I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark. And all the friends that I was telling. And all the playful misspellings. And every bite I gave you left a mark. Tiny vessels oozed into your neck, and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.

 

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joeydomina

:: 2006 13 July :: 2.08pm

I have a job offer from one of the coolest places in the world......

GUITAR CENTER!!!!!!!

i'm supposed to go and talk to the manager about it tomorrow. its not even an interview its a straightup offer skipping the interview process.... yay

2 kids | you worry too much


bleedingsun

:: 2006 13 July :: 10.50am
:: Music: the mars volta

They will walk among us.

This seems too crazy to be true.

Read more..

1 kid | you worry too much


stinko

:: 2006 13 July :: 12.03am

not working is pretty much great
until you realize that there is such a thing as too much free time.
hmm.
part of me wants school to start, but then i remember that i have hard ass classes and i will probably have to work a lot.
i don't really know. next year should be an improvement over last, not that last was bad, but there is definately room for it.
at least karen benzer isn't on my ass every second of every day. it is nice simply not going home anymore.

8 kids | you worry too much


box

:: 2006 12 July :: 8.23pm

hahaha Yea thats right.. im badass like that





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you worry too much


allyson

:: 2006 12 July :: 12.13pm

Wedding and now..
I can't believe how much has happened since I last wrote. My grandpa L died on the 21st of February.. It needed to happen. It was a relief that he finally made it. He was so sick all the time. Then.. my other grandpa died one week before my wedding. One week before. Totally unexpected. They found out he had pancreaitis and I guess it burst causing all the stuff inside to spill out. It effected all of his organs and they basically had him knocked out and on life support for three days when finally he gave up.

On to good news, Jared and I got married on the 27th of May. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect day. Jared could have. It was about 85 degrees and sunny as hell. He was in two maybe even three layers of a tux. THrere was some drama with christy finding out that she wasn't the maid of honor and my best friend who flew up from arizona was. But she ended up showing up. Anyways, we picked morgan up friday and went to help set up for our reception and then was the rehersal which.. everyone was late for pretty much. Then dinner after that. what fun.. haha. I was upset at how dumb jared's mom can be when it comes to morgan. It's like she could not allow her to be with my parents or something. There was an open seat next to them but she had to squeeze in a chair next to her which happened to be at the corner edge of the table where I was sitting. HOw ridiculous. Anyways, we left that and I got my nails done and we went to lansing to pick kaleea up at the airport. we got back home at like 11 and guess what.?!?! Our cat was in labor. She was bleeding all over our room all day. It really wasn't that bad though. there was just a cuople spots that were relatively easy to clean. She finally had them by 8 in the morning the next day. We got woke up at six that morning though because jared's mom was going tot he hospital and for some reason they couldn't drop morgan off at my parents house they had to have jared drive all the way to belding to drop her off five miles away from their house and him drive all the way back. I was pissed. It's not like we can relive that day over again... It sucked. Just like our reception. No one even paid attentiont o us or even my brother when he gave his awesome toast. They all just kept right on talking. Anyways...

Sunday we were late dropping Kaleea off at the airport she had about 15 minutes to make it through everything but she made it so that was good. then... when jessica came to pick up morgan she had to bitch at us for like ten minutes about no seeing her all weekend and blah blah blah her crying and being dramatic of course. So that was my crazy weekend.

We left monday for our honeymoon. It took us two days to get there and we staying in Manhatten haha.. kansas. We thought that was funny. we video taped pretty much the whole way down and while we were there. It was fun and beautiful. I miss it. THe animals the sunrises and sunsets. Amazing. I wish I was there right now. While we were there it was really hot like.. over 100 degrees hot. we went up to the mountains on those days. We went all the way to cottonwood pass. There was still snow up there. The air was so thin that I was dizzy and had a headache the whole time we climbed around. We also went up to the castle again and had a picnic on Lake San Isabel. We also went to the pueblo zoo! It was so much fun. We went to the colorado city pool although we didn't go swimming because it was so confusing on where to go. Let's see we ate out at fazolis and a really good place called black eyed pea and also maxes. We left on a sunday because we planned on moving out of the house in rockford as soon as we got back. We started packing the following day. We got most of our stuff out with out idiot lance suspecting a thing. Then he realized what was going on and there were some arguments and basically he kciked us out and I told him we'd see him in court then. So that was that and now I'm babysitting for my brother and living with my parents.. .with jared of course.

Bad news. I have high grade cells in my cervix.. and they are progressing. I have to get a colposcopy or whatever and decide what to do with those cells and how to remove them.

you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 12 July :: 10.31am

wow i cant believe that close to hearing it...... wow

you worry too much


sugarjackj

:: 2006 11 July :: 9.54pm

It's in Life...


