 minutes late. So my ma had to drive me to school, but what made it worse was there is a kid (he's a weirdo) at my bus stop too, so my mom was like,"Ask him if he wants a ride." Of course I objected, but I HAD to ask him b/c of her (the loser). He said yes (the bastard), so we gave him a ride. For a half hour there all I smell was that kid. He smelt bad yo!

During school: In spanish we had a substitute; there is a GOD! The guy was soo rad! We watched the little Mermaid for the whole time, but it was in spanish, but it was all good. Then in English we also had a substitute; world of substitutes!! This one was um...odd, yeah odd; good word. His other job is being a professional clown! He showed me his lisence. Crazy yo! He made a balloon into an apple. lol. The newspapers didn't get to the school today! GrrrrDified! GRRR!!! I want them sooo bad.

Afternoon: We had a substitue bus driver; another substitute today! She's spanish and don't know the street ways very good. It was funny, but irriatating. Everyone had to tell her where to go and she goes the wrong way n e way, there's no point. Nick told her to take a Uey and she goes down this street to do it and there's a circle at the end. The circle is too tight for the bus and there is bolders around it. Well we get stuck on the boulders!! It was funny as heck yo! Nick was like back up, turn, go forward, back up. Anthony had to go out and move the boulders himself. lol. A neighbor came out and watched us and we're just like hi, how are u doin? See n e thing bizarre today? lol. it was great. I got mad b/c i came home so late!! Grr!


AndI

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:: 2003 23 September :: 3.40 pm
:: Mood: awake

*I am the IMPOSTER*

I went down a road where I have never been before. A road I don't want to plounder down again...

People kept telling me that I am "Mary" and that I am uptight about certain things. They made me feel bad about being ME. They told me to "loosen up", so I did. Who were those people? My friends. I NEVER want to do that again. It made me turn off my road and onto a stranger's highway. I didn't know where I am going or who I am or what I became, I am lost. I can't read the signs. I met people on the way and I'm not so proud. Being ashamed has come over me.

Walking down the road I took a break for water, so pretty, pure, tasteful; that's not me. I dropped my jug from shock. I couldn't stand seeing my reflection. I'm done being this stranger. Finished. I wanna be ME not this IMPOSTER.

I have lost my moral, my "laws". The cold, hard rain washed them away. The rain cloud still stands over me; hovering over, covering my sun; my light to the exit off the road. It's hauging it. Still over my head, I can't see the highway laying in front of me. I'm going to keep going down it untill I can see clearly.

My light is gone. The grey cloud just wants me to suffer. Suffer till I can't no longer. I'm begging to let my sun show me the exit off this stranger's highway. I want to be me; be on my road. I want to be better than I was before. I want my road, my life. I want it all better than in the past. Show me the exit. Just let a lil light shine through. I want to go home.....


AndI

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:: 2003 22 September :: 3.40 pm
:: Mood: nuttin to feel

Ok, so I got an e-mail from Derek from Twisted Method. He's a cool guy. Yeah, so, n e ways. At school, I couldn't find Ryan!!! I need to find the loser.

I didn't see brandpn at all today at school. I'm kinda happy i dind't.

I'm gonna really try now to get everything straight....with EVERYTHING! (have no worries Amber)


AndI

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:: 2003 21 September :: 12.40 am
:: Mood: GRRRdified

Everyone_her
Ok, ever since Amanda and I have been haveing trouble w/ eachother all hell broke loose. Dudes, leave ppl alone, it's none of ur damn bussiness.

Ppl have been giving crap to ppl who are still friends w/ me. Dude, lay off. If they wanna be friends w/ me let them. What kind of friend are u at telling them what they should or should not do? (cough cough JEREMY!)

I just want ppl to know that I have not been talking bad about amanda. I've been talking about other things. I mean come on there is more to talk about. More positive stuff, U know?

