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2004 24 June :: 1.00pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: jamisonparker - your song
Tonight I'd rather be in love
rather it was you flowing through my blood
scraping through my veins my everything
and you cling to every thread
that clings to me
I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love
I couldn't call you if I wanted
my fingers couldn't work if they tried
they're so sore from keeping crossed
and tracing over cuts on my worthless arms
if I said "I hated the feeling" it would be a lie
I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love
I live in notes and photographs
and everything I'm holding back
but you're the words that weren't enough
you remind me of a song I used to love
you remind me of a song I used to love
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2004 21 June :: 10.52am
You are very depressed and sullen.You think no one
truly cares about you and you don't truly care
about yourself.Me and you should get together
sometime and kill each other.Would that even
work?
Are You A Depressed Person?
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"With this knife Ill cut out the part of
me,that part that cares for you,With this knife
ill cut out the heart of me that heart that
cares for you."
What lyrics best suit you?
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2004 20 June :: 12.41pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Jamisonparker - Anthem For The Broken Hearted
| statement | percentile | | I think life is overrated.
| 96.5% | | I lack self acceptance.
| 94% | | I am a bit of a snob when it comes to my artistic tastes.
| 89.5% | | I am better looking than most people.
| 4.5% | | I love food.
| 2% | | I am smarter than most people.
| 0% | Take Free Percentile Test
INFP
loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, quitter, lonely, rule breaker, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, no self confidence, emotionally moody, feels defective, fails to complete work on time, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, feels shame, continually losing things, sad, dreams about a rescuer, disorderly, observer, easily distracted, does not like crowds, acts without thinking, private, uncomfortable around others, familiar with the darkside, hermit, pro-weed, sabotages self, likes the rain, can't control fearful thoughts, cries easily, prone to regret, attracted to the counter culture, submissive, easily discouraged, constantly second guesses self, not punctual, not prepared, feels victimized, easily confused, irresponsible, pessimistic
Enneagram Test Results | Type 1 | Perfectionism | |||||||||||| | 50% | | Type 2 | Helpfulness | |||||||||||||| | 60% | | Type 3 | Image Awareness | |||||||||| | 33% | | Type 4 | Sensitivity | |||||||||||||||||||| | 86% | | Type 5 | Detachment | |||||||||||||||||| | 80% | | Type 6 | Anxiety | |||||||||||||||||| | 80% | | Type 7 | Adventurousness | |||||||||| | 33% | | Type 8 | Aggressiveness | |||||||||| | 40% | | Type 9 | Calmness | |||||| | 23% | Your Conscious-Surface type is 4w5 Your Unconscious-Overall type is 5w4 | Take Free Enneagram Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.com
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2004 19 June :: 12.44pm
You are EMO!
You are the thinker. You are always quiet, sad and
you always look for other peoples
understanding. You listen to groups like Last
Days Of April and Radio Dept.
What genre are you? BY: NUKITE AND KHA0TICA
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thescreamoamigo: do you think i like being single or something?
CG2988: no
thescreamoamigo: its not my fault girls don't like me, god fucked up
CG2988: lol
CG2988: wtf is wrong with u
CG2988: dont answer
thescreamoamigo: many things
CG2988: i said dont answer
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2004 18 June :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: Hawthorne Heights - Wake Up Call
not going to be home til sunday. call if you need me or something.
i really like this girl, but i don't know if she likes me.
I've been waiting for so long
To hold you in my arms
Embrace forever my sweet girl
WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP! WAKE UP!
hey tough guy its over...just tell me its ok to die.
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2004 17 June :: 8.48pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: You And I - Silent Mourning Whisper
You are an Official Emo-Kid! Congratulations! Would
you like a tissue? Sniff..Sniff?
>>Your True Music Image<<(punkrocker? thug? diva-licious,emo-kid,Metal head,indie rocker?)
