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2006 26 March :: 6.14pm
The odds are against me... I keep trying to do what I need to do sooo hard but for some reason theres this road block that I can't seem to get around...
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2006 24 March :: 1.02pm
:: Mood: calm
Dear Ashley,
I love you. You're perfect just the way you are, don't ever change for anyone. Not that you would anyway, haha ^_^ You're the best, don't ever forget it. So no matter what, (and you know what I mean) chin up, because someday, you're going to be somebody. Those who couldn't make the time for you now (and you know what I mean) will be kicking themselves when they see who you've become.
You're a star, babe. Let it shine.
<3 M
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2006 23 March :: 10.19pm
I've been gone for far too long, I want to come home
Well, to put it lightly, I haven't felt this dejected, irascible, neurotic, and disoriented in so long. Honestly.
I have decided I am going to play piano in the talent show. Please don't laugh at me.
I feel like since I hate and have hated high school so much that this will be a good way to end it. It might and hopefully will be a "happy" memory to leave school with. I guess.
And I don't know I just feel like my body is in 12 different places at once. I'm not all here and I can't stop biting my nails which I know is just gross and that is so not like me and when I develop a new bad habit, I know something is really wrong with me.
I feel so full like I need to pour everything out. I thought I did last night with that little breakdown but I guess I just filled right up again. In the worst way.
I guess that's it.
Jess.
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2006 23 March :: 5.35pm
Cant you see?
There's a feeling that's come over me.
Close my eyes.
You're the only one who leaves me completely breathless.
No need to wonder why.
Sometimes a gift like this you can't deny.
I wanted to fly so you gave me your wings and time held it's breath so I could see, yeah you set me free.
When I was alone, you came around.
When I was down, you pulled me through.
There's nothing that I wouldn't do for you.
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2006 23 March :: 3.53pm
So...
I have an interview at Menard's tomorrow... (like I need another job, or another new one for that matter..)
I don't know what I'm doing in my life...
I'm doing this thing that I don't want to do at all.
Yeah, what's new.
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2006 23 March :: 11.06am
all I wanna do is go home, be a loser, and play elder scrolls 4 all day... but I have to sit here at school.
Oh well, I've got ALL weekend I suppose... no work at all until monday.
fuck I need the moneys so i can catch the last train to japan...
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2006 22 March :: 3.47pm
:: Music: Excuse Me Miss- Chris Brown
Long Time No Update Lol.
Definitely haven’t updated in a long time…
I still really have nothing to say except for MEAPS suck ass. Im going shopping tomorrow with Sonego to go look at baby clothes for Emily n Austin's baby BOY. I love going shopping for baby clothes.
That’s all I pretty much got, but a comment would still be nice.
EDIT: So yeah, Definitly no shopping today with Ashley. Shes really tired from the Fall Out Boy concert annnd, its my moms birthday today so were going out to dinner. She hasnt picked where yet but im pretty sure its gunna be Trini's just because she knows i want to go there lol. Anywhooo the whole point in this edit was because i saw the cutest thing today.... Ashley was gunna drive me to my car evne though it was like 2 rows over lol, and Ashley was saying good-bye to Aaron and .... yeah they kissed. awwwwww *sigh*. Im so happy for her. :) Their just so adorable together.
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2006 21 March :: 9.54pm
tonight was rough... i feel drained. nothing matters. i eat because it is there... i was not prepared for this... i don't know how to handel it. i have never had to go through this, and now that i'm right in the middle of it my emotions are all over the place.
i'm not myself tonight. i just sit and don't care.... When i was coming home from class tonight from i didn't sing all the way home!! well until i got to rockford and realized i hadn't been singing to the radio... i love singing to the radio when i'm all by myself.. and i didn't and dindn't even realize it until 25 min. later!! i just kept praying... lord take her.. she needs to go. she is prepared to go... this is where she needs to be... i don't cry infront of people... even more infront of people i don't even know! i just break down at the veteren's home. i couldn't catch my breath. it was horrible. i don't cry, and when i do it gets the best of me... it sucks all my energy out. i don't know how to deal with it... i listen to songs that i don't even like so i won't have to think about it. oh lord just take her... she coudldn't even talk... i'm so use to jokes that when she didn't.. i just broke down.
i called my dad and just cried to him for like 10 min. i get home and we just cried together for another 10 min... i have never seen him cry so hard... I can't even imagine what it is like right now at the home. he is probably bawling. Lord just take her.
it is her time.
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2006 20 March :: 7.14pm
okay so well 2 more pages to go.....
ugh! suck me english paper! go to hell!
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2006 20 March :: 2.40pm
Nobody get too close to me...
I might taint you with my unholiness!
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2006 20 March :: 1.54pm
can you believe i'm honestly STILL procrastinating to start writing this paper and it was DUE TODAY?!?! .....
so yeah... maybe i'll start it sometime today...
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2006 19 March :: 10.18pm
Well this weekend was pretty good. Friday I hung out with Aaron. Saturday I went to Olive Garden and then Elyse, Stacy, and Aaron came over and we went to the musical only to see Dani. Then Aaron came over afterwards and today I hung out with Dani and Stacy.
