that is so retro

:: 2004 11 August :: 4.18pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: fallen

first day of school and we're officially JUNIORS!!
i wake up like usual. do the whole routine and go out to wait for the bus. yadda yadda..it finally gets there, so we all get on. i notice that amy isnt on, so i called her up and asked where she was. she says shes about to go onto 3rd street. i ask her why she isnt on the bus..she says she is. i say no your not, im on the bus. me and kaila figured that the bus route got split. we picked up a few more stops and amara calls and is on amys bus. THEN, we reach one stop and the bus driver tells the people there that ONLY south tech kids are supposed to be on this bus. well, i assumed she was stupid and said no, atlantic rides this bus too. anyhoo, we finally find out that we were on the wrong bus!! lmao. eventually we made it to another atlantic stop..where we got stranded. lol. we arrived a school late. got in trouble for dress code. saw mr. morone. had to run to class. and then i was finally able to sit and go back to routine. my classes are great. i have lots of people in all of them. i was happy lol. then i took the right bus home- had the usual funny convos. and now i gotta bounce. ttyl. xoxo.

:: 2004 10 August :: 9.42pm
:: Mood: pissed
:: Music: fuck you

the last night of summer...
you would think i spent it relaxing or finishing up some last minute things. heh- guess again. i just spent the night fighting with my mom. damn those mood swings. she just randomly went crazy. and now i got my sister on my back. you wanna know the funny part? i'll tell you- the whole thing is my fault! pardon my french, but how the fuck do you get off telling me that your random rant is my fault?or that because i cant perfectly work to your schedule is my fault? and then when i finally get pissed- i have no fucking right to be? nah uh. i dont think so. like im supposed to be controlled when my head is about to pop off with anger. i just love how nothing was their fault and i should be the one who goes to them and tries to work things out. whatever. not this time. it'll just have to blow over, because i am not apologizing for not doing anything.

whew. had to vent. laterr.

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 10 August :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: r.e.m. - nightswimming

i'll do anything for another couple of days with you

man. i loved this summer, i'm going to miss it so much. i loved the boredom, those fine boys, my summer lovin, my big family vacation on the beach in north carolina, sleepovers with tina, trip to orlando, concerts, the beach... just everything. i'd do anything for a few more days or a whole month.

on better news, other than school, the pimp mobile is now on the road and will be coming to a neighborhood near you as soon as possible. just call danielle on the cell and she'll pay you a visit since she got a really asian job today that will pay her $7 an hour, because i just rock, which means like $500 dollars a month so we can have fuuun. rock the universe here we come.

<3

:: 2004 10 August :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: satisfied
:: Music: move ya body

who makes an awesome team??
answer: me and kaila!!

mhm. yup. that's right. we got all the bio work done. even with our ADD distractions. lol. i don't think i would have gotten it done so fast if it weren't for her. muchas gracias chiquita. much love. but of course we managed to do other stuff while i was there. --> i saw all her pretty new stuff from her bday and her shopping spree. and the usual girl talk. looked at pictures from the party. they came out really cute.

now i gotta go to my aunt's house to print out this crap. my printer died. then i'll get the spark notes for the book. yuh- completely forgot about those. thank god kaila reminded me. :).

peace out homies! xoxo.

PS: kaila did my background. do ya like?? i do!! wuv you girlie!!

:: 2004 10 August :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: happy

my sammi is hereeeeeee!!!
we just finished that frickin bio packet!!..finally!!..took a lil while..but we got thru it!! thank u sammi for ur help!! wuv uuuuu!!

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:: 2004 10 August :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Lean Back (Remix)

last day of summer (it shudd be fun and exciting right??)
nope..lol..im here trying to do some of that bio stuff..not working tho..lol..listening to some music..i found my book..lol..it was in tatie's house..i took it to the pool..and it got all wet..lol..dont kno how tho..neways..i havent been reading that..oh well..sam q called me today..she said happy birthday..:)..i talked to her for a bit..now im here..bored and hungry..i think sammi's coming over to help me with the bio packet..damn i cant believe how fast summer went by..itz gone..lol..i guess im kinda looking foward to school..only for the socializing part tho..lol.. see you guys 2moro!!..x0x0