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| about you | | what is your name?: | Eric Michielutti Flores | | age?: | 16 | | hair color?: | black | | personal | | are you single?: | yes | | what is your oppisites name?: | ? | | are you a virgin?: | yes | | favorites | | person to hang out with?: | jack | | movie?: | high fidelity or say anything | | song?: | i like too many | | band?: | see above | | the last | | person you kissed?: | claire | | song you herd?: | hawthorne heights - life on standby | | person you talked to?: | ray | | do you | | have any piercings?: | no | | drive?: | yes | | have any pets?: | no | | dispise any thing?: | most things in life | | while with your significant other | | where do you hang oout?: | keri | | do u cuddle?: | we did | | have u kissed?: | yes | | does he/she say i love you?: | .... | | do u think they mean it?: | no | | love them?: | yes | | any last words?: | midnight skies turn scarlet red |
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| bLaH bLaH | | Name: | Eric Michielutti Flores | | Age: | 16 | | Hair: | black | | Eyes: | blue | | Height: | 5'4" | | Weight: | 138 lbs | | Style: | mine? | | Shoe Size: | 8 1/2 | | Birthday: | 24 November 1987 | | Grade: | 11th | | School: | de la salle collegiate high school | | Family | | Mom and dad?: | yes | | Names?: | enrique and teri | | Sibling(s)?: | yes | | How many?: | 1 | | Name(s): | sean | | Pet(s): | none | | How many: | n/a | | Name(s): | n/a | | Favorite Aunt: | ? | | Favorite Uncle: | ? | | Favorite Cousin on Dad's side: | ? | | Favorite Cousin on mom's side: | ? | | Favorite sibling: | no | | Favorite parent: | no | | Favorite Grandparent on mom's side: | no | | Favorite grandparent on dad's side: | no | | Love and Stuff | | Crush/Bf/Gf: | none | | Their Name: | n/a | | Their Age: | n/a | | Height: | n/a | | Hair: | n/a | | Eyes: | n/a | | Shoe Size: | n/a | | Style: | n/a | | Best personality trait: | n/a | | Best appearance trait: | n/a | | Fav type of music: | n/a | | This or that | | Pepsi/Coke: | coke | | Sprite/7up: | 7 up | | Mountain Dew/7up: | don't know | | Movies/TV: | movies | | MSN/AOL: | msn | | Cheese/Pepperoni Pizza: | cheese | | Girls/Guys: | girls | | Babies/Kids: | fine with either, long as they don't throw up on me | | Mom/Dad: | no | | Brother/Sister: | no | | Pink/Red: | red | | Blue/Green: | blue | | Purple/Pink: | pink | | Yellow/Orange: | orange | | Green/Yellow: | yellow | | Red/Green: | red | | Christmas/Easter: | christmas | | Easter/Thanksgiving: | thanksgiving | | Have you ever | | Bungee jumped: | no | | Sky dived: | no | | Skinny dipped: | no | | Made out with someon: | no | | Had sex with someone: | no | | Punched someone in the face: | yes | | Punched someone in the stomach: | no | | Canned a guy (girls): | no | | Snapped a girls bra: | no | | Water skiied: | yes | | Water Tubed: | yes | | Jumped out of a motor boat while it's zooming along: | yes | | Been hit on the bare stomach with a ping pong ball?: | yes | | Been hit on the bare stomach with a ping pong ball racket?: | yes | | In the last 24 Hours have you | | Cried: | no | | Laughed: | no | | Hugged someone: | no | | Kissed someone: | no | | Made out with someone: | no | | Had sex with someone: | no | | Watched a movie: | yes | | Watched TV: | yes | | Listened to music: | yes | | Talked to someone on IM: | yes | | Talked to someone on the phone: | yes | | Hung out with friends: | no | | Hung out with family: | no | | Took a trip: | no | | Finishing Up | | This is the end aren't you happy?: | sure | | What's that supposed to mean?: | what the hell do you think dipshit | | Jeez do you hate me or something?: | probably | | Well good cuz I hate you too!!: | fine with me | | But you really don't hate me...you know you loovvee me!: | hell no | | Come on dude..look at this sexy face *kIsSy LiPs*: | leave | | Hehe this rules eh?: | no | | I love bugging the crap out of ppl: | ok | | I do a good job hey?: | go away | | Okay that's all!! :D: | *kills self* |
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| Basics | | Name: | Eric | | Nickname(s): | the screamo amigo, flo, flonase | | What do you wish your name was?: | i don't care | | Are you going to change your name?: | probably not | | Siblings: | 1 | | Parents' jobs: | teacher and enginer | | Appearance | | Natural hair colour: | black | | Hair colour now: | blacker | | Natural eye colour: | blue | | Contacts/glasses?: | yes | | Height: | 5'4" | | Weight: | 138 lbs | | Clothes size: | pants - 32x32, shirts - youth large or adult small | | Shoe size: | 8 1/2 | | Piercings: | none | | Tattoos: | none | | Sex | | Are you a virgin?: | yes | | Age when you lost your virginity: | n/a | | Sex partners so far: | none | | Favourite position: | none | | Least favourite position: | none | | Opinion on