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2003 10 April :: 9.20pm
:: Mood: sick
Thin people have feelings too. I don't enjoy having attention being called to my weight. Esp. over and over and over again. It makes me feel bad. So let's not ever talk about it.
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2003 9 April :: 8.35pm
:: Mood: sun burnt on my face, but HAPPY!!! :)
:: Music: clemency- miracles
hey kids!!!! well, today was .... um... AWESOME! that's the only word that comes to mind when i think of today. it was sooo much fun. we got up and i showered..OUTDOORS :), had some breakfast and whatever. then we did a tour of alcatraz island which back in the 1930's-60's was the worst federal penitentrary in the country and was described as inexcapable. some of the most famous prisoners were there. so that was really cool to tour the inside and see how these criminals lived. we got to ride on a boat and all that fun stuff. we saw some seals suning themsleves this morning. then after the tour we just walked around fishermans wharf, which is like a big huge tourist place. just shop after shop after shop after resturaunt and street vendors with everything you can think of. people doing paintings and playing guitar on the street. we had the BEST shrimp off the street and clam chowder...mmmmm!!!! then we took a cable car into the city and saw lumbard street, the crookedest street in the world...haha..try getting your car down there. right....:) we went into a museum with all these little machines you can put quarters into. we listened to player pianos play old rag time music and dancing puppets and fourtune tellers...way cool :) then..okay, get ready for this... we went past union square with macy's and sax fifth avenue and tiffinays!! only to end up at the san fransisco shopping centere... a freaking 7 story mall with NORDSTROMS!!! i saw stuff in there from seventeen magazine and i'm not joking. $200 for a shirt. holy shit! there was a full grand steinway and sons piano there with a lady playing. she was sooooooooooooooooo good. i really miss my piano. *sigh* and my flute. i need my instruments. oh well.... so, then we got some CHUNKY MONKEY ice cream at ben and jerrys and headed home. overall, today rocked :). i really like i here. the weather was about 70 degrees so i was just in a tank top and got a little pink on my face :). expect a daily update. mainly its for me because then i can remember what i did everyday without having to write it down in a notebook or anything. sooo...hope everyone is having a great time in whatever you're doing to keep busy!!! love and hugs to all :) !!!!! ps... i'm 3 hours behind your time...that's why the entries are at funny times a day :)
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2003 8 April :: 6.54pm
:: Mood: happy/sunny!!
:: Music: clemency of course
hey hey! i'm in sunny california at my aunts! it was about 65-70 degrees here today. it was wonderful!! my aunt took us to a few beaches and around. it's so beautiful here!! i love it!! we layed out in the sun in our bathing suits this afternoon. and she has an OUTDOOR shower!! with a curtain and everything. it's soooo cool!!! it 's so much fun!!! just everything is great here. i'm having a blast and i hope you all are too!!!! i miss you all!!! love and hugs!
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2003 6 April :: 1.03pm
:: Mood: dfjkl;sdfsdfjkl
:: Music: shout to the lord
It wouldn't be like this if he had done the job right in the first place. Maybe if he had thanked me instead of acted like an asshole. Maybe he hadn't been talking and being stupid all through church.
You think people would take a hint and just leave you alone when you're in a bad mood. But he just has to keep bugging me and then he says I'm bitchy when I tell him to shut up.
And now I have to hang out with him all day. And take him places.
Stupid poser is too big for his breeches.
Ha ha ha haha haha
I'll give him a knuckle sandwhich.
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2003 5 April :: 11.21pm
:: Mood: irked
:: Music: my fair lady-wouldn't it be loverly
A-ron is such an ass. I really hate him a lot sometimes. Just because he's mr.pubert poser boy now he thinks he can be a jerk to everyone.
I cleaned his stupid room. Not even that. I just dusted and put his junk in a drawer. And I made his closet look nice. Mom didn't even ask me to do it. I was just being super nice because he didn't even do a good fake job. It's not like I went searching for his drugs or anything. I didn't go through anything. I just made it look nice. And he gets MAD at me. That's right. His emotion was anger instead of gratefulness. What an assface. I did him a big favor. Why does he think he can get away with stuff like that? Mom and I worked hard to get the house really nice looking for the open house tomorrow. And he didn't even bother. And it's even worse that he knows he's an ass. But he doesn't care at all. Then he goes around like I'm not unhappy with him and farts and says annoying things. Then says I've been in a bad mood all day. Which, even if it was true, makes no difference because he's was being an ass somewhere else today.
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But anyway. The house does look really nice and clean and elegant and cozy. I wish it was like this all the time.
And I never realized how much art, and how many photos and books we have all over the place.
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2003 5 April :: 9.02pm
:: Mood: tired/sick
:: Music: fuzzy logic- last night :)
okay, first off, i just want to congradulate the guys on winning the talent show without anyone having a band bashing war with the comments. i respect all the bands for the courage to get up in front of almost 1,000 people and play music. it takes alot of guts and i think everyone did a great job. i think everyone thinks that i totally hate BSC because i'm such a fuzzy logic fan but i don't. i think BSC has a lot of potential and a lot of talent within their band. but i will always be back stage cheering on josh, jake, roman and "the bass player", whoever it may be :).
okay, so... now that's over and done with i will continue.
monday we leave for san fransisco. i did the majority of my packing tonight so i should be okay. i'm reallllllly excited!! the weather should be nicer than all the ice and snow here! danielle called me from florida today! i was so happy to hear from her. she said it was about 80 degrees there and she was sitting by the pool in her bathing suit! ahhh....it sounded sooo nice. but soon enought, i too will be doing the same i hope. it just won't be 80 degrees. 70 if i'm lucky.
the puppies are doing good. mom gave them a bath today and they are all nice and clean to go over to jill's house for break. they are so cute sometimes. they'll just fall asleep in my arms and it's the best feeling. :)
anyways, i'm still a little sick and my voice is still a little froggy but that's okay. hope everyone has a good break and i'll be thinking about you all in CA. lots of love and hugs!!