:: 2004 9 August :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: groggy

i went to nikki's last night! <3
it was supposed to be a cheerleading get 2gether... however that's not how it ended up. me, chelsea, nikki & angie were the only ones from the team. then i met Sam Conn who went to WMS, and met megan kristen & katilyn. nikki's house was COMPLETELY empty cause she hadda move out the next day... well... we decided to throw a party with her dad's permission... of course he didn't care. there hadda be 200 kids there according to her dad. omg it was awesome. chelsea n i walking down the street & chelsea throwing a backhand spring while drunk lmao. then being out back n having a cart wheel contest... all three of us = chelsea, me, & lil bella all falling on our asses lol. omg we had so much fun... but then chelsea passing out on the bed & people started making out on the bed... not knowing she was already sleeping in it lmao. sucked that everyone got kicked out kinda early like around 12:30 ish cause the neighbors were threatening to call the cops. and then... Rodrigo being drunk and keith, me, and angie being hungry lol. i hadda blast. i felt bad for angie cause she didn't look like she was having fun. SET! lmao chelsea. dancing with nikki n sam was fun too. but the argument btwn katilyn and nikki was outrageous. but we went to bed around 4am and nikki's dad woke us up around 7am. damn it. we cleaned up and got donuts and then sam's bro picked up me, sam, chelsea, and kristen. i can't believe kristen doesn't remember falling off the bed when nikki pushed her off lmao. but we just hung out and ate food at sam's. then johvan and derek came over. hung out... showered... my mom picked me up around 3:30pm. chelsea, kristen, and sam were gonna go get trashed at the drive thru, and invited me... but i was supposed to go shopping at the mall... but my mother was too tired. damn it. but whatever. that ended my summer just the way i wanted it, although i feel bad considering what jonah probably thinks of me. idk why it matters, but he's always kept me outta trouble. until now... but we're even. he got messed up, so did i. ha. anyways... time for bed... night night. soooo tired. xoxo

:: 2004 9 August :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: sunshine

summer. and i'm already working hard.
yesterday ----> i worked on biology almost the whole day. i dunno how i made it. well, i did take a break and watched Runaway Jury. good movie. but it was right back to work for me. talked to some people- but mainly it was about the assignment. yeah- i know, what dorks. heh.

today ----> went to breakfast. then tried reading, but i think next time i should do it without the tv staring me in the face. only got to chapter 4. but i'm not stessing it that much. i did some more bio homework. i just have those last 6 questions. i might get together with kaila tomorrow to work on it. if not i'll just do it tomorrow by myself. oh, and f.y.i. we finally got a new air conditioning unit. so it wont be breaking anymore. yay for that.

this was my little break. i'm off yet again. ttyl. xoxo.

:: 2004 9 August :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: cracking up!!
:: Music: Should of Known Better-Monica

lmao....
well it was a nice bright sunny morning this morning..so we were gonna go to christie's pool..china wanted to go because she leaves tonight..so we got all ready..it was about 9-ish this morning..right when we went out the door..it started pouring raininggg..like pouring..lol..so chi got pissed and went outside in the backyard..so i went outside with her..then talia followed us..so the three of us were out there just messing around in the rain..lol..i felt like a little kid playing in the rain..then we started playing hand games..like numbers and all those other lil games we used to play when we were little..lol..and we were doing this while it was pouring raining..lol..it was fun..then it stopped raining and we went to the pool..we had fun over there to0..we raced each other in the pool and played water tag..then chicken..i won in chicken..that's my game right there..i always win..lol..so now im home..juss chillan..bout to jump in the shower..we just got home from the pool..talk to all u guys laterrrr..luv u..x0x0

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:: 2004 8 August :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: My Place-Nelly

my party really DID turn out to be "off tha chain"..lol
ayyy..i had such a great time at the party last nite..im soo0o0o happy all you guys were able to come..it meant alot to me that you guys celebrated my special day with meEe..:D..i hope u guys had as much fun as i did..thank you all for my gifts to0..they were greattt..im waiting on all the pictures that were taken..the picz from the digi cam came out really cute tho..but my dad took 4 rolls of film..so i wanna see those..wowww..i had soo much fun..i cant get over it..lol..we partied hard..the DJ played all my music..he did good..gotta give him props..he played baby got back..lol..that was hilarious..my mom got kinda crazy..but thatz how she always is..meli and eric were soo cute together..lol..my dad was a little on the tipsy side.,but he did good..he didnt embarrass me too much..except when he cut in on me and emir's dance..did any body catch that??..lol..sameen-my mommy thinks your a really nice guy..lol..she told me to tell u that..sammi im so happy u danced..lol..the party took a lil while to get pumped up..but after me meli and ricarda started dancing and then junito and shawn got there it started poppin off..briana-my cousin likes youuu..lol..he's a player though..lol..but yea i had soo much fun..me n meli got to dance to our song..Obsession..then we all made a big circle..and danced to all these sean paul songs..lol..and tried doin all the dances from the videos..haha..that was greatt..we did really good tho..lol..my cousins were actin a fool..they're really koo tho..WE DID THE CHA-CHA SLIDEEEE...that was hott..then the electric slide..lol..and the macarena..carlos got down to that one..my feet were killinggg me way before the night was over..so i took off my shoes..so did every1 else..lol..then when i danced salsa with junito..he wanted to lead..so i sed ok..then he frickin killed my toe..omg..lol..but we had alotta fun..i didnt get to have my own cake..:(..that was the only downside..lol..but i think there's leftovers..so i needa look for it..lol..what else??..i read the picture everyone sgined last nite..you guys all wrote really nice things..i appreciate it..i was supposed to give everyone a picture..but with all the running around i forgot..i will definately give them to you guys at school..thanks again for coming i hope you had as much fun as i did!!..love you guys!!..x0x0