IF





2 kids | you worry too much


rayray

:: 2006 11 July :: 8.24am
:: Mood: *awake*
:: Music: *jolene - mindy smith*

*the sun rises as i sleep, but i watch it intently as it starts to peek*
Lately my emotions have been more in the blah state. I have no reason not to be happy. However I don't have any particular reason to express my happiness. Well, no new reasons anyway. I think it may have to do with being a female. Oh well. I'm working on not being as insecure. It's taking longer than I want it to. But obviously you can't rush a feeling like that away. It just doesn't disappear. As much as I wish it did, I will have to deal. I think I'm still in shock that this is my longest relationship and I haven't tried to run away from it. There are moments where I piss him off intentionally just to test him. I'm really surprised that he's still with me and still wants to be with me, after all the shit that has gone on in the last 8+ months. I'm getting used to this whole 'mom' thing. Slowly. I'm still unsure of a few things. And it'd probably be easier, a lot easier if she were younger. Also, it'd probably be easier if she were mine. But I guess I'll have to deal with that as well. Then again, I'm trying not to get too attached, because you never know what may happen. As happy as we are, things could be over just like that.

Anyway.. I hate being up early. It makes my day feel even more pointless. More time to sit on my ass and think about what to do. More time to stress about finances. Not having a job. More time to spend thinking about things that 'normal' people don't think about. To clean an apartment that I despise. I need a hobby. I started a puzzle. I seemed to have lost interest in it. Most likely because there are a few edge pieces missing, I get bored easily, and I think I have A.D.D.. I'm reading a book, but I only read when I'm in the tub, because it's the only place I seem to be able to focus enough to actually comprehend what is going on in the book. It's sad really.

My eyes burn when I wear my glasses and I'm more tired. My eyes burn when I wear my contacts. There seems to be no happy medium. And its like the worst feeling in the world. It feels like someone is taking grains of salt/sand and rubbing them across my eyes.

My hatred towards Courtney has grown these past few days. I don't know why I get so pissed. If he wanted to be with her like she claims he does, then he'd obviously be with her instead of me. But clearly he's not. She's like mom in a way. Once things are going great and there's a friendly atmosphere, she fucks it all up. This whole situation reminds me of the song Jolene.

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, Jolene

He talks about you in his sleep
And there's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, Jolene

But I can easily understand
How you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

You could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
He's the only one for me, Jolene
I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can
Jolene, Jolene

Sadly this is what my life consists of. Fighting her off, watching music videios and finding songs to fit my mood.

14 kids | you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 10 July :: 8.13am

Today is 10 months for Jess and I. It only seems like yesterday I got to spend time with her for the first time. I can't believe it.

Joey

4 kids | you worry too much


stinko

:: 2006 8 July :: 2.01pm

i haven't been pissed in about a week. that is a strange thing to have happen. i haven't even cried.
this is so strange.

maybe i changed the way i deal with stuff.
i don't really know. but i hope i stay this way.

2 kids | you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 7 July :: 4.45pm

how funny is this





QuizGalaxy!
'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

you worry too much


fishyrere

:: 2006 7 July :: 2.48pm

Odd Facts about ME
DO YOU SNORE?:Nope
LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:both
WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?:divorce
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?:heck yes... still am
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?:sucks
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:yeah
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:of course
HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:not all that bad
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:black
DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:yes
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:i wish
ANY SECRET TALENTS?:haha. any talents at all? not really
WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:europe
HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?:not yet
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?:sure have
DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?:not really
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?:a lot
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:no
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:yeah
ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?:not on old men at the beach
WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:gotta do whatcha gotta do
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:i hope so
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:not really
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:dust
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU":last night to Ben
IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?:no comment
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?:I did at me sisters
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:depends on my mood
ARE BLONDES DUMB?:NO. i resent that
WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?:the cat has it
WHAT TIME IS IT?:2:43
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?:yeah my friends call me Re
IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?:yup
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?:about a half hour ago
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?:showers
IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?:no
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?:sometimes
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?:caffine
CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?:crunchy
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?:yes
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?:one
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?:heck yes
ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?:yup
HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?:no
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?:greenish
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:a few days ago
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?:sure
WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?:mine
ARE YOU PSYCHIC?:no
HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?:yes
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?:not yet
CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?:i can try
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?:depends on who i'm with
DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?:no
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?:no
IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?:yes
YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?:I believe it happens but shouldn't unless certin cases
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?:no
DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?:i don't have one
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?:french fries
DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?:no
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:kind of
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?:all of them
DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?:no
FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?:Mae and The Postal Service
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What can i say? i was bored.