Stacy is at my house right now. She's sleeping in our guest bedroom lol.
Ohh and I can't forget my story. On Saturday I was at the gas station with Elyse and we were meeting my dad there because he had to give me something and anyways I threw my gum wrapper out my car window and a cop pulled up behind me and walked to my window and was like "what did you throw out the window?" and I was like "umm a gum wrapper" and he goes "do you know that's illegal, a $500 fine, and you could go to jail" and I was like "no, I didn't know that" and then he made me get out and pick it up and then my dad pulls up and at this time Elyse is laughing hysterically and so am I. I couldn't help it. I thought it was amusing. So then my dad was like "what's going on?" and I'm like "well I threw a wrapper out the window *sarcastically*" and my dad was like "God dammit Ashley I always fucking tell you not to throw shit out the window!" and I'm like "umm no you don't dad, you never tell me that" and the cop was debating on whether or not to give me a ticket and my dad was like "give her a ticket, actually give her two of them" and I didn't care if I got one or not because I wouldn't end up paying for it anyways and I have no idea how this works but the cop said since I'm a minor my dad would have to pay for it which doesn't even make any sense to me and then the cop was like "do you pay for your car" and i'm like "no" and he goes "how about your insurance?" and I was like "no" and then he said "how about gas?" and I was like "no" and then he goes "Do you pay for anything? and I was like "nope" and then I started laughing and he goes "it's not funny!" and then Elyse was like "don't you have better things to do besides harassing us, like...solving crimes?" and the cop just looked at her. I'm suprised he didn't arrest her for saying that or something but I couldn't help but laugh. The cop said since he let someone else off the hook today he guesses he'll let me off too so I didn't get a ticket luckily..oh and then the cop pulls up to get gas afterwards and my dad walks to his truck and he gets out all of the trash he has and he walks to the trash can right by the cop and throws all his stuff away. I was like what the hell...way to suck up to the cop. I don't know why my dad told the cop that he always tells me not to throw stuff out the window because he never tells me that and I barely ever do that to begin with. It all makes me laugh. We went through all that because I threw a gum wrapper out my window. Good god..
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2006 19 March :: 5.44pm
If I knew that you were leaving, I wouldn't have waited so long. I would have left so long ago and if there really still was something left to say to you, you'd realize just what is true. How i've been blamed for everything you do, cause it can't be all my fault, it still takes two to break apart the truth. I learn, I still learn. Every single day.
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2006 18 March :: 10.39pm
and well blah blah blah and then she was dead.
ughghghgh the end.
Oh! But I see Roman tomorrow.... thumbs up! way up.
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2006 17 March :: 5.00pm
Today is St. Patricks Day. Do I even know what it is? Not really? I feel like a complete moron right now but I'm not Irish so I don't celebrate it and I know some people do even though they aren't Irish but I don't know what the whole meaning behind it is. I didn't even know it was St. Patricks Day today in the first place and when I got to school and seen everyone wearing green, well let's just say it sorta clicked. Everyone kept pinching me and I was just like fuck off.
I had a pretty embarrassing moment today. Elyse and I were in Seminar and we walked out and we went upstairs so I could turn in something to Mrs. Laidlaw for english and I was carrying my folder with the paper on top which I wrote in pencil and obviously my folder was up against my chest sorta since that's just how us girls carry our stuff and anyways I went to hand her my paper and she was like "what does all this say?" and I'm like "what are you talking about?" and she pointed and then I realized that half of the paper was smeared and I look down and like my whole shirt was covered with...well I don't even know what you call it..pencil smearings haha...it was embarrassing but good thing I had another shirt on under it.
Speaking of english...well I really hate that class. We are reading the dumbest book possiable and our class is almost finished and Kelli and I are still on chapter 3. I can't pay attention and I have no idea what is going on and we have this big test on it and we have to write an essay. School seriously sucks. I'm just going to go to sparknotes and read what happens so I somewhat pass the test.
I guess I'll take this just because everyone else has and it will entertain me for about three minutes.
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [X] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [X] who i had just met
25. [X ] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [ ] at a show.
32. [ ] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert.
34. [ ] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [] in the rain. (I want to though..we'd be like Allie and Noah)
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [ ] under water
45. [] while driving
46. [X] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [x] goodbye forever (I didn't really think it was goodbye forever but I obviously it was)
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [] in an elevator
54. [x] an ex
55. [X] last night.
56. [X] Just today.
Well I guess I should go get ready to go to Aarons tonight. Have a good weekend everyone!
<3 Ashley Megan!!

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be.
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2006 16 March :: 2.19pm
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [X]with curly hair.
12. [ ] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [ ] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [ ] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [ ] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [ ] who i had just met
25. [x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [x] at a show. (what kind of show?)
32. [x] at the beach.
33. [ ] at a concert. .. well kind of
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [x] under water
45. [x] while driving
46. [ ] a stranger
47. [ ] more than one person at once
48. [x] crying
49. [ ] goodbye forever
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [ ] who didn't speak english
52. [ ] in a hot tub
53. [X] in an elevator
54. [ ] an ex
55. [ ] last night.
56. [ ] Just today.
wellll good.
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2006 16 March :: 12.12pm
nevermind... im not going.
you are UNbelievable.
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2006 16 March :: 12.04pm
I've kissed...
01. [x] on the cheek.
02. [x] on the lips.
03. [x] on their hands or fingers.
04. [x] in my room.
05. [x] in their room.
06. [x] of the opposite sex.
07. [ ] of the same sex.
08. [x] a little younger than me.
09. [x] a little older than me.
10. [x] with black hair.
11. [ ]with curly hair.
12. [x] blonde hair and blue eyes.
13. [x] with red hair.
14. [x] with straight hair.
15. [x] shorter than me.
16. [ ] with a lip ring.
17. [x] who i truly love/loved
18. [x] who was drunk.
19. [x] who was high....
20. [x] in the morning.
21. [x] right after waking up.
22. [x] just before bed.
23. [x] late at night.
24. [x] who i had just met
25. [x] who I really didn't want to kiss.
26. [x] just talking not dating.
27. [x] on a bed.
28. [ ] in a graveyard.
29. [x] at school.
30. [x] against a wall
31. [x] at a show. (what kind of show?)
32. [x] at the beach.
33. [x] at a concert.
34. [x] in a pool.
35. [x] who was/is a good friend.
36. [x] in the rain.
37. [x] with a mole on their body
38. [x] in the shower
39. [x] in a car/taxi/bus.
40. [x] in the movies.
41. [x] in a bathroom/laundry room
42. [x] in the dark.
43. [ ] on a roof top.
44. [x] under water
45. [x] while driving
46. [x] a stranger
47. [x] more than one person at once.... ( ha ha... funny story... )
48. [x] crying
49. [x] goodbye forever
50. [x] when i was drunk.
51. [x] who didn't speak english
52. [x] in a hot tub
53. [ ] in an elevator
54. [x] an ex
55. [ ] last night.
56. [ ] Just today.
all I know now is I feel like a whore... I shouldn't have taken that...
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2006 16 March :: 8.56am
aww.. we went to the circus last night. it was really cool. i havent been to the circus since i was like 7, and every time it comes to town we always miss it. :) smiles..... what a wonderful night.
tonight's a rampage game. to bad im going by myself.... ahh well.
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2006 15 March :: 11.30pm
Some dude hacked my e-mail... sorry to those angered by the things this guy said but it wasn't me...
His excuse? it was done to him so he did it to me....
Tuwang128@gmail.com <----- add it
and andy, if you can at all help me figure out where this guy is loggin in from than that would be nice...
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2006 15 March :: 11.07pm
Have you ever felt like everything you've worked for your entire life was for nothing? Have you? It's really disapointing.
I had a lot more to say, but Roman just called me and suddenly, it's like I can't complain anymore.
And to YOU: the one i talk about ALL the time I swear. because your HORRIBLE UNAPPRECIATION just burns my soul everytime i hear about it: You think you've got it so bad it just kills me. I wish just ONCE you could be like us. You could be like me. You could know what it's like. UGALSDGJ God I can't even say what I want to. You bug me so much. Someday you'll see. And who SAYS I can't feel that way or say those things or do those things? YOU? is it WRONG and unethical and impractical and impossible because your DUMBASS says it is?!?!? Is that what you want me to believe. Gosh you amaze me in the worst way possible. I dont know how I can even "stand" you. Oh, but sigh... I only wish I could be as GREAT as you.
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2006 15 March :: 10.49pm
If you see me walking with someone else, it's not because I love him. It's because you're not brave enough to walk beside me now.
If you see me smiling, it's not because I've forgotten you. It's because I'm tired of crying for you.
If you see me living again, it's not because I wanna get back at you. It's because I want to get back what you took from me.
But most of all
If I fall in love with someone else, it's not because I wanted to.
It's because you were never there to catch me and love me back.
This is so difficult for the both of us. I know I tried so hard, there's just no hope right now. Well it's more than a shame that I lost to this game. All my walking, talking, sleeping, breathing- -
nothing will ever be the same.
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2006 15 March :: 1.42pm
It's so fricken easy to say yeah I'm gonna be so great and everything's going to be so great and I'm going to graduate college and become this great thing and earn this great money and blah blah blah but now I realize nothing is ever going to happen.
great.
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2006 15 March :: 9.21am
im going on a date tonight, where... im not sure. its a suprise. i was just told to get dressed up and to be ready by six. i love how that "feeling" never dies with us. how happy i am when i see you, how proud i am to call you mine, how you simply make me smile even when you're not around. we're going on 16 months now. and im just as giddy and excited to spend time with you as i was when we first started dating. and im not going to be all cheezy and melodramatic and say that you complete me, because you dont. and nobody should feel that way about somebody else. but we complement eachother so perfectly.
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