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:: 2004 7 August :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: hyperrr
:: Music: if youre happy and you know it

THAT WAS ONE FUN PARTAY!!
it was me, amara, amy, heather, valerie, carlos, anand, briana, danielle, rachel, amanda, sameen, and, of course, kaila. we all hung out, ate, and danced. even i did. i was so proud of myself. lol. kaila looked like a princess, she was so prettyful. and everyone else was cute all dressed up. i had a lot of fun..i just wanted to update on that. im out now. xoxo.

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:: 2004 7 August :: 10.32am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: autobiography

tonight's the big night!
yesterday, i talked to amy and heather. they're a riot and a half. and now i really wanna see the Harold and Kumar go to White Castle, or whatever it's called, movie. then i went to the mall and bought some earrings to go with my dress and then a new pair of jeans. that made me happy. we also went out for lunch at Chilli's. yumm yum. got home- did some homework while talking to my ashley. so i guess you can figure out how much i actually did. lol. talked some more to amy about what we're wearing to the party tonight and other random stuff. my kaila called too! later, i went to amara's to pick up a biology book. she saw me driving- i think i shocked her. haha. then we rented Monster. holy crap. that's a disturbing movie. i don't think i've ever seen a movie like that before. but i still liked it. and before going to bed, i read some of the book. now i'm here waiting to get my nails did. lol. amara might come over later so we can get ready together. but she's not quite sure yet. that's all for now folks. xoxo.

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:: 2004 7 August :: 12.14am

Interesting day...
most importantly I got my license today woohoo! It's really not all that exciting anymore it's just like...finally. My dad's FREAKING out over his insurance rates just having me drive his car when hes not using it so....i won't be having my own for a while I daresay. so...bah oh well.

Anywhoo today was a pretty good day practice went well. I left an hour early to go take my test and came back for the pool party thing at Shersty's house that we have at the end of summer practices every year. It's a bonding thing it went pretty well. Some highlights would be me falling off the pool deck and smacking my head into the wooden fence. I kinda stopped laughing when someone told me my head was bleeding but...I still don't feel anything lol I seriously think I had a minor concussion or something because I was delerious for a long time after. lol we harassed the new girls with water balloons and gave out our awards brittney got in a fight with rashunda and then spread chocolate mud stuff ALL over nicki. Yeah so funny stuff good clean fun w/e.

ummm what else what else....ok I foudn this quite amusing TWO people had dreams about me last night. That is just....idk creepy what are the odds of that. Liz comes up to me this morning and is all like I had this dream last night that you were being really slutty and everyone was like haha are you sure that wasn't just real life (yeah fuck you) lol and she's like no a bunch of us were at disney and I was all over some guys or something idk. I told liz to stop having dreams about me because it disturbed me. haha then later today ashley pasion calls me and tells me about some dream she had all about me but hers was really fricken amusing....

So like she's sleeping in the middle of the night and is woken up by a phone call from Ms. DiCillo's 9 yr old son Logan who asks for Phatass Pasion (haha) and she goes yes thats me. And then he asked her if she had a friend named Jessica Brandi because she was dead. So she starts crying on the phone because who wants me dead lol and then she calls danielle and they start having a big cryfest together. Then they go to my parents house to offer their condolences and my parents tell them that they can't handle it and ask them to throw my funeral for me. So it starts out an everyday boring funeral and everyone is standing around talking about how I was such a bitch but they somehow loved me anyway. And then all of a sudden they were like this is so boring this isn't jessica let's do it right. So they bring out all these speakers and turn on gangsta's paradise and everyones like rapping and shit and ashley and danielle are all like wtf and my parents come walking in and yell you guy's just got punked and they open up the coffin and it's empty and I come walking out laughing at them. idk I found it amusing.

yeah sooo after we left britts house lauren and I went to my house and then michelle came over and we went to blockbuster to rent some movies and order pizza and stuff and just sat around on my couch watching monty python. Jesuschrist monty python and the holy grail is the funniest fucking movie ever. Mexcan whoomping llamas and roger the SHRUBBER....can't get enough it all fit the mood I was in. We also rented some other weird british movie called 9 gay guys which is apparantly about guys that are NOT gay? idk sounds strange but we're watching that tomorrow. This is michelle's last weekend in town so we're making the most of it.