fuckbuddies: | ? | | Do you have a fuckbuddy?: | no | | Did you ever?: | no | | Are you going to?: | no | | Do you like porn?: | no | | Places | | Country you're in now: | USA | | Country you want to be in now: | England | | Countries you've been in before: | Canada | | Countries you want to visit: | Ireland | | Favourites | | Colour: | blue | | Flower: | don't have one | | Gemstone: | don't have one | | Pet: | n/a | | Animal: | n/a | | Bird: | n/a | | Alcoholic drink: | vodka straight | | Non-alcoholic drink: | water | | Food: | pizza | | Book: | A Farewell To Arms - Ernert Hemingway | | Movie: | Say Anything... or High-Fidelity | | Person, and why?: | probably jack, because its jack | | Actor: | john cusack | | Actress: | kiera knightley | | 5 bands: | brand new, a static lullaby, hawthorne heights, .hopesfall., saetia | | Swear word: | fuck, shit | | Either/or | | Cherry coke or vanilla coke: | cherry coke | | Vodka or tequila: | vodka | | Drunk or stoned: | drunk | | Alcohol or drugs: | alcohol | | Hyper or chilled out: | chilled out | | Party or nightclub: | party | | Club or pub: | pub | | Happy or sad: | sad |
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2004 16 June :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: the police - every little thing she does is magic
so i was talking to one of my friends today. he's telling me how he loves this girl so much and stuff like that. i ask how long he's been dating her and he tells me less than a week. now someone needs to explain to me how he just meets this girl and as soon as they start dating, they love each other. so i ask him, "if she was in a car crash and was horribly multilated or paralyzed, would you still love her and want to be with her? or would you say something like its not going to work out and move on?" i didn't get a straight answer. so i continue on "so tell me what it means to love her." his answer was that he "really really liked her a lot." so now it would seem that liking someone would mean you love them? i really need to get up to date on these things. i probably sound like an asshole.
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2004 16 June :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: My Morning Radio - If We Should Part...
i had to go into work early this morning. morning shift sucks. old people, workers and such. really a boring, gloomy atmosphere. my mom is taking my brother shopping for some new clothes and she asked me if i need anything. so i'll probably go, there are a few articles i could use. new ties, new sports coat, maybe a new pair of jeans, a few shirts and maybe a pair of shorts or so. oh and some socks maybe. i have my own style that i mix with other things. my style is mine and pat tries to copy it completely. he even tries to be me. it is not cool at all. i need food so i'm going to subway.
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2004 16 June :: 1.08pm
"I'm tired of psycho girls, I'm tired of girls that have never gotten over their ex, and I'm tired of lesbians. So if you are any of those, never talk to me again." - Andy
you rock andy. um...yeah, same for me.
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2004 15 June :: 10.19am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: You And I - Silent Mourning Whisper
i'm sitting here alone in my house, trying to think of something smart or witty to say to start this entry. and i have thought of none. cross-country in about a month. i've started training already. i got a version of pro tools yesterday. now if i can just figure out how the hell to use it. confusing program. i shaved yesterday for the first time in 2 weeks. face feels weird now. went to the mall with jeff and ray. i don't like malls, but they dragged me there. saw keri there. that was cool. but ray being himself and whenever i see someone i know he gets this look like we have to go. so then we see someone he knows and we have to stop and talk for like 20 minutes. asshole. i still hate malls or any type of shopping center. funny how girls will hit on your friends and your standing right next to them but you don't seem to exist at all. i'm used to it now so it doesn't bother me anymore. uploaded some new pictures.
http://www.picturetrail.com/falloutboy26
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2004 13 June :: 11.13pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: dashboard confessional - so long so long
drove to algonac yesterday alone. watched some fireworks from my car alone. drove back listening to some good songs.
corey and i trying to figure out life
CG2988: ah what the fuck do i care im not tryin to impress anyone
thescreamoamigo: i used to...but i gave up.
thescreamoamigo: doesn't matter anyway.
thescreamoamigo: see...you can always get a new girl.
thescreamoamigo: i can't.
