Life Is An Ever Changing Road

:: 2009 26 March :: 1.39am

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I am only this awesome when I can't sleep and I'm watching HGTV. The past couple of days have given me some good material too.

@Laure I concur. Got cancer? Have a coke. Need a smoke? Have a coke. Your dog's sick? Have a coke. Want a coke? Have a coke!

I am thinking of running for president but I am not rich enough to pay my own food bill AND save the world. http://tinyurl.com/da6dmo

My sister got a full ride (tuition only) to Smith College. She will hear from the rest next week. Then there will be choices.

I really feel sorry for the poor guy who had to look at reference photos and drawings to do Doctor Manhattan. That poor, poor man.

I have 4 dollars to my name right now. Payday could not come any sooner.

Unless I am retroactively getting money through some sort of time travel direct deposit but then I wouldn't only have 4 dollars.

Someone tell me why you need a chandelier in your bathroom. A chandelier ABOVE THE BATHTUB that just happens to be BY YOUR FIREPLACE.

This is all in your bathroom. The FIFTEEN HUNDRED DOLLAR FIREPLACE BY THE BATHTUB. ON THE WALL. It's not even warming the floor.

I did not catch the price on the chandelier.

Having a chandelier in your bathroom does not make it Parisian. It just makes it ugly. I am going to rate it STUPIDLY OPULENT, HGTV.

Just in case you want to see it. http://tinyurl.com/cva4dg I did not notice how claustrophobically cluttered it was on TV.

THINGS THAT AREN'T PARISIAN: Claustrophobia

Why would you wear a t-shirt about blaming your farts on someone else ON NATIONAL TV?

Yes, I cannot sleep.

Think of a new metaphor, onion layer people. Your house is not an onion and you are not an onion. A banana maybe. Shut up about the onions.

:: 2009 25 March :: 1.19am

I am making a list of emergency places to live in case I don't get a job right away (which will totally NOT happen because I am totally awesome).

Our lease is up here at the end of June. If I don't get something before then, we'll be trapped in Michigan, homeless and living off only Nick's pay (because my work won't be able to keep me on after graduation and I don't want to stay there any longer than necessary).

Obviously a list is needed. Both to calm my nerves and to prepare for craziness.

I applied to a buttload of jobs earlier this week and I'm sending my transcript to one tomorrow.

Now it is just waiting and more searching.

I do not like this waiting part.

:: 2009 23 March :: 7.09pm

After a long stressful week filled with 4 weeks worth of homework, a couple of exams, work, and very little sleep, I managed to come out alive.
I also survived a weekend that was filled with a 10 year old for the weekend, a barbeque, major cleaning, lots of wii bowling/golf/tennis and a trip to the movies.

Race to Witch Mountain, wasn't the greatest.

I have a PowerPoint presentation to work on, but I lack all sense of creativity.
Isn't it lovely how that works out?
It's like a vicious cycle.
Once I finish one workload, I get another thrown at me.

Not to mention, I need to figure out if I want to take classes this summer..
But it would also be nice to know what is going to happen once May comes..
My whole world will be up in a whirlwind then.

m&ms487

:: 2009 23 March :: 11.27am
:: Mood: anxious

C'est Lundi.

It's the middle-end half of the semester and I can't wait for summer to get here. I feel like this semester had way more work than any previous semester. I'm writing over 16 papers, having over 15 exams, and over 2000 pages of reading (one being an 800 page novel entitled "Middlemarch"). Add to that the fraternity and working twenty eight hours a week; it's been trying.

I have class in about a half an hour: political science. It's about foreign policy, which is alright, but not my favorite. I get to take the better classes next year.

I figured it out, I only have three more semesters left, so it'll be four and a half years in total. I think I'm going to do an internship, too, since I'll be finished in December and Grad school doesn't start until August. I was thinking about doing an internship in Lansing with a congressman and seeing where that takes me. Lansing is only a fifty mile drive from Mt. Pleasant, and a few day a week wouldn't be that bad. We'll see!

For now, things are going good. I'm able to eat again and that's making me gain weight back...not too much, though. I'm still much more little than I was. C'est la vie!

:: 2009 22 March :: 11.35pm

I NEED A JORB
I graduate in 48 days, people. I want out of Michigan. I want a job/career/whatever. I need one.

One of the girls who graduated LAST YEAR just got a job. I do not want to be her. I work with a girl who graduated last year and is just hanging around at this job trying to find something. I do not want to be in that position.

Hyperventilating,
me

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allyson

:: 2009 21 March :: 11.51pm

FOR SALE
2001 Dodge Grand Caravan SE

:: 2009 19 March :: 10.19pm

:: 2009 13 March :: 5.50pm

dad found a massacred HP laptop in the trash, only thing savable was this

Read more..

:D

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:: 2009 13 March :: 5.50pm

dad found a massacred HP laptop in the trash, only thing savable was this

Read more..

:D

:: 2009 10 March :: 9.50pm
:: Music: The Killers- All These Things That I've Done

Another head aches, another heart breaks/ I am so much older than I can take/ And my affection, well it comes and goes/ I need direction to perfection, no no no no...
yeah, I'm getting there. I need some hope to hang my hat on.

:: 2009 9 March :: 7.17pm

So I just read like 300 and some of my passed entries.
And I can't believe how lame they all are.
I wish I could just turn my mind off sometimes..

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:: 2009 8 March :: 1.40pm

I don't even know where to begin..