I have utopia practice at the studio saturday and sunday morning and then they are comming over 2morrow after it and then I am going to see my family (grrrr) afterwards on sunday then we have an officer meeting in fucking boca on monday AHHHHH. THEN I have hair/nail appts on tuesday and my bio isn't even half done. I really have to stop fucking around.

yuuuppp so that was my day more later.

~love~

alwaysfalling

:: 2004 6 August :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: rooney - popstars

these are the words of the popstars.

i swear, i can't say it enough but i just can't do the whole kid thing. they just drive me crazy. my parents keep telling me that it is different when they are your own kids, which i totally understand, but i don't know, i'm weird. so i've been watching my little cousin, emily, a five year old. she talks back to me and does that whole, "you're not my boss" thing and then i get angry with her and tell her to not say it again and she says something like, "i don't even want to be next to you" and then she ends up hurting my feelings. just can't do it. only two more days of watching her though. thank goodness.

got my decal and locker today. saw no one. excited for school? no. i'm excited about kailannie's party tomorrow night, i'll see a lot of people i have missed over these past couple of months, plus tina lent me clothing so that i will look ready for the club.

my brother came back this week from his job in new york and seemed like he has a changed a little. he came home the first day and was like, "you want to go shopping?" then yesterday we were sitting around and he was playing a cd that had konstantine on it. i was just like, "woah... who are you?" he still parties though and whatever, but hey, he's going to uf in a week or so.

i'm done. enjoy your last summer weekend!

<3

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:: 2004 6 August :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Dirrrrrrrrrrrrty-Christina Aguilera

my mouth is filled with peanut butter...
right now im eatin a peanut butter, banana, n marshmellow sandwich..my cousin natalia is typing this 4 me cause im eatin..lol..anyways im so hyped about my partayyyyy...when my mom gets home from work imma go get my nails did..gettin acrylics..:D..yesterday i ran into my buddy Carlos while i was gettin my locker and my schedule changed..my locker is number 136 in the 400 hall..carlos got 137..im all tha way on tha bottom..grrness..neways the whole crew is kinda near each other so thatz koo..i cuddnt get into history 6th hour..so i kept it for 1st and now i have drivers ed 6th period..not that bad..i can't wait till tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! c all u soon..much lovee!!..x0x0

:: 2004 6 August :: 12.52am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: screwed // paris hilton

home sweet home!
after driving straight from Illinois to Florida, i am finally at home. in time for practice 2morrow, then shopping, then saturday having orientation and going to kaila's party! before school starts, i have to hang out with Alex, Jonah, Britt C, Brittany, Dominic, Jackie, Danielle G, Brett, Travis & Joey. I c Danielle B on Saturday!!!! YAY! plus Pretam, Anand, carlos, Kailannie, Sam, everyone! <333

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:: 2004 5 August :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: realxed
:: Music: angels

allo my friends.
i got my locker today, it's in the 400 hall, number 122. so come and visit me. then i went to Macorroni Grill for lunch and colored on the table clothes. afterwards, we went to the Wellington mall, where i tried to find a top for my skirt. i gave up and just bought a dress. it's pretty, i think. then some guys were asking my parents about me. i thought that was odd. whatever. i also bought the Jadakiss cd. hope it's good. i just hope it's not too much. i doubt it is. i just got home and talking to my ashley. but i think im gonna go soon to try and read my book. i really need to get this work done. yeah- i'm pushing it. like usual. im out. xoxo.

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:: 2004 5 August :: 5.49pm

plenty to say...nothing important
Yes well not much has happened lately life has been about eagle ettes and nothing else...sad but true. DiCillo has really left top 4 in charge this year and we have so much crap to get done. I don't know how I let myself become so absorbed.