CG2988: doesnt matter tho if u dont want any other girl
CG2988: does nothing for me i only want her
CG2988: i wish i wasnt so fucking stubborn
thescreamoamigo: i still want her too....i hate life.
CG2988: if i never do get back together with her im having a new rule no matter wat i break up with the girl after 1 month or sooner
thescreamoamigo: it sucks.
CG2988: yea but i dont see why what has she ever done for u?
CG2988: seems like shes ripped ur heart out twice
CG2988: lol who am i to talk
CG2988: shes done it to me 4 times
thescreamoamigo: should have learned the 1st or 2nd time...like me.
CG2988: i know and still wish for a 5th kowing that with each time it only hurts even more
thescreamoamigo: we should write a fucking book.
CG2988: wat would the title be
thescreamoamigo: life sucks...you die...the end
CG2988: no how bout wat the fuck happend
thescreamoamigo: no.
CG2988: ok :'(
thescreamoamigo: so long so long
CG2988: ?
thescreamoamigo: how about that for the title?
CG2988: nahhh
CG2988: u believe in love?
thescreamoamigo: not anymore.
CG2988: it depends on how this turns out fer me
CG2988: we dont get back otgether i wont believe in love
CG2988: its just a stupid human emotion that holds you back anyways it just makes you happy at the moment
thescreamoamigo: its a primal emotion
CG2988: we're the only ones that have it like no animals love they just hump and have kids and then go fuck some more
thescreamoamigo: we grab out for someone to help us be less alone, to help us through things.
CG2988: yea ur right
thescreamoamigo: correct. someone fucked up along the way of evolution.
CG2988: lol
CG2988: yea y cant we just be satisfied with sex and no more
CG2988: well nvm
CG2988: most peopl are lol
thescreamoamigo: i don't even care about sex at all.
CG2988: either do i thats wat i was saying before your computer got fucked up
CG2988: but i think im gonna go back to bein that way cuz its so much easier, won't be happy but i wont get hurt either
thescreamoamigo: yeah.
thescreamoamigo: but i'll probably be stuck being single for probably most of my natural life.
thescreamoamigo: someone told me to wait for the right girl, i told them she doesn't exist.
thescreamoamigo: i need sleep or something.
CG2988: i cant sleep
CG2988: when i do i have nightmares
CG2988: pathetic rnt i? lol
thescreamoamigo: lol, no. i didn't sleep for like a week.
thescreamoamigo: or eat.
thescreamoamigo: i lost 15 lbs.
CG2988: no food tastes good to me right now
thescreamoamigo: pizza.
thescreamoamigo: you can't not like pizza.
CG2988: no i like pizza just not right now
thescreamoamigo: i'll come make you lasagna then.
CG2988: don't want lasagna
CG2988: if i did id make it myself
thescreamoamigo: sadden eric.
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2004 13 June :: 7.13pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: dashboard confessional - so long so long
so long so long
heres my song for the summer. going to be great to listen to on a warm summer night. summer is offical now for me.
Hand out the window
Floatin’ on air
Just a flip of the wrist
I’d be wavin’ you goodbye
Head past the lifeguard stand
Where I sit around waiting for you to remember
Drive past the beach hotels
Where the girls are getting’ bronzed on their monogrammed towels
I drive this ocean road
And I remember
How the girls could turn to ghosts before your eyes
And the very dreams that led to them are keeping them from dying
And how the grace with which she walked into your life
will stay with you in your steps, stay pace with you a while
So long, so long
The speaker in this door is blown
So nothing sounds quite right
And I drive this ocean road
And I remember
The small of your back
And the nape of your neck
And the soft way you’d hold me in the night
I remember
How the girls can turn to ghosts before your eyes
And the very dreams that led to them are keeping them from dying
And how the grace with which she walked into your life
Will follow you in your steps stay pace with you a while
So long, so long, so long, so long
And I will leave under the cover
Of summer’s kiss upon the sky
Like the storm face of your lover
Just before she says goodbye
I was thinkin' that the season could be held between my arms
But just as summer’s hold is fleeting
I was here but now I’m gone
I’m gone
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2004 10 June :: 11.19pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: the police - every breath you take
updated after me and keri went over this.
wanted: hot emo/indie girl by not so good looking emo/indie boy. must have good taste in music and clothes. being scene or sXe is good too. should like john cusack movies. must have good grammar. if not, then just no, you lose. (or i do, one of the two) living in the macomb area is good or within basic driving range for a 16 year old.
