:: 2005 29 November :: 11.55 pm

watching sleepover...it has steve carell in it miche;;e!

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:: 2005 29 November :: 8.54 am

I just wrote a huge entry then accidentally erased it DAMN!!!
Instead of leaving it be though, i think i will waste some more time by rewriting it...

i think my obsession with one tree hill is hindering my performance as a human being

I called into work today because i am a procastinator whos sucky time management skills have made her fall behind in all her classes and have a paper due yesterday that was not ready. I also jus realized yesterday that exams are next week...shit!

which leads me to my point about one tree hill...i got up at 6 and took a shower then planned on finishing my paper so i could go to work at 1230...instead i watched One tree hill for an hour and looked shit up online for another, before getting in the shower and realizing that i am a lost cuase and need more time. I suck at life!

people on OTH have a lot of sex usually...
I was having a conversation with my davis boys and they apparently thought that i was slut. they did not believe that i have never had sex. derek and katie didnt believe it either. i think that a lot of it has to do woth the fact that so many people DO have sex and a lot of it, but i dot knwo why ryan wouldnt believe me...i mean he knows me better than i know myself most of the time, so he should know just cuz i drink a lot doesnt mean am gonna have sex a lot, or let myself get taken adveantage of...i just dont know why going a virgin makes people see me differently...i am the same person, they dont need to be proud of me or admire me just because the proper circumstance hasnt arisen. I am not innocent or moral really, i just dont want my first time to be with a random, or when i am wasted...i dont care if other people have had sex...not a huge interest to me unless i am dating you and/or want to have sex with you...other than that it is not the big deal to me that it is to some.

it is now 1147 am...i minimized the update window and got distracted by shit online...once again i must reinterate: i suck at life.

anyway, th other night ryan also called me his best friend. he refrains from this usually, i think it is because it hurts mackenzies feelings...but i dont think it should...i mean what they have is sooo much more than best friends...it has been like 8 years now...if he is not hers now, he will never be. ANyway, it was great that he said it because lately i have been feeling like we dont have much of a realtionship anymore. We never really talk like we used to and we are always doing stupicd shallow things like watch tv/ movies or play video games. It was nice to talk to him again and it was nice to know that inside he still considers me his best friend.

I think i realized why i like brad so much too...he is a lot like me. He is the most like me out of all the boys...we were talking the other night and for some reason we just click, it is easy to talk to him because i know he is not judging me...that is the only ting about ryan,i fell like he doesnt approve of me sometimes, but i dont know why i feel like i need his approval either...'no one can make you fell inferior w/o your consent" i guess...

Anyway, i guess i should work on this paper for real now...

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:: 2005 27 November :: 11.42 pm

Alright, i have been neglecting my journals lately...the good news is that i have decided t write in woohu this evening.

this weekend was fun, a little stressful where my mother is concerned, but other than that awesome.

i hung ouut with my family for the first couple days, then my second family the last part of the weekend. i love davis fam...hung out with some drunkass davis boys last night...bad news bears HAHAHA.

I am running on next to no sleep, so i guess this entry is real short, but here is the quiz thing joe took...i thought it was fun...

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:: 2005 7 November :: 10.59 pm

I am sick.

My research project group has ostrasized me because i am the most unrelaible group member ever.

I had a test today that i think i failed.

I have a test, 2 papers, a lab and a presentation on wednesday, none of which i am ready for/ done with.

Brucio died and anne is sad, but all i can think of is my grandpa.

I am selfish.

I think about OTH all the time.

I bought DVD's instead of gas last week.

I love the davis family, and wish they were mine.

breathing is difficult.

My laundry is piling up.

Sleep is upon me.

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:: 2005 1 November :: 9.05 am

I am wasting my potential every day.