So yeah I'm starting to feel a little better about the team I forget that they have the whole year to improve, and being in charge is no problem with me I thought it would be harder to get used to. I'm starting to get a little concerned about myself though, Lauren Britt Allison and I are always so busy standing out and watching to make corrections or screening routines or teaching that I havn't really been doing a lot of actual dancing. I'm never even warmed up in practice because we are always working on formations or dealing with some other crap during warmup. Dance class this year is going to be more of the same because gonzalez quit. DiCillo has more classes than she can handle. We are being combined with some of the lower levels and DiCillo has already informed us that we are likely to be teaching class more than we are participating in it. I don't have time to go to the studio and I'm starting to have to work at things that have always just kinda been there like my flexibility. I don't think anyone really notices but I do and it bothers me that I have no time to work on myself. *shrug* I know nobody really cares but its not like anyone reads these these days anyway.

Lauren and I spend so much time talking about Eagle Ettes its truely insane we're sometimes up until like 4am worrying about shit and making schedules. I think I'm just trying to channel all of my energy and thought into this one outlet because it isn't as hard to think about as other things. Like certain people and things I'm feeling that I can't even make any sense of but mostly school nd the AP bio homework that I refuse to finish for some reason and my mom's surgery. It's all still managing to haunt me in my dreams but denial is a good way to live for now.

Today Lauren and I went to get all the crap we need after practice. I was so mad when they wouldnt let us pick our lockers and got stuck with one that was second from the bottom which is...eh I like having the one thats all the perfect height and such. Lauren got her decal and then we went to the IBO so she could get her schedule changed. I saw my new mailbox which is just awesome idk why lol it makes me feel all special. It's right under danielles and above johns so I'll prbly be running into them a lot or I'll leave them strange messages...either way

I ran into Janyll while I was waiting...she's in 1st hour history with me along with Jimmy and someone else...I think Jeremy oh yeah and Amy if she doesnt get her schedule changed....right? idk I hate having Mr. Hall 1st hour but Jimmy and I have always had 1st hour together since...actually 6th grade now that I think of it so that makes me happy.

2nd hour I have dance with well mostly eagle ette people and 3rd hour I have psych with danielle adam and armando lol I can see danielle and adam making me very very sick already. I'll just talk to my bro is all else fails haha

oh yeah random thought does reynold randomly IM anyone else with half naked pictures of himself...it disturbs me a bit lol

umm lets see where was I... 4th hour spanish I see Liz pretam and anand and possibly carlos lol my god I hope carlos is there he's the only way I pass half of the time. lol Sanchez get ur mexican ass on my homework vamanos! haha JK no I finally talked to him the other day he decided that his new name is brown sugar I said thats fine as long as I can be white chocolate haha amusing.

ummm ummm 5th hour pre-cal Liz again ewww lol Jimmy anddd got I can't remember to save my life but I know there's someone else.

6th hour bio...so far all I know is logan and maybe vanessa u? idk I bet it's gunna be a lot of non ib people which might be a nice change actually lol.

7th hour english with christina and possibly ashley lol ashley is busy expecting me to entertain her all class and christina is expecting me to be all super english girl lol so I guess I won't be able to sleep like I planned. How did all you lucky bastards manage to get zacher again???

ok yes well I am so sorry if you actually took time out of your life to read this.

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:: 2004 4 August :: 6.40pm

Ummm yes mmmhmm
why do I let people make me delerious seriously? lol I'm sitting in my house acting quite strange and its very dark. lalala

Amy and Heather just called me to talk about old backstreet boys songs and remind me of how to spell my name and I was like ok cool

then the sun sentinal just call and I felt fucking awesome

I didnt answer though because strangers scare me.

Eagle ettes is a drain on my very sanity so I am embracing my severely depleted mental state.

Practice is going better anyway

doing utopia all weekend

someone should name a drug that

offcer meeting on monday

ahhh school
ahhhhhhh

idk how do you spell jezzzikah?? is that it liz?

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:: 2004 4 August :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: overwhelmed
:: Music: how come?

We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you.
i'm just updating for the hell of it. don't really have anything to say. we rented 13 going on 30, probably watch that in a bit. then do some reading, i'm actually getting into it. it's a werid book, but somehow enjoyable. on the other hand, bio homework, i just can't seem to get myself to doing it. anyhoo, my friend, Lisa, came over yesterday. we finally exchanged Christmas gifts. better late than never. i think that's all the news for now.

wait, i remembered something: i think i'm going back to dance. :D. i really hope that it works out. i've missed it so much! so yeah, i'm excited. i'll keep you updated on how it's going.

xoxo. <3

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:: 2004 3 August :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: wishful
:: Music: locked up

they wont let me out no, they wont let me out.
woke up around 8:30 to work out. came home 10-ish and ate some breakfast. but there was still no food in the house. thank god mom went to publix. i took a nap from 12-2 or 3..i can't remember. took a nice long, hot shower- much needed. watched a lot of tv, yet again. i got some reading in too, but i'm only at like page 25 or so. so yeah, there's a lot more. i got kaila's birthday present today. hehe. mom got some taco bell for us kiddies. then she took me to walmart, or should i say, i toook us to walmart. lol. she's still scared when i drive; therefore, i get nervous. but not too bad. picked up 6 rolls of film- but returned a lot. i'll show them to you, well the ones from school. now i'm home-- maybe i'll read. actually, before i do that, i'm going to frame my amigos. sorry, i'm still in the spanish mode from my trip. lol. ttfn. x0x0.