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2004 8 June :: 9.06pm
In Memoriam - Ronald W. Reagan
1911-2004
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2004 7 June :: 6.39pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: glassjaw - Cosmopolitan Blood Loss
"One question -- are you here because you need someone, or because you need me?"
-John Cusack, Say Anything...
"I gave her my heart...and she gave me a pen..." John Cusack, Say Anything...
took two exams today. earth science and english. not too bad. ray came over and we studied for like 2 hours for spanish. i feel asleep and i woke up to ray trying to smother me with a pillow. i have to fix the sprinkler system today. i keep telling my parents "you know, you do have another son."
oh well, back to work.
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2004 7 June :: 7.16am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: keepsake - sweet white lies
first day of exams. i actually studied a bit. i don't really care either. have to drive to school now.
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2004 6 June :: 1.49pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: billy joel - she's got a way
Times New Roman is your bag. You are proper, have
good grammar and may occasionally use
Italics...
Your font is..
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Bother by Stone Sour. headbanging and hard rock is
all you need to survive. wat are u doing
online? go practice your guitar!
What's Your Theme Song?
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2004 5 June :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: the early november - fluxy
wanted: hot emo/indie girl by no so good looking emo/indie boy. must have good taste in music and clothes. being scene or sXe is good too. should like john cusack movies. must like me for who am i. living in the macomb area is good or within basic driving range for a 16 year old. thats is all.
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2004 5 June :: 9.58am
i don't know if i am going to update this journal anymore...nick has left, so the only reason i have stayed is for eric but i think he wants nothing to do with me...
what a waste of $2...
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2004 5 July :: 9.23am
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: Anatomy Of A Ghost - Distress In The Control Tower
sore today. did my six miles. foot and shoulder really hurt. beat up pat again today. god I hate him. so someone asked me today what my definition of love was. simple answer, love doesn't exist/I don't believe in it(take your pick). people clinging onto nothing, trying not to be alone. heres a fun fact, they will be alone. kinda like what jesse lacey wrote in I Will Play My Game Beneath The Spin Light "Collect calls to home, to tell them that I realize that everyone who lives will someday die and die alone." Truer lines never written. Call me a cynic, I don't care. I've become a big fan of Ernest Hemingway. Just read "A Farewell To Arms" That is quite possibly the best book I have ever read and it is one of my favorites. Well, so much for my failed attempt to seem like an intellectual. I just wish I had someone who cared about me, and I know that no one does. It doesn't really matter anyway. I've got two years left here in the States til Europe. As my brother said "So many people are trying soo hard to come here and you can't wait to leave and move to England." What can I say, I'm just fed up with pretty much everything here. Going to Oxford, I'll probably end up teaching English or History after that. Ha, can you see me as one of those English professors? kinda weird, but I can. I don't have anything keeping me here in the States. I don't plan on marrying or anything like that after I get over there. With my luck, I'll probably die a virgin. I hope no one takes this as me whining about my fucked life, I'm not. I'm stating my plans and things that will most likely happen to me. This is Eric signing off.
Goodbye and Goodnight.
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2004 3 June :: 9.47pm
eric -
i'm sorry for whatever i have done wrong.
whatever it was i didn't mean to.
please forgive me.
...katy
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2004 2 June :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: matchbook romance - if all else fails
sports thing tonight. didn't get my letter. some freshmen got it instead of me and dave, i think something went wrong there. jumped at a meet today. 15 feet. i suck. i usually get 17-18 feet. oh well. i'm going to miss the seniors. keith, rob, jeff, nick, bryan, and andrew. i love you guys, wish we had another year together. good luck at college and hopefully you all continue running.
wish i didn't cry when i wrote that.
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2004 1 June :: 7.12am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: from autumn to ashes - milligram smile
track meet in detroit today, i'll probably get shot. didn't do any of my religion, i don't care if she bitches at me. i need to drive to school fast.
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2004 31 May :: 6.20pm
:: Mood: falling asleep
:: Music: elliott smith - needle in the hay
its going to storm, i have my cameras ready. i have religion tomorrow. pointless fucking class. only 2 days left of it though. elliott smith is a god, whoever killed him should be tourtured and then burn in hell forever. my friend is telling me i should just get a girlfriend. thats damn near impossible because i can barely get girls to look at me (spare the hot waitress a b-dubs)
but yea, jack will win the bet. who wants to loan me $10?
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