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:: 2003 30 January :: 1.35pm
:: Mood: sad/depressed

wow, i've never said that i was depressed before, but i almost feel that way right now...because of something my mother said to me i'm going to stay with my dad for at least a week and a half, and if she tries to stop me she will have to use physical force because nothing she says is going to make me feel better about these things that she says. Exactly what she said that made me decide to take my dad's advice and leave i am not going to discuss in this journal. I wont be online or checking mail or posting more entries for a while...i'll get to see my cats everyday and i'll get to live with someone who cares about my feelings so i should be happy. I guess the only reason i'm not is because i wish i could get alnog with my mother. I hear all the time about people who don't get along with their parents and tell me that its natural...i know they are just trying to help but the way in which i detest my mother is beyond just being a typical teenager. starting saturday afternoon, my home phone will be 330-0126

:: 2003 30 January :: 12.18pm

Yep, I'm bored and my homework is alread done...I wanna do something!! but what?...

:: 2003 29 January :: 7.16pm

just in time to ruin my day, i hate my life with her...

:: 2003 29 January :: 3.32pm

Today was good, hopefully my mom doesn't ruin it when she gets home. I'm gonna wear my weird shirt tommorrow, so anybody reading this: Don't be shocked..lol. I just realized how bad i'm gonna be when i start playing hockey again...i've practiced but i can't play for longer than an hour without my knee or foot hurting...i mean i'm 16, i shouldn't have a "bad knee" already. Maybe it still needs time. It's gonna very depressing if i start playing and can't be at the same level i always was at.
Stupid things i've done to make that a possibility:
-started a game with a 102.5 fever
-started a game with a sprained wrist
-continued a game for about 6 minutes after pulling a groin
-continued game after getting hit in throat with puck
-finished a game unknowlingly with a broken toe
-(biggest mistake ever)finished a game with a twisted knee and foot...yep that's right...both of my injuries that made me stop playing happened in the same game....

:: 2003 28 January :: 3.34pm

I have a much better day today, but then the second I get home my mother ruins it. It never ceases. She leaves work "sick" so she can be home when i get home to tell me that i can't use my computer past 6 because i was ungreatful to her during her super bowl party because i wanted to go to my dad's party and she wouldn't let me. I was looking foward to writing something good in here but i guess i just can't anymore...

:: 2003 27 January :: 3.31pm
:: Mood: The first part of this song basically describes my
:: Music: CSNY - Suite: Judy Blue Eyes

I had a terrible day today, i was still tired at 10, and by lunch i was starting to feel sick. I don't even remember what happened in 6th period today. I've realized lately that I'm only feeling good or having fun when I'm around friends, which isn't too often now that i have left IB...Back to that again...great. I don't have anything to care about either which is another bad feeling, and the only the thing I'm looking forward to in terms of any period of time is going to Sebring in March when i wont be around any friends which is strange. I'll try to stay on that topic, and i'll be happy. I hope the rest of these high school years go by quick, I don't have much reason to stay hear any longer, except for the few people that i'll miss, and i'm sure you all know who you are...

:: 2003 26 January :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: OWWW!!!!

i...hate...my...hallway...toe...in...mucho...pain...

:: 2003 26 January :: 10.28pm
:: Mood: fake happy? (if that makes sense)

tryin to be happy now that Tampa Bay won, even though i wish i was at my dad's, oh well. Congrats Tampa Bay, but don't think your gettin my love next year...GO MIAMI!

:: 2003 26 January :: 5.03pm
:: Mood: not good
:: Music: the joker

Has anyone seen that movie French Kiss? I love that movie so much and I don't really know why. It's a good movie but It's not like i'm into those love story things. Other than being able to watch that movie right now i feel like crap. Why? I have no idea. Maybe cause I have to stay at home all the time, and can't go to my dad's party cause it's not "his weekend". All that custody stuff is so stupid, my mom is gonna have a hard time when i'm gonna and she has nobody to push around. I should be happy, I mean I had fun last night but, whatever...

:: 2003 26 January :: 12.10am
:: Mood: tired

The party was alot of fun, saw alot of people and had a good time. kel got me to dance in front of people i dont know which is always hard to do, lol. I'm so tired so i'm gonna go to bed and get up early. bye!
TBOB

:: 2003 25 January :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: bored

yay, SATs round one is finished, now I gotta get ready for the party.

:: 2003 24 January :: 8.06pm
:: Mood: bored

being bored is terrible...i should do something...yea i'll look into that...doing stuff...ok

:: 2003 23 January :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: cold

actually it wasn't too bad, saw about 2 good bands and one great band, weren't that many as usual though. It was freezing and I was there alone so it wasn't as much fun as usual either but still not bad. Ok, now for the bad part: I have another cut on my middle finger of my left hand, for those of you who don't already know, this means no guitar til it heals or i can risk messing up my calus(sp?). That's really too bad since i was in the middle of learning a new song too...