~Re~

2 kids | you worry too much


snowman

:: 2006 7 July :: 12.47pm





QuizGalaxy!
'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2 kids | you worry too much


sugarjackj

:: 2006 7 July :: 12.08pm

You suck.

you worry too much


bleedingsun

:: 2006 6 July :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: ATDI

Crepitating as I type

I made 65 dollars today.

My whole body is sore, especially my hands. I was standing in a hollow, empty church, hammering the wall for seven hours. Dust was thick in the air as chunks of plaster flew by me, into my mouth and hair.

I'm going to bed now.

you worry too much


fishyrere

:: 2006 6 July :: 12.25pm

Well hello.
I had fun. The fourth of July was fun. I indeed loved spending time with everyone who was there. It was nice to be able to do something besides work. I got home and my mom was pretty ticked though. And the funny thing was I really didn't care. I woke up and was sore from football. My arm hurts a lot from when Katie tackled me but I'm good. Even though I am horrible at football I still liked playing.

Last night I talked to Emma on the phone until forever and that was awesome too. She knows how to listen and I found myself telling her things that I can hardly admit to myself. It was sort of refreshing to get some things off my chest. Yeah.

~Re~

1 kid | you worry too much


sugarjackj

:: 2006 5 July :: 10.51pm



I know something happend.

I'm just trying to figure out what.


:s


2 kids | you worry too much


rayray

:: 2006 5 July :: 6.01pm

Yesterday Mike and I moved the rest of his stuff in.
My apartment is finally starting to look right..
My living room actually looks like a living room, its not bare anymore.. Still don't have a couch though.
And I've been doing a lot of cleaning.
My fish keep dying.
I clean the tank and they die one by one..
It's retarded..
And right now I am talking to Mike the guy from Tech/Petosky..
It's weird.. haha

you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 5 July :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: irritated

I second Sydney with the one word.

FUCK

2 kids | you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 4 July :: 5.01am

It's to late. I should get some sleep but that involves going to bed or else i just pass out right here. i dunno i have my choices.

Joey

you worry too much


tuwang

:: 2006 4 July :: 2.23am





QuizGalaxy!
'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

3 kids | you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 4 July :: 1.56am

well i've been trying to get the sound of superman songs from superman returns and yeah its not working to well. kinda upsetting me a bit. oh well. what else. oh happy 4th of july, if anyone's going to sand lake let me know. i'll be there. where i'm not sure but i'll be there. great to see ya'll talk to you later. peace out. JOey

you worry too much


rayray

:: 2006 3 July :: 10.00pm

People really piss me off. Especially those who know you're right but won't admit it so they insist on starting a fight. It's completely fucking retarded. And she's a total CUNT!. Yes, Im not afraid to say it. And I know most of you hate the word. But it best describes this person.

2 kids | you worry too much


liz

:: 2006 3 July :: 12.01am

ggggrrrr at you
*rubs ear and smiles because the world is an okay place to be even if it sucks really bad right now*

you worry too much


sugarjackj

:: 2006 2 July :: 10.17pm


Jacqulyn --

[adjective]:

Extremely extreme!



'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com


Its funny because of our "SUPER EXTREME GLOW BOWLING!!!!!"

3 kids | you worry too much


rayray

:: 2006 2 July :: 8.08pm

Some of you know, that I have incredibly screwed up dreams.. Well last night was a series of them. None of them had to do with each other either. Anyway.. The one that was the strangest, was Tony killed himself in downtown GR, and ended up being Mike's brother. And we tried to save him by using cheese to absorb some of the blood. However, it didn't work. And when we got back to my apartment, Jessa, Marty and Clem were here with like 6 other people having a party celebrating Jessa and Marty working through their marital problems. And when I told Jessa about Marty, it didn't seem to affect her. But when I came back from telling everyone else, she was in the corner selling girl scout cookies.

Not sure what the whole dream meant.. but whatever.

2 kids | you worry too much


empath

:: 2006 2 July :: 2.44pm
:: Music: Snow Patrol-Set Fire to the Third Bar

Everything is alright. My life is on track, but I still have fun once in a while. I believe that I have grown a lot in the past 6 months. I guess I'm pleased with myself.


I miss my Dustin.

you worry too much


jayzulla

:: 2006 30 June :: 6.01am

Day off today...yay!

Thinking about going to the Sand Lake Fair thingy. If anyone else wanted to give me a call. 915-8445.

1 kid | you worry too much


joeydomina

:: 2006 30 June :: 2.40am

The second time is just as good as the first..... to bad there were douche's who watched it too. damn them for being a douche. oh well. hehe thanks for going guys. great to have someone who actually calls to include me in things. thanks again.

Joey

2 kids | you worry too much


tails

:: 2006 30 June :: 2.00am
:: Music: snow patrol

sex lies, and video tapes stream.
Tired of dreaming.
But too tired to wake.

its getting real fucking old...

4 kids | you worry too much

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