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:: 2009 7 March :: 2.03pm

I really wish that the drama would just stay as far away from me as it could.
I absolutely hate it.
I hate it when people say anything that involves my boyfriend cheating on me.
Especially when we are barely apart, and he really doesn't have time to cheat.
It literally makes me sick to my stomach when someone says those words.
I instantly get tears in my eyes, and my stomach gets knotted up and I can't swallow.
It doesn't happen because I feel like I can't trust him.
And even though I know I can trust him, it still gets my mind thinking, well can I really trust him, how faithful is he, has he done it before, who is it..
It happens because I care so fucking much about him, and the thought of it eats me up inside, because I already don't feel good enough for him.
The thought of losing him kills me inside and I feel like my whole world is crashing and burning right before my eyes and there is nothing I can do about it.

I swear I go through this atleast 5 times a year, at minimum.
Where someone says he is cheating, or that he made a move on them, or something that involves him and another girl.

People fucking suck.
And they are lucky I'm not completely crazy.

:: 2009 6 March :: 9.47pm
:: Music: Soul Coughing- Circles

For the right price I can get everything/ Slip into the car, go driving to the farthest star...
a good day.

:: 2009 6 March :: 2.29pm

I hate when my friends are all unhappy and their worlds are all falling apart.
The selfish part of me hates it, because it makes me reflect on my life.
The unselfish part of me hates it, because I hate watching my friends go through all that crap.

The only unhappy thing I have to look back on right now, is the fact that I have had a migraine for 2 almost 3 days now, and nothing is relieving the pain.
That and my cat is a bitch. I love her, I really do, but she needs a new home.

:: 2009 5 March :: 5.01pm
:: Music: Panic at the Disco- Nine in the Afternoon

Back to the street, down to our feet/ Losing the feeling of feeling unique/ Do you know what I mean?/ Back to the place, where we used to say/ Man, it feels good to feel this way
I'm starting to get frustrated with.... not really knowing where my life is going or where I will be a year from now.

:: 2009 2 March :: 6.10pm

I have an interview on Wednesday at 4 pm.
An office position at Town and Country Title Services.
Its 40 hours a week too! :)
Now I must find something to wear..

:: 2009 2 March :: 1.46am

here i am, sitting in the hospital right now.

my grandpa butch just had a heart attack.

his right cornary artary is fully clogged.

:: 2009 27 February :: 10.46am

Needs a washer and electric dryer..
Badly.
It's been like 6 months that I have gone without. Can't do the laundromat thing anymore.

:: 2009 25 February :: 9.30pm
:: Music: Beck- Girl

fists pounding on a vending machine/ toy diamond ring stuck on her finger/ with a noose she could hang from the sun/ and put it out with her dark sunglasses
(It starts tomorrow.)

Hmm... this week is dragging. Work is aggravating. I drink way too much wine.

I think I am ready for 2009 to be over...Get me out of here!

:: 2009 23 February :: 9.50pm
:: Music: MGMT- Kids

The memories fade/ Like looking through a fogged mirror/ Decisions to decisions are made and not bought/ But I thought this wouldn't hurt a lot/ I guess not
I'm not looking forward to the next step.

It sucks that this is the way we have to do it.

yeah...i'm bitter.

:: 2009 23 February :: 7.43pm

Yesterday was probably one of the worst days I have had in a long time.
I managed to lock my keys in my car in the ghetto.
And apparently my body felt it neccessary to breakdown at that moment, because I balled my eyes out.
Crying in public, not my thing.

:: 2009 22 February :: 7.52pm
:: Music: Ben Kweller- Lizzy

Like momma said/ dont ya let it go to your head/ when your town is painted red/ I'm so proud to know you
Went to the Ben Kweller concert on Thursday with Eliz. It's weird to see that he's gotten old (and we've gotten old, too).

Good times. We ate a lot of food, gambled $3, gave fake names and numbers to some parking attendants, rode the (homeless) people mover, and mostly made (drunk off our asses) fools out of ourselves.

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:: 2009 18 February :: 12.40pm

it happened again!

http://www.woodtv.com/dpp/news/Person_hit_and_killed_by_train

earlier this year the same shit happened in jersey.

dumbass kids need to learn trains are heavy and don't stop.

m&ms487

:: 2009 18 February :: 11.42am

So... I'm a lot less grumpy than I was this morning. I finally finished my paper on Structuralism, although it's not a full two pages. I think it'll be fine. Who cares how Torodov uses Saussures concepts in order to analyze narrative plot?!?! Gah.

So, I have to work tonight, still have a few more classes today. I have a french oral exam tomorrow, then I have Literary theory, band, meeting, then I get to sleep in on Friday morning. Woot!

I hope i get my grade back for my political science (foreign policy) exam. I'm not sure how I did.

I'm super busy and I've been grumpy to Rueben. Sorry, dear!

:: 2009 17 February :: 10.10am

This semester I need 11 credits. I am taking 12 to be full time. I only have one required course left. It is, of course, the one course I cannot be on time to, ever attend or do the homework for.

I am hoping I snap out of this soon. This weekend I need to finish up my incompletes from last semester so I can get out of here on time. I also need to CLEP my French credits still.

I am lazy.

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:: 2009 15 February :: 1.57pm

leaving for alabama thursday.

be gone for like 10 or so days.

peace.

:: 2009 14 February :: 11.14pm
:: Music: Matt&Kim- Daylight

I have five clocks in my life/ And only one has the time right/ I'll just unplug it for today
trying to keep up with this a little better.

we went to Olga's in the mall for vday. totally an old married couple.

i think that i don't update anymore because i dont do anything interesting anymore.

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:: 2009 14 February :: 8.55pm

I got a ring!!
Not an engagement ring though..
But a thoughtful, pretty, and shiny one..
And once again, the tears begin. but happy ones this time..