I'm tired of all this crap. It just makes me GRRDified, ppl are trying to be part of this issue and they shouldn't or they bring ppl in it. Like Amber, dude, leave her alone, don't talk crap about amanda to her, it's not right. U wanna talk crap about amanda? Then talk to amanda and tell her ur own damn self even though she wont care.

I wonder that if amanda and i become friends that most of all this shit will stop. Look! I used a bad word! That should tell u how frusturated i am.

I have been sticking up for amanda and amber w/ a certain someone. I mean even though amanda and I aren't that great of friends n e more i will stick up for her, she's a TubuLAR chick just like Amber.

AndI

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:: 2003 19 September :: 3.37 pm
:: Mood: numb

I don't want to talk
I'm afraid of what I might say to you
I don't wanna talk to you n e more
Just go away
Let me be
Let me mold my life as I want it to be
I hold my self back
Every time you come around
I'm holding my right of silence
Just go away
Disappear from my life
I don't want to talk
I'm afraid of what I might say to you
I bite my tongue,
Hold my silence
Every time you come around.
I don't want to talk to you n e more
Just disappear
Go away
Let me live my life
I hold myself
every time you come around.

AndI

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:: 2003 19 September :: 3.27 pm

It's friday and no homework! I'm sooo HAPPY! Dude, I had a lil secret at school that only 2 ppl knew and now most of the "circle" knows b/c someone saw my secret...oops. Well I have to go. L8r.

Happy birthday Cailyn!!!!I love you!

AndI

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:: 2003 18 September :: 9.26 am
:: Mood: cheerful

BY: Brandon L
Attempted Suicide or Desperate Cry for Hospital Food?


Recently, in Pontiac Michigan Robert Nitz, a man the age of 40, was convicted of arson. Why? Because Robby has an obsession with self-mutilation that has cost the sate more than $1 million. Nitzy has a wound in his chest that will not close because of all the times he has tried to hurt himself, this includes pulling out his intestines to throw at the local deputies whom arrested him, and they should have fun with that in prison. This awesome dude has cut himself open with a toothbrush, pen, razor, and the handcuffs he was arrested with. A toothbrush, that is an accomplishment of public education if anything is!
The maximum sentence for his crime is 20 years, but Mr. Robby’s attorney is confident that he will get his sick friend of with the minimum sentence of six years. However, this leaves one to wonder, “Why does Robby harm himself in such seemingly sadomasochistic ways?” The only plausible answer possible is free hospital food.



AndI

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:: 2003 17 September :: 7.34 am
:: Mood: grateful

See You at the Pole
Before the morning sunrays touch the Earth students come on school ground. They come for one reason and one reason only, to pray. As they gather around the school’s flagpole they don’t say a word, they know what they came to do. Hands are holding other hands not caring whom the other hand belongs to.

The students pray for people and for themselves, having everyone be blessed. As they start and keep praying, more students come and join the party. The circle is opened for the others with no question, it doesn’t matter who they are or what they are wearing.

Silence has taken over the people.

A half hour later praying non-stop they close in another prayer and head in school with a fresh start of the day.


AndI

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:: 2003 15 September :: 8.30 pm
:: Mood: wala wala bang bang

"Crumble"
You stare at her
That look, that glance
I want it
I gotta have it

I walk
I stumble
I fall
I will crumble
I will crumble

You are who you are
Your in love with her
I am nothing
But you are mine
Forever
forever mine

Your playing
Your joking
I said but you promise you care for me more
Your lying
Why are you saying you care
That stare, that look
It's not mine

I walk
I stumble
I fall
I am nothing at all
I will crumble
I will crumble

Forever you are mine
You are mine
You tease everytime
Just don't try to please

You love her
You cherish her
Just be with her

Leave me here to crumble
I will stumble and I will Fall
I can't get up
To you I am nothing at all

Stop lying
Stop playing
Be true
Be you

I stumbled
I fell
I can't
I refuse
Just leave me here to crumble
I will crumble
I will crumble
I will crumble...

AndI

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