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allyson

:: 2009 21 March :: 11.51pm

FOR SALE
2001 Dodge Grand Caravan SE

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alastar

:: 2009 21 March :: 2.45am

If time heals all wounds, maybe I need a stronger dose. Fill that second-hand syringe and leave me comatose.

I know this is not what I chose, but what else do you propose?

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Alastar

:: 2009 15 March :: 12.50am

Pretentious and Trite Reasoning for a Tattoo

Everything is connected. Our actions have effects that we cannot conceive. We are gears in a machine, but we do not know how this machine is put together. If we did, or if we could look at the schematics, we could see every possible course that our energy output could take. We would see the end result, and we would know before we acted what the exact consequences would be. However, we don't have that capability. We may be able see this on a smaller scale, but we can never have the whole picture. Too many other gears are constantly interfering, ones of which we are completely unaware. Communication is key. If we could all work together coherently and efficiently, the possibilities would be endless. We are all parts in this machine and our actions decide the outcome and the product it generates. Synchronization. Collaboration.

The gear would be a symbol of the realization that my actions have effects on everything around me. It would serve as a reminder to question more thoroughly the things I do before I do them. It would keep me aware of a larger universe than just the one I inhabit in my mind.

My ideas are a result of the culture in which I was brought up. They are a product of all the information I've ever taken in. The gear is a symbol for the continuity of time. This is the reason for the twelve cogs, representing a clock. The past controls the present controls the future controls the limitless possibilities of time.

The endless circular motion represents the cycle that every atom on the planet is a part of. It is a realization of death as not the end, but as just another turn of the gear. Renewal.

The inner gear with ridges pointing inward symbolizes the fact that though I realize I am part of a larger entity, I cannot forget about my self. I cannot forgo completely my own goals, feelings, needs. I must weigh the two against each other and make my decisions.

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alastar

:: 2009 14 March :: 11.40am

An alter ego

They call me a mason, because I make you shit bricks
I'm known as an illness, cuz my rhymes are fucking sick
I am a magician, the way I make you turn tricks
I'm like a narcotic and you gotta get your fix

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skife

:: 2009 13 March :: 5.50pm

dad found a massacred HP laptop in the trash, only thing savable was this

Read more..

:D

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skife

:: 2009 13 March :: 5.50pm

dad found a massacred HP laptop in the trash, only thing savable was this

Read more..

:D

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alastar

:: 2009 11 March :: 2.40am

Thanatopsis

My favorite poem. I want this read at my funeral.

Read more..

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tuwang

:: 2009 11 March :: 1.51pm

http://www.guardian.co.uk/business/2009/mar/10/moodys-insolvency-list


"Satellite developer Intelsat and the Krispy Kreme Doughnut Corporation are other well-known names on the list."



no.... anyone but krispy kreme!! Fuck GM's financial aid plan... give that shit to Krispy Kreme!!

My theory:

If GM goes insolvent, thousands of people will lose jobs.

But given that we move the aid to Krispy Kreme, doughnut prices decrease at record pace and all the unemployed are too distracted by delicious glazed doughnuts to worry about how they're going to feed their kids (they could just feed them doughnuts as well, but that's unhealthy. This is where McDonald's comes in...) and live for the rest of their lives!

Edit:

"Sectors least represented in the Bottom Rung group include natural products, forest products, healthcare, metals and mining"


I feel like I could have told that health care may still be one of the more highly desired items in case of economic meltdown, but who am I...

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rayray

:: 2009 9 March :: 7.17pm

So I just read like 300 and some of my passed entries.
And I can't believe how lame they all are.
I wish I could just turn my mind off sometimes..

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rayray

:: 2009 8 March :: 1.40pm

I don't even know where to begin..

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rayray

:: 2009 7 March :: 2.03pm

I really wish that the drama would just stay as far away from me as it could.
I absolutely hate it.
I hate it when people say anything that involves my boyfriend cheating on me.
Especially when we are barely apart, and he really doesn't have time to cheat.
It literally makes me sick to my stomach when someone says those words.
I instantly get tears in my eyes, and my stomach gets knotted up and I can't swallow.
It doesn't happen because I feel like I can't trust him.
And even though I know I can trust him, it still gets my mind thinking, well can I really trust him, how faithful is he, has he done it before, who is it..
It happens because I care so fucking much about him, and the thought of it eats me up inside, because I already don't feel good enough for him.
The thought of losing him kills me inside and I feel like my whole world is crashing and burning right before my eyes and there is nothing I can do about it.

I swear I go through this atleast 5 times a year, at minimum.
Where someone says he is cheating, or that he made a move on them, or something that involves him and another girl.

People fucking suck.
And they are lucky I'm not completely crazy.

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rayray

:: 2009 6 March :: 2.29pm

I hate when my friends are all unhappy and their worlds are all falling apart.
The selfish part of me hates it, because it makes me reflect on my life.
The unselfish part of me hates it, because I hate watching my friends go through all that crap.

The only unhappy thing I have to look back on right now, is the fact that I have had a migraine for 2 almost 3 days now, and nothing is relieving the pain.
That and my cat is a bitch. I love her, I really do, but she needs a new home.

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rayray

:: 2009 2 March :: 6.10pm

I have an interview on Wednesday at 4 pm.
An office position at Town and Country Title Services.
Its 40 hours a week too! :)
Now I must find something to wear..

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skife

:: 2009 2 March :: 1.46am

here i am, sitting in the hospital right now.

my grandpa butch just had a heart attack.

his right cornary artary is fully clogged.

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rayray

:: 2009 27 February :: 10.46am

Needs a washer and electric dryer..
Badly.
It's been like 6 months that I have gone without. Can't do the laundromat thing anymore.

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