:: 2004 3 August :: 12.10am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: every little thing i do, never seems enough for you. // NSYNC lol

x posting. **
yesterday was fun. i went to ULTA (this big makeup store), Borders, and Carsons (to look at the Coach purses) with my aunt. Afterwards, we came home & i went to the Cubs / Phillies game. cubs won! yay!

today = woke up early, headed north to Six Flags Great America. Hit every rollercoaster with the exception of DeJavu. we went on... Batman, Superman, Raging Bull, Vertical Velocity, Logger's Run, Ice Mountain Splash, Rapid, Demon, American Eagle & some stand up rollercoaster. omg we hadda blast, now i feel like i am permanently on a rollercoaster. we got $90 worth of Fast Lane Passes, so we could do all the rides.

its now 10:42pm here and uncle jim & daddy just came back with White Castles =D

anyways... 2morrow we finally get to go visit gramma Emily's grave. i'm happy.

i got calls from brett & travis last night. they were in front of my house. damn and joey was with them too. o well... i will see them when i get home. i have to call millions of people when i get home. Ashley E, Jonah, Brett, Travis, Alex G, Brittany, Danielle G, Britt, Ryan, JB, Jackie, etc. yay! people missed me! <3333 anyways, i g2g cause i feel kinda sick. =/ hehe

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:: 2004 2 August :: 9.26pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: south side

happy birthday kaila!!
first things first:
1. ceramics- king
2. IB trig.- baum
3. adv. pl. us history- hall
4. IB social anth.- davis
5. adv. pl. spanish- halcomb
6. adv. pl. bio.- morone jr.
7. adv. pl. english- schilit
..dunno if im changing anything yet. but lemme know if we have anything together. ;)

now, as you all know, i went on a cruise to Cozumel, Mexico. that was a lotta fun. i'll try and go day by day. but i know there will be missing details.

wednesday: (i just have to include this) we're packing, just like any normal family would do. well, i didnt want the ugly suitcase. neither did my mom. so we were started argueing..just messing around.
sam: please mom! i dont want an ugly suitcase.
mom: neither do i! i hate ugly things.
sam: then you understand my problem
mom: get over it. im your mom and i say no
sam: you should give up things for your kids
mom: ::puts hand into a gun shape:: and says," bang bang motherfucker!! it mine."
i just cracked up..i thought that was the funniest thing she's ever done. but i guess you really had to be there.

thursday: we left around noon. did all the check in stuff. then we checked out the boat. its freakin huge!! went to karyoke. just watched lol.

friday: layed out for a little bit. did random things on the boat. it was the captains dinner so we all got dressed up. me and my sis looked at the teens club. and I(yes-me) was gonna dance. but not one person moved. we made fun of them and left. plenty of stalkers on the boat too.

saturday: went to cozumel. took a jeep tour of the island. its pretty over there. but while we were in the jeep. a frog fell out of a tree and into my sister's lap. that was freakin hilarious. and my dad hates frogs so we almost crashed. haha. went back to the boat got all cleaned up. then went shopping. i got a tatoo. temporary of course. its a little butterfly on my ankle, it should last about two weeks. oh, and by the way, mexicans at ATL are nothing compared to the real deal. even the old ones. yuck. and did you know they always say "my friends" ?

sunday: went to the spa. then layed out. went to dinner. then the talent show. and my grandma got drunk. lmao. hilarious. but scary at the same time. she gets very angry when shes drunk, although this is the first time i've seen a family member drunk. i bought 2 Guess purses and a Guess wallet. no tax! yay.

monday: came home.

theres more..but i cant type it all. so talk to me. adios

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:: 2004 2 August :: 6.23pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Yeah-Usher

it's my birthdayyyy
the big one-six!! hollerrrrrr!!..finally..whew!!..took long enuff..lol..people are already turning 17..im such a yungin..haha..well guys..count down to the party has begun..lol..i left my celly at my dad's house..so if u called and left a message i still havent heard it..lol..it's pissing me off..i wanna hear wha messages people left..thanks to everybody tho that've wished me a happy birthday..i got my stereo system!!..it's hott..lol