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2003 3 April :: 10.54pm
:: Mood: down
I have that bittersweet feeling about losing something again.
I'm happy that I don't have to spend two hours a day with moody, kids who won't shut up or sit or stop spilling milk or talking about toilets and eating with their mouths open and hitting and rocking and demanding and being mean and frustrating me.
But I'm sad that I won't get to spend two hours a day with really funny, sweet, cute, smart, innocent, rowdy, laughing and oblivious six and seven year olds. I won't get to read to them or have them read to me. I can't play Chutes and Ladders with them either.
And I'll miss Erin and Katie and Hilary and Mrs. Potter. Even though it was awkward. They're nice people.
I guess I won't miss making copies. Or waiting for the pick-up kids to get picked up. But I think that's it.
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So the computer is in the basement now. This is kind of strange. But it will help me get over my fear of the basement
maybe.
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2003 3 April :: 6.16pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: mya-case of the ex
He's been discharged.
I have all these get well cards and no address.
Must use my super sleuth skills.
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2003 1 April :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: sick
You are a child's kiss. Completely sweet and
innocent and pure. You mean no harm and only
love in your sweet kisses.
What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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2003 31 March :: 10.15pm
:: Mood: calm
woot woot! we got our puppies yesterday!! larkin and zoe are the names. zoe pronounced zo-ey. :) i'm super happy because i'm talking to jesse from clemency right now! woooo woooo!! and i'm on our new computer!!!!!!!!!! okay, too much excitement for one night
i better go!
byb yebybeyeyb
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2003 24 March :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: chicago-we both reached for the gun
if anyone has any ideas (good ones not stupid ones) for names for my new puppy, please comment...i'm so lost! she's a girl and a golden retriever/lab mix. sooo....bring on the names!!!!!
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2003 23 March :: 9.52pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: canon in d
hmmm... it's been a while since my last post. sorry about that, but i've been extremely busy bee.
mentoring is going good, but it's getting a little old. the same old ritual every day, same snacks, same kids, same teachers....it's kind of boring. but, hey, it's money. and i shouldn't be complaining.
the musical is finally over!! hurrah! it was alot of fun, but i'm really glad it's done. last week was just really jam packed and it just added to the stress pot. the cast party was just a riot last night. we had a blast doing all those silly dances. jess came home with me after and spent the night. so we had a full house with grandpa and grandma here.
state solo and ensemble was yesterday. both my quartet and solo got a one so i was very happy about that. i think almost everyone was very pleased with our ratings. we worked hard. personally, i had a blast and can't wait till next year!
sooo... now it's time to start thinking about spring break, which i'm very ready for by the way. i'm looking forward to seeing my aunt and spending sometime with her and my mom out in california.
the 30 hour famine was last weekend. so far we have raised $2,500 for world vision. they will be using the money to provide food, shelter, health care and clothing to people of poverty all over the world, but mostly in africa. it was one of the most life changing experences i've ever had. 30 hours going without food seems like a long time, but it wasn't at all. especially when you think of the people who go so much longer without food. my stomach didn't even growl! the great band, clemency from oklahoma city was there and played at the great concert friday night with 3 other bands. they played some more on saturday and because they were staying with ashley badge and her family, they came to church and sunday school on sunday morning and played there too. they were awesome and extremley nice and just a joy to meet. we're hoping they can come and visit somtime this summer. so overall, it was an amazing experence. i have a booklet of everyones testamonies. if anyone is intrested in reading what was going through our minds, talk to me and i'll bring it in for you to read.
well, with that, i think that's all that's been going on latley. everyone wish ANDY a happy 15th birthday on saturday, march 29th. i know it's early, andy, but i don't know if i'll write before then, so i'm getting it in now :). and happy 16th birthday to RYAN on wednesday, march 26th.
hope everyone has a good week and feel free to update me on what's been going on with you too! i love email and comments! good night and sweet dreams to all :)
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2003 22 March :: 11.27pm
:: Mood: aggravated
She makes me so boiling mad.
I've never felt such loathing for anyone.
I've never known anyone so oblivious either.
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2003 21 March :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: contrary and spoiled
:: Music: edwin mcain
So "they" say that we're lucky and we should enjoy what we have because noteveryoneintheworldhasallthewonderfulthingswehave.
"They" also say that we're selfish and we don't deserve all the things we have.
So what do "they" want from me?
Be thankful or feel guilty?
So going shopping for me is this big moral debate. I hate spending money because you're supposed to be thrifty, but I want new things. But then I don't end up enjoying the new things because I feel guilty about spending money. Or I don't buy anything and feel bad because I:
A). wasted my time
B). don't have anything new
And being Miss Picky Fickle, I can't find anything I like. Clothes are too tacky, too ugly, too tight, too lose, too plain, too showy, ect. And being picky is a bad thing, I guess. Other people don't have this problem finding something. I have this awful ideal of how clothes should look on me. It rarely happens.
And then I feel ugly and act like a complete brat in a public place. And then I pout. Mom gets mad and calls me selfish, but in reality I just don't want to waste her money on something I don't deserve and won't enjoy anyway.
And then! She offers to buy me something anyway, but I'm too stubborn and refuse to pick anything out. So I sit and brood and really want what she offered, but it's too late. Then there's this horrible compusive feeling that I've missed out on something.
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dumbdumbdumb
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2003 21 March :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: bad
uglybadselfishvaindumbgirl
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