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2004 18 February :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: shy
:: Music: get up kids- overdue
crushes, thoughts, my world as it was today
*sigh* i know. alright i truly hate beign invisible. at least invisible to the people that i want to see me. maybe my expectations are to high? i dont know, maybe someone could tell me if thats so. i walk around in a blur, a sort of dream.
i hate feelings that overwhelm you and wont go away until they make you do something irrational. or you just die inside because the feelings there so long.
im just thinking out loud.
i have a big crush on someone, only the completely oblivous doesnt know who, and it makes me smile.
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2004 18 February :: 11.33am
:: Mood: liked
:: Music: typing
alright so i got in a huge fight ,kinda, with bob so i now am not using his computer for some reason....anyway
today was interesting so far. still not that weird around andrew which is good.tarek got ketchup on his knee which made me giggle profusely.
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2004 18 February :: 10.19am
:: Mood: mellow.
:: Music: ...
"um...youre kind of in the wrong lane."
haha. i said that ^ to lenny yesterday in the car. she was like..."oh i didnt know there were seperate lanes." or something like that. it was really funny but you probably had to be there. we were so its funny to us.
yesterday after school was the highlight of my day. went to the mall w/ lenny and ernie. it was some good cle time. i bought a ren and stimpy pin and one that says "yer straight trippin boo." makes me more complete.
we went by and saw my adam working. it was cute. he was so suprised. it made me feel all bubbly inside.
interims today...two b's. one in chemistry -a damn 89- and in yearbook. haha thats sad...in yearbook of all classes. oh, well. wish i cared. :). the rest were a's so i dont have to do much to bring my grades up. hopefully they dont go down...
mo mou's party this weekend. woot woot. party time.
i want to go to the lacrosse game on saturday too. maybe ill go see the end of it or something.
i learn skank. neat-o.
my love to all the boys.
that is all.
xoxo.
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2004 17 February :: 6.43pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: at the drive in- mannequin republic
cheese and rice
today is my dads birthday..... hes 42 wow!! ehh neways i just got home from iguana mia, i had chicken quisidillas, they were yummy!! and i saw my good friend Brian Thaggard there... it was his b-day too!!, i havent seen him since 8th grade(he went to ft. myers:(..)...
neways..besides that, me and zack are ok now, we have settled things.. and i think me and teddy bear are ok! i htink, sometimes i wonder with him.
this weekend ashlie is probaly gonna spend the night again, we are gonna go to the parade with phil and r e l.
R e l is really cool, and really short, i think me and her are gonna be good friends so thats cool...
hmmmm..not much more to say, today was ok, i guess nothing interesting really happened, i went to sleep when i got home, then i had to wake up and i didnt want to , i was stilkl sleepy, im gonna go to bed early tonite!!
ok thats all for my exciting life today bye everyone!! :)
~~~~~~~~~~~stef~~~~~~~~~~
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2004 17 February :: 11.28am
:: Mood: fun
:: Music: the crunch of the cheezit
no more boyfriend
i broke up with andrew today.YAY i havent been single in a long time. its not that i didnt love him, i still do but i havent been unattatched for a long time. now if only i could get some boys....to have fun with. lala
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2004 17 February :: 10.16am
this day needs to be over.
that is all.
xoxo.
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daisymae
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2004 16 February :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: hopeless
:: Music: reel big fish-where have you been
say you love me love me again but if you love me where have you been?
say you need me more then anyone else,well go to hell
where have you been?
i feel hopeless, my world spins out into something i can't even grasp. i read all these books and i wish so much to be in one. i look up from reading and i feel like this cant be my life. ergh. i love you guys for today though, pizza hut rocked my socks
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2004 16 February :: 6.29pm
ok wow what a weekend, it was indeed very eventful!!
um first of all im not going to go into detail about my weekend caus ethat would take alot of time and typing to do, and i might get bitched at for writnig somethings, so im just gonna say that it was a very good weekend and i had alot of fun...
everyone seriously needs toget a life, im soooo tired of everyone minding everyones elese business, it s bullshit. i dont see how ppl can start saying things about ashli, when none of the ppl that are saying stuff were even there at all this weekend.
zack read the really long comment that i left in your journal cause that explains alot!! i dont no exactly what has happened between us. we used to be really good friends but lately you have been really depressing and its depressing being around you, i try to help and all you do is shrug your head and tell me nothing is wrong, so i just gave up, what am i suposed to do seriously. im tired of caring about people, (not just you) who lie to me and talk about me behind my back or ar efake or dont tell the truth. its BS!! and im tire dof getting hurt.
and just to let all of you opinionated people who like to stick up for ppl who normally you wouldent give the time of day to. I dont want any of your comments in my journal that say im mean or a bitch or balh blah blha becaus ehtis is MY journal and i have the right to say whatever i want to in it>> dont I? so dont waste your time reading it if you dont want to hear it.............
anyway, now that i got that out of the way.
what ever you guys seem to think happened between ashlie and tyler, isnt even your business anyway, at all, and nothing even happened anyway, i read acomment somewhere in someones journal that was calling her a slut and saying she gave him a bj well that is bs.