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:: 2004 1 August :: 1.50am
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: autobiography // ashlee simspon

has anyone ever reassured u, but u were never comfortable?
heyyyy.

today was a long day. woke up & showered and headed downtown. walked from the train station to navy pier which was a good 2hr walk. we had like the whole family = 18 people with us. but when we got to navy pier, my sister found this place that embroidered plain hats. so she got one, n so did my brother. then my dad decided to get 5 for their paintball team. what a long time that took because it had my mom getting pissed off and everyone was hungry and grumpy. so when my dad finally finished he was pissed at my mom for being bitchy and idk what happened from there... my dad walked off. then he came back. we tried finding the rest of the family aka grammy & aunts & uncles.... but they didn't save seats for where they decided to eat at. so that pissed my mom off more... we all were walking to find a cab because daddy was soooooo pissed. and then in the middle of nowhere my parents started arguing in the middle of the sidewalks with tons of people walking around. so my mom walked off. and my dad was yelling my name, but i wanted to go with my mom... so my dad walked one way with my sister and brother... my mom walked another and i sat next to a cement brick wall and cried my eyes out because of my parents. then my dad came back & we found my mom. once i found my mom i didn't wanna let go. i was hugging her with all i had. then we settled... and got a cab.... and went to Gino's East Pizza. that's the best deep dish pizza i think i ever had. we finished dinner & caught the cab back to the train station. the trains were packed. i was kinda hoping that gramma & etc. wouldn't make the train.... but like... i wish stacey did. cause i love her. but everyone else... idk they just piss me off. cause they don't like me cause they think i'm too spoiled. w/e but everyone of them had to run to the train which i guess was funny torture. its freezing up here. we were soooo cold tonight. but i'm so emotionally exhausted.

i'm tired of my parents fighting at every family outting we have. and it gets ridiculous. tonight... it was so horrible... all i wanted to do was run away and pretend like nothing was wrong. I needed a shoulder to cry on. i had nobody to call that i could rely on. and i couldnt really call anyone because my phone... was at uncle critter's house. i don't want to call someone and have them say "awww i'm sorry" or have someone say "that sucks" or "that's gay". i just want someone to let me call them and listen to me. i can't think of one person that i can call that will listen to me anymore. i wish i could call jonah and just talk to him. i think he's the only one i can rely on. not because he is my ex boyfriend, and not because we had a relationship. its just because he is someone i can trust and talk to without a problem. he was always a great friend. and since i know jonah doesn't want to hear it anymore because we're over... i wish jb and ryan could come over right now. i miss them too much. my brothers. its sad.

i never realized how much people actually make their own families rather than stick with the ones they're given to by birth. i mean... i consider everyone in florida... like LOS people... my family, and up here... i don't even know these people... they're just labelled my family. i mean my dad even admitted that he believed jim & gail were more of an aunt and uncle rather than trixie and sean or paula and joey. that's just the way it is.

i'm just emotionally worn with no1 to burst on. this is why i'm so laidback. i get it now.

but while we were downtown... i enjoyed the lights, the noises, transportation, the people, etc. everything about being in the city was phenomenal! like the stores/shopping beautiful. (the boys downtown and on the trains were hotttt) gosh i wish i lived in a complex in the city. <33333

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:: 2004 31 July :: 9.47pm

paying homage to my house of worship...
ok yesterday...Lauren came over to work on EE stuff and she brought Frankie with her. I could safely say that I despise just about anyone between the ages of 1 and 13 (and then some) but Frankie is by far the greatest 11 year old in the world. She's so funny and she doesn't annoy me at all lol I told lauren I would take her sis over her anyday.

Yeah so later we dropped Frankie off at home and met michelle at Panera (WE were a 1/2 hour early btw which is just a miracle)
Yeah so ate some food then went to see the Village....ok well looking back....I liked it but....compleately not what they made it sound like. Not scary at all...plenty to make fun of....I think the moral was don't let the handicapped kids fuck around in the forest. That only leads to trouble. lol I could go on and on but I will stop there.