:: 2003 23 January :: 6.30pm

im going to jazz on atlantic ave, possibly ill have fun, probably not...

:: 2003 22 January :: 4.46pm

I need more friends, I just "know" people...eh

:: 2003 21 January :: 4.37pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable

The fair was fun yesterday, went down with kelli, suki, molly, and megan, and met other people there. And of course i had to refuse on some of the rides that have made me throw up in the apst but i shouldve gone on anyway...after most people left will, alyssa, and I walked around the yesteryear village thing and watched some band play a very bad version of sweet home alabama. then while under 40 degrees we decided to go on mroe rides, smart, eh? so then i left got home around 9, overall it was lots of fun except getting smashed by megan and kel on the spinning thing, lol.

:: 2003 20 January :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: It's only rock n roll (But I Like It)

The fair was cool, i will post more about it tommorrow but if anyone wanted copies of the old time western photo thing of me kel and suk to email me and ill send it.

:: 2003 17 January :: 10.10pm

ok that icon needed some revision to complete the mr hall experience...

:: 2003 17 January :: 9.46pm
:: Music: rolling stones - sympathy for the devil

ive been listening to too much classic rock lately...anyhow this announcement will nto help it: KISS and Aerosmith will be touring later this year! I must go! This will be Aerosmith's 3 tour in 2 years, they need to slow down

:: 2003 16 January :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: White Snake - Here I Go Again

Yay! I'm going to the Scorpions/White Snake concert...80's rock rocks! Cheesy as 80's rock may be, it's still much fun at a concert from bands like these.

:: 2003 16 January :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Rush - La Villa Strangiato

Hope my new icon doesn't scare anybody...

5 don't really. | give a fuck

:: 2003 14 January :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Rush - Red Barchetta

thanks to kel i have been enlightened to the fact that we have monday off..thank you! So i'm gonna go to the fair rather than sit at home, call or email if you want to meet.

:: 2003 12 January :: 1.54pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Pink Floyd - one of my turnd

ahhh, i cant get the second part of this song out of my head, so maybe if i type the lyrics itll get out of mine and into somebody else. (No need to type the first part)

Run to the bedroom
In the suitcase on the left
You'll find my favorite axe.
Don't look so frightened
This is just a passing phase,
One of my bad days.

Would you like to watch TV?
Or get between the sheets?
Or contemplate the silent freeway...Would you like something to eat?

Would you like to learn to fly...would ya?
Would ya like to see me try?

Would you like to call the cops?
Do you think it's time i stopped?
Why are you running away?

:: 2003 10 January :: 4.04pm

YAY! I got my amp and it rocks! oh yea...I'm getting withdrawal symptoms, gotta go!

:: 2003 9 January :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: led zeppelin - misty mountain hop

Happy Birthday Jimmy Page!
As you all should know, it's Jimmy Page's birthday. He's 58 but he's still cool...anyhow, I still feel bad about leaving IB, don't get to talk to some of the people anymore that i really like to, and it gets depressing at times but i try not to think about it. I still get to talk to some of the people that i really enjoy talking with and ill have one more friend when my new amp gets here tommorrow (i know im a dork, lol). Go Lemmings...

:: 2003 7 January :: 6.57pm

ahh new schedule is not to my liking. Even though the classes were harder, i was around people i could talk to, friends i guess...now the only classes that ill really be able to enjoy are US history and english. what is even worse is that i already know two people who have been talking about me leaving IB behind my back, like they don;t want to talk me to me or something, its no big deal i guess, i wont have to deal with anyone that i know at atlantic when im done high school...

:: 2003 6 January :: 9.12am
:: Mood: indifferent

one more day left before school starts and i really don't feel like going back. Everything is gonna be so different...

:: 2003 4 January :: 4.51pm
:: Mood: happy

OHIOH STATE WON! I'm so happy, and for anyone that watched the game you'll know why I almost passed out during the overtime drives...great game, and great Ohio win! Now if only the Jets can find a way to lose right now...

:: 2003 3 January :: 4.01pm
:: Music: Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody

feeling better today, got that stuff mostly off my mind. Looking foward to the Miami v. Ohio State championship game tonight. Go OHIO!

:: 2003 2 January :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: sad

get to go out and have a little fun in an ordinary boring day then i come home only to be sad again, just like i was yesterday. I can't keep what is makin me feel bad off of my mind and nobody to talk to about it.