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:: 2005 28 October :: 12.02 pm

last night i hung out with aaron. it was really fun. HE came over and I made steak and rice, then he taught me how to play chess (because we have a chess set and i had never played). After i lost big time, we went to see Alfred and Seymore, the CAB comedians. They were REALLY funny, and my face hurt from laughing so much. then we rented Crash because it was on a list of 10 movies that aaron had to pick from to watch and write a paper on and amanda told me i had to see it. It was CRAZE. I seriously almost had a heart attact like 3 times...anyway, I had a really good time is the moral of my story.

JOE! I LOVE YOUR NEW ICON!!!

I love all you woohuers and i hope michelle is safe and having a good time in NY, Jason take care of her, or i will cut you...

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:: 2005 24 October :: 12.03 am

Same entry as Xanga...
Um, this weekend was, simply put, CRAZE.

Thursday i went to BR and brought some people together...danced a lot with a lot of randoms...and ended up sobering up enough to drive home at 3 am...Happy Birthday Annie!

Friday i went to brian, tim, and aarons...drank some beers, lost at pong, and got dsk home...

Saturday michelle was feelin down so i made her hang out with me. Sean (YAY), Eric Wo, and his friend Christin(sp?) came over and hung out with us for quite a while, then Michelle and i went to Krystals dorm and went and got food with her and sarah, then sat in her dorm and ate it while watching TV and reading gossip mags...ten i made michelle get her pjs and we picked up come movies...Watched hitch and fell asleep only to be awoken minutes later by Derek, who proceded to lay on michelle (after thinking i would bring a random home...as if!) and call us pussys for not drinking with him...i gave him the rest of a bottle of captain, and he went away...

Today 5 of us girls went to see Elizabethtown...at 11:20 am...random, craze and cute...reminded me a lot of Garden State...

PS

AliciaSpeak: nast, craze, whatev

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:: 2005 5 October :: 6.32 pm

Everything worked out woth the rent, after a little (ok a lot) of ALicia Bitching.

have to take kate the hospital for her fucked up knee...

one tree hill season 3 premiers tonight! WOOT!

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:: 2005 4 October :: 10.05 pm

I am doing anything to keep from working on this paper. So today i learned Juniors, whih was good but it was hard to keep myself from buying things...i think this might be a constant struggle for me. Anyway, The Centre is trying to screw us over...what else is new. I am just so stressed right now i want to scream. I actualy yelled at Jen, The Centre's manager. She wants to raise our rents to 390. I cant pay 390 and even if i could, we moved under the pretense that we were going to pay 350, so it SUCKS that they are pulling more sit like this. I am PISSED.

P.S. stefanie turned into a natalie recently, and that is why i dont like her anymore either. I would not be sad if i never saw either one of them ever again. P.S.

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:: 2005 3 October :: 11.55 pm

New apartment number: 17102. It is a townhouse, and I am much happier. I have now grown to hate our old roomies and am oh so glad our new ones are cool. Miss my original girls though...Love you amanda and michelle! Come visit our new place, kate and i are still not unpacked, but it is still awesome!

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:: 2005 25 September :: 1.27 pm

Wow...not sure where to start. I guess Friday is a good place. Anne came down and Michelle and amanda came over and i made us dinner, then the 4 of us went to Corpse Bride. It was fun. Then we dropped off the girls and anne and i went to Brian and Aarons and they came home with us and we drank margaritas and talked and it was fun too. It was just so awesome that anne came down here, it made everything more special.

Yesterday was my birthday and i totally spaced on getting my new license, not the smoothest thing i have ever done. Here are things i got for my birthday from my awesome friends...Bia, mike and jeeber each got me some captain....SWEET! Amanda made me a collage, and michelle made me some cds and got me some good smelling stuff, ricci got me balloons and brought me the strip club Pics...yay! It is weird cuz in colege i guess usually people dont get presents, but it just shows how quality my friends are...i love you guys!

Anyway, i bought a pony keg (it was so great that i was LEGAL) and we played beer pong (i lost both games) and there were some other card games too. Michelle was twasted on her wine and she went "muff diving" which was freakin hilarious i think. I donkey laughed too, and apparently it was the 1st time some people had ever heard it, which is a miracle, but i guess they have really been welcomed into my world now that they know one of my worst flaws...it is just wrong....anyway..