Thennnn Michelle was driving me home and Hillary called and asked if we wanted to swing by glory days to meet up with her and Zach. It's so weird the ways I run into that kid he's the embodiment of what a small world it is. Started off he's just ashleys cousin then he lives in johns neighborhood then he lives across the street from hillary then he and hillary have been friends since they were little kids and then lauren has been good friends with him since middle school and thennn he had that whole thing with danielle. It's just....idk...what are the odds of all that?

anyway we hung out with them for a little bit. He invited us to go with them to see anchor man but uhhh....we umm...had to be getting home....that's it. So we said goodbye to them michelle took me home.

lol then I went online and kept Amy awake until 2:00!! This is the girl who goes to bed at 9 every night it was amazing we actually had a very nice talk and she even gave me sum inspiration lol. I'm glad I am finally getting to know her.

After she left I kept John up until almost 4:00! he's another one who likes his beauty rest. It was a typical John/Jessica convo so it was riddled with insults and twisted topics. We decided to start keeping score because some of our one liners are just priceless.

MisScarlet219 (2:25:31 AM): wtf are u doing awake
MisScarlet219 (2:25:39 AM): do u know what time it is
Kangaegoto (2:25:43 AM): talking to a would-be hooker
MisScarlet219 (2:25:55 AM): well tell ur mother its past her bedtime

Yeah so I still wasn't tired so I stayed up for a while then there was this huge bug in my room so I screamed for my dad to come kill it (this was around 5am mind you) and no I will never get too old to scream like a little girl when I see bugs.

Yeah so I slept with the light on because I'm a paranoid freak like that and I didn't wake up until 3 in the afternoon. I sat around for a bit then my mom and I went to the mall to take advantage of the last of tax free week. I got some new bras and underwear...that stuff is so damn expensive for never being seen (most of the time lol) w/e it's all cute and prettyful.

Then I bought this purse which is now THE reddest thing I own it's insane it's like fire engine lipstick red I have no idea what I will wear it with but I love it! Yeah then I got some new makeup and then sum flip flops from pacsun. MY mom is so dumb the guy at the register was really fricken hot I grant you and he was like trying to talk to me I guess (he was just asking me if it was still raning and talking about it being so shitty outside) and my mom is like omg that guy was hitting on you and you couldnt even smile or make an effort what is wrong with you. First of all she was standing right next to me I doubt he was hitting on me with my mom right there and second...he was probably like 20 (which my mom wouldnt have liked as much lol) with a girlfriend...and third I was so tired I didn't care I just wanted to go home and eat dinner lol.

The mall was real crowded but the only person I saw was mitch lol I just said nope not saying anything as I walked by him and he was like fine don't talk to me I see how it is. Yup I am a mean girl.

I also asked my mom about Rock the Universe and she said shed consider I hope she says yes. It's not just that she doesn't trust me and my friends there also might be some other big stuff going on with her around that time and it just wouldn't be a good time for me to be worrying her which I get.

Blah so now I'm home and I had my pizza so I am quite happy. God I have to do my bio work soon...damn school...eagle ettes starts again on monday 8am-12 everyday this week. kill me

14 days until michelle and the rest of them leave : (

~love to all~

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:: 2004 30 July :: 4.40pm
:: Mood: giddy

when i grow up, i'll turn the tables. // garbage
i could use some underground music right now. idk...

yesterday ~~~> woke up, showered, headed out. we had plans to go to the odyssey fun world, kinda like boomers, and it happened to be closed. so we made a trip out to frankfort to go to the grainery. didn't go as planned because it wasn't what my parents expected it to be. but we ended up at "THE PLUSH HORSE" which has amazing homemade icecream. iwescreem. hehe. i kept thinking about that ice cream since we got here cause i knew that grandpa took us there the last time i was in chicago. but anyways... then we came back to uncle jim's & aunt gails.... freshened up... and headed for uncle joey's house. I GOT TO SEE ANASTACIA! lol weeee. i missed her. we talked throughout dinner... which we had at Traverso's. my dad made reservations for 18 people through OnStar... and the lady at the desk was all happy cause it was her first OnStar call ever lol. anyways... after dinner i slept over ms. anastacia derro's house. we talked for hours and then, she got online and we talked to the boys. bubba ---> DAWG! tony ---> house cat. and tommy with the ketchup chips. disgusting. rambo kept biting off bubba's fingers lol. but anyway we enjoyed the night. and woke up... i hadda leave and now i am waiting on my mom to get outta the shower. i miss talking to people. i talked to logan earlier today lol. =) i wanna talk to jonah though, i'm so used to talking to him at least once a day... but now the kid has other priorities... and i can't call him much because my phone has bad connection & it roams up here. so i just wish the punk would get online. anyways... o yeah and anastacia's boyfriend's song that he wrote for her for v-day was the funniest & sweetest. he's a cool dude, with huge feet. i wanna live up here... i miss the family things. =) bye byes. xoxo

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