i was there the whole time and all they did was makeout and she had a hicki from him,,,so dont all you go and have a kiniption fit now over that....ok ok..good....
and i dont see why everyone thinks that me and ashlie being friends is a bad thing, ??? i mean wtf, i understand what she is going through and i have been there. we get along really well and i can tell that if i need her she will be there for me and vic verse..
to be honest the only other person i have ever had like her was stephanie kirkwood. guys just cant do the justice as a best friend for me, i really really dont mean to offend anyone by saying that but it is true, guys just dont understand girls and vice versa.
i have hung out with guys for the past like 2 and a half years and i have been fucked over so many times bye them, i never have with girls that are best friends, so basically im tired of that.ok!!! geeze
ahhhh i cant even explain it, there is seriously no point at all , cause right when im happy with everyone, someone starts hating me again or there is another fight there is no point at all in explaining my self because in the end someone isnt happy, well i dont care if that is how its gonna be.
im content with being by myself, or being with my family, or being with the true friends that i have if that is how its gonna be..
or maybe everything is getting blown way out of proportion and everything will still be ok with everyone like it was before, i hope so......... i have nothing elese to say so im gonna go. im just hoping for the best :)
~~~stef~~~
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2004 16 February :: 2.15pm
:: Mood: very happy
:: Music: korn...somebodys someone
..thuis weekend was exciting i spent the night at ashlies house friday night and we went to the movies then i wentt o a wedding on saturday and i was the "photographer" it was fun,,,,kinda, then ashlie came over and she has been here al weekend......umm yah ashlie and phil are here right now so im gonna go intertain them or somthing,,ill write later when everyones gone about our exciting weekend,,,,,bi
~~~stef~~~
zack whats wrong.......
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2004 16 February :: 10.06am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: something mexican on bob 's radio
okay i must make this fast as to not distrub the large bob man...so lenny im scared, but i love u so be better.
beach today i clap
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2004 15 February :: 9.17pm
:: Mood: scared.
:: Music: something corporate-leaving through the window.
the words i know. the feelings that dont show.
looks like ive fallen from my cloud.
thats just the way it goes.
she walks right by. her eyes facing down.
her lips frozen to a permanent frown.
eyes holding nothing more than a blank gaze.
a dream she has of feeling her mother's praise.
shes lost. she has no path to travel.
shes watching her entire life unravel.
a stanger on the street would know nothing of her past.
knowing all her hardships would be impossible to grasp.
a way to be happy. a way to fix life's despair.
so there would be no others experiencing this blank stare.
she covers all the wounds w/ a laugh and a smile.
shes knows everythings going to be okay. it just might take a while.
this girl, she always tries to run away.
but she wishes for nothing more than to find a place to stay.
shes trying to make no more mistakes,
shes trying not to be someone fake.
shes trying to find a way to change.
no longer wanting to be someone strange.
so, this girl. the one w/ the lost stare.
know that shes trying. she knows that lifes never fair.
shes only trying to keep this away.
hoping tomorrow will bring a brighter day.
xoxo.
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2004 15 February :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: reel big fish
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tonight was amazing, i love the smell of greek food wafting through the air, cleaning up others people's flaming cheese. actually wasn't that bad, i smell like greek ppl though, so refreshing
i <3 andrew, sorry i havent shown it lately
beach tommorow? and people STOP COMMENTING IN MY JOURANL AS ANYNOMOUS im sick of deleting mean comments. sorry im done now
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2004 15 February :: 9.20am
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: Less then jake- shes gonna break soon
oh hot diggity. my life is a bubble you poke it i smack you. this morning has been the best journal...comment....it was a good morning becaouse of peoples comments. you make me sad i punch the living hell out of you.
HAPPY SUNDAY
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2004 14 February :: 11.09pm
im in an emo mood right now, i doubt anyone truly wants to read this but hey..
i want to feel my heart pounding when i see you
i want to not sit and wonder 'what if'
i dont want to regret every choice i make, or dont make
i want a world where every gets what they deserve
i want to be noticed
i want to be the girl you read about who walks into a room and everyone looks at her, not just because shes beautiful, but because she has a vibe about her that makes everyone feel
i want to live in a world where people don't judge
i dont want to judge
i want my friends to be happy
everything seems so out of control sometimes that i dont see how the world can continue on its course. i dont see how people can go about their daily lifes when i know inside their crying and screaming to say how they really feel? i mean imagine a world where everyone just wore their heart on their sleaves. i just wish so much, and i want so much....and i dont deserve it, i know but that doesnt change the fact that i want it
emily
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2004 14 February :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: soggy, sad, pissed off
findings of tonight:
1. im more together then i thought
2. im more confused about everything
3. PB is a pot smoking asshole
4. lenny is great
yes so the rain reflects my mood as it always does, this valentines day sucked which shouldnt have been a surprise because its me and my whole world consists of nothing but shitty days compiled together to make a great suckfest. lenny was there tonight so it made everything more bearable.
linsey you are the best person i know and you deserve so much. i love you more then anything and i want you to get nothing but good things for the rest of your life. you deserve the best boys, best friends, and the most attention. i love you lenile.
'people say to not regret anything because it all makes you who you are today, but what if you don't like who you are?'
-forever confused-
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