I am not allowed to complain about having to sleep alone for at least i little while, because i slept with 4 people in 2 nights. I am still not sure now that i see my bed again, how we got 4 people in it, but more power to us...

And finally, i want to thank Stefanie, kate, mandy, michelle, amanda, jeeber, andy, jeremy, bia, brian, aaron, eric wo, kristin, zach, danielle, ricci, rachel, and anyone else i have forgotten, for making my birthday so great!

Pics from summer and my party will be up soon, i will let you all know.

sorry if you guys feel cheated for having the same post as my xanga, but i love you all oh so much anyway!

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:: 2005 4 September :: 3.52 pm

OK, I think i am mostly caught up...I read the past entries and postedin soe of them, but them i was gettong so far back that i realized no one would read the comments i posted and that i would want to go back and see if anyone replied to my comments...etc.

so here are somethings i thought while i was reading said entries...

-when i said michelle and the 3 of us i meant michelle, as well as myself and the 2 people who's home we were visiting, yes it does equal four and yes i forgot to properly punctuate. I can count amanda, but i was typing fast...sue me.
-I love the song allison too, and brandon boyd is a very handsome man with a very nice voice.
-I watched that show prison break and i got totally sucked in. I watched it the night there were 2 episodes in a row and also that guy from the mariah carey videos is a better actor than i had expected.
-It is not as funny to see the dead hampster picture as it used to be.
-I want the strip club pictures...they are hilarious, i had forgotten that we had even done that. It seems like it was such a long time ago.

I also forgot to post about my new tattoo. It is right on my zyphoid process and it is a music note with the word "flawed" in the flag part.
I love it.

i heart you all, goodbye.

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:: 2005 4 September :: 1.38 am

last night was a very bad night. i drank....a lot, but not the most i have ever drank...then i proceeded to throw up all night and most of today because i had...you guessed it...alcohol poisoning. It was not very fun to say the least...I am feeling much better now.

tonight i went to Amanda and jeebers and michelle and the 3 of us went to the vid store and got Sahara....i like that movie a lot. We watced it on the digi p and it was so cool to have large screen and surround sound...props to the geek.

this is the exact thing i posted in xanga, but i just wanted everyone to know that i have not forgotten my woohu friends and i still heart you every day!

goodnight now, i need some rest.

goodbye

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:: 2005 30 August :: 1.23 pm

ok, so ididnt have the internet for a couple of days and ou guys are such fuckers that my entire friends page is completely filled with things i have not read...stop posting until i get caught up douchebags!

I heart you all, goodbye.

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:: 2005 26 August :: 10.17 am

I am "the cutting edge" as well(see jason's summary)....i guess that fits pretty well...last night was really fun, our walks were so good and i feel like I actually did something for once. Thanks for fun times guys!

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:: 2005 18 August :: 10.37 pm

here is my list of songs that will forever remind me of this summer:

Mr. Jones 7 a long december-Counting crows
the district sleeps alone tonight- The postal service
beverly hills-weezer
bennie and the jets7 goodbye yellow brick road- Elton John
somebody like you-Keith Urban
Dont look back in anger-oasis
the entire ray soundtrack
letters-Stroke 9
Mr brightside-the killers
cleanin out my closet-eminem
confessions pt 2-usher
get in my car50 cent
hollaback girl-gwen stefani
wild world-cat stevens

i know they are really randon, but they were either on the camp mix that played in the lodge all summer, or they had bad words and were therefor blasting in my car whenever i wasnt at camp. I am not gonna lie. i made a damn good mix for the lodge. those songs were on everyones brains and they learned to like em too...

I really miss chip....before this summer i would never have thought that would happen...i am starting to forget everything already...it makes me very sad...

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:: 2005 18 August :: 12.21 am

Wow, this summer was a mixture of tons of really shitty days and a few extra fantastic ones. There were some really awesome things that happened though, the most significant being that i strengthened some friendships that really got me through a summer from hell.

1.) Chip corwin (23) and I suffered through camp together, knowing that it wasnt supposed to be that way but also that we were the end of an era and from now on it probably will be like that, only no one will know how much it sucks. Our mutual dislike of our boss and his controling nature led us to spend almost all of our waking hours at camp in close proximity to one another. I think that if our ircumstances were different that he could be one of those guys in my life, but since he has a girlfriend, lives in another state, wants to leave the country and was my boss...there are many obstacles in the way, not to mention that he doesnt look at me the same way i see him. There were a couple times this summer though, when i looked into his eyes and I saw myself from his perspective...I never thought anyone would see me as anything other than average, but i know now that I am "A Star"...I miss that kid already and I hope he and Val have a great time in Europe.

2.) ryan davis (21) and I finally got back to Ryan and Alicia this summer. We talked and laughed and it felt so great to have my best friend back. mackenzie still hates me and both of them still blame the demise in our friendship on me, b ecause that is of course easiest, but the funny thing about it is that i dont really even miss being friends with her. I wish we could be in the same room without her giving me mean looks, but I think that will never happen. I dont want ryan as anything more than a friend and she should be secure enough in teir relationship after 8 years, besides the fact that is has always been her eyes that wandered. I wish being friends with ryan wasnt so hard, but i guess the best tings in life do require a certain amout of work, and i think he is worth the effort.

3.) brad davis (18) is a very interesting person. i have not figured out what the deal is, but i do like hanging out with him and i think that he has turned into a fine specimen. he has a tattoo, and long hair and a mystery that intrigues me. hopefully when he goes to college he will not turn into a tramp as he has full capability of doing.

4.) sean smith (19) and I bonded at camp quite a bit. He is fun and has restored my faith in the "nice guy". I felt as though it was effortless to be around him and we had a lot we could talk about. He is just a really great guy and I hope we will keep getting to know eachother this school year.

5.) Anne Lakies (20) is my girl and will be forever, we have been through a lot together and this summer's drama was no exception. she chews em up and spits em out, but i love her anyway.

6.) Eric Wo. (19) was her latest victim but because of her ( i suppose) he and I became closer this summer. At first it was because they would use me as an excuse to hang out without it being a "date" but then they would hang out to get the dirt on the other one, then when everything went to hell ( after some choice words spoken by a beligerent me) they hung out with me to forget the other. i guess the old alicia would have been pissed and for a while i was until i realized what I got out of it: 2 stronger friendships. Eric Wo. is such and amazing person and I feel soooo lucky that i know him.

I know i went off on abou t a thousand tangents and that no one but me will probably read the whole thing. I guess the most important thing to get out of this is; without my friends i would be nothing. So thanks to everyone who helps me get through the day. I love you. goodbye

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:: 2005 9 July :: 9.27 pm

oh man i miss you guys sooooo much. It has been a really good summer so far though. I have made new friends, gotten closer with the old ones and spent the entire last week with my crazy aunties....i love them.

Aaron called me to come to k-zoo this weekend, and just hearing his voice gave me a caniption. I hadnt even thought about him in weeks. I miss those crazy boys from 8301 too.

See you soon....call me...between 23 and 2400 if you want to talk.
HEart you all!

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:: 2005 21 May :: 3.58 pm

Posted new pics of our party last night....link is on my profile. it was sooooo fun, and i met some hot boys from downstairs and they were nice and we sang along to Willy Wonka together. i love meeting new people, and i love reminiscing witht the old ones.

going to visit Aaron and amanda tomarrow and Monday. It is nice that Kate and I can hang out again.

last night was weird but fun with people i didnt really see much this year. also I have to say that i love my roomies very much and I am glad we got all cute, cuz it gave me the boost i needed to seize the day.

i heart you all, check out the pics, they are great!

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:: 2005 4 May :: 12.20 am
:: Music: